non-lucid

It's been a while since I've written in my DJ, since 2011 to be precise. The reason being that I lost the fire, and a series of failure led to me giving up since the efforts I put in didn't seem to be worth it. However, I have decided to reprise my role as an intermediate-level oneironaut. I actually waited before I start to write in my DJ again to see if I get any results, and I sure did.

For the last few days, I have had increasingly better dream recall, but it was last night that I got a full LD.

It all started when I left my house to go to the library. I recall being in a building made out of rocks similar to the ones in Star Wars. I encounter a girl from my school then find myself inside a mix of a library and Archambault (bookstore). My mom texts me to find out where I am. The dream begins to crumble and I become lucid in the process. Lucky me, I get an FA but I am not fooled for a second. I quickly RC, stabilize the dream and leave my house by the back door. As I walk through the door I feel spider webs on my face. I am briefly frightened but soon they disappear and I regain control. This is where my memory gets a bit foggy. I decide the fastest way to leave my house is to fly away and I manage to do so. I see a small cartoonish bird in the sky and land at my school. There I decide to fly around and to try transforming into a cat. While I feel I did manage to transform in a decent way, I am not quite sure since I was in 1rst person. I slowly start losing lucidity and wake up shortly after.

I am very satisfied as it had been a while since I had LDed. Now my goal would be to try to achieve better dream control because I sometimes feel even though I am lucid, the dream decides what I do and not the other way around. But for a start this was very good

Dream: I am playing a video-game. It is a little character jumping around to get points. My sister tells me that you can double jump by pressing left, right then up. I do so. Next I am playing Metroid and I stand in front of a wall-step with big red dots on it. Gravity is very strong so I put on my gravity suit. Then I am fighting a giant robot. I customize my own robot with colors like mint and classic. I pick the guardian robot.

I wake up for my WBTB but I am unable to BTB. So I get up pretty early.

I forgot to write down my dreams this morning, but I do remember my last one very clearly.

Dream: I rarely have dreams about fighting but this one was pretty cool. I am in a huge arena covered in sand and in front of me is a grey haired man. We fist fight for a long time until he pulls out a bunch of small throwing knives. They are double-sided, small and blue. He throws one, two, three and a jump like a ninja avoiding them all. Them one of them scratches my face and does a small cut, movie-style. I feel actual pain for a second, then turn back to fight. I pick one of the knives and throw it back to him but he avoids it. He pulls out a sharp boomerang and I make a swift move to barely evade it. I start retreating by walking backwards while I watch him futilely throwing his boomerang in the air. Then the man starts doing an attack and now has a white aura around him while keyboard keys appear under him. I am tricked into thinking that by pressing the keyboard keys, I would counter attack. But just as I am getting very close to him he strikes me in the stomach. Pause. I am now playing a computer game with Sasuke on the screen (lol). i turn around to do something unrelevant then unpause the game. Sasuke does the exact same attack from the screen and kills the grey-haired man. The dream ends as the cartoon sasuke jumps in the air.

This night was the greatest LD night I ever lived since I started lucid dreaming. I had 5 LDs (which of course I chained, I love DEILD) but in each of them I demonstrated dream control like I had never experienced before.

Dream 1: I start my lucid dream by doing a random reality check in my living room while my mom is watching me. As soon as I realise I am dreaming I decide to go outside. It's night. I open the door and jump in the snow (even though its summer in RL). Then I go on the street and see a lot of cars passing by with many pedestrians. I see a hockey net from afar. I decide to fly by using a special technique specifically designed for my inability to fly (made by Loaf). I sit down as if I'm in a car, use the invisible gas to go forward and tilt up to fly. Once high enough I am able to let go and fly away, but I end up in a big horizontal vortex talking to Nick Cannon. I talk to him about how he is black.

I try to DEILD but fail since I had lost a little lucidity near the end. I go back to sleep.

Dream 2: I have a big non-lucid about me using a teleporting machine, only to find myself with 7 fingers on each hand. I am pissed and decide to try to sue the company who made it, for no success. I never realise that unusual hands is a reality check lol. I talked to my uncle in the middle of that dream, which leads to the 3rd one.

Dream 3: False Awakening. I wake up in my bed and my cell phone rings. It says someone sent me two pictures. I think that its my uncle who sent me pictures of his dog (could have happened). I get up and go in the living room. ALL of my family is there, including my uncle. It takes me awhile to understand but I do a reality check as the dream fades out. I now begin my chain of LDs. I DEILD back into a dream. I am now back in my living room and everyone tells me that the pool is weird. I go to check it and they tell me anyone who goes on the pool floats on the surface. I take a dip myself and float on top of the water. I want to impress my DC family, so I tell them that when I snap my fingers the water will be normal again. I do and they are impressed. I proceed to flying around in my house and my mom asks me how the hell I do that. I tell her I'm just lucid dreaming and she says my brother and sister should try it too. Id rather not, they should go find their own amazing hobby!

Dream 4: As I DEILD in the next dream, I remember that youre not supposed to chain too much or you will start forgetting your first dreams (and I dont want that) which is why when my dream starts off with 2 santa claus puppet, I wake myself up to start off on a clean slate with a better dream.

Dream 5: I am in a restaurant with my family once again, but as soon as the dream starts I completely abandon the plotline to go have fun outside. I have an aversion against doors, so I go through the window of the restaurant even though the door is right next to it. I bump on the window a couple of times before passing through, but I dont care since who can see me right? I dont remember much after that, except that I walked on the street and saw my friend Sandy. Im turned on and want to have sex, so I try to make a Playmate appear I tell myself that when I look behind me, she will be there (and naked). However the Dreamworld has a way of somehow preventing me from having dream sex, maybe because there are so many better things to do. So I fail to make her appear.

Dream 6: I DEILD with the firm intention of having dream sex. I am in a big school filled with people my age. As I am walking the hall I say out loud que jai le gout de fourrer. The girl next to me tells me she does too but shes ugly so I tell her that shes just a DC and im the dreamer here. I choose . I am roaming for a place in the school to have sex "privately" if you will until I end up in a big dark room with shelves. I decide to try to make sandy appear this time and it works. As I'm walking up to her I'm already taking of my shoes and coat but she walks away from me. I follow her and she seems to agree but as she says that we should go in the corner a bunch of girls from the school come into the room looking for costumes for a dance show (wearing makeup and everything). Then theres guys too. Once again, im prevented from having sex. He he

Dream 7: I'm back in the restaurant. For a brief moment I seem to have lost all my superpowers. I cant seem to levitate or fly or anything. I push my finger through my palm to make sure that I am dreaming. Fade out.....again

Dream 8: Had a non-lucid dream about doing homework secretly in school with my friends.

Had a dream about a man who wanted to fight me because I told his girl not to go with him since he is poor. Prince of Persia ish.

Another was when I competed with my sisters friend for a bowl of fruit, and the last task was swimming with sharks. I didnt do it.

I think I had a failed DEILD attempt.

My DEILD attempts seem pretty crappy for now. Although I will never give up, I think i'm doing something wrong which causes me to fail multiple times. I'm always waking up and not moving but I can't seem to enter a dream. I might ask for help around here, since everyone is so nice .

Dream 1: This morning all my dreams seemed to be somewhat connected to each other into 4 dreams. The first is me in a huge stadium. I am playing hockey with my team des Québécois. For a roster change I am offered to trade one of my players for a guy in the Mexican team. They all wear yellow shirts and one looks like an actor in a shampoo commercial. I refuse, saying out loud that a caucasian with make more sense for my team. This pisses them off and connects to my second dream.

Dream 2: I wake up, fall back to sleep and find myself in a huge labyrinth which I believe to be an airplane (although it isnt, its more a huge square). The mexicans decide to act out an act of terrorism on my plane and want to crash it. In the corner, they light up a bomb while a female voice screams to me to stop them and that they are lighting the fuse. As I am about to stop them, I am now out of the plane and on the ground looking at they sky as an actual plane explodes and crashes. My uncle, me and a baby (my newborn cousin, maybe?) are the only survivors. This chains on to my second dream.

Dream 3: This time, I manage to not move when I wake up but fail to enter a dream lucidly. I fall back alseep and now my uncle and I are in survival mode. The scene is now very apocalyptic. I tell him we will need to rationalize the little food we have (he is carrying a shopping cart) but he says we have plenty. We go in a grocery store and stash up on food. Then were at my home and out of nowhere a giant grey spider lands on my patio. Its not very scary and I am more confused then frightened. My uncle attacks it but then he takes it in his arms and carries it to the pool next to where I am standing (the spider has gotten way smaller but is still huge). I am about to get into the pool but as my dream fades out, I become for a splitsecond before ending up bck in my bed.

Once again, I do not move a muscle but simply look stupid in my bed. I even try to imagine the dream scene in my head and feel the water, but no luck.

This morning I tried to get back in LDs doing a WILD attempt, failed, then ended up trying a DEILD and failing aswell. Nice. Here's my dreams.

1: Playing some sort of video-game which was a character in a little cart trying to pick up gems. At an intersection I had the choice to change directions. One of the levels offered had a lot of gems and was the only one where you could amass 10000 points. I try it out but its not the way I saw it before and after amassing all the gems which are now grey-colored, I still dont have all my points. I see a little square that says to add something on the track (a ladder maybe). I click on it but soon the track becomes covered with little ladder. Then I see another button that says Meditate to recover points and building and 2 days. Random. The dream ends with me asking a girl to put bubbles on my arm. Random. Through all this time, A-Punk was playing (I remember picking it out of my Ipod). This is where I woke up to try to WILD with no success (even when I was close to REM)

2: I'm at Alex's house sitting in a red bed with other girls, one which I remember to be Justine. I am carrying my drumsticks with me through this entire dream. I end up going downstairs while thinking about how I should Jue about her movie shes trying to make (in real life, she wants me to help her do a remake of Hunger Games). Downstairs, in the corner of the room, a drum set lies. It instantly catches my eye . I am constantly trying to go play but somehow I cant, its out of my reach (maybe because its his father's). Sometimes its accoustic, sometimes its electronic. For a brief moment, I see a little cartoon girl with pink hair playing the piano in the other corner of the room. Twice, girls (Marie-soleil dumas, catherine ramsay) come to Alex's house to give him milk and lettuce that they have in extra (lol wut?). Somehow I manage to reach the drum, but its not "real". The pads are made of some weird rubber and there is absolutely no rebound. I cant play properly. Then I realize im playing with a spoon hitting inside another spoon. I turn around and see Alex has a cool-looking electric guitar. I ask him why he wants to buy one when his father already has one, but I dont know his answer.

3: I am playing Super Smash Bros Brawl until I realise there are about 40 extra character choices I didnt know of. Most of them are locked until the game crashes (in RL, my CD is damaged and crashes).

4: In an F1 race, people are interviewing the winner of the race (which is me). The thing is, its a special race. At the end of the track, there is a trivia question where you must pick the right path to win. I dont remember what the question or answers were, but there was about 10 answers. I chose the right one and won, but decide to backtrack and jump back in the race. In my car, I drive forward until I see a racer coming the other way. I let him pass and follow him to the finish.

5: I dreamed about Combat Arms too.

It had been awhie since I had an EPIC night, but last night was one of them. I had a shitload of dreams that im not even sure I remember them all. New milestones reached, too. For the first time, I ALMOST had sex. The closest ive been by far. I also morphed into an Enforcer from Combat arms and into a bird.

Dream 1: Before I get lucid, the beginning is very hard to find. Anyway, there are two naked chicks in a house. When I see the brunette's vagina open up before me, the shock is so powerful that lucidity is instant. You have to understand nudity used to be impossible for me to reach in my dreams. I did RC though. I start fucking her, but I dont "feel" anything at all. To be honest, I didnt really put myself into it since obviously I lack real experience Im talking to her as I turn her around and start doing her the other way . No pleasure at all, none. One of my friends, a guy named Zheng, is obviously having a lot of fun though. In a big brown room, hes screwing the girl I was with not long ago while the another one is also having with a mysterious, unnamed man. At this point, im only half lucid and cant quite think for myself. I want to be him really bad. Lucid again, I am downstairs looking for Zheng. I wonder if hel be in the room I am right as im writing . Then I remember im in a dream and if I imagine him he will be there. When I get in he is on the floor fixing something on my drum. He looks at me and I ask: "Tsé la fille de tantot? Tu mla prête tu apres pour que je puisse la fourrer?" The dream fades before I get an answer.
To give an idea about how this dream was a punch in the face, I relived (or redreamed) the first scene with the vagina about 3-4 times.

Dream 2: Still lucid and for no particular reason, I decide to shapeshift into an Enforcer, this big blue zombie in a game thats really hard to kill. I think hard about transforming and look at my arms. They start getting bigger and "bumpy", like in the movies. Its fair success for a beginner. Since im epicly strong now, I kick the wall in front of me and it blows up in pieces. Fade out.

Dream 3: DEILD back without any SP. In what looks like a Paris cafe. I only have the time to look at my surroundings when I fade out again.

Dream 4: This was so short I dont even recall what it was. As I was DEILDing, my dreams were getting sloppy. That is my thought back in my bed.

Dream 5: I want to turn into a small bird this time. After a few tries I do, but a cartoon cat in front of me is very interested I fly away to the top of my school.

Dream 6: Im not sure where this dream was situated in the night. It was stressful and is obviously because of all those projects at school. I have to do work today and dreamed the day ended and I hadnt done nothing. Freaked me out.

Dream 7: X Just Remembered! X I drove a car for the first time in my life and proved to be a fairly good driver. In a hazy day, my mom and my sis apparently are out of the car. I take the wheel and just drive. I am not lucid, and somewhat fear being caught by the police. Had I known I was dreaming, I probably would have went crazy with it. But I had no accident and drove very well before my mom popped back up and I woke up.

I dont quite remember the context, but I got lucid for sure. RC and everything. Also had a cool Super smash and harry potter dream

What a great morning.

Dream 1: This morning, they announced some verglas. My mom said I might have to take the bus if it was too bad. I wanted her to bring me to school. So I dreamed that I had to take the bus for school. The ride was actually great and peaceful though, I saw Tabatha but thats about it.

Dream 2: For some reason, I am shopping with some of my friends at the mall. Those include Zeng, Nick and Julien. We are carying around about 4 big bags of stuff. Zeng is nice and carries all 4 of them. More then once, my mother walks past us. After a while, I decide to help and take 2 bags, but they are surprisingly heavy and I have to take a break. Outside, its very rainy. While all of my friends walk away, I remember the bags im carrying are Zeng's. I shout that to him but he tells me theyre mine. I look inside and see some of my stuff that my mother gave me apparently. I call my mom so she picks me up. But then I end up in my bus again. Its only after I ended up in the middle of the street for no reason that I noticed I was dreaming. I was like: Ok how the hell did I get here? Im dreaming for sure! I RC. As I start walking forward, I see a plastic bag on the floor. As I am going to pick it up, I think to myself: You know what, lets make it appear in my hand instead! I start focusing on my palm and see some white starting to pop up, but no success. My dream starts destabilizing. Damn, I think, must be cus I failed. Then this huge sound of a guy talking turns up. Shut up! I think. Fade out. Instantly, I DEILD back and start seeing a book wide open with a big red mark in the middle. I wake up 4 real. Best of all, there was no school today! School got canceled!

You know, DEILD has always sparked interest for me. But im not good at it. In fact, ive only succeeded in this technique once, a long time ago. Then I just tried and failed miserably forever after, waiting for the day when SP would show its ugly little face again. And it did. This morning. After a series of dreams, I wake up at about 7. Now these dreams were really weird, because they all revolved around me trying to find good dream scenes for my ideal LD Movie. I like to imagine how epic an LD movie would make in RL (excluding Inception of course). In diff scenes, including one with a truck and my friend Tam, I look around.

This was amazing, because it made me experience a kind of lucidity I had never experienced before. Throughout the whole process, I kinda knew I was dreaming. Kinda. I mean, the plot itself was about dreams. So close, yet so far. At one point, im in the park in my neighborhood and my mom starts telling me how if she was lucid she could do stuff. I tell her its easy, and in my head I sort of think to myself while staring at a house: I was lucid, this house would explode. It didnt, of course. But I look at a stop sign and try to bend it with my mind. As I slowly become lucid, I wake up.

Before I even get to realise im in my bed comes instant visual HH. In my head im like: Holy shit its about time! Finally another DEILD! Vibrations start to come, but im keeping my cool. Besides, its my second time Then...I open my mouth. For NO REASON. I just felt like opening my mouth, so I did. What a jerk. To my defense, I guess I wasnt 100% aware, but I knew completely what was going on. Sigh... I guess it wasnt meant to be. I decided not to add the brief moment of lucidity at the end, because I felt it was too small to cheat. At least im at home tomorrow, I might get a chance to redeem myself.

Wel see

You heard me. It took 70 DJ entries and 15 lucid entries, but my goal of levitation aka flying was finally done this morning

As I am walking down the street of Brossard, an asian guy walks past me. He goes to meet his friends. When I get close to them, one of them asks me what is my "clan". I say I have no clan since im not out very often. They tell me if I dont join their clan I could get attacked. I question if they do like criminal stuff. Mostly they play hockey but also do some small crimes along with stupidities. The leader, a 10 yr old boy, explains all the details to me. Back at my house, a quick search on the internet tells me they are called the BlueBloods and are competing with various gangs from the region. Next, out of nowhere, I am in the middle of a hockey game with them. I even score

Then I become lucid, once again without reality check. I just am. In a big house, I simply decide to fly. I scream Levitate! and I do. It felt incredibly real, just as real as real life.

But it doesnt matter. My dryspell has officially ended. The number 13 has been conquered. Its true I could debate wether or not its good enough to be an LD, but im alone and I decided that it was I know these times around I didnt write my dreams, but at least write lucid ones for gods sake! Specially now

After a fructuous night of non-lds (including pumpkin smashing) I dream of the truck that almost ran into us yesterday. Anyway now its my family driving it. As Im watching it drive away from the side walk, I hesitate wether it is a dream or not. Just as it crashes, I conclude I am effectively dreaming. False awakening. I simply open my eyes. There is this man sitting in a chair with a boy on his lap. Hes in the middle of my room. As i am lucid, I just think: Uhhhh....Okay thats kinda creepy. Im afraid of watever it is, so I simply wait for the dream to fade then wake up.

Dream 1: My sister is going on the bus. However, my mom decided to go inside for no obvious reason. Later, she asks me to join and I do. From afar, I see kids my sisters age that look a little familiar. Once the work is done (?), I ask the bus driver to drop us at the next corner.

Dream 2: My mom bought me Magic the Gathering cards even though I stopped playing for like a year now. She gave some to my dad aswell, but my father doesnt like them. The deck is full of Land cards with the symbols from pokemon.

Dream 3: In a pretty short dream, I see Cameron and Mitchell from Modern Family.

Dream 4: Me and my handicapped friend go to school. He asks me to do an image of a belly button for when he comes back from school. At his return, I have about ten, but he doesnt like any of them.

Once again, a single very long dream this night. It was pretty fun though. In the form of a game, two teams were made. Through various scenarios, someone from each team had to go outside the "play area" to direct different things. In the first game, you organized a murder and had to get away with it. For me, it was up a set of huge stairs that connected thru each other, like they do in a mall. There, one of my minions cut the throat of a woman (this was by far the most violent piece of dream ever for me). All she had was a red mark on the neck, not the huge blood splatter u would expect.

In another game, big lines were marked on the wall. Green for my team, red for the other. And blue and yellow just to mess with us. Now, to make points you must follow them and "hit" them with your mind. However, the lights get increasingly darker, and it is hard to see were to go. Members of both teams are allowed to distract the others by engaging them in a fight.

Next is a one-on-one battle. I brawl with no other then Jackie Chan with fists. I actually do very good and block numerous attacks. I didnt I was that good at fist fighting In the end, though, he uses his secret move on me and I am KO.

The other game, I am the one left out of play. My job was to watch a cheesy cartoon that displays the relation between a boy and her dog. Then the dog dies at the end. When I arrive in the room, the ending is not finished and I get to lose the punch I remember thinking the dog's owner was someone from the other team.

In the last game you must point your arm at target that appear on the wall faster then the others to rack up points. To protect my arm from the other teams eagle (yep) I wrap my school bag around my arm.