Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Would like to start my post by saying that I am fully accepting of a DV orgy. Just putting it out there (he, he.)

Zhaylin - There aren't really many spiders about so it's just super mysterious.

Been watching the curling. Am super nervous about the final. We're against Canada right now. Don't think we're gonna win because Canada are on fire this year (in all sports too!) but, I can hope right? C'MON GB!!!

Definitely declining that offer!

I've been so ill ever since Saturday. I did go to a doctor and he gave me some meds but it still hasn't got better.
Having a sore throat, stuffed nose and a headache is so annoying.

My dream recall has been terrible for the past few weeks. But I woke up 6 times this morning and I recalled 6 vivid dreams.
Ria appeared in all of them. So I woke up really happy but when I was watching tv in the afternoon, I felt so terrible. I really wish I could just go back
and live in my dreams forever. That would be absolutely amazing.

Originally Posted by Athylus

Besides that I get the feeling that she is kind of playing games with all of those twitter messages... it's an excessive amount and she seems to love attention. Tread with caution. Other than that, good luck!

Yeah, my friends think the exact same thing. Two months ago she told me stuff like:
"This guy bought me flowers"
"Some guy tried to kiss me last night when I was out, but I didn't let him though"
"What do you think about that? Are you okay?"

I told some of my friends about this, and they all seem to think that she's just messing with my head.
I just never believed them because I just don't see what's for her to gain if she would actually do that to me?
And she's always really nice to me so I'm still kinda convinced that she really likes me.

I wanted to invite some friends to come over tonight and get drunk with me. But I'm pretty sure they all have better things to do.
So I might aswell just get drunk by myself. That's the only thing that helps me forget about things. But I just don't get why I feel so depressed the morning after
I gotten really drunk. :/ Is that weird like just getting drunk by yourself? Because according to my friend it is.
And I do it quite often during the weekends actually.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I wanted to invite some friends to come over tonight and get drunk with me. But I'm pretty sure they all have better things to do.
So I might aswell just get drunk by myself. That's the only thing that helps me forget about things. But I just don't get why I feel so depressed the morning after
I gotten really drunk. :/ Is that weird like just getting drunk by yourself? Because according to my friend it is.
And I do it quite often during the weekends actually.

sounds to me like you're already depressed, and then you drink (alcohol is a barbiturate, meaning it depresses your central nervous system) by yourself. which usually means you're not doing it for fun, you're self medicating. when you wake up the next day you're probably a little hungover, extra sensitive to things because you were so numb the night before, and all those emotions you suppressed come back and bite you in the ass.

This is just the advice of a concerned citizen, but I would go talk to a doctor about your depression bro. if you feel you need medication to take the edge off, alcohol is among the worst things you could turn to. take it from someone who has been a hardcore addict, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I wanted to invite some friends to come over tonight and get drunk with me. But I'm pretty sure they all have better things to do.
So I might aswell just get drunk by myself. That's the only thing that helps me forget about things. But I just don't get why I feel so depressed the morning after
I gotten really drunk. :/ Is that weird like just getting drunk by yourself? Because according to my friend it is.
And I do it quite often during the weekends actually.

Better things to do than get drunk? You're talking nonsense, good man; invite those friends over.

Or, enjoy a drink yourself. I'll probably be mildly drunk by the time I finish this... I just bought a case of a local brew. It's an 11.8% belgian-style imperial stout, and it's the darkest beer I've ever seen... jet black. Plus, it's served in 1 pint, 9.4 oz bottles. I'm halfway through the first bottle and am already quite buzzed.

To top it off, it just started raining and thundering. Perfect for going to sleep. My only rant for this post is that this beer cost me a few hours of sleep. The brewery doesn't open till 12 in the afternoon, and I'm usually asleep by that point. Ah well, it was worth it.

But back on topic, I don't really think it's bad to have a few drinks on your own, so long as you enjoy it. I drink by myself almost 90% of the time. Granted, I never [intentionally] get drunk. But I don't really like getting drunk, period--regardless whether I'm by myself or in company. But I especially don't like getting drunk outside of my home, since I refuse to drive if I've had more than two "drinks."

But back off-topic, I would like to take back my "slightly buzzed" statement and replace it with "very buzzed." Hell, legally-speaking, I'm probably drunk. I'm certainly unfit to drink. Bah, I'm such a lightweight. But this stuff is delicious. Definitely not something I want to drink on a regular basis though (it's a bit too much for me).

Did someone say something about an orgy? My sixth sense is tingling....

My rant is... I'm all out of DMT. Life isn't fair.

Last trip was nice though.... Surprisingly sexy for the dose.

Hello peeps.

DMT is the only "drug" I'm still interested in trying. Actually, I wouldn't mind trying acid as well. But at 24-years-old, I'm already out of the loop. I grow my own cannabis and never go to parties anymore. So I'm "off the grid" in terms of illegal drugs, I suppose.

Originally Posted by sefalik

But back on topic, I don't really think it's bad to have a few drinks on your own, so long as you enjoy it.

to add to your sentiment sefalik...and this may be a little extreme but...I kind of liken alcohol to LSD in the sense that if you are not in a stable mood or in the right environment BEFORE you consume it, the chances of it causing more harm than good are much greater. its just a much more chronic problem with alcohol. but if you drink a few beers occasionally to catch that warm fuzzy feeling, or even if you get royally fucked up with your friends once in a while, as long as its not becoming something you depend on then you're doing just fine.

Originally Posted by sefalik

I'm certainly unfit to drink.

I just noticed this and chuckled. I'm certainly NOT unfit to drink. That was supposed to say, "...unfit to drive," though I'm guessing you guys figured it out.

Actually, I'm am unfit to drink. Screw it, I'm going to bed...

Originally Posted by sefalik

DMT is the only "drug" I'm still interested in trying. Actually, I wouldn't mind trying acid as well. But at 24-years-old, I'm already out of the loop. I grow my own cannabis and never go to parties anymore. So I'm "off the grid" in terms of illegal drugs, I suppose.

DMT can actually be obtained fairly easily without having to through any sort of grid business if you know what you're doing. LSD is a little bit different of a story, but you never know, sometimes things just find you.... I have like 70 hits of certified LSD straight from a chemist at the moment. I haven't had a drug dealer in years, this just suddenly happened. Don't lose hope!

Originally Posted by tommo

Logically, we should all have an orgy.

I'm in.

Originally Posted by TwitchLucidity

Welp, got "The Field Guide to Lucid Dreaming" woop woop.


Already know everything, but this book seems interesting.

I got it after the Kickstarter. It was kinda disappointing. I am reading "Are You Dreaming?" by Daniel Love. That book is AMAZING and perfect.

Originally Posted by sefalik

DMT is the only "drug" I'm still interested in trying. Actually, I wouldn't mind trying acid as well. But at 24-years-old, I'm already out of the loop. I grow my own cannabis and never go to parties anymore. So I'm "off the grid" in terms of illegal drugs, I suppose.

I never had access to any sort of drug or chemical until I turned 26. DMT is still my top substance of interest, but calling it a drug is a bit of a bad idea; it does more than just make you have a good time.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

DMT can actually be obtained fairly easily without having to through any sort of grid business if you know what you're doing. LSD is a little bit different of a story, but you never know, sometimes things just find you.... I have like 70 hits of certified LSD straight from a chemist at the moment. I haven't had a drug dealer in years, this just suddenly happened. Don't lose hope!

My favorite quote is "DMT will come to you when you need it most." Mostly true.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

DMT can actually be obtained fairly easily without having to through any sort of grid business if you know what you're doing. LSD is a little bit different of a story, but you never know, sometimes things just find you.... I have like 70 hits of certified LSD straight from a chemist at the moment. I haven't had a drug dealer in years, this just suddenly happened. Don't lose hope!

"party drugs" are really the only thing I can do anymore. I have 0 self control with opiates and benzos and other things of the sort. but give me some LSD or some MDMA and I'm perfectly capable of having an amazing time without destroying my life in the process haha. and chemists are the shit aren't they Alyzarin? I think im going to really work on my chemistry game when I go back to college

Originally Posted by Tiresias

I never had access to any sort of drug or chemical until I turned 26. DMT is still my top substance of interest, but calling it a drug is a bit of a bad idea; it does more than just make you have a good time.

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My favorite quote is "DMT will come to you when you need it most." Mostly true.

It does make you have a good time though too. (If you're prepared enough for it that is....) Maybe the problem isn't calling it a drug but defining the word drug improperly.... DMT is a drug, no matter how you look at it. It just makes other drugs look pathetic by comparison lol. For the record, DMT has actually given me more hedonistic highs than any other substance I've ever put into my body by several orders of magnitude.

I agree with that quote's sentiment. Smoking DMT every day just because you can gets boring rather quickly. Waiting until the need suddenly strikes usually produces orgasmic results!

Originally Posted by Zacsby

"party drugs" are really the only thing I can do anymore. I have 0 self control with opiates and benzos and other things of the sort. but give me some LSD or some MDMA and I'm perfectly capable of having an amazing time without destroying my life in the process haha. and chemists are the shit aren't they Alyzarin? I think im going to really work on my chemistry game when I go back to college

Haha, I wish those drugs made me lose self control.... Traditional addictive drugs have never really done anything for me at all, except perhaps for alcohol (mostly when mixed with weed). I'm not complaining about having to stick to psychedelics though.

Ooooh, let me know how that goes hehe.... If you send me some of your creations I'll send you some of mine. ;D I have particularly high hopes for 2,5-dimethoxy-4-vinylphenethylamine (2C-V), 4-hydroxy-N-methyl-N-sec-butyltryptamine (4-HO-MSBT), and N-propyl-N-sec-butyltryptamine (PSBT), mmm....

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Did someone say something about an orgy? My sixth sense is tingling....

Are you sure it is your sixth sense tingeling?

Originally Posted by Chicken

Are you sure it is your sixth sense tingeling?

Mm, in addition to other things perhaps.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Haha, I wish those drugs made me lose self control.... Traditional addictive drugs have never really done anything for me at all, except perhaps for alcohol (mostly when mixed with weed). I'm not complaining about having to stick to psychedelics though.

Ooooh, let me know how that goes hehe.... If you send me some of your creations I'll send you some of mine. ;D I have particularly high hopes for 2,5-dimethoxy-4-vinylphenethylamine (2C-V), 4-hydroxy-N-methyl-N-sec-butyltryptamine (4-HO-MSBT), and N-propyl-N-sec-butyltryptamine (PSBT), mmm....

Eh I had a strong genetic predisposition to opiates, it progresses slowly, then things get pretty serious when you break in the IV route. been off it 2 years now though and thank god for every day! impulsivity is my problem, which is why I can handle LSD and MDMA. not really things you can do impulsively unless you want to fry your brain

ooooo that does look interesting lol. I think I want to start with BrightStar's MDMA synth to knock the rust off a little bit, relatively simple, great product in my experience and reasonable yield. but if we are going to have this convo we should probably do it on hipforum or something...everyone is going to think im such a druggie!! hahaha

Originally Posted by Zacsby

Eh I had a strong genetic predisposition to opiates, it progresses slowly, then things get pretty serious when you break in the IV route. been off it 2 years now though and thank god for every day! impulsivity is my problem, which is why I can handle LSD and MDMA. not really things you can do impulsively unless you want to fry your brain

ooooo that does look interesting lol. I think I want to start with BrightStar's MDMA synth to knock the rust off a little bit, relatively simple, great product in my experience and reasonable yield. but if we are going to have this convo we should probably do it on hipforum or something...everyone is going to think im such a druggie!! hahaha

I'm the exact opposite actually.... Insensitivity to opiates runs in my family (on my dad's side). Well congratulations! For being clean I mean.... I don't envy anyway who has to go through that. Impulsivity is a major problem for me as well, but sticking to psychedelics doesn't really change that lol. (Who needs a functional brain, anyway? ) Not being able to dose every day translates into taking huge doses instead. Though I'm past my MDMA use now, which I am thankful for as well because, unlike LSD, MDMA is NOT safe in large doses and can actually be neurotoxic.... I'm sure I've already done enough damage there with reckless 800-900 mg doses.

Talking about drugs on a drug forum is too out in the open haha. I'm going to have to look into that because I don't know who this BrightStar person is.... Well let me know how that goes. Unfortunately the only way I'll ever be doing anything like that is if I move out of the country.... Doing illegal drugs is one thing, but making them is a different matter. My hope is to one day maybe pursue an actual career in psychedelic chemistry, so I'm going to be keeping my nose clean in that way.... Sticking to still legal research chemicals and brand new analogues still provides me with tons of options though. >w< When I *do* one day move somewhere where such syntheses are legal though I'm going to have a lot fun hehehe.... Though like I said, I'm done with MDMA. I wouldn't mind giving MMDA a shot though.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Talking about drugs on a drug forum is too out in the open haha. I'm going to have to look into that because I don't know who this BrightStar person is.... Well let me know how that goes. Unfortunately the only way I'll ever be doing anything like that is if I move out of the country.... Doing illegal drugs is one thing, but making them is a different matter. My hope is to one day maybe pursue an actual career in psychedelic chemistry, so I'm going to be keeping my nose clean in that way.... Sticking to still legal research chemicals and brand new analogues still provides me with tons of options though. >w< When I *do* one day move somewhere where such syntheses are legal though I'm going to have a lot fun hehehe.... Though like I said, I'm done with MDMA. I wouldn't mind giving MMDA a shot though.

appreciate the words of encouragement about the problem drugs, not proud of it, but im def proud to have made it through

yeah the precursors and other supplies would not be hard to get without drawing attention to myself, usually isn't the case. but you're hesitation is understandable, I've just been walking on the wild side so long I forgot how to get back hahaha. I used to have a lot of fun with RC's! I was always looking to clean up the negative effects of my Adderall so I did some toying around with 2-fma, 4-fa and things of the sort. settled on a rough formula of 20 mg 4-fa, 10 mg MDPV and a little magnesium for the NMDA antagonist effect and BOOM. called it RC Adderall and people loved it. not very good for you long term but it did the trick lol. even if you don't plan on doing them, I recommend checking out the synths on Erowid. theres also some quality stuff on Zoklet from time to time.

anyway as fun as this has been I refuse to engage in any more nerdy drug speak or else this may go on forever

So, GB lost. But whoo! Go Canada for winning!

I went to charity night tonight because I have a fangirl crush on one of the guys in the headlining band. He's in my chemistry class and yeah. Fangirl crush. Not that I could ever tell him. That would be creepy. Oh. Yeah. I went to charity night for his band and had to leave before they went on stage. Sucks man. Can't even have my little fangirl crush.

I also was forced into eating a bite of the hottest pizza thing they were doing and holy fucking jesus heaven that was hot as fuck shit it literally set my tastebuds on fire. Well, not literally. That would have been weird.

I wore one of my new corsets and wow, bad idea much? Drunk men hitting on me majorly. Oops. Oh well. next charity night I'll be 18. Fuck. Yes. Get to flirt with anyone hot because that's socially acceptable if you're 18 where I live so whoop whooop whooooop.

Got some damn good interviews, I think. Idek or care anymore man.

Damn one of those guys was cute... and in a suit. Damn age.

*places self in drunk thread*

Uhuh I don't like the feeling when you're having a nice time with friends and drinks and then you find yourself in your house again. Anyway I had a nice time today, so I guess that there's no rant.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Did someone say something about an orgy? My sixth sense is tingling....

Yep, I'll see you here? I can procure some BDSM stuff especially for you.

Originally Posted by sefalik

DMT is the only "drug" I'm still interested in trying. Actually, I wouldn't mind trying acid as well. But at 24-years-old, I'm already out of the loop. I grow my own cannabis and never go to parties anymore. So I'm "off the grid" in terms of illegal drugs, I suppose.

You can grow your own DMT containing plant too. Phalaris grass is the easiest. Grows quickly, chop some off, blend, put some alcohol in, strain, let alcohol evaporate. You will have DMT (possibly in sludge form )

Originally Posted by Zacsby

appreciate the words of encouragement about the problem drugs, not proud of it, but im def proud to have made it through

yeah the precursors and other supplies would not be hard to get without drawing attention to myself, usually isn't the case. but you're hesitation is understandable, I've just been walking on the wild side so long I forgot how to get back hahaha. I used to have a lot of fun with RC's! I was always looking to clean up the negative effects of my Adderall so I did some toying around with 2-fma, 4-fa and things of the sort. settled on a rough formula of 20 mg 4-fa, 10 mg MDPV and a little magnesium for the NMDA antagonist effect and BOOM. called it RC Adderall and people loved it. not very good for you long term but it did the trick lol. even if you don't plan on doing them, I recommend checking out the synths on Erowid. theres also some quality stuff on Zoklet from time to time.

anyway as fun as this has been I refuse to engage in any more nerdy drug speak or else this may go on forever

Well I'm really happy for you. I actually met someone recently who was an opiate user for basically his whole life and a heavy addict for ten years who managed to go through withdrawals and then took iboga and never even had cravings or anything after that, it completely changed his life around.... Have you thought about doing something like that? There's an iboga trip in my future that I'm very much looking forward to, I've heard some wonderful things about it....

Hehe, I hear ya.... If life had taken a slightly different path I'd probably be more willing to do that at the moment but recently I've actually been starting to make actual connections in the field of psychedelic research. I wanna make sure I do things right for now. @.@ This is the first time I've actually had like a plan in mind for life that actually sounded exciting.... That RC Adderall sounds interesting lol. I'd admittedly not too educated on RC stims, though I have heard a lot about MDPV haha. Smart with mixing in the magnesium too.... I'll check out the synths.... I really don't plan to use them anymore but stimulants are often just a step away from psychedelics so it's still fascinating to learn more about them....

It wouldn't be the first time I hijacked this thread. No problem though lol. You might get a PM from me at some point. >.>

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

I went to charity night tonight because I have a fangirl crush on one of the guys in the headlining band. He's in my chemistry class and yeah. Fangirl crush. Not that I could ever tell him. That would be creepy. Oh. Yeah. I went to charity night for his band and had to leave before they went on stage. Sucks man. Can't even have my little fangirl crush.

That sucks! What a waste. :X

Also fuck that pizza thing, it sounds terrible haha.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

I wore one of my new corsets and wow, bad idea much?

Corsets. We have to have them at the orgy. X)

Originally Posted by tommo

Yep, I'll see you here? I can procure some BDSM stuff especially for you.

I like where this is going so far. I'll message you some latex I've been looking at.... It makes me so happy. Hehe, I'd be game.... I mean we already had the drunk night, this just seems like a logical next step.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

I wore one of my new corsets and wow, bad idea much? Drunk men hitting on me majorly. Oops. Oh well. next charity night I'll be 18. Fuck. Yes. Get to flirt with anyone hot because that's socially acceptable if you're 18 where I live so whoop whooop whooooop.

sounds to me like anything goes where you live depending on what you mean by drunk "men" lol. does that mean 18....or 21....maybe even older??? at a charity event no less! then again, if you're walking around in a corset I doubt people are thinking you are less than 18. probably should go with something that doesn't have as much sex appeal next outting. maybe yoga pants? yeah...that'll work...haha

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You might get a PM from me at some point. >.>

never heard of an iboga trip.....care to elaborate? and you can PM me anytime, especially when it pertains to orgy's. actually when that is the case you can just PM me every time