Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Have fun with the piano!

Rant: I had an extremely demented dream last night. I dreamed a woman had a cavernous vagina that was infested with rats that were eating her from the inside out. I kept going in, trying to get the rats out because she was in such agony, but there were too many. Yes. I could walk inside her vagina
Guess what incubated that dream:
2 things.
1) Paula told me about a woman with uncontrollable orgasms because she had a maggot in her (after she and her guy used mayo as a lube)
2) I watched a funny YouTube about gay guys touching vaginas for the first time and one of them worried her would fall in.

Okay. That explains the cavern part But why the rest, brain... why?

Other than that, all is well.
Went out with hubby yesterday to try to drive over the snow in his big truck to tamp it down. the snow was up to my knees in most places... a little above my knees in others. I walked up and down the driveway several times. Lost my balance from exhaustion twice and fell.
We got the truck stuck (center was higher than the tires). I dug him out with my hands and arms and he finally gunned it enough to free himself.
Called a guy with a plow after that

Rave: The snow is beautiful. I'm loving it. The cats have been playing in it- such weirdos.
I go to the store tonight. The roads have been cleared. Hopefully we get just a little more of the white stuff before winter is over

Rant: I'm already broke and I haven't even left yet. Paula and Destinee are out of food until Friday (her last paycheck- still no tax return yet). We need cleaning supplies from all the poop monsters being inside the house... I need e-juice and coils this week. Ugh... I also need to pick up my Celexa. And buy gas. And food for myself.

I'm back on ecigs!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I built myself a nice double-coil. So nice to vape!
I've got some more juices coming, plus a temperature control mod to try out.
However they were out of batteries, I need to get one more because the two coil setup drains the battery so fast.

Rant: Currently procrastinating applying for a job, because it makes me nervous. I'll do it tomorrow, I swear....

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Show her to the couch (hope there is one lol) and extend a hand toward it (Ladies first), and when you sit, put your arms out on the back of the couch. if she comes in for the snuggle, you're good to go Just watch her body language. she might be too shy to inch over right away. Just leave your arms out so she sees you're "open". But if she looks uncomfortable, like you're in her bubble, go help with drinks or go to the rest room and then sit down as you normally would.
Grats. Try not to over-stress it and have a good time regardless.

At first, it was a bit awkward but it got so much better. I followed your advice and it worked . Like honestly we cuddled and held hands most time from 10pm till 8pm the next day. And at night when our friends were asleep we even properly kissed. There was a lot of touching involved as well, but of course I couldn't continue because of my infection. And she said it wasn't my fault so she was understanding but I still felt really silly. I wanted to tell her that she was my first kiss, but then again maybe she won't find it cute and it might put her off so yeah. But we really did have a great time and we're gonna meet up again this weekend and ahh I'm just so happy

wtg, Crashyy. Glad you had such a great time and that it went so well
Here's hoping for many, many more great dates.

Grats, Tommo. I wish I had the brains for coil building and e-juice making. $45. a week goes for my e-cig needs. $20. for coils and $23. for 30 ml e-juice. It's still much better than the $85. I was spending on cigarettes, but I'd love to be able to cut my spending even more
Coils are such a crap-shoot. Sometimes a box of 5 (Aspire Nautilus) will last 2 weeks. Often, though, I go through all 5. sometimes they feel clogged, others they taste burnt. *shrugs*

my rave is that I spent $6. on hemp cords to try a new lanyard with. The plastic bags just don't have enough staying power. If I want to sell them, I need a material that's going to last.

anyone familiar with Steam? Any idea how much bandwidth is used sharing broadcasts?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

wtg, Crashyy.
others they taste burnt. *shrugs*

my rave is that I spent $6. on hemp cords to try a new lanyard with. The plastic bags just don't have enough staying power. If I want to sell them, I need a material that's going to last.

Hemp?...Yeah, Burnt plastic bag tastes awful, Smoke the lanyards

hehehe, the lanyards don't smoke, the COILS just taste that way.
The plastic looks really nice (what the lanyad/case is made of), but after 3 months or so it's starting to fray and pick.

here's the first panel of the new lanyard.
HempLanyard.jpg

It only took 2 hours. I experimented with a different stitch because the cord doesn't cover as much. I don't know if I like the alternated raised look or not.
Rave: i finished one panel.
Rant: I started the second panel with different colors and realized I bought bamboo cord (yarn) instead of hemp And my hand is cramping so much I have to stop for the night.
I'm also VERY sleepy. I didn't wake up until 2:30-ish. I shouldn't be sleepy. Guess I'll try to crash anyhow.

Sweat dreams, DV.

I'm just so BORED! And I don't feel like moving boxes and furniture to the garbage bin outside later...

heh, I've been putting off cleaning my room and going to the laundromat, so I sympathize, Mobian.

I got the worst sleep last night that I think I've ever had. Someone left the overhead fan on in the bathroom. It's dust clogged and on its last leg of life. It sputtered and squeaked to the extreme. I thought it was my heater though. I turned my heater up, thinking it was dying. Woke again with cats fighting in the vents under the trailer... and again to what was the strangest sort of upper body/left side charley horse. I have NEVER had a charley horse in my upper arm and shoulder/back area before. I've only ever had them in my calves.
Got up for the final time at 10AM, drenched in sweat because my room got too hot. I had to get out of bed and take Miley to a doctors appointment. Getting dressed was ridiculously difficult. I wore sweats over leggings and zoned out several times before I could pull them up completely.

To make all of that worse, I had stress dreams during my last bit of sleep. I was traveling with hubby but couldn't find the room and forgot the room number. I didn't have a cellphone to call him. I heard him calling me (telepathically I guess lol), leaving me messages: "Where the hell are you?" Then there was luggage and clothes worries in there somewhere... I forgot to pack or something.
what a horrible night.

When I got up, I realized it was the bathroom fan and not my heater crapping out. I forbade everyone from using it and I'm going to tape over the switch later on for good measure.

I'm hungry and sleepy. Nothing sounds good to eat. I already had a chalupa (when out earlier).
I've felt like barfing all day.

Hope everyone is better than me today

Thanks Zhaylin. Currently learning the beginning of Ode to Joy by Bethoven. And my rave is work went great today!

I don't know what it is but I am in a good mood again today. Maybe its the meditation I practiced recently? Who knows hopefully I can stay like this for quite a while!

I'm in a great mood too Paula bought me a mini fridge. that makes me ridiculously happy lol
Birds a little freaked out by the humming, but he'll get used to it soon enough.
Milk, yogurt, 2 liters of sodas here I come

I'm actually in a pretty ok mood myself, despite some people calling me an ignorant child *cough* like my mother yesterday. Also, I need to stop taking naps...So many dreams I have and so much to write about in my DJ... @-@

My god, I'm remembering more dreams then I can write at once. I know I had like 4 of them today which have been long and forgotten. I'm only going to write the one I previously had. But I cannot complain, I'm happy that I am beginning to recall more and more often now~

excellent to hear some of you guys are doing ok tommo & crashy and zhaylin and oneiroer and mobian , k im going to celebrate on your behalf k thats enough

How do I not be so shy? There was a pretty girl on 2nd shift in my building that caught my eye some days as I was coming in. She changed jobs and is now working 3rd shift (same as me). But I walk passed by her and look away. It doesn't help that a coworker casually said, "Oh, there goes your girlfriend," when she walked passed us one day. At first I assumed he was just talking about one of the older women I work with (she does the same job as me and I work directly with her, so I just assumed he was busting my ass-which is usual in this work environment) and continued our conversation without a hitch, but later he again said (possibly sarcastically?), "You and [her name] would make a good couple," which is when I realized who he was actually talking about.

I guess I have poor self-confidence issues with women? Like, I don't even know how to initiate a conversation with this girl. "Yea... uh, this weather." See? I'm not a talkative person to begin with, and since our jobs really have no correlation whatsoever beyond walking passed each other, there's no 'reason' for me to even talk to her. I've been given advice before--and I'd like to think being in prior relationships would have helped--but apparently I'm still just awkward and shy. Bah, and here I am drunk rambling, spilling my guts and whatnot.


On a better note, I've been doing really well about going to the gym. Sometimes only twice a week, but I'll consider that acceptable until I finish school (only a 5 more months!)

I just went through a breakup with a guy I am so deeply in love with.. I haven't been this emotionally invested in a guy since my first love.. I'm trying to be okay with it and everything, there's no bitter feelings really I just wanna understand it better. I don't get how someone can bring you in so close, tell you that they love you, become intimate and not in the "I'm horny and wanna nut" way but in a sensual "I want you in my world kind of way" And then one day everythings different they dont see you as a romantic connection. Even though they spent a month making you feel like that person, how am I ever going to trust that someone is going to stay with me when that happens? How can I stop thinking it isn't something I'm doing in relationships that causes this cause it seems like very time someone's feelings change overnight, I go from the most important person to them to a stranger...

Sefalik and Moose
No words of wisdom or advice or comfort. Just lots of hugs.

I have a massive headache and can't think. I'm frustrated beyond belief and very cold. I woke to the smell of burning electric. Got up and yep- my circuit was blown from where the fridge was plugged in.
Gah. Unplugged it, flipped the breaker back on. Turned my heater and computer back on. Was talking to my son about the annoyance when we noticed wisps of smoke. Great. Then SPARK and the the outlet below it was on fire.

Urg! Turned the breaker off manually (it didn't flip) and unplugged the bottom surge protected multi-outlet that ran my heater. The ground prong was nearly burned off and one of the side prongs was half burned off
It's too early for all this crap. So I'm back in bed.

Tried sleeping it I'm hungry and have a terrible headache. Tried Facetiming my hubby to see if he has any electric disconnection thingies but he didn't answer. I need to find a screwdriver and take off the outlet cover then cut the wall and block the current. I need to do that before turning my power back on and it's just too cold to get out of bed until that time.

But I'm hungry

Today is going to be a major PITA. I have to bag all of my dirty clothes and stick them in the car. I need to then move the huge metal rolling shelving unit into another room (where everyone will pick through all my stuff and the cats will climb all over it and knock things over). I can then unplug my window AC and use the space for my fridge. All of this AFTER I clip the faulty wires.

At 5 or 6 hubby and I are driving 2 hours north to see his daughter and eat at the Indian restaurant.

What a terrible start of the day.

*EDIT**
BadOutlet.jpg
BadPlug.jpg
IT was a side prong, not the ground, that's nearly burned off. My sleep deprived brain mixed it up.

Hubby's coming over tomorrow to look at it. He wanted to come over today, but the house is too messy. Must clean firs.t
I risked turning the breaker back on in my room. All is well for now.

Now, I'm going to try to find some food, take some Tylenol, watcha show, play my game for an hour or 2 then start tackling my room.

I am exhausted. stayed up all night. Ray and I cleaned, off and on, through the wee hours. When the sun came up, he and I tackled the master bedroom (my room is in a walk-in closet or office or nursery off of the Master). Cat crap everywhere around the corners, buried under/behind boxes and discarded clothes. most of it was very old stuff so very easy to clean. We swept, mopped, bleached, arranged the boxes in an orderly fashion instead of strewn about the entire room. There were much fewer boxes than one would have assumed in its original condition.
I kept catching myself catching my breath out loud and sort of moaning because my back started being stricken by spasms.

Ray, eventually had to crash so I woke up the rest of the crew. Miley helped me with the Master while the girls worked on the kitchen until they got a call from a friend who needed to go to the hospital because her boyfriend beat her up (again).
When they got back, they mopped.
I kept working on my room during their breaks. SO much clutter, so little space. But I got my metal shelf cleaned and organized, packed all my dirty laundry and 2 boxes for storage.

Hubby came over at around 1:30 and we worked on the outlet until almost 4. we stood the entire time and my back spasmed some more
The outlet was so badly burned, he couldn't tell what caused the fire.

I'm certain it was just a matter of overloading it.
I now have a proper outlet with screws instead of those splicing jaws and a blue box which holds it all and further protects against fire somehow.

In other news, hubby and I drove out to eat with his daughter early last night and we saw a fireball along the way (he found out and linked to a YouTube about said fireball being seen from as far north as Ontario!). Dinner was amazing.
Paula and I went to the store afterward and I stopped for a soda on the way back... but couldn't find my keys for my bonus points (I drove her rental). I figured they were at home on my desk. Nope. Then, I figured I must have dropped them somewhere between the house and the car and I would look once the sun came up.
Sure enough, there they were, outside the back door of the car where I grabbed the left over Indian food for them.
and as I turned to come inside, my eye caught something black against the snow.

it was my cellphone which I dropped last Thursday when digging out hubby's truck.
I told myself not to even think about turning it on for a week. But when I set it on my desk in my room, it turned itself on. It played the tune it always does when turned on and flashed a message which i barely glimpsed before it died.
I'm bad about keeping my phone charged. It was half dead (or more!) when I lost it in the snow. I don't have bluetooth or wireless charging or anything. How did it power up? Did the warmth (or movement) shock it back to life?
Where it was- we must have driven over it a dozen times. It LOOKS fine. I'm still waiting a week before plugging it in to charge and check.

I will be going to sleep very soon lol

Hope everyone is well and having a great day.
(sorry for this novella )

Zhaylin, you seem to have handled the crisis so calmy! When my radiator caught on fire I did a lot of paniqued running and indignified screaming XD

Lost my voice to The Sick. Battling The Sick with strong antibiotics because I don't want to try my luck with penicillin as I may be allergic, and those antibiotics give me mild sensory hallucination. This is not as fun as it sound.
My mother jocked that I may be doing mononucleosis again. I may have threatened to scream in anguish. But I made a sad squeaky sound instead, because The Sick got my voice.

Rant: So apparently you need copper or titanium coils for temperature control. So I just have a useless ecig mod sitting here until I get those coils.
Bloody hell....

Well it's not useless, but the temp control doesn't work, so it's the same as my other mod, except bigger.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Grats, Tommo. I wish I had the brains for coil building and e-juice making. $45. a week goes for my e-cig needs. $20. for coils and $23. for 30 ml e-juice. It's still much better than the $85. I was spending on cigarettes, but I'd love to be able to cut my spending even more
Coils are such a crap-shoot. Sometimes a box of 5 (Aspire Nautilus) will last 2 weeks. Often, though, I go through all 5. sometimes they feel clogged, others they taste burnt. *shrugs*

It's really not hard! You can buy pre-made coils. You just buy some organic cotton, boil it for 10 mins, let it dry, lightly roll it, then shove it inside the coil.
Actually you don't even have to boil it, but you can taste the cotton for the first tank of juice if you don't. I usually don't bother.
Then you put the coil in the atomizer and screw the screws down.

You can buy like 20 pre-made coils for $5 or something IIRC.
On top of that, when it starts to taste bad/burnt, you can take the cotton out, dry burn the coil, and put new cotton in.
I use the same coil for 2 months or more.

If you get the Delta II starter pack or whatever it is, it'll come with everything you need to at least give it a go.
Probably other ones do as well, but that's the one I got.

I no longer make my own juice really. I get Mt Baker Vapor juice and dilute it with VG. Their flavours are super strong, so it works well.
It was way too paranoia-inducing having high strength nicotine and trying not to spill it, cleaning up etc. Not worth it, IMO.

Originally Posted by sefalik

How do I not be so shy? There was a pretty girl on 2nd shift in my building that caught my eye some days as I was coming in. She changed jobs and is now working 3rd shift (same as me). But I walk passed by her and look away. It doesn't help that a coworker casually said, "Oh, there goes your girlfriend," when she walked passed us one day. At first I assumed he was just talking about one of the older women I work with (she does the same job as me and I work directly with her, so I just assumed he was busting my ass-which is usual in this work environment) and continued our conversation without a hitch, but later he again said (possibly sarcastically?), "You and [her name] would make a good couple," which is when I realized who he was actually talking about.

I guess I have poor self-confidence issues with women? Like, I don't even know how to initiate a conversation with this girl. "Yea... uh, this weather." See? I'm not a talkative person to begin with, and since our jobs really have no correlation whatsoever beyond walking passed each other, there's no 'reason' for me to even talk to her. I've been given advice before--and I'd like to think being in prior relationships would have helped--but apparently I'm still just awkward and shy. Bah, and here I am drunk rambling, spilling my guts and whatnot.


On a better note, I've been doing really well about going to the gym. Sometimes only twice a week, but I'll consider that acceptable until I finish school (only a 5 more months!)

Obviously there's not much you can do if you're never next to each other for a while. Just walking past each other doesn't really give you a chance to say anything except hi. I'd try not paying much attention to her, just give a quick "hey" as you walk past. Then if you're ever near each other for a while, just talk about something you did recently.

It feels so dumb at first, you think people don't give a shit what you've been doing etc. But if you listen to other people talk, they usually either talk about stuff they've been doing, or gossip about what other people have been doing.
And since you're at work, there's always the good ol' bitching about work. Just don't rely on that or overdo it because it makes you look too negative.

So you could start with something like "Man this is a looong shift, wish I was out doing ____. I did that the other day and it was awesome bla bla bla". If she shows interest, you ask if she likes doing ____. Then conversation may flow. Or she may be completely uninterested and you just ruined everything. It's a practicing thing

Ayyyy, been a while. How are you all?

Anyways, what's new is that my mother is finally getting off my case. I made it very clear that there is no way I want to be an IT. I got other options I want, mainly engineering. I'm considering Pharmacy but it's french bases in the only college I can go to. Plan B is Accounting or Finance in business. Also, I'm researching a lot of options so this list is growing. IK my mother is just worried that I might never go to university, but she knows me best. She knows I want a college degree. She's the kind of mother, a kind of person, that worries and overthinks and just goes crazy if something is not under her control. I can understand why. She's the head of our family, and that's a big responsibility. Also my brother quit school and is learning to be an electrician, and that is for her a low standard, so IK why she's paranoid about me.

Other than that, let's see, I'm improving a lot in music production. Didn't get a midi yet but what can you do? TwT

On the bright side, I'm glad this issue with my mother is almost over. I can feel the stress going off my shoulders.

Some pony around here is bashing the current avatar I found on Google. Ears to big, monochrome a ugly color. Well look at your derpy face and tell me whats not wrong with it. If your reading this than I'm sure you will know who you are.

I'm pissed because I just figured out what lucidity actually meant! Now I don't know if this site is will suffice in what I intended on being here for to begin with...

...After a nice nap, and a reply regarding my concerns. I'm feeling a bit better now.

I've just started a vertical leap training thingy to try and be able to finally dunk. I'm nearly 6'6 but my jumping ability... isn't spectacular. If I am lucky I can roll the ball over the ring into the net but I want the satisfaction of a proper slam dunk haha. Hopefully this will help me achieve that.
Oh also why is finding part time work so damn hard :/

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

1) Paula told me about a woman with uncontrollable orgasms because she had a maggot in her (after she and her guy used mayo as a lube)

Well.. there goes my hopes of ever having a good night's sleep again!