Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

ColdCrisis.

A new rant and rave for me.
I decided to treat myself to a video game. Walmart was selling the Elder Scrolls anthology for $60. (down from $80. just a month ago).
This laptop overheats so badly, though, I don't know how much game time I'll get. It does seem to cool down quickly, so if I take frequent breaks, it shouldn't be too much of a pain in the rear.

I even bought a fan for the laptop, PLUS, I have the fan elevated for better circulation AND I keep the laptop on it at an uncomfortable angle because it's a center far but the top left side of the computer seems to overheat the worse.


All in all, it was a decent trip

Originally Posted by tommo

What is this surgery for?

I'm hoping for stem cells or bionic eyes to fix my eye problems as well.

I evidently have retinitisis pigmentosis. My retina detached, and I went blind a few years ago in one eye. Yesterday went badly. They found a tear in my good eye and lasered, which hurt A LOT. I am researching stem cell and gene therapy doctors badly because I cannot face a life of blindness. I'd feel so impotent.

Wow, Tiresias! What a nightmare! I truly hope you find a viable option.

My rant is that I am dreadfully ill and I don't know why. Not completely anyhow. It was cold when I went to sleep so I had my space heater on. But then the day warmed up a great deal and I woke feeling like I was suffocating in 100 degree heat.
I thought I'd feel better once I cooled off, but no such luck. My son even cooked our version of Zitti and I couldn't eat much. I friggin love our Zitti but the meal was wasted on me.

My ears are weeping (nothing- it's clear), my stomach is all sorts of disturbed and I'm lightheaded and headachy.
My blood pressure was 94/82 with a pulse of 116 but that's not possible so I retook it 10 minutes later and it was 90/70 with a pulse of 105. Which is really, really good.
I want to take a Zofran but I'm hesitant because maybe feeling this way is serving a purpose (like a fever fights infection or somesuch)

Maybe I'll just turn on my AC and go back to bed for a while.

**EDIT**
I'm writing off the worst of these symptoms as extremely mild food poisoning. I laid down and made a note of things/people I've come into contact with that could've made me sick. I came up with nothing, so I hopped into the shower and it hit me. I left a cheese burger out for a few hours yesterday then microwaved it- mayo and all. At the time I ate it, I told myself it would come back to haunt me. But it was so yummy that the event fell from my mind.
The other symptoms are just my usual/daily nasal crap but put altogether on top of my period to boot and it just feels like I'm dying

Even if it's not true, I feel much better just having something to direct my rage at

I'm booooooooooooorrrrrrrrrreeeddddddddd. I gotta wait 2 hours for my ride home. Oh well at least I have my phone, charger and headphones. And I can make beer and nachos happen.

Oh my son cracked my ass up yesterday at the store: i couldn't find pepperoni to make homemade pizza, so Chris goes, "Can't we just order Domino's? I have an app." I laughed out loud in his face. Damn kid.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Oh my son cracked my ass up yesterday at the store: i couldn't find pepperoni to make homemade pizza, so Chris goes, "Can't we just order Domino's? I have an app." I laughed out loud in his face. Damn kid.

I've been trying to figure this out but must be missing something obvious. Is it that... you really don't like takeout pizza?[/quote]

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I'm going to drink beer tonight.

ok don't get mad at me Dianeva, but I just fucking hit "edit post" instead of "reply with quote" like a dumbass

It's okay. I'm amused.

Chris having a Domino's pizza app was funny to me. I like to make pizza dough. Domino's is more expensiver.

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I'm also having beer.

Dear God, just shoot me now. I am SO sick. My back hurts either from colon contractions or from sleeping all day (the center of my back doesn't hurt, but to either side3. I think I've taken 5 hot showers so far today, just for a wee bit of comfot. And I finally allowed myself to puke. I also finally took some meds (though I have been taking Zofran throughout the day). I called up hubby and asked for some Valiums so I can sleep through this nightmare.
I've been drinking lots of water and nothing but water.
A rave is that this sickness might have scared off my period for the rest of the week. I would much rather have it back though indtead of going through this nonesense.

Hopefully, the meds will kick in quickly. My back pain is at the top of my tolerance scale.

I'm sorry Zhaylin, that sounds aweful. I hope you get better soon!

I'm almost drunk after drinking a whole.... 2 and a half beers? Really? That's all? I haven't gotten this drunk in a long time!

My boyfriend is working. We're on Skype but he's doing stuff so we can't talk. I just tried to play l4d2 but finally gave up after 8 attempts at games that failed. Last time I said it was going to be my last attempt at a game. And we got in the game and someone had a weird server mod. So yeah, done. Now I'm here. But why? IDK. I wish I had something to do. May pos tin the drunk thread after drinkning a little more.

Thanks Dianeva. I had an accident in my sleep which woke me and I now feel 80% better. What the heck?! Was all that agony the result of being backed up Or maybe the Valium and Tylenol did their thing. I took 1/2 a Valium instead of the 1/4 I usually take when I use that med. I'm still very nauseous but I can definitely handle that (within reason). That backache was pure agony. I was half a degree of pain away from wanting to die.

Rightbefore I went back to sleep I felt so dehydrated and miserable I actually googled "Do hot showers dehydrate you" Yes, they can. So my wee bit of comfort was actually making things worse

I felt so miserable that I caught myself whimpering. I didn't cry but whimpered which I thought was really weird. Is whimpering a self-soothing thing or does it serve a purpose? Time to go back to Google

Why am I awake

Don't feel bad about 2 1/2 beers. I can't drink a single martini without wanting to pass out in sleep

So I was supposed to see one of my favorite bands live on April 30th but I can't go, because I'll be on a school trip to paris. Well they just announced that they will come back to belgium on june 27th. I'm so happy that I can finally see them omg

Originally Posted by tommo

Try not to be so disheartened. You cannot fall in love with someone you've never met in real life. She realises this, and you do not. But she does like you, your ideas, your words etc.
So that is a good thing.

Maybe just be patient and work on trying to meet her IRL.

Yeah, I think I've got enough money to buy a plane ticket to london and I'm even allowed to stay at her house. So I don't have to stay in a hotel or anything. And we're going on a school trip to london aswell next year, so maybe we can meet again. Well if she still wants to meet me though..

A few weeks ago, she had a 'fight' with a friend, she was really upset. And didn't want to talk with me about it, so I gave her some space (which she asked for). I actually think she's in love with this guy called charlie willford. They send eachother loads of snaps, they're also friends on facebook and I think they go to the same school aswell. I asked her if she's in love with him and she told me that she isn't. But here are some of her tweets:





It's quite obvious that he means alot to her. And she seems to tweet alot about him. At first, I thought those tweets saying: 'you seriously don't understand how happy you make me, I wish I could tell you exactly how I feel and cute morning messages are the best thing ever' were about me. But her 'friend' favorited all those tweets, so I'm pretty sure it's about him and not me. Do you guys think I'm being way too paranoid? I just wish she would tell me the truth. If Ria really is in love with him, I'm cool with that as long as she's happy but I would still be very upset. We're just friends, so basically she can go out with anyone she'd like. I just can't stop thinking about it and I'm afraid of asking her, 'cause I think she might get mad at me. But not knowing what's going on is actually killing me. I really don't know what I should do. What do you guys think about all of this? :c

On Sunday she told me that we could talk all week, 'cause she has half term.
And now all of a sudden, she messaged me yesterday saying: 'we won't be able to talk much this week because I have loads of revision to do. Is it okay for me to message you later on tonight?' And she never messaged me back.
I saw her latest tweet 'happyhappyhappy' yesterday so I asked her why she's so happy today. And she just replied saying: 'just something with a friend :$'. Am I really just being paranoid? 'Cause it seems like Ria's just in love with someone else but why does she keep telling me how much she loves me. IM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW

Crashy. I have no words of wisdom. I always suck when it comes to matters of the heart. YOu might want to cross out her email address though. What if she googles herself and sees your posts?

I'm still sick, but doing better. I just took 1/4 of Valium and some tylenol and Ibuprofen. I'm drinking more water. My back hurts again but only a little. I fell right back to sleep earlier. Hopefully I'll fall asleep again and wake up top shape. I am very, very grateful for sleep.
And I still really dislike water. No matter how much of the stuff I drink, i feel like I have cotton mouth. What the heck

Hope everyone has a great day.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

On Sunday she told me that we could talk all week, 'cause she has half term.
And now all of a sudden, she messaged me yesterday saying: 'we won't be able to talk much this week because I have loads of revision to do. Is it okay for me to message you later on tonight?' And she never messaged me back.
I saw her latest tweet 'happyhappyhappy' yesterday so I asked her why she's so happy today. And she just replied saying: 'just something with a friend :$'. Am I really just being paranoid? 'Cause it seems like Ria's just in love with someone else but why does she keep telling me how much she loves me. IM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW

Crashy, while I understand that you might be going through some harsh times, please refrain from posting names on the internet so openly. It's not fair on other people post their names (even twitter id's), especially not pictures without their consent. It can cause trouble later in life. At least use some kind of pseudonym, and edit out their name on the pictures.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I was starting to think you died, Tommo (says she who disappears for months sometimes ) Great raves!

Haha! Don't worry, I had a theory that you'd died too when you were gone. And thanks

Originally Posted by Dianeva

That was a huge coincidence. I just realized that band tommo posted was one I just listened to for the first time ever yesterday while looking for music.

Damn, that's quite a coincidence. Which band, Chvrches or Arctic Monkeys?

Originally Posted by Tiresias

I evidently have retinitisis pigmentosis. My retina detached, and I went blind a few years ago in one eye. Yesterday went badly. They found a tear in my good eye and lasered, which hurt A LOT. I am researching stem cell and gene therapy doctors badly because I cannot face a life of blindness. I'd feel so impotent.

Ah, that sucks man. I have nerve damage, which fucks my depth perception sometimes. I've been looking for any treatment as well. The only one the optometrist has mentioned is eye-patching my good eye. But I've been looking in to it and apparently L-DOPA and other dopamine agonists can help a lot. As well as atropine to blur the good eye to help the bad eye get stronger.

Anyway.... your problem seems worse than mine. Stem cell therapy will be incredible, it pisses me off that religious fucktards delayed the progress for so long.

[QUOTE=Dianeva;2084093]
I'm almost drunk after drinking a whole.... 2 and a half beers? Really? That's all? I haven't gotten this drunk in a long time!

Originally Posted by Crashyy

So I was supposed to see one of my favorite bands live on April 30th but I can't go, because I'll be on a school trip to paris. Well they just announced that they will come back to belgium on june 27th. I'm so happy that I can finally see them omg

Yeah, I think I've got enough money to buy a plane ticket to london and I'm even allowed to stay at her house. So I don't have to stay in a hotel or anything. And we're going on a school trip to london aswell next year, so maybe we can meet again.....

Yeah I second Zhaylin's censoring suggestion first off. Which is why I didn't quote it in case you want to edit your post.

Man.... Crashy, my honest opinion is to give up on her.

I know you've been following my bullshit with that girl since you liked a lot of my posts about it.
You can see where it ends up.

This Ria girl sounds exactly the same. She will love a guy for the attention, doesn't matter who it comes from. If he's fairly good looking and gives her attention, she'll "love" him. I don't blame girls like this, they probably believe their bullshit as well. But they are not telling the truth.

I'm just saying this as someone who has seen pretty much every type of relationship possible. You love them but they don't love you, they love you but you don't love them, they think they love you but then change their mind just as you begin to trust them, you think you love them but you realise you don;t as things become too heavy, they have some [insert bullshit excuse] for why they can't be with you....

The last one seems to apply to your situation, as it does mine. And yes I have used that crap on girls before as well, twice.
I loved their attention because, as humans do, I needed attention. So I convinced myself and them that I felt deeply for them.
Of course I knew I really didn't, but I cared for myself more than them.

So don't hate her for it, she's just not experienced enough to know.

But she does not love you. If you love someone, you do not hurt them on purpose, and if you do hurt them, you try to avoid doing the same thing in the future.

She's hurt you and continued hurting you in the same way. She does not love you.

But hey, be thankful, at least you don't work with her and have to see her everyday.
Delete her from your accounts and move on. Meet other people and find someone who respects your feelings. Okay?

Originally Posted by tommo

Yeah I second Zhaylin's censoring suggestion first off. Which is why I didn't quote it in case you want to edit your post.

Man.... Crashy, my honest opinion is to give up on her.

I know you've been following my bullshit with that girl since you liked a lot of my posts about it.
You can see where it ends up.

This Ria girl sounds exactly the same. She will love a guy for the attention, doesn't matter who it comes from. If he's fairly good looking and gives her attention, she'll "love" him. I don't blame girls like this, they probably believe their bullshit as well. But they are not telling the truth.

I'm just saying this as someone who has seen pretty much every type of relationship possible. You love them but they don't love you, they love you but you don't love them, they think they love you but then change their mind just as you begin to trust them, you think you love them but you realise you don;t as things become too heavy, they have some [insert bullshit excuse] for why they can't be with you....

The last one seems to apply to your situation, as it does mine. And yes I have used that crap on girls before as well, twice.
I loved their attention because, as humans do, I needed attention. So I convinced myself and them that I felt deeply for them.
Of course I knew I really didn't, but I cared for myself more than them.

So don't hate her for it, she's just not experienced enough to know.

But she does not love you. If you love someone, you do not hurt them on purpose, and if you do hurt them, you try to avoid doing the same thing in the future.

She's hurt you and continued hurting you in the same way. She does not love you.

But hey, be thankful, at least you don't work with her and have to see her everyday.
Delete her from your accounts and move on. Meet other people and find someone who respects your feelings. Okay?

I just censored the picture and the username, I'm sorry I wasn't really thinking about that but you guys are right.

I really don't think I can just delete her and stop talking to her. We've been talking every single day for months now.
And she just means so much to me. I'm just hoping there's atleast a small chance for us getting together after I met her.
I turned 20 years old last week and I've never even had a girlfriend or never even kissed a girl before? How pathetic is that? :/
I have about 15 000 followers on twitter, so I do have quite alot online friends and I had a few online relationships before, but none of those girls actually cared about me.
Apart from Ria, when we first started talking she made me feel so much better and so happy.
I just can't stop thinking about her, she's on my mind 24/7 so I just don't think I can let her go

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I turned 20 years old last week and I've never even had a girlfriend or never even kissed a girl before? How pathetic is that? :/

Dude that's not pathetic at all. "Modern" societies drill the concept into children head to conform, never to think for themselves.
People grow up following norms and arbitrary "milestones" for absolutely no reason.
In France it's quite standard practice for a girl to save her self completely before a real relationship, or even marriage. This isn't forced behavior, many of the french girls I have met chose to do this on their own.

It doesn't have to be the way the majority acts like it has to be. So you've never stuck your tongue inside another women's mouth? Who gives a shit, that means nothing.
You might think that women are scarce, that you are bad at talking to them etc etc. It's not true, one day, maybe in the next week or in a year you will all of a sudden be ambushed by opportunity, and you better be ready then to take it and not be loathing for yourself.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I turned 20 years old last week and I've never even had a girlfriend or never even kissed a girl before? How pathetic is that? :/
I have about 15 000 followers on twitter, so I do have quite alot online friends and I had a few online relationships before, but none of those girls actually cared about me.

Not pathetic but to be honest,you seem a tiny bit too desperate.Just because one girl on this planet cares for you doesn't mean, that you have to do impossible feats just because she seems to be right.
I have been there before.I know how it feels like.
You need to rationalize it and accept that there is more to gain in your life than her.
She will not be the only girl on earth that will like you.So why live through all this pain and misery if there is a better way?


My rant with a tip of the hat to Crashyy:

I can't stop thinking about the girl I have crush on.I can't wait to see her again.But overall I have a totally bad feeling,because I may just fuck everything up...

I wish I could just not be me for a day and maybe pull this off...Getting stomach aches from this

And I'm awake again Feeling even better but not completely. Microwaving mayo and getting sick from it is actually a food poisoning myth. But leaving food out for 4 hours will do it. I googled food poisoning and was amazed at how much variety there was. I had the symptoms of Norovirus. Primary- vomiting, headache, fever, cramps (why do I almost always feel cramps as backache? That still makes little sense to me). I've had very, very little diarrhea.
this nightmare usually resolves itself within 1-3 days. Amazingy, I haven't been the least bit hungry. But I'm going to try to eat some pudding. It seems light enough to be safe.

Wishful, is your foot any better?

As for those of you consumed by unwanted thoughts, use the old rubberband trick. Any time you think of something you don't want to, flick the inside of your wrist with the rubberband (wear it like a bracelet). It's not perfect, but it does help some

**EDIT**
Now I'm angry that I'm sick. How did I get this sick?! Unless it really was the sandwich I ate. I have extremely little contact with people and almost zero physical contact. I almost always have an alcohol soaked baby wipe in my hand (I like the sensation of holding something and if my hands or anything I touch feel yucky, I can wipe it off and replace it). I've read that rubbing alcohol is just as effective as soap. I always use those things. I don't see how I could've picked anything up by touch.
But if food caused this That's even worse. I've left sandwiches out at room temp before and never got sick from it.
This may very well have broken my addiction to fast food!!!
I'm afraid to eat the pudding because it's milk based. I'm not nauseous any more and I've been drinking a Coke with no problem so far. I even googled if drinking milk was safe with a fever (another wives tale I picked up) and it's perfectly okay unless you're actively vomiting.

A rave is that earlier this morning, we had a massive thunder storm. It was very impressive and relaxed me right to sleep

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I just censored the picture and the username, I'm sorry I wasn't really thinking about that but you guys are right.

I really don't think I can just delete her and stop talking to her. We've been talking every single day for months now.
And she just means so much to me. I'm just hoping there's atleast a small chance for us getting together after I met her.
I turned 20 years old last week and I've never even had a girlfriend or never even kissed a girl before? How pathetic is that? :/
I have about 15 000 followers on twitter, so I do have quite alot online friends and I had a few online relationships before, but none of those girls actually cared about me.
Apart from Ria, when we first started talking she made me feel so much better and so happy.
I just can't stop thinking about her, she's on my mind 24/7 so I just don't think I can let her go

Hey bro, I think she might be hinting those messages at you. Not completely sure though, it might really be someone else. The thing is, you never know. Only thing you can do is make your intention clear, and see how she responds (you already did that) and I think she is being completely honest with what she said. You two don't even know each other for real yet, but you can meet. I've met a girl I talked to a lot through the internet... first time and probaly the last. But it was a good experience.

Besides that I get the feeling that she is kind of playing games with all of those twitter messages... it's an excessive amount and she seems to love attention. Tread with caution. Other than that, good luck!

PS. Nothing wrong with having not kissed, truth be told we live in a hypersexualized society and it's messing with everyone's head really. You will meet someone, just don't cut yourself dude you don't deserve it. I think someone will come to you when you start making positive changes in your behaviour and thinking process.

@Zahylin - My foot is indeed better. It didn't go back to normal for a few days which was weird but after a couple of days of pain it just went back to normal. I should probably get that checked out.

I also have a hole in my body that I should get checked out too. It's not bleeding but there's just, a hole. I don't even know how to describe it other than that. It's just, a hole in my skin. Weird.

In other news oh look guess who's developed feelings for another self centred, self concerned, obnoxious pretty twat! Seriously think the receptor that creates these kind of feelings needs to be slapped. This isn't fair anymore whatever part of me is doing this!

In other, other news. It's my birthday on Monday and I've had a few gifts early from friends including two new corsets. I'm also covering an event on Friday and when I went to interview the creator on Monday it was really weird because I realized halfway through the interview that he was the brother of a classmate of mine who died 27th December 2011 from Leukemea which he'd been diagnosed with on Boxing Day the same year. Then he had a throw back when he realized I was the same age as his brother would have been had he survived and we just, it was weird. I didn't know the guy very well but I was the new kid that year so they made fun of me a lot but he was nice to me and I know I don't deserve to but I'm kinda tearing up writing this because it's half fucking two in the morning and I'm emotional and he didn't deserve to die man you get me? He was a good kid. I wish I could do more to help his brother now. No one deserves that.

Originally Posted by RedFaye

Me and BF just broke up

Sorry to hear that.

He probably didn't deserve you anyways.

wishful, so glad your foots doing better. where's the hole and how big is it? The first thing that popped into my mind was "Botfly" One of our cats will get one every few years. I think they're neat as heck.

I just woke up and so far, so good. I feel top shape. I may try to eat a Slim Jim and take my vitamins (which I've not done for 2 days because I didn't want to throw them up). My back doesn't hurt anymore at all
A rant is that with the Valium in my system, I'll be dead to the world for days.
A rave is that it was worth it
Now that it's passed, I feel like a big ole whiny baby.

I may actually even leave the house later today to buy more e-juice and soup or something. I'm done with fast food.

Hi everyone I am a Highly Sensitive Person and I also have social anxiety so I will likely be utilizing this thread a lot. hopefully less ranting about how misunderstood I am and more raving about how awesome everyone here is....which seems to be the case so far

anyway its past my bed time im gonna go dream and stuff now goodnight