Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

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I helped this old guy load something into the back of his pickup and he looked at me and went "Thanks, honey. :] "

"You're welcome... ._o "
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I know "clean" ecstasy is relatively safe but all it takes is human error for things to go wrong, does it not? There's been a rash of ecstasy related deaths here as of late because some jackass screwed up when preparing the pills. I've thought about trying it but I don't think I'd want to take that risk; stupid people are always ruining things. I don't really like stimulants any way, I can't even stand a caffeine buzz, so I'd rather stick with marijuana. I have a really low tolerance so it's more than enough for me. I think I'll try LSD some time in the future though, but only if it's with someone I trust and I'm confident that their connect is clean.
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@ Dianeva: Oh right, my bad. I didn't know how to spot a dealer either until I started going with my cousin when he picked up from his. You could try heading out on 4/20 though, it'll be incredibly easy to get your hands on some bud then. I plan on heading over to Vancouver this 4/20 , maybe we'll run into each other. :0

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I helped this old guy load something into the back of his pickup and he looked at me and went "Thanks, honey. :] "

"You're welcome... ._o "

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I know "clean" ecstasy is relatively safe but all it takes is human error for things to go wrong, does it not? There's been a rash of ecstasy related deaths here as of late because some jackass screwed up when preparing the pills. I've thought about trying it but I don't think I'd want to take that risk; stupid people are always ruining things. I don't really like stimulants any way, I can't even stand a caffeine buzz, so I'd rather stick with marijuana. I have a really low tolerance so it's more than enough for me. I think I'll try LSD some time in the future though, but only if it's with someone I trust and I'm confident that their connect is clean.

Real ecstasy is always safe, provided you don't be incredibly stupid about it (move around constantly in a humid environment and never drink any liquids on a high dose). The issue here is that most "ecstasy" is not actually ecstasy, the chemical MDMA. Pill related deaths are nearly always because they're not actually ecstasy or because they're something non-ecstasy mixed with ecstasy that... well, does not mix. If you get totally clean MDMA (in powder form, not even caffeine or anything like in most pills) it's actually incredibly relaxing and stoning. There's a good deal of energy to it but it's more like a high than speed-like energy. If I had to classify it into any other type of drug really it would be psychedelics, just without so much of a trip. It actually makes a lot of sense if you think about it, it releases serotonin and psychedelics activate serotonin receptors.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I know "clean" ecstasy is relatively safe but all it takes is human error for things to go wrong, does it not? There's been a rash of ecstasy related deaths here as of late because some jackass screwed up when preparing the pills. I've thought about trying it but I don't think I'd want to take that risk; stupid people are always ruining things. I don't really like stimulants any way, I can't even stand a caffeine buzz, so I'd rather stick with marijuana. I have a really low tolerance so it's more than enough for me. I think I'll try LSD some time in the future though, but only if it's with someone I trust and I'm confident that their connect is clean.

There is a pillreports (dotcomlol) website which people test the pills and report on.
You can find all the good, clean ones going around at any time.

It's also not really a stimulant if it's pure.

And major WTF at the truck guy lol

EDIT: Sniped....

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Fixed.

I'm just messing with you Labrynt! Hope you don't take it the wrong way.


I used to wonder about that, but just recently he made a post where he said he likes to use language creatively, and that when he wants to he can make perfect sense - and he proceeded to do so!

So, there may be some translation difficulties, but I suspect for the most part he's just being poetic/artistic for creativity's sake. It can infuse his posts with lots of extra meanings (most of them leading nowhere, like most turnings you take in a labyrinth/maze). And sometimes, if you're able to read through the tangled surface, there's depth and meaning hidden in there. it's just hard to see it.

Aspberger's?

Ugh my laptop is still gone. I'm using my iPod D:
I miss you guys :<
I feel guilty for something I did yesterday, and I have a horrible guilt complex so this will last forever >_>
and my braces are killing me, it's not really aching but the things that's hurting is the bands on my molars, they're sharp and I have a lot of little canker sores on the inside of my mouth and cuts on my tongue because it feel like knives stabbing my mouth. It hurts to talk, Swallow, spit, move my mouth etc.
And it's already hard to eat with this god forbidden bite plate.
Oh well, I got some antiseptic mouth wash or whatever for mouth sores and I'm using s lot o the wax the orthodontist gave me xD this is such a pain hahaha

Originally Posted by tommo

Personally, I leave my cat's weed alone and she leaves mine alone
Except she did tip over a plant I was growing once....
So I got her back by trying some of hers.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I helped this old guy load something into the back of his pickup and he looked at me and went "Thanks, honey. :] "

Originally Posted by labyrint

[Strange post]

rofl x 3

Originally Posted by GavinGill

@ Dianeva: Oh right, my bad. I didn't know how to spot a dealer either until I started going with my cousin when he picked up from his. You could try heading out on 4/20 though, it'll be incredibly easy to get your hands on some bud then. I plan on heading over to Vancouver this 4/20 , maybe we'll run into each other. :0

Well my brother comes back in March (unless he plans to stay longer) and I'm sure he could get me some, so I won't have to wait until then. But it's still a long wait considering I feel like doing it now.
And I highly doubt we'll run into each other, unless we planned it.

Woah this thread moves so bloody fast I can't keep up. Everyone just has to be more happy please!!!

Dianeva it just makes me so happy hearing that you at least feel a tiny bit better. I hope you keep letting DV be a source of happiness

Thank you, such friendliness is rare and unexpected and makes me feel even better.

Yes, I don't think this thread usually moves that quickly. A couple hours ago it was like a party in here. Or a rave, I should say.

Spoiler for .:

I realized it's better to be humble in almost everything I do. There's no point expression my opinions to others, the only thing it does do is portray foolish pride, it doesn't get anything done, it only creates more bickering, which fades away the primal objective that was trying to be reached in a social agreement.

But as we all know, just because people take the time to get philosophical or serious on matters that are too complicated to discuss, it doesn't mean it'll be solved. The only thing it does is just see what the other person thinks, but what they think is just a waste of speculation on your part. People's way of life, it isn't worth it trying to be in other people's shoes, getting a feel of the pain they're going through? Just makes you cognizant that other people are dealing with shit, but does it make you any better? I don't understand this. The deeper I get into diving into consciousness through dreaming, the more I think the reality that we're in is just so small and insignificant.

These brief feelings of emotions that we express to everyone, it feels like a waste of time, especially when it all comes down to finding a true awakening. It's like being trapped inside a machine, and being conformed to it's inherited tendencies. It's sickening.

Each time I try to ignore this way of thinking, I always go back to it because it feels comfortable just not worrying about other people's lives (and by that, I don't mean satisfying their intentions, just not giving a shit about most of them anyway), the only thing I can see from this is giving a sadistic uplifting that my life isn't so bad. This world honestly feels like shit, it just sucks. Instant gratification every single day....and even if we were to revert to mixing delayed gratification, we would still be bored.

It feels better to live in your own world, even if it breeds ignorance. At least people won't get in your way, and if they do try to invade your mind, you just won't take things seriously, and find yourself at peace, no matter the odds. People take death so seriously, but it's really a luxury now. To just see shit you'll have to cope with until your mortality fades away....

Things would be better if one realizes that no matter how much you try to express your opinions or actions, it isn't going to cause a huge mental shift in the world overall.

It doesn't make you any smarter, better, etc. to other random people. It's just like breathing air, it's not exclusive, so that means that it isn't going to be a concern for the well-being of a large population if anyone can "act" logically.

there is a problem with too much humblinesh also and reasons / needs for pride. But not to pride without humility. For now this seems the only important eqlibrium to maintain

I'll just live in my own world instead of responding to that in blind rage that would just make me regret doing so in the first place.

Rage must first be tamed to used rightfully.. pride is not about rage even though it comes from same source: tyranny, chains and pain. Pride is thing of selfdignity that comes when you dare to follow your heart no matter what the world may tell. Rage is thing that is set loose if nothing changed but pain remains

EDIT: for some the analogies of sexual, religious and other minorities can open the term pride... what i'm talking here goes way deeper without blaming that those surface levels are any less worth of pride

*smoking catnip*

I wish weed still worked.

Ugh.... stupid,, stupid Referred Pain. The backache and loss of appetite was a warning of things to come. I took a nap from 8:30-10:30 and I woke up because my "back" was killing me. Then I realized it's not my back at all. I'm having a full-fledged gallbladder attack. WTF?! It's at a constant 7 with spikes into the 9's and 10's. I guess my body didn't appreciate the 2 Chimi's I've been eating every day as my breakfast. My body never revolted over them before so I figured they were a "safe" food. I guess I thought wrong.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Ugh.... stupid,, stupid Referred Pain. The backache and loss of appetite was a warning of things to come. I took a nap from 8:30-10:30 and I woke up because my "back" was killing me. Then I realized it's not my back at all. I'm having a full-fledged gallbladder attack. WTF?! It's at a constant 7 with spikes into the 9's and 10's. I guess my body didn't appreciate the 2 Chimi's I've been eating every day as my breakfast. My body never revolted over them before so I figured they were a "safe" food. I guess I thought wrong.

That sounds terrible!

Oh, I've finally figured it out!
Labyrint lives so completely in it's own world that the 7 line sig restriction simply did not apply to it.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

*smoking catnip*

I wish weed still worked.

Why doesn't weed work for you?

Originally Posted by khh

Why doesn't weed work for you?

I developed too much anxiety. For me weed now is basically a hallucinogenic panic attack. Though, it's been about half a year since the last time I took even a hit, and my anxiety has gotten a LOT better in that time, but it's still there to some degree and I don't want to unearth it again.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I developed too much anxiety. For me weed now is basically a hallucinogenic panic attack. Though, it's been about half a year since the last time I took even a hit, and my anxiety has gotten a LOT better in that time, but it's still there to some degree and I don't want to unearth it again.

Oh, that sucks.

Alright, I need to make a conscious effort to not talk about drugs now. >:T Whenever I think about them too much I get worked into this state of mind I'm at right now where I'm not really depressed at all but only because I spend my time thinking about all the different ways I can successfully temporarily escape my problems, so really it's not even remotely healthier than the depression itself. I'd rather take the regular depression, at least it'll give me some motivation. So... no more drug talk for me!

/rant

Sorry Aly, but I need your expertise just one last time.
How long does it take hydro's to kick in? I took 1/4 of of Clonazepam at 7PM. (not related to this)
My gallbladder pain became so bad that I called hubby for a hydro (can't recall the dosage but it's not the highest).
I've taken 2 Ibuprophen's, a Laxative and the hydro. I've taken 2 hot showers and I'm still in pain (which has finally migrated to where it's SUPPOSED to be hurting ). The ER is NOT an option (our Dr.'s tend to kill people according to hubby)
I'm thinking about taking a Valium so I can sleep through the pain if possible. But I really don't WANT to kill myself. But at this point in time, I don't really care so I can't trust my judgement.

Hydrocodone should take half an hour to an hour to kick in based on your stomach content and metabolism and various other individual qualities. That really sucks that you're in pain. But not knowing anything about your tolerance to these different drugs, I really can't say in good conscious that you should take that Valium. Two different benzos and an opiate will create a synergistic level of respiratory depression. At these doses this combination is probably safe, but I really still can't recommend it, especially considering that your plan is to use it to get to sleep which will lower respiration and heart rate even more. Is there nothing else that you could try to help you get to sleep? Melatonin or something?

Thanks for putting up with me. And I understand your concern and position.
It's impossible to sleep any other way when the pain is this severe. Laying down seems to make it worse. My blodd pressure is currently 150/98 but my pulse is only 69 (my pulse is never that low lol)
I've been breathing through the pain which helps but not THAT much.
I'm about to start crying. I can handle controlled pain. I cannot handle constant pain.