Im a major insomniac ( for those who havent read my dream journal) and am pretty much always sleep deprived, i dont sleep so much as cat nap. I live on 3 or 4 short naps a day and have never been any different, have been the same since i can remember, only sleeping through the night when sedated with prescribed drugs or when ive passed out drunk. Had countless sleep studies and they are yet to find a reason for it. I gave up a bit trying to find out why, and just deal with it now. Im never really asleep and never really awake. When my naps fail me sleep deprivation takes me over, I feel nauseous, and cant concentrate, i become agitated and hot like i want to do something but i dont want to move.I feel like im at war with myself. The only way i can describe the feelings i get when im really deprived is like a really really bad hangover. It has affected a lot of aspects of my life, causes complications in relationships ( including the one im in now) and makes working difficult because by midday im ready to nap and obv cant. so overall.. in conclusion.. it fkin sucks! |
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