I second what Universal Mind said.
I tend to do exactly as you describe. But I also sometimes have extremely morbid/dark thoughts which include me being tortured, raped and killed (well, they tried to kill me but seldom succeeded). They plagued my thoughts since I was a teen and I would spend hours in my imagination thinking of different plots. But the fantasies always made me feel dirty and guilty.
About 8 years ago I finally decided I had had enough. It took a LOT of effort but I finally broke the habit. I told myself: "Shut up brain!" whenever the thoughts would start. I was amazed when I had to catch myself several times a minute! And it took several months to accomplish.
A couple months ago, the thoughts started back up. I entertained them for a day but after that, I put a stop to it. But, like a drug, it's highly addictive and if I give in again, it will probably be harder to stop. And it hit hardest when I was under severe anxiety and depressed.
Perhaps you're like that too. If you're under strain, do you have the problem more?
Try telling your brain to shut up and STOP the thoughts the second they start. It's not easy, by any means, but it can be done.
If you find you're life is being disrupted because of them, though, you may benefit from medication and/or counseling. Regardless, it takes effort, but it makes the fight a little easier (I've been on meds for several years now and it has greatly improved my life).
Much success!!
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