Something's happening. In these last couple of weeks my anxiety has been disappearing almost totally. In fact every time it seems like I'm about to get anxiety it turns out to be because I'm just tense from having it before, but it doesn't develop into anything. I drank two weekends in a row with no fallout (something that wasn't even remotely possible before). I smoked weed with no anxiety. And now, I started getting depressed like I always do now and then, but then I realized something. While I was becoming depressed about my anxiety, everything I used to be depressed about was getting better. And now I can't even be depressed about my anxiety because it's resolving itself and I'm so excited about it. I honestly sat here and tried, and then tried to think of other things I used to be depressed about because that's just the mood I was in. But I couldn't. There was nothing to be depressed about. And now I'm not.
Holy freaking crap, there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
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