Obliterated (The Impact of Lucid Dreams)

**DalaBudz** · 05-15-2013 12:48 AM

So I had a dream a couple weeks ago. One of the most vivid lucid dreams I have ever experienced. I've never had a dream impact me so much in my waking life. I guess you could call it a nightmare because within the dream I felt like I experienced the deepest amount of fear possible. Although I did come out of that a dream a new man with a fresh/enlightened perspective!

The Dream: This is how it went... I gained lucidity during the middle of a fairly normal dream (I was selling ice cream from an ice cream truck). I became lucid spontaneously like I usually do. Once this happened I broke through the window of the ice cream truck and flew high into the sky. Flying is always the first thing I do when becoming lucid

. I love it most out of all the dream capabilities I've experienced! But one capability I have yet to try was deep reflection. I've never given myself the chance to ask my subconscious meaningful questions. So the first typical question that popped into my head was "What is my greatest fear?". I didn't even have to say it aloud. As soon as I thought that question, a giant Lego fell from the sky and knocked me to the ground. Yes, you read that right; a fuckin lego. My face had landed in a pile of dirt. As soon as I looked up and wiped the filth from my eyes, I noticed that Legos were falling everywhere. One by one the legos stacked up and formed a wall on all four sides of me. I was trapped! The area in which i was trapped had a good 50 ft of free space. I looked up and the sky... wasn't a sky. It was blue but it looked fake. It was a very bright and vivid blue. Kind of acidic you know? Like overly vibrant. Anyways, from this trippy looking sky came a floating angel-like guy. No wings, no halo. But a bright white aura surrounded him as he floated down to me. In his hands he carried three tablets. The tablets were rainbow colored with random designs. They were pretty much tie dyed. Anyways, once he had floated down to my level he said nothing. He simply laid the tablets in front of me and flew off. With no explanation whatsoever of what to do, I picked up one of the tablets. I moved it around in my hands trying to find any familiar markings or signs. Nothing. Quickly growing uninterested, I put it back on the ground. I reached for the second tablet and as soon as I fully wrapped my hands around this tie dye colored stone; ECSTASY. I felt purely amazing! I was glowing with excitement and energy! I couldn't handle myself, my body was buzzing. Literally buzzing! My entire body was vibrating at an extreme rate. So much that I dropped the tablet and it shattered on the ground. For some reason I wasn't upset that it had broken. I guess I felt good that I ever even got to experience such a sensation. Besides there still was another tablet that I have yet to pick up! I eagerly went to grab the next tablet. As soon as my skin made contact with the tablet, I was "obliterated". Yup. My bones completely ignited; ripping my muscles apart and breaking the barrier of skin that loosely kept me intact. It was like slow motion for me. In the midst of this moment i felt the deepest pain in my gut. The pain had spread outward from my gut and into my legs, chest, and eventually my brain. As soon as the pain had reached my brain, I left my body. I was now watching myself explode in third person/slow motion. Sounds kind of cool huh? Well. I've never felt so... disturbed... As soon as I went into third person I no longer felt the physical pain. But that was brutely replaced another kind of pain. A deep pain that I couldn't physically feel. It was a mix of fear, extreme anxiety, and deep sorrow. If I still had a body at that point, it would be on its knees crying due to these deep emotions. It deeply reminded me of a bad trip I had a couple years ago on mushrooms. The bad shroom trip had me throwing up and lost in a dark deep hell. After that trip I never thought that it was possible to feel that amount of fear ever again in my life. Well obviously I was wrong hahaha. After have my body exploded into mere dust, I felt fear that was ten times stronger than that shroom trip. My body was now a pile of ash. I was so focused on watching this happen that I didn't pay any attention to my surroundings. The legos had dissapeared! It was just a pile of my body-ash in the middle of white space. The space seemed infinitely big! Then all of a sudden smoke started arising from the ash. Thick grey smoke. Then a man came out of nowhere, walking towards the ash. As he was slowly walking towards the ash, I got a whiff of marijuana smoke. The smoke coming from the ash smelt like marijuana! The poorly dressed man walking over towards the smokey ash looked homeless. He wasn't too old. But he walked with a limp and had a head of tangled up nappy hair. He reached the pile of ash on the ground. I was only able to see the side of him as he pulled out a blunt wrap from his pocket. He grabbed the marijuana smoke (Yes, he actually was able to hold the smoke in his hand somehow) and put it into the blunt wrap. He rolled it up and withdrew a lighter from his nappy afro. He sparked up the blunt and took a hit. The last hit of his life. As soon as he inhaled the smoke he fell to the ground. Dead. His deceased body laid next to the pile of ash, as another man appeared in the distance. He walked towards the dead body at an average pace. Much faster than the limping homeless man. He was wearing a black mask. Like a ninja type mask. He looked quite bad ass. But he had the same clothes on as the homeless man. The only difference was that his clothes didn't have holes in them and weren't covered in filth. He got to the body and stepped over it, completely ignoring it. He bent over towards the pile of ash and laid his hand on top of it. Suddenly the ash began to rise and take shape of a human body again beneath his hand as he rose it higher and higher. Instantly I was transported back into my body. I opened my eyes and took a look at the man who had just ressurected me. He stared straight into my eyes and pulled off his mask... It was me! Just an older version of me! Damn he looked good

. Besides one flaw... No words were exchanged since I was in such awe that I was seeing my future self, and the older me had no mouth. So no conversation began. But the language of life emitted from this man and flew into me. And I understood it. He smiled and I did so in return. He pulled a shovel from behind his back and handed it to me. Then he evaporated into thin air. I looked down at the corpse that lay beside my feet to find out that this poor dead man was also me... An older, poorer, worthless, version of me. I felt no sadness. In fact it was the exact opposite. I dug a hole with extreme ease into the ground. The ground wasn't hard to dig up, like dirt. Because it wasn't dirt! It was... well I don't know what you call the ground of an infinite white void. But I dug a whole 6 ft deep within a matter of seconds and rolled the dead body into the ground. After burrying the poor bastard, a tombstone popped out of the ground from which he lay. I went to read what was on the tomb stone but as I was trying to make out the first word, I woke up.

Feel free to help me interpret this dream

. I have my own interpretation, but I'd like to see what you guys think!

My Interpretation: Well after waking up from this dream, I felt amazing! I felt renewed! Reborn. The impact of the dream has lasted since then. I just feel great! To me the dream represented addiction. Just to let you guys know, I was a strong marijuana user before this dream. I know people say you can't get addicted to marijuana. But when you do the same thing nearly evert day for 2 and a half years, your addicted buddy. I say it was addicting because even on day i didn't really feel like smoking, I did it anyway just because I had some easily accesible. I also got introduced to a whole lot of other drugs and experimented with everything I could. Shrooms, snorting pills, liquor every weekend, DMT, cough syrup, and salvia. I didn't do these things as much as an actual physically addicted person. But I did have some agitating withdrawls after constant use of a certain pill. And life is pretty bland, weird, and depressing after mowin down on big amounts of shrooms a few weekends in a row. And it's not fun figuring out your allergic to DXM after sipping down more than half a bottle of it

. Needless to say I was heading down the wrong path fast. I feel like this dream showed that to me in an extreme manner. I've been some-what sober since that dream and it feels pretty damn good

What are your guy's views on this dream? What else could it mean? Have you had dreams that have altered your life in some way? Any other possible symbolism? (Like what are the legos for? Any significance in the tablets?) I'd love to here you views on this!

Peace

**KingYoshi** · 05-15-2013 03:44 AM

That was an amazing dream. I've always believed that the very best interpreter for any dream is the dreamer themselves. Symbolism and hidden meaning in dreams simply can't be gauged more accurately by anyone, but the dreamer. I like your analysis and it sounds like a pretty respectable interpretation to me. Also, keep in mind that many things just happen randomly due to the creativeness of our minds. From reading that dream, I can tell you are a pretty creative person in one form or another. My dreams also tend to have these bizarre, off the wall sequences (like your legos

). I try not to look to deeply into the details and specifics of the dream, but look more at the overall feelings it gave me.

Also, my philosophy on weed addiction is, it isn't physically addicting like most other drugs. However, it can absolutely become a mental addiction. Any activity in the world can become mentally addicting and even a strong mental addiction can cause certain withdrawals, etc. So, I definitely agree with you on that perspective. I know from experience

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**DalaBudz** · 05-15-2013 11:40 PM

Originally Posted by KingYoshi

That was an amazing dream. I've always believed that the very best interpreter for any dream is the dreamer themselves. Symbolism and hidden meaning in dreams simply can't be gauged more accurately by anyone, but the dreamer. I like your analysis and it sounds like a pretty respectable interpretation to me. Also, keep in mind that many things just happen randomly due to the creativeness of our minds. From reading that dream, I can tell you are a pretty creative person in one form or another. My dreams also tend to have these bizarre, off the wall sequences (like your legos

). I try not to look to deeply into the details and specifics of the dream, but look more at the overall feelings it gave me.

Also, my philosophy on weed addiction is, it isn't physically addicting like most other drugs. However, it can absolutely become a mental addiction. Any activity in the world can become mentally addicting and even a strong mental addiction can cause certain withdrawals, etc. So, I definitely agree with you on that perspective. I know from experience

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Thanks for taking the time to read all of it! I felt like I knew exactly what the dream meant, I guess I was just looking for something more. I mean I definately gained a lot out of the over all message i received from this dream. But I just love speculating on the small things

. Who knows maybe I have a sub conscious fear of legos! Hahah anyways, I kind of guessed you would know something about weed due to your profile pic haha. I have a really addictive personality so when something has even a small chance of being mentally addicting, and I take interest in it, I tend to go all out. I guess anything that is extremely fun to you can become mentally addicting. I am finding though, that taking brakes and not letting something fun get in the way of my important life goals can be entirely rewarding. AND as long as your responsible about it, the fun can still be had!

Good thing that lucid dreaming is a good thing to be addicted to since it's way more positive than it is damaging!! Im alright with dreams being my drug

**realdealmagic** · 05-15-2013 11:57 PM

Yet another motivational post. Thanks again for that great read DalaBudz!

**KingYoshi** · 05-16-2013 02:29 AM

Originally Posted by DalaBudz

Thanks for taking the time to read all of it! I felt like I knew exactly what the dream meant, I guess I was just looking for something more. I mean I definately gained a lot out of the over all message i received from this dream. But I just love speculating on the small things

. Who knows maybe I have a sub conscious fear of legos! Hahah anyways, I kind of guessed you would know something about weed due to your profile pic haha. I have a really addictive personality so when something has even a small chance of being mentally addicting, and I take interest in it, I tend to go all out. I guess anything that is extremely fun to you can become mentally addicting. I am finding though, that taking brakes and not letting something fun get in the way of my important life goals can be entirely rewarding. AND as long as your responsible about it, the fun can still be had!

Good thing that lucid dreaming is a good thing to be addicted to since it's way more positive than it is damaging!! Im alright with dreams being my drug

Oh yeah. I'm right there with you, bud. Dreams, Gaming, Anime, and Weed have me pretty solid, haha.

**DalaBudz** · 05-16-2013 03:40 AM

Originally Posted by KingYoshi

Oh yeah. I'm right there with you, bud. Dreams, Gaming, Anime, and Weed have me pretty solid, haha.

I never understood anime. I feel like there's something I'm missing! I mean maybe I have a different taste but when I see so many anime fanatics and collectors, I have a feeling that I missed something when watching it. I might've just watched the wrong shows. You should message me or something and hook me up with some quality anime because I'm going to give it another chance soon.

**KingYoshi** · 05-16-2013 04:00 AM

Originally Posted by DalaBudz

I never understood anime. I feel like there's something I'm missing! I mean maybe I have a different taste but when I see so many anime fanatics and collectors, I have a feeling that I missed something when watching it. I might've just watched the wrong shows. You should message me or something and hook me up with some quality anime because I'm going to give it another chance soon.

I was the same way with anime when I first started watching it. Thought it was all kiddy cartoons until I watched some of the really good ones. I'll def PM you a few that changed my perception on anime. Now days, I've become more of an enthusiast, so I watch a lot of shows (good and bad). I look at like, its not a very active hobby and its even weird at times (there is some really weird shit out there in the anime world), but its pretty damn challenging to get into trouble while watching TV. I could use less trouble. Which is part of the reason I came back to Dream Views.

Edit: Oops got off topic there. Here we go.

And...dreams....lol

**DalaBudz** · 05-16-2013 04:32 AM

Originally Posted by KingYoshi

I was the same way with anime when I first started watching it. Thought it was all kiddy cartoons until I watched some of the really good ones. I'll def PM you a few that changed my perception on anime. Now days, I've become more of an enthusiast, so I watch a lot of shows (good and bad). I look at like, its not a very active hobby and its even weird at times (there is some really weird shit out there in the anime world), but its pretty damn challenging to get into trouble while watching TV. I could use less trouble. Which is part of the reason I came back to Dream Views.

Edit: Oops got off topic there. Here we go.

And...dreams....lol

Sounds good!! Hahah and ya were supposed to be talking about my dream! This ain't no anime thread what are you thinking! Focus on the topic at hand, gosh...

**illusionust** · 05-20-2013 10:14 PM

Wow. When I become an experienced dreamer and don't feel like fun one night, I am going to try this. Simply awe inspiring; if anyone else told you you may have shrugged them off. But when YOU told yourself, magic happened. And quoting The Giver, "Thank you for your dream."

**HoldOrFold** · 06-06-2013 02:09 AM

Awesome dream, and I'm impressed at the bravery of asking this question in an LD!

I'd hazzard a hunch that maybe the Lego's represent things like cannabis and maybe other things which you may currently feel are harmless and fun but which are infact trapping you and hindering you from achieving great things.

**DalaBudz** · 07-26-2013 01:36 AM

Originally Posted by HoldOrFold

Awesome dream, and I'm impressed at the bravery of asking this question in an LD!

I'd hazzard a hunch that maybe the Lego's represent things like cannabis and maybe other things which you may currently feel are harmless and fun but which are infact trapping you and hindering you from achieving great things.

DAMN I would of never thought of that! Thanks for that perspective

! That actually makes a lot of sense!

**shayne233** · 08-13-2013 01:12 AM

Going off what HoldOrFold said, it could represent things that are harmless in small quantities (a single lego wouldn't harm you, nor would the occasional bowl session), but something fun and harmless can 'stack up' and cause problems.

**TheSilverWolf** · 08-13-2013 01:32 AM

I like to interpret my own dreams and my mothers. I hold to the philosophy that the best interpreter of dreams is you yourself, as others have said. Having said that, I do think other people *can* give you an alternative point of view to consider. You mentioned addiction to drugs in the past--I am a college student, working on obtaining a psychology degree and have taken drug/drug dependance classes, plus I've known a few ex-addicts--so while I can't say I know what that FEELS like personally, I certainly know what those people and others have had to go through.

I found the lego's forming a wall around you interesting. Many who realize they are addicted or are battling addiction often feel "trapped" by the addiction. Is it mere coincidence that you were "trapped" by that wall? As for the tablets, they could have symbolized two different sides of your personality--the part of you that feels good when you take drugs, and enjoys the high you get--the first tablet you tried which made you feel super good--and the part of you that knows how dangerous these drugs are--the second tablet that "killed" you. Then there is the question you asked, what you most fear. Would it be safe to say that some part of you fears slipping back into the drug scene? Perhaps your subconscious was showing you that was something you worried about--and it's not unfounded, considering the amount of people that do end up going back and forth before finally recovering from addiction.

Finally the fact that you revived yourself was SUPER interesting. Perhaps it was your own way of telling yourself YOU are in control of your fate. YOU don't have to keep going down that route. You can "save" yourself from regressing back into taking drugs, and you needn't fear that, as long as you are truly intent on staying sober.

As others have said, the best interpreter of dreams is the dreamer themselves, but I think others can see patterns, particularly with a bit of background information on the person--which you provided. Awesome dream, and great idea to delve deeper into self-communication. Once I've gotten good at lucid dreaming, I want to try that myself.

Oh, and congrats on stopping the drugs and recognizing you had a problem too--that's no easy task!

~SilverWolf~

**DalaBudz** · 09-13-2013 01:31 AM

I did feel trapped a lot of the time when smoking! I didn't feel trapped by addiction, but by the feeling of not knowing why I'm smoking in the first place. I never had the intention of doing it to relax or to get away. I did it to expand my mind and see how many different perspectives i could get while being influenced on this drug. That was my intention. But it never ended up being like that. It would always end up with me doing typical stoner shit. I felt trapped by the stoner stigma. I kept thinking every time I smoked it would be different but it never was. I realized it but I didn't want to believe it. That was my trap. That was my lego barricade xD

**shayne233** · 09-13-2013 02:21 AM

Wow I wouldn't expect to lose intentions like that. Could you put your finger on what was causing you to just do stereotypical stoner stuff? I've only smoked weed twice (it just gave me a headache and made everything feel slower) but I've contemplated trying it again at some point to see things from a different perspective just like you set out to do, and losing sight of that didn't even seem like a possibility.

**DalaBudz** · 10-04-2013 05:41 AM

Originally Posted by shayne233

Wow I wouldn't expect to lose intentions like that. Could you put your finger on what was causing you to just do stereotypical stoner stuff? I've only smoked weed twice (it just gave me a headache and made everything feel slower) but I've contemplated trying it again at some point to see things from a different perspective just like you set out to do, and losing sight of that didn't even seem like a possibility.

If I could put my finger on it I guess it would be the fact that I seriously can't focus when I'm high. I lose all motivation for everything and my thoughts seem big but in reality they are minimal. I end up trying to seek revelation by sitting on my ass and staring into space while my body and mind buzzes. It never helped me! I know it's different for some people but for me it sadly makes me less involved with what's actually going on.