Thread: Tell me about your addiction/bad habit

I'm a smoker, and I smoke more than I would have pictured myself smoking; I'm not to concerned about the health problems, I don't really care, I have that "I'm gonna die anyway" attitude, so cram the experiences I feel like I want to in there. But the thing is, upwards of half a pack a day can get to be quite the dinger on the wallet. I also have a nailbiting habit, can't not bite my nails, and I never have any fingernail length because of it xD

Weed! I love it and smoke every day when I can. It relaxes me and makes me happy. Don't really see it as an issue except when I gotta apply for a job that requires a piss test. Then I quit for three weeks and start smokin again later that day. I never smoke on the job or at work - ever. Life is good!

Originally Posted by LucidAurora

Weed! I love it and smoke every day when I can. It relaxes me and makes me happy. Don't really see it as an issue except when I gotta apply for a job that requires a piss test. Then I quit for three weeks and start smokin again later that day. I never smoke on the job or at work - ever. Life is good!

I thought about including weed, but while I use marijuana daily, I wouldn't say I have a problem with it as it doesn't interfere with my life.

I pick my nose, my feet and I m-bate. I am the equivalent of a male nymph, my libido is turbo charged. Thankfully, after reading some of Deepak Chopra's, "Path To Love", chapter 5, I had the realization that this strong desire to control my sexual urges is rooted in fear. So to deal with this long had, and now long unwanted habit, I need to figure out what that fear is and face it.

I think I'll keep the picking my nose habit for now. Boogers can be tasty...

I can't seem to do more than one thing at a time. In other words, I can draw but not write, write but not draw, pursue some art on the computer but not draw or write.

Lately I have trouble keeping my good habits going, like exercise, meditation, shamanic journeying, spiritual studies and my artistic pursuits. I am also struggling with deeply ingrained mindsets inherited from my tribe, former and current. Poverty, lack, former Christian beliefs, current beliefs I call "Truth". At least I learned how, and am now able to, release and let go of any beliefs that proved untrue, low-vibration, wrong. etc. So I can release and let go of anything I call "Truth" the instant it is proven wrong, if it is, as my beliefs are no longer a part of my identity, as they were when I was a Christian.

I used to suck my thumb well into my teens. I managed to break that habit on my own. But it took a LONG time.

If depression and anger are habits, I also broke those as well. Used to be clinically depressed (self-diagnosis) and I would get angry a lot.

The only other possible bad habit I may have is that I am still alone and have few friends. I think this is probably a mindset issue.

Well I'm the King of Procrastination I have this urge to collect or gather knowledge and information about all those unusual things, to research and postmortem the hell out of it . But after I get it & read it, I just don't apply the knowledge. I'm a victim of Information overload. I'm a science student but I'm not interested in the science they teach at school. But I fucking love science. Does that make sense!! lol . I mean I constantly try to improve myself and be better Although I know that I have that talent & skills needed to get past all difficulties IF I Commit. That fact is that I don't. I mean in the past 2 years, I researched about, Lucid dreaming (obviously) , The power of our Subconscious mind, Seduction, Self -Hypnosis , Conversational Hypnosis, Writing ,NLP, Brainwave Entrainment, Mental Photography or Photoreading, Speed reading , Fucking everything, You name it! I don't remember all of them now. And I always look for products on these over the net, torrent I mean. And I don't rest until I get it or get something Better. But I fucking don't just apply the knowledge. Why. Cause I'm a fucking Procrastinator.

Originally Posted by Spenner

On your off times, do you have a lot of side effects from this? Serotonin syndrome at all? Perhaps mood enhancing is just the temporary pull away from the deprived brain. I could be wrong of course-- how often do you dose DXM, and how long have you allowed yourself to stay sober for?

I am addicted to the feeling of being out of my mind, just because the feeling of sobriety lends itself to intense mood swings, anxiety, and just a general feeling of discomfort. While I am craving, all the time, to get SOMETHING to alter my state, generally I don't, but the draw it always there.

My most compulsive addiction is nose picking. I will leave a room and go to the bathroom on instinct if I feel any sort of discomfort in my nose, and going to bed, I can rarely sleep quickly, I have to getup and make sure my nasal cavity is totally clear. I cannot even begin to describe how unsettling the feeling is. I've been doing this ever since I was very young, granted I at least keep myself sanitized properly nowadays >_> it's embarrassing but that's my biggest issue. Blowing my nose more often helps.

Sorry, it's been a while since I've been on DV. I've actually been off DXM now for about 2 months, and now that I have been I actually don't even feel like doing it. Sometimes when the opportunity to do it arises, I legitimately just don't feel like it. Kind of strange.

Anyway, DXM is an unselective seretonin reuptake inhibitor of decent potency, so serotonin syndrome would have been from using and not coming off of it. I also have never experienced serotonin syndrome despite making a lot of combinations that usually you get warnings about SS. Maybe it's because I've had regular strenuous exercise for the past 7 years of my life but I'm unusually tolerant of drugs and any negative side effects. When I was still using DXM I was using it about 4 to 6 times a week. Usually at a dose of at least 300mg, more likely between 450 and 600mg. On the weekends I binged even harder and in the weekend alone I would often consume over a gram and sometimes two.

I feel the same as you about being addicted to feeling being out of my mind. Especially then. It's under control now, but I just prefer life that way. Many times when I had taken extended breaks before quitting I would get lots of moodswings but over a long stretch of time (such as the course of the week) and it made me feel like I was an ultracycling bipolar sufferer. However, I'm fairly stable in mood now.

My worst habit is trailing off in the middle of a sentence when I'm talking with people, then I forget what I'm talking about! It's made people mad in the past but I've always had trouble talking to people anyway, lol.

My knee also pops constantly from bad hockey playing posture!!

Another bad habit of mine is writing too quickly to read, being impatient (too many traits to list under this habit) and drinking when I get emotional.

Smoking cigarettes and falling in love with people I can't have.

Went from cigarettes to a vaporizer - still on nicotine - but no lung-cancer - no 200 noxious substances just from burning something - instead of only the something as such..

Got to take care of not overdoing posting on forums..cheeky.gif

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To be honest I am amazed how many people here have problems with eye contact, I nearly always keep strong eye contact and it gives me a sort of tension that I like.

I used to smoke a lot of cigs but quit that, now I am 'addicted' to weed. For the past 2 years I have smoked a lot and I have tried to quit over and over. Now I have smoked once in the past 11 days so it's going well actually, for the first time in ages. Oh and I used to watch a lot of porn. Now I don't watch that shit anymore, in fact I am even abstaining from masturbation to learn self-control. So yeah... that's me, lol.

I'm addicted to veggies. If I haven't ate any in like 2 days, I start craving for it and getting a tad upset.
And I must admit, I'm not proactive as I can be sometimes. That's a lazy habit of mine.

Veggies?! That sounds like a good thing though lol.

Originally Posted by Athylus

Veggies?! That sounds like a good thing though lol.

Yeah true. I'm not a huge fan of meat though. So it plays against me when I go to restaurants and there's not a wide range of dishes for me to choose from. I dunno if it's possible to go into vegetable intake withdrawal, but that's what I feel like when I haven't had it in awhile. I'll be cranky lol.

Originally Posted by puddlekins

Yeah true. I'm not a huge fan of meat though. So it plays against me when I go to restaurants and there's not a wide range of dishes for me to choose from. I dunno if it's possible to go into vegetable intake withdrawal, but that's what I feel like when I haven't had it in awhile. I'll be cranky lol.

So what do you eat? Pretty much veggies as a snack I guess, I used to eat cold carrots and I liked it. My mom bought them, but she's moved out already 8 years ago so it's been a long time lol!

Originally Posted by Athylus

So what do you eat? Pretty much veggies as a snack I guess, I used to eat cold carrots and I liked it. My mom bought them, but she's moved out already 8 years ago so it's been a long time lol!

Veggies, tofu, rice, eggs (I'm not vegan), fruit. I actually eat alot; sometimes too much in one sitting.
Cold carrots are yummy! Bless your mum. (:

Cold carrots. <3

I look away from where I'm talking to. That's an issue sometimes.

Oh and I fall for pretty gits. That's an issue all the time.

Caffeine & Procrastination

I love caffeine. Mostly Cola's than coffee drinks. I've been trying to cut down. Procrastination.. ugh. I have a habit of taking my sweet time with things that i don't find too interesting. But only if it involves what i do. I always try to be considerate & focused, if others are involved. I just need to be that way when it's just me.

Originally Posted by StephL

Went from cigarettes to a vaporizer - still on nicotine - but no lung-cancer - no 200 noxious substances just from burning something - instead of only the something as such.. ..

Good for you :-)
I got a good vaporizer but still smoking normal cigg's, I know, I'm weak :-(

I smoke my E-Cigarette too much. I impulsively make decisions I rarely see through.

I love to eat till I drop halfdead...I just love the taste of good food so much

I have so much tea. There is literally no reason why I should ever have this much tea.

New bad habit; flirting with guys that are not my boyfriend

I love food & I'm lazy. Terrible combination. Ever since I started Zoloft for panic attacks, my appetite is always in overdrive. I've gained a solid 35 pounds; used to be 100, now 135. I used to eat really small portions & now I have no sense of when I'm full. It sucks.

I'm also pretty selfish, not going to lie. I like helping people, but it's kind of an on my own time thing, which is pretty shameful.