Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Hahah I guess it means the same as pile of shit, or pile of crap. I'm having a significantly hard time describing it without the use of another word for feces.
essentially anything that did not fulfill to expectation, or was useless or not in your favor, or something just pure annoying can be described using "pile of wank". It's a pretty versatile phrase.

Thnx! Got it!

Rant:aaaaaaaaaa! I didn't study!

Wow. I got an email saying I was submitted to a VERY prestigious company by someone in the company in the position I want. It's still a massive long-shot, but the fact I am on their radar is amazing to me. I also got a contact from a previous company who wanted me so badly that they stopped looking when I exited the market. These two with my previous one from Wednesday night gives me a lot of hope. My current job really slacked off, and I need something stable to live.

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Wishful. Hope your day gets better.
Do you feel unhappy? I think people get too caught up in "*supposed* to do/feel/want/need". Why? I don't think there's anything wrong with simply being content.
Sorry if I've missed something.
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Thanks, it got a lot better. I went to my stations award ceremony (we won East Midlands Station of the Year 2013!) and got a little drunk and my manager was lovely when I had a bit of a panic after screwing something up. <3 It was good.

Urgh. I'm not currently content but I want to be and no one else seems to share that sentiment.

Originally Posted by Athylus

Pile of wank? Hahaha I love it, never heard that one before

You aren't a choice only when you think you aren't! If it's what you really want you should put some work in it, I'm just giving advice based off my own experience. Doesn't mean it will be the same for you. So if you're going for it, then express yourself and show him you want it (not too much though, it's a turn-off!)

Hey and about the overthinking things, I actually recently experienced that, and I still do actually. What can I say, I love to think. It just means that you are a smart person who is looking for her(true)self, you're trying to find meaning in life. Work is just part of life, without it you will have a hard time surviving in this world, and it is not what you're looking for from what I can tell. There must be something with more meaning, perhaps something you have yet to discover.

Happiness exists in small moments, and without sadness there will be no happiness. Lately when I feel sad I just tell myself it's okay to feel, there's nothing wrong about it, in fact it might even be a good thing. So I'm trying to get comfortable with the feeling, it's just part of the experience anyway.

Wishful, it sounds to me like you've lost yourself. You don't want to be a set of mirrors reflecting other's expectations of you, right? Your parents will want you to study, to get a job, and society wants you to as well. I can imagine you are playing with those thoughts because of how you have been brought up by society. What do YOU like, what do YOU want? If you don't know, experiment with things.


I doubt this will help anyone who is struggling with these same thoughts as wishful and as I am, but here's what I want to. I want to travel and see a lot of places around the world, so I'm doing a study which allows me to work on ships as an officer (engineer or steersman, or even captain). So that's an example of combining work with you want for yourself, no desk job would grant me that. Besides that I've drawing a lot lately and I love martial arts as well as kickboxing. When I come back from the sea, I will be off for a couple of weeks or months (depending on my travel time) and I will have enough time to perhaps set up a business or martial arts school in my free time. They are just plans for now, but it is an example of combining the things that you enjoy most in live.


As for my rant, well because I smoked too much weed this semester and slacked off at school I will have to redo a lot of exams. I am 12 days clean now and I can concentrate a lot better on my studies, I have a lot of catching up to do these 3 days, but you know what I actually enjoy it. The more I learn about vessels, the more I like it. So that's actually pretty cool. Now I will finish my drawing and go to sleep, it's way past bedtime and I'm starting to get a headache.

I love that phrase. It's under-appreciated.

Meh. I'm pretty socially awkward. I'm one of these people that fears rejection because it might screw up friendships too. I'm constantly scared I'm being too clingy or stuff and urgh. It's tough having such a pointlessly active mind.

There's something I kinda want to do, but it would mean sacrificing a lot of my plans to build up money behind me and travel and then if ever I wanted to have kids I wouldn't have the money to spoil them occasionally or even buy everything they ideally needed. Maybe this is only an issue because I was brought up from a fairly well off background. Idek anymore.

I like to dive. I like the sun and I like to travel. But most of all I like to interact with people (I hate people) and that's my issue. One day life will be sorted and I'm happy because I want that and then the next day, nope. Back to square one again because all of a sudden I don't want that. It's, I know this is going to sound crazy and disrespectful and I'm sorry, but it's like living with multiple Katies in me as if I had MPD. One of them likes this and this good at this but then another doesn't like this and behaves like this and then another feels like this about something whilst another actually feels like that and urgh that sounds weird and I should probably delete that but there's no other way I can think to explain my thought process here.

I would quite like to work in a dive company abroad to see the world a little bit. See how far I get with my dive training (MAJOR RAVE, Got my next diving course booked for April and after that I'll be half-way to Dive Master!! ) and see if that's viable when/if I finish(if I even start) uni. I'm kinda taking that aproach too. Life is sucking but be happy about it. What's getting pissy about something minorly shitty happening to you going to solve? I mean, you know, if something really bad happens or something serious or something screws up your long term plans or you're disappointed feel free to be upset. That's natural (back-tracking slightly so as not to offend people and be a hypocrite) and something I think places like here help where you can just rant the fuck out about whatever's gone wrong and then you say it and if it isn't th\at serious it all suddenly feels a little bit stupid and then you just, go on with your life and approach new things with, idek the word, yeah. xD

Awh that's pretty shitty. Glad things are picking up now though!! I'm superbly pleased. :3

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Never thought I'd find another person on DV who uses the phrase "Pile of wank" Awesome.

It's an amazing phrase! I've only ever heard British people (not even that many) use it so I'm happy to hear it's not just from this shitty country!


Oh, that brings me to another revelation. Realized I hate the UK. It's pretty shitty here. I mean, yeah, quality of life is brilliant but what's /actually/ here for me? I mean, my realtionship with my parents is fraught and is a couple of hours flight going to be much different from a couple of hours drive in all honesty when it's time for the dreaded visit? We can always call. I don't really have any other family who'd want me to stay so that just leaves friends and I have friends all over the world so... that's not a very good reason to stay.

I've also decided I want to emigrate to Egypt at some point and find work in the tourist sectors on the Red Sea coast. Those are nearly always violence free because it's a huge source of income and it would mean lots of diving opportunities.

It took me far too long to type all this out. xD

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Oh, that brings me to another revelation. Realized I hate the UK. It's pretty shitty here. I mean, yeah, quality of life is brilliant but what's /actually/ here for me? I mean, my realtionship with my parents is fraught and is a couple of hours flight going to be much different from a couple of hours drive in all honesty when it's time for the dreaded visit? We can always call. I don't really have any other family who'd want me to stay so that just leaves friends and I have friends all over the world so... that's not a very good reason to stay.

I've also decided I want to emigrate to Egypt at some point and find work in the tourist sectors on the Red Sea coast. Those are nearly always violence free because it's a huge source of income and it would mean lots of diving opportunities.

You know, if that's your aspiration then that's awesome.

As much as I would encourage people to stick with their family in regular cases, if it's not working then you deserve to do what you want. One of my friends absolutely hated his/her parents (due to them being absolute ****heads) and he/she tried sticking with them for a while and nothing good ever came from it. They're just stingy and mean. Never paid off being loyal in that case and he paid the price.

Main point is think this out. You're young, you might be smart but hormones can do crazy things. Hasted decisions are never good, think things through first and stick it out until you're set to do what you want.

Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be good as long as you follow your ambitions and no one elses

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

How did you sneak past me, Tommo
Thanks for the tips. The clearomizers only cost $6. so I shouldn't have any trouble just replacing them if they start getting clogged. Do you have a preference using a wicked clearomizer over a non-wicked one? I can't tell the difference. It does seem that I run out of liquid faster using the wicked one.

hehehe, if my plants ever bloomed I could have quite the party. The tallest one is almost 2 feet tall and there are 3 "trees" in all and a new one growing.

As for your cousin... at least you remember his name I'll talk to random people and know a lot about them but I can't remember their name for the life of me.... and then years pass and I still run into them and we still have great conversations, but too much time has passed for me to be able to ask "Hey, what's your name again." lol Eventually, I start avoiding them because I feel like a huge jerk.

Believe me, you'll get annoyed buying more every week when you're vaping full time. They get gunked up really quickly.
Plus I hate wasting, so I prefer cleaning them.

I have never heard of a non-wicked one.

*some googling later*

You must be talking about the ones with the wick in the center tube. Apparently they last longer, so maybe go with them if you're not going to clean them.
The biggest difference you'll probably see is if you try different juices, some flavours just don't work well in some cartomisers.
Plus if you take really long hits or too many in a row, the wicks can get dry if they're not put on right. Some people say that doesn't happen much/at all with the "wickless" ones.

Haha, there's a girl at work who I always talk to, since I started working there, and I still don't know her name. Every time it's like
"Hey tom!"
"oh hey! how are you?"
or
"Heyyyy"

lol, I really need to check her name badge one of these days, but I don't want her to catch me looking either.

hehe, I started vaping with Chocolate Raspberry. It was nice but I wanted something more mellow... so I bought vanilla and a new Clearomizer And then I bought a second e-cig so I can swap out the batteries. So I have 3 clearomizers now. 2 have Vanilla in them, so I'm pretty sure I found my flavor (I used Vanilla Blu e-cigs too). There's not a wide selection at the store and the other flavors don't interest me much at all.
How in the world are you supposed to clean those tiny clearomizers (I really hate that word for some reason lol). Guess it's time to Google and YouTube. I've been using the one for about 2 weeks now and it's still good. I never let them run out of juice and I'm really careful not to drip anything into the center tube.

I am really, really bad remembering someone's name. Oddly enough, I'm obsessed with names. Every now and then I go through a sort of mental checklist, thinking about different people and their names just so I can keep them fresh in my mind.

Wishful. You have some great plans! And grats on soon becoming a Master Diver That's awesome. I love swimming but I've never been diving before (other than snorkeling at Disney when I was a kid hehee but that wasn't even "diving").
And I understand completely when you say it's like having multiples of yourself inside your head. When I was a kid, I actually named the different aspects of myself, but that was too weird so I stopped ) It does seem to get better as a person gets older. So try to hang in there.

Grats, Tiresias. I really hope you get the job!!

My rant is a gross one, so prepare yourself Our toilet stopped flushing this morning. JUST in time for a stomach bug to blow through my system. Which means, time for the bucket. Ugh. For one, that's just gross. I really wish we had reliable plumbing. But the bigger problem for me is that I am so dreadfully out of shape. I realized I need to start doing squats most of all. I'm not going to be able to walk by the time the pipes thaw

A rave is that, though I thought I was really going to get hit by a virus, if it was a virus it was very short lived- less than 24 hours. But now Miley feels sick.

Miley's such a priss, it makes me smile. She asked "So, the pipes are going to be frozen for another week?" To which I replied "Unless the weather warms up." "How are we supposed to shower?!"
So I told her to warm up some water in the microwave and take a sponge bath. And that if her hair really needs washed, to go outside and wash it under the spigot. She looked at me like I was an alien. And she was supposedly homeless for a year? Sometimes I REALLY doubt that.

Is it bad that this sort of thing doesn't bother me? I mean, it's a little humiliating to talk about but only because of societies perceptions. So far, I can adapt to almost any situation and environment. I think that's a good thing. A lot of people are outraged though, because I'm "the doctor's wife". And they think I should be outraged too. *shrug* Maybe I'm too easy-going.

The moment of truth... time to find something to eat...

**EDIT**

So far, so good on the food front... but I've another silly rant. i have had a sort of blister at the back/center of my throat for years. I saw a doctor about it and she was unconcerned. She thinks it's a pocket of mucus because I have constant post nasal drip (despite medicine). I'm sick of it being there. Yeah, yeah, if I wouldn't shine a light on it, I wouldn't even know it's there. But I DO know it's there and it annoys the heck out me. And it's gotten bigger.
I just tried popping it with a safety pin. Then I tried popping it with my fingers. Nothing. Sucker's persistent. But now it looks a little like a blood blister at the top portion. I have a sensitive gag reflex, so I didn't work at it for very long. But I do have a sore throat now lol

Why does that thing annoy me so much? I'm like that with my skin too. If I have any sort of bump that doesn't belong, I remove it. Not having any silver nitrate sticks is annoying me.
the skin across my ribs is annoying me because it feels bumpy like a rash but there's nothing there for me to attack. There IS no rash, but it still feels bumpy.
I'm glad I've never had problems with pimples (except for the occasional 1 or 2 every now and then). I'm borderline psychotic about this stuff the way it is!!

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

hehe,
My rant is a gross one, so prepare yourself Our toilet stopped flushing this morning. JUST in time for a stomach bug to blow through my system. Which means, time for the bucket. Ugh. For one, that's just gross. I really wish we had reliable plumbing. But the bigger problem for me is that I am so dreadfully out of shape. I realized I need to start doing squats most of all. I'm not going to be able to walk by the time the pipes thaw
!

I lived in a place like that about 10 yrs ago, The plumbing froze and when I got up in the morning and went to the kitchen my feet stuck to the lino floor

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

hehe, I started vaping with Chocolate Raspberry. It was nice but I wanted something more mellow... so I bought vanilla and a new Clearomizer And then I bought a second e-cig so I can swap out the batteries. So I have 3 clearomizers now. 2 have Vanilla in them, so I'm pretty sure I found my flavor (I used Vanilla Blu e-cigs too). There's not a wide selection at the store and the other flavors don't interest me much at all.
How in the world are you supposed to clean those tiny clearomizers (I really hate that word for some reason lol). Guess it's time to Google and YouTube. I've been using the one for about 2 weeks now and it's still good. I never let them run out of juice and I'm really careful not to drip anything into the center tube.

Lol I just told you how to clean them, ultrasonic jewelery cleaner. They're only like $20.

I bought a few flavours from a perfume making site, perfumersapprentice I'm pretty sure it was called.
They're 100% concentrates, so one bottle will probably last like my whole life lol For some of them anyway.
I'm using anise at the moment. Reminds me of drinking Absinthe with my ex....

Ugh.... yeah I know I hate all those words too, atomisers clearomisers cartomisers.... I made a ranty post about it on an e-cig forum for my first post haha
Everyone laughed though, like "haha yeah you get used to it" or whatever.

Instead of clearing my thoughts about the girl, I'm just going to post a song, so hopefully other people can enjoy too....

Originally Posted by sefalik

I guess the reason that this bothers me is because I just want to blast my stereo sometimes. But I would only want to do it when my neighbors aren't home, just out of being polite (since I can hear when they're home, I guess it's obvious that sound travels somewhat easily between walls).

I hate the way sound travels between walls. From my living room I can even hear my neighbour snoring at night. I'm just glad that he never plays music.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I'm SO BAD at talking to people. At 24 years old I really thought that my social anxiety would have dissipated for the most part. But my recent lack of practice has made it worse. And what enhances how depressing it is is that the social abilities of people around me only seem to be improving as I get older. On the bus I hear people from my university talking all the time to strangers, while managing to keep up a confident and relaxed attitude. Everyone sounds like they're in a commercial or something, those loud and clear voices that are used to sell products, on both the male and female sides.

Same here. I just can't keep a conversation going. When I was younger I used to try hard to speak up more and appear friendly to everyone. It felt so fake but I did it anyway. After all that they still labelled me as the quiet girl as if there's nothing more to my personality than being quiet. Nowadays I don't make that effort. My strategy is to not force myself to talk more than I want to, instead give a rude reply to anyone who comments on me not talking enough. That usually shuts them up. I no longer care about people hating me.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I just dislike talking to people. It's too draining.

Exactly how I feel.

Originally Posted by LouaiB

Rant:aaaaaaaaaa! I didn't study!

Of course. I was expecting this rant.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Why does that thing annoy me so much? I'm like that with my skin too. If I have any sort of bump that doesn't belong, I remove it. Not having any silver nitrate sticks is annoying me.
the skin across my ribs is annoying me because it feels bumpy like a rash but there's nothing there for me to attack. There IS no rash, but it still feels bumpy.
I'm glad I've never had problems with pimples (except for the occasional 1 or 2 every now and then). I'm borderline psychotic about this stuff the way it is!!

Such things annoy me a lot too. When I was 14 I had a tiny brown growth (I dont know what it's called) on my skin near my eye and I went to the skin clinic to get it removed. The doctor used a small heated metal thing to burn it off. He asked if I had any more on my body. There was one on my left boob but I was too shy to show it, so I said no. One day when I was home alone I heated the iron and touched the pointed edge to the growth like how the doctor did it. It burnt and I flicked it right off my skin. If I had not placed the iron so accurately I would have got an ugly scar on my chest. I was lucky.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

I love that phrase. It's under-appreciated.

Meh. I'm pretty socially awkward. I'm one of these people that fears rejection because it might screw up friendships too. I'm constantly scared I'm being too clingy or stuff and urgh. It's tough having such a pointlessly active mind.

There's something I kinda want to do, but it would mean sacrificing a lot of my plans to build up money behind me and travel and then if ever I wanted to have kids I wouldn't have the money to spoil them occasionally or even buy everything they ideally needed. Maybe this is only an issue because I was brought up from a fairly well off background. Idek anymore.

I like to dive. I like the sun and I like to travel. But most of all I like to interact with people (I hate people) and that's my issue. One day life will be sorted and I'm happy because I want that and then the next day, nope. Back to square one again because all of a sudden I don't want that. It's, I know this is going to sound crazy and disrespectful and I'm sorry, but it's like living with multiple Katies in me as if I had MPD. One of them likes this and this good at this but then another doesn't like this and behaves like this and then another feels like this about something whilst another actually feels like that and urgh that sounds weird and I should probably delete that but there's no other way I can think to explain my thought process here.

I would quite like to work in a dive company abroad to see the world a little bit. See how far I get with my dive training (MAJOR RAVE, Got my next diving course booked for April and after that I'll be half-way to Dive Master!! ) and see if that's viable when/if I finish(if I even start) uni. I'm kinda taking that aproach too. Life is sucking but be happy about it. What's getting pissy about something minorly shitty happening to you going to solve? I mean, you know, if something really bad happens or something serious or something screws up your long term plans or you're disappointed feel free to be upset. That's natural (back-tracking slightly so as not to offend people and be a hypocrite) and something I think places like here help where you can just rant the fuck out about whatever's gone wrong and then you say it and if it isn't th\at serious it all suddenly feels a little bit stupid and then you just, go on with your life and approach new things with, idek the word, yeah. xD

Awh that's pretty shitty. Glad things are picking up now though!! I'm superbly pleased. :3

Oooh! So your name is Katie, cool.

Can anyone really be truly content? If you were, it would mean that you are fully complete. But no one ever is.

Diving is really cool! I have a friend who has dived in Egypt a lot and my mom has done it in Australia at the great barrier reef. Have you been there? It's supposedly quite fucking awesome, and I really want to go there because I have never dived myself (give me a lesson sometime will you ). It would be awesome if you got a job in that field, I would live in Australia and get a rich man if I were you haha so you and the rest of your family would still be well supported. Perhaps you still start and complete uni so you have something to fall back on at least (it's what I'm basically doing now, and I still love the study).

Yup this place is really good for speaking openly about your inner conflicts, and everyone has those obviously. So I wouldn't say you'd have MPD so soon. I always feel silly after my rants as well, and sometimes even feel like a pathetic shit but hey it makes me that much tougher in the end. So we got the same feelings when it comes to that.

Thanks. Wow superbly pleased? Now I feel very honored!

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rant is a gross one, so prepare yourself Our toilet stopped flushing this morning. JUST in time for a stomach bug to blow through my system. Which means, time for the bucket. Ugh. For one, that's just gross. I really wish we had reliable plumbing. But the bigger problem for me is that I am so dreadfully out of shape. I realized I need to start doing squats most of all. I'm not going to be able to walk by the time the pipes thaw

Sorry for laughing out loud haha.
Poor you > <


My dad bought me a board made of cork, I will install it on my wall and stick my drawings on it with pushpins. So awesome! Gotta make my room more lively.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

You know, if that's your aspiration then that's awesome.

As much as I would encourage people to stick with their family in regular cases, if it's not working then you deserve to do what you want. One of my friends absolutely hated his/her parents (due to them being absolute ****heads) and he/she tried sticking with them for a while and nothing good ever came from it. They're just stingy and mean. Never paid off being loyal in that case and he paid the price.

Main point is think this out. You're young, you might be smart but hormones can do crazy things. Hasted decisions are never good, think things through first and stick it out until you're set to do what you want.

Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be good as long as you follow your ambitions and no one elses

I try and stick it out here but my mother is a little, interesting with her views. We're very different people and if I'm quite honest I think the separation would actually benefit the relationship between us.

I think I've reached the point where I understand myself a lot more and know I'll never be happy enough to stick to something for a long time so I've decided (for now anyway, lets see how long this lasts ) to go do something that means I have the ability to travel and always do something different before giving myself the opportunity to carry on travelling or settle down and get a real career or something. Not going to throw my life away but I will just, prolong making the decision to limit me.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Wishful. You have some great plans! And grats on soon becoming a Master Diver That's awesome. I love swimming but I've never been diving before (other than snorkeling at Disney when I was a kid hehee but that wasn't even "diving").
And I understand completely when you say it's like having multiples of yourself inside your head. When I was a kid, I actually named the different aspects of myself, but that was too weird so I stopped ) It does seem to get better as a person gets older. So try to hang in there.

My rant is a gross one, so prepare yourself Our toilet stopped flushing this morning. JUST in time for a stomach bug to blow through my system. Which means, time for the bucket. Ugh. For one, that's just gross. I really wish we had reliable plumbing. But the bigger problem for me is that I am so dreadfully out of shape. I realized I need to start doing squats most of all. I'm not going to be able to walk by the time the pipes thaw

I can't wait to qualify! At this rate it'll be less than a year until I'm at master diver stage!! I'm pretty excited. I actually hate to swim. I don't swim at all. Except when I dive. Idek what that's all about. xD I don't want to name them. It's never been this prominent before so I just want to pretend it's not happening and yeah.

Awh man! That's so sucky!! I hope you're feeling better now! I hope it gets warmer there too.

*jumps in*

Rant: I can't stop over-thinking to the extent that I'm finding it almost impossible to just say something, or post something, or explain or work something out in my own thoughts. I spent about an hour just trying to make a simple post somewhere else before giving up, so I'm going to keep this brief. I'm also incredibly socially awkward and have few friends, and I'm afraid I've probably irritated or bored the person I talk to the most at the moment by talking to them too much/too often and just being horrible at socializing. I need to talk to more people and I keep trying to get myself to do so, but whenever I do I back out and hate myself for it. It's almost as though I completely forget how I'm meant to react to things in social situations and can't work it out well or quickly enough. But, not having any friends in real life or close enough to meet with, I also end up feeling ridiculously alone. There's not really any reason to leave the house (I'm still in education, learning from home) and though I know only I can change that and I want to create reasons, I just don't know where to start and always become overwhelmed by it before there's even anything to be overwhelmed by.

In short, at the moment I'm an insecure mess and I need to get a grip, but I really don't know how. I wish I were better at pushing away feelings/emotions so that I could think more rationally about things at least for long enough to sort them out.

Originally Posted by Athylus

Oooh! So your name is Katie, cool.

Can anyone really be truly content? If you were, it would mean that you are fully complete. But no one ever is.

Diving is really cool! I have a friend who has dived in Egypt a lot and my mom has done it in Australia at the great barrier reef. Have you been there? It's supposedly quite fucking awesome, and I really want to go there because I have never dived myself (give me a lesson sometime will you ). It would be awesome if you got a job in that field, I would live in Australia and get a rich man if I were you haha so you and the rest of your family would still be well supported. Perhaps you still start and complete uni so you have something to fall back on at least (it's what I'm basically doing now, and I still love the study).

Yup this place is really good for speaking openly about your inner conflicts, and everyone has those obviously. So I wouldn't say you'd have MPD so soon. I always feel silly after my rants as well, and sometimes even feel like a pathetic shit but hey it makes me that much tougher in the end. So we got the same feelings when it comes to that.

Thanks. Wow superbly pleased? Now I feel very honored!

Yes. I have the boring name of; Katie. xD I wish I had a more exciting name. xD

I just want a little more contentedness within my life. It'd be nice to be less, well, fucking miserable. xD

I've never been to Australia but I really wanna gooooooo. Egypt has some beautiful dive sites. One of them apparently is almost as good as the Great Barrier Reef. I will one day find out by going to both and comparing them. :') Of course I'll give you a lesson, just wait until I'm qualified enough to yeah? I would really like to dive. Looking at going to study a course in Marine Chemistry in Bangor University which would take me far with diving. ^_^

Oh. I don't have MPD. If I had MPD I wouldn't remember stuff. It's just, it's weird. It's the only way I can describe it really. It's just like I have many versions of me that all co-exist in harmony and share my body and mind (unlike what would happen if I had MPD). So yeah. It's just, odd. Some human weirdness. xD

You should feel honoured! xD

Originally Posted by tommo

Spoiler for quoted text:

Lol I just told you how to clean them, ultrasonic jewelery cleaner. They're only like $20.

I bought a few flavours from a perfume making site, perfumersapprentice I'm pretty sure it was called.
They're 100% concentrates, so one bottle will probably last like my whole life lol For some of them anyway.
I'm using anise at the moment. Reminds me of drinking Absinthe with my ex....

Ugh.... yeah I know I hate all those words too, atomisers clearomisers cartomisers.... I made a ranty post about it on an e-cig forum for my first post haha
Everyone laughed though, like "haha yeah you get used to it" or whatever.

Instead of clearing my thoughts about the girl, I'm just going to post a song, so hopefully other people can enjoy too....

I've posted Sufjan all over the music thread but no one ever listens to it , glad to see another fan.

And I just want to say I love empathy. I get to read about someone else's happy experience and not just feel happy for them, but feel happy as if I got to experience it too!

Nice song and visuals, Tommo. And I meant cleaning them WITHOUT the jewelry cleaner
I can't imagine vaping anything from a perfume place :hmm:
There are a few unusual flavors at my place but it has a lower nicotine content and they sound more perfume-y than edible (not quite the right word lol)

Woblybil... did your feet stick because they were "frozen" to the floor because the pipes burst? Bursting pipes suck even worse than frozen ones. THANKFULLY, ours haven't sprung a leak these last couple winters. But all of the water is turned off throughout the house expect for the kitchen, wash machine, and the master bathroom (shower, toilet and the cold water in the bathtub work- the two sinks were shut off several years ago because of leaks).

Glad someone's laughing, Athylus Though, I must admit, I get a lot of laughs from myself as well
I am very content with my life. I rant a lot, but it's all (to me) trival stuff. I can laugh about most of it. The exception is usually my kids. if they're going through a hard time, I usually feel pretty crappy too. But with MY life... everything's good enough. And good enough is just fine by me

Thanks Wishful. I'm feeling almost completely better now.

Vasiona

Anju, An iron? What a brave soul! I'll use heated paperclips if I'm desperate but silver nitrate is the best stuff in the world for zapping blemishes. I had a cyst just under the skin on my chin for many years. Sometimes, I would hardly notice it, at others it would get inflamed and annoy the crap out of me. So I pushed on the area (it was a very small cyst) with a silver nitrate stick and the cyst went away. I was very surprised but exceptionally pleased lol.

My rant is simply that I'm sleepy. I'll be going to bed soon. Which means I'll be awake by 1-3AM again lol. I wish my body would figure out when it prefers to sleep Just when I get used to this schedule, I'll get insomnia or something and the schedule will continue changing.
I've also smoked wayy too many cigarettes today (which is still better than usual, but...). Vaping just doesn't seem to be doing it.

I'm going to eat a snack, watch a show, then hit the hay. Goodnight, DV.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Anju, An iron? What a brave soul! I'll use heated paperclips if I'm desperate but silver nitrate is the best stuff in the world for zapping blemishes. I had a cyst just under the skin on my chin for many years. Sometimes, I would hardly notice it, at others it would get inflamed and annoy the crap out of me. So I pushed on the area (it was a very small cyst) with a silver nitrate stick and the cyst went away. I was very surprised but exceptionally pleased lol.

Silver nitrate stick? I didn't even know such a thing exists! I'll remember that next time

The only place I've ever seen them is eBay. I'm surprised eBay's allowed because it's a poison. If you ever get ahold of it, don't use it anywhere near your eye. If you miss, you'd be instantly blind.

Ugh... I actually slept until 5:00. I think I like this schedule lol
No real rants from me... just the usual sneezing, stuffiness and headache I almost always wake up with. In about an hour, it usually clears up.

I have to take my daughter to work at 8... so I'll run into the store for groceries while I'm out. Maybe. It depends if my oldest son is awake or not. If he's awake, he'll go shopping. If I'm on my own, I'll buy some Coke and food for the day only lol I REALLY dislike shopping...

**EDIT**

Does anyone here know much about vitamins?
I take 1-2 Ginkgo Biloba every day (500mg each) because it makes my legs much less achy.
B-complex once a day. DOn't remember why I started it lol
1-2 Potassium Gluconate, again, for achy legs
1 5000 IU of D-3 (don't remember why I started that one either )
I JUST started taking 100 mg Korean Panax Ginseng for my sinuses and general health.
I also take 2 stool softens every day because I need them
I take all of those in one or two swigs with a caffeine pill with my breakfast every day. (And I take 1-2 caffeine's more throughout the day)
With the exception of the Ginseng, I've been taking all of these for at least a couple years without any problems.

For prescriptions, I take 80mg Celexa every day.
60 mg Dexilant whenever I call for samples (stomach problems since having gallbladder removed) so, it's not a regular med.
and then there's Zofran every once in a while for nausea.

My question is about Calcium. Being a soda hog and nicotine addict, I've heard calcium is more easily leached from my system. But calcium makes me sick. why? If I split regular calcium in half, I can usually take it.
But I decided to try coral calcium. Ugh. It's only happened twice so it MIGHT not be connected, but I've gotten extremely ill from taking the coral. My body becomes VERY hot, I get light headed and extremely nauseous. My stomach severely cramps... well, not really cramps... it feels like i'm being punched and the person slips in a blade every now and then. Then I throw up and my bowels feel ready to explode. I have those exact symptoms when I (VERY rarely) have a vasovagal attack (usually brought on by extreme pain or perceived pain in others).

But here's why I doubt it's the Coral Calcium. When I vomit, the action (I imagine) ruptures the capsule (which is apparent). It hadn't dissolved in my stomach. When I get ill, I immediately start feeling better though the nausea sticks around for a while. I'm afraid to take the Coral Calc anymore because my brain connects all of this together. The other pills are either solids or liquid/gal (?) filled (the D-3).

Could the Coral be making me sick? Or the Coral in combination the other things I take? Or could it be one of the others even though I've taken them for years? Should I take the pills as a handful or spread them out?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Woblybil... did your feet stick because they were "frozen" to the floor because the pipes burst? Bursting pipes suck even worse than frozen ones. THANKFULLY, ours haven't sprung a leak these last couple winters. But all of the water is turned off throughout the house expect for the kitchen, wash machine, and the master bathroom (shower, toilet and the cold water in the bathtub work- the two sinks were shut off several years ago because of leaks).

They just went "sticky-sticky" from frost but I had frozen and broken pipes too, Including the crapper
Better go to the store now instead of like me and wait, I see from the WX map that WVA is the same as here..I was out of coffee but it was about 10 degrees and blowing and snowing last night so I waited until 6:00am this morning when it was the same outside but 20 degrees colder

I have to take my daughter to and from work, unfortunately, so as long as she has to go, I have to get of the house. Today's supposed to be a good day for us with a high of 38. But tomorrow and Tuesday are miserable again. Then it starts to get better again (THANKFULLY). Hopefully, this is the last of the severe weather. I really need to wash my hair. It feels just a little greasy but if I go more than 2 days without washing it, my scalp pulsates with pain. It's the weirdest thing in the world lol. It's at the top of my head, immediately off the center on both sides. Feels like someone's been pulling my hair. I have no idea what causes it, but it's not as uncommon as I once thought (I stumbled across a long hair forum lol and a lot of people complained about it).

It'll take about 3 days of above freezing temps for our pipes to thaw... which means no water until Saturday. Ugh... which means I'm going to break down and wash it outside.

Anyhow... I went to the store and just got the basics for the day But when I go back out at noon, my son will do some proper shopping... or he'll just wait until our normal shopping night tomorrow. They still have food, but without water to clean the pots, cooking is more than a little difficult.

Hubby had me pick him up McDonald's while I was out so I treated myself to a new Frappe. It's Chocolate Strawberry and it's very yummy

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Yes. I have the boring name of; Katie. xD I wish I had a more exciting name. xD

I just want a little more contentedness within my life. It'd be nice to be less, well, fucking miserable. xD

I've never been to Australia but I really wanna gooooooo. Egypt has some beautiful dive sites. One of them apparently is almost as good as the Great Barrier Reef. I will one day find out by going to both and comparing them. :') Of course I'll give you a lesson, just wait until I'm qualified enough to yeah? I would really like to dive. Looking at going to study a course in Marine Chemistry in Bangor University which would take me far with diving. ^_^

Oh. I don't have MPD. If I had MPD I wouldn't remember stuff. It's just, it's weird. It's the only way I can describe it really. It's just like I have many versions of me that all co-exist in harmony and share my body and mind (unlike what would happen if I had MPD). So yeah. It's just, odd. Some human weirdness. xD

You should feel honoured! xD

How is that boring? I don't know anyone named Katie actually lol, so it sounds original to me actually.

Hey don't you any hobbies you can practice on a daily basis? The diving is cool though, but not something you would do daily! Well, not in your current state (school, location, etc.). But yeah, I'll take you up on that lesson then lol.

When you say MPD do you mean multi personality disorder? If so, I know you don't actually mean it haha silly. I understand, these kinds of things is what everyone goes through really. You should be lucky they co-exist in harmony and not chaos then. Your body and mind are one by the way, for now. Don't see them as two things apart, it's probaly what makes you feel disconnected.

Okay well, I guess that makes me a prince then *majestic as fuck* (jk ofc lol)


Edit: Zhaylin you come across as the really sweet mom type who would enjoy baking a pie. May I ask why you take all that medicine though?

Second edit:

*jumps in*

Rant: I can't stop over-thinking to the extent that I'm finding it almost impossible to just say something, or post something, or explain or work something out in my own thoughts. I spent about an hour just trying to make a simple post somewhere else before giving up, so I'm going to keep this brief. I'm also incredibly socially awkward and have few friends, and I'm afraid I've probably irritated or bored the person I talk to the most at the moment by talking to them too much/too often and just being horrible at socializing. I need to talk to more people and I keep trying to get myself to do so, but whenever I do I back out and hate myself for it. It's almost as though I completely forget how I'm meant to react to things in social situations and can't work it out well or quickly enough. But, not having any friends in real life or close enough to meet with, I also end up feeling ridiculously alone. There's not really any reason to leave the house (I'm still in education, learning from home) and though I know only I can change that and I want to create reasons, I just don't know where to start and always become overwhelmed by it before there's even anything to be overwhelmed by.

In short, at the moment I'm an insecure mess and I need to get a grip, but I really don't know how. I wish I were better at pushing away feelings/emotions so that I could think more rationally about things at least for long enough to sort them out.

Uhm hey sweety, maybe post in the help section if this is really bothering you? Sounds like a hefty inner conflict, a tough one to escape as well. I had the exact same thing but with smoking weed, so whenever I'd smoke I would feel bad afterwards but the next day I'd happily light up another one and the cycle would repeat. Sounds a bit like your situation doesn't it, but in a different 'shape'. So how to fix this? Well, I simply quit smoking. Not simply actually, it took me about a year but I'm two weeks clean now and I still don't know how I did it. Enough about me though.

So how would you solve the problem? You can't simply stop overthinking situations can you? Perhaps you should just talk to random people, start conversations. It doesn't have to be big stuff. And you can learn a lot from it as well. I was at the burger king sometime ago and just sat down in front of a woman at the same table and started talking with her. I thought her accent was funny and asked her about it (so that was my opening, if you will) and so we talked for a good 10 minutes until my friend arrived. Perhaps if you do that once a day then you'll be cured?

Well in the end, only you know the answer to everything. Good luck.

Forgot to mention, constantly talking all the time will kill social tension and it's not something you want. And by replying instantly all the time you're giving the other person power really.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

**EDIT**

Does anyone here know much about vitamins?
I take 1-2 Ginkgo Biloba every day (500mg each) because it makes my legs much less achy.
B-complex once a day. DOn't remember why I started it lol
1-2 Potassium Gluconate, again, for achy legs
1 5000 IU of D-3 (don't remember why I started that one either )
I JUST started taking 100 mg Korean Panax Ginseng for my sinuses and general health.
I also take 2 stool softens every day because I need them
I take all of those in one or two swigs with a caffeine pill with my breakfast every day. (And I take 1-2 caffeine's more throughout the day)
With the exception of the Ginseng, I've been taking all of these for at least a couple years without any problems.

For prescriptions, I take 80mg Celexa every day.
60 mg Dexilant whenever I call for samples (stomach problems since having gallbladder removed) so, it's not a regular med.
and then there's Zofran every once in a while for nausea.

My question is about Calcium. Being a soda hog and nicotine addict, I've heard calcium is more easily leached from my system. But calcium makes me sick. why? If I split regular calcium in half, I can usually take it.
But I decided to try coral calcium. Ugh. It's only happened twice so it MIGHT not be connected, but I've gotten extremely ill from taking the coral. My body becomes VERY hot, I get light headed and extremely nauseous. My stomach severely cramps... well, not really cramps... it feels like i'm being punched and the person slips in a blade every now and then. Then I throw up and my bowels feel ready to explode. I have those exact symptoms when I (VERY rarely) have a vasovagal attack (usually brought on by extreme pain or perceived pain in others).

But here's why I doubt it's the Coral Calcium. When I vomit, the action (I imagine) ruptures the capsule (which is apparent). It hadn't dissolved in my stomach. When I get ill, I immediately start feeling better though the nausea sticks around for a while. I'm afraid to take the Coral Calc anymore because my brain connects all of this together. The other pills are either solids or liquid/gal (?) filled (the D-3).

Could the Coral be making me sick? Or the Coral in combination the other things I take? Or could it be one of the others even though I've taken them for years? Should I take the pills as a handful or spread them out?

I can tell you that "Ginko" and stomach meds do not mix well,

Originally Posted by Athylus

How is that boring? I don't know anyone named Katie actually lol, so it sounds original to me actually.

Hey don't you any hobbies you can practice on a daily basis? The diving is cool though, but not something you would do daily! Well, not in your current state (school, location, etc.). But yeah, I'll take you up on that lesson then lol.

When you say MPD do you mean multi personality disorder? If so, I know you don't actually mean it haha silly. I understand, these kinds of things is what everyone goes through really. You should be lucky they co-exist in harmony and not chaos then. Your body and mind are one by the way, for now. Don't see them as two things apart, it's probaly what makes you feel disconnected.

Okay well, I guess that makes me a prince then *majestic as fuck* (jk ofc lol)

It's a really common name where I live and it's boring as fuck. My mum wanted to call me Blythe and that's much fucking cooler.

I play hockey, I horse ride and I lead my local Brownie unit too. :3

Yes. You are. xD Majestic as fuck that it. ^_^

Blythe wow now that sounds majestic! I never heard of that so it sounds cool as well.

Hockey, horse ride and you lead the... brownie unit? So, you cook brownies or something?

Whaha well thanks, I forgot to mention that I would be a prince on a black horse; not a white one. Don't get the wrong idea now Katie.

For some reason, I get annoyed when people say "bro." I've only had one friend actually say it to me, but I cringed internally (possibly externally--they've never said it since) when he said, "Hey bro."