It’s hilarious when people question if I’m the brother of someone. First, it was a banker that I knew from another section that transferred where I’m nearby, and now, it’s that cougar that was contemplating this as well. She lured me where there wasn’t much activity, and tried to preface the conversation for me to help her out, and just randomly asked how I lost the weight. I told her about the video I made, and then we go on and on, and she’s asking way too much information about me.
I know she likes me, but not to where she’s demanding this like she’s entitled to it. I still went with it anyway because from previous experiences, it’s best not to get them irritated enough to where they have a grudge match against you. It’s like she’s filling out a mental questionnaire, and then she starts talking about how I looked older, and the body of a full figured male when I was bulkier. Like what???? Maybe she’s into chubby guys, I don’t know, but I don’t think I was “full figured” then. I should’ve showed her the before pictures to really see if that was the case. Maybe she has her own lens of what’s full figured, but I think it’s convoluted to how she thinks the older the person gets, the wider they get for both angles, which is kind of odd. Figuratively speaking, I get it, but it's just really weird that she she's steeled herself into that logic.
But, I realized she was just structuring that to get my age, but still went with it. I was showing her some of the stuff I would be eating naturally, and managed to get her to pick at least one of them. It was just so cute to see the slight awkwardness they exhibit when I mentioned these things, and wondering if this stuff would taste good at all. She’s trying her best while trying to find some White Castle, Cheese puffs, and the guilt trip with the ice cream under the guise of believing she won’t get anything else that might be unhealthy for her. I told her that I would help her out after she watched the video if she had any questions, and to come to me whenever she sees me, I guess. Should’ve taken the action to just ask her name, but I’m afraid of older women now doing that for some odd reason even though I’m appreciative that they don’t beat around the bush; it’s on the tip of my tongue.
Oh right. You live in a neighborhood that’s clearly for rich people, and you’re shopping for other guys while whatever your husband does isn’t satiating things for you. But, she looks like she’s single, but I just don’t know. The ones that try to cover it up with the relationship thing are the most obvious, and easiest to avoid thankfully, but she’s not really exhibiting that. They say that helping a girl get the weight off during a relationship would change the dynamic for the better, but I hardly think that’s the case since human nature is so subjective. Anyone can shift their compass of confidence elsewhere, and turn the accomplishment into an obligation to sustain a relationship in the first place. Makes me wonder if I should just go for people who have a fresh pair of eyes instead to avoid that emotional turbulence with equilibrium, and what have you.
What’s funny is that two other women were looking at me funny while I was trying to talk to her. They probably thought I was flirting with her, when it was the other way around. One of them, after the random encounter was over, started asking me about her. She thought I knew her personally, and then I realized that she’s actually being concerned that someone else likes me. It’s adorable, but creepy because it was like a SADKHFASFAS in your face type of scary. She states that she had to know me personally for me to talk to her like that. But no, there’s no experiential context that I had with her more than I had with you; which is barely anything, lol. The only difference is that I can be more open with her than with you since she’s not in the same field that they have me managing; she’s not even in any of the fields in general. I really hate it when down-to-earth women are where I'm working at, and I can't go further with them due to the policy. Shit.
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But, I can’t worry about that just yet. I can’t seem to get any rest lately. I do get sleep, but when I try to be productive, and getting into that spirited disposition, I keep wanting to put stuff off. I know that by doing things, I will stick to it until I really need to stop getting spirited, but man, one problem after another. Usually, it’s just a periodic thing that’s spread out, but I can’t seem to get a word in edgewise anymore. I think I’m pacing myself too fast, or believing I am under the guise of realizing that I’m really taking it too easy to where I’m in circumstances that compel me to not be so complacent. I noticed that for some of the things I’m doing, I embrace the process, but the more I objectify it, and my experience in it, I kind of worry if I would lose the novelty, or burn out again.
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Anyway, got overtime, and I’m not going to get in trouble for it. I rarely reach close to overtime anyway, but my boss said it’s okay since some things came up. Although the extra cash is nice, it’s really just to settle a payment I had with a car I bought recently. Will have to go to a section I worked at before soon that suggested I grow a pair when managing, and when I did with seeing a better section with more opportunities, they tried to grab me to the floor before I could make it out alive. They pretend they’re nice to me, or maybe I’m overhyping that they’re actually being pretentious, and maybe they resent what they suggested, but like my boss said, it’s just a person trying to find chances, and growing. I’m really lucky to be around that guy, especially when I only pissed him off once, but he always has that unconditional positive regard. Maybe that’s why they keep him here for so long. I noticed him, and the other boss sent me a shout-out, which is quite a surprise since I thought they had bigger things to worry about. But hey, I’ll take it as no news is good news.
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