Hello DV,

It has been a while since I have logged onto here, but to catch you all up, I have been a member here since 2005. I am 30 years old, and have studied dreams / lucid dreaming ever since I joined here.

To get you all caught up with the things I have realised in the last month I guess I can start when I was a child. I was about 5 years old and I moved into a house that was haunted by a demonic spirit. Every time I would go to bed, I would wake up in the middle of the night with the most extreme feeling of evil and fear. So strong, that I could feel my own fear. That whatever was standing over my bed side, If I were to move, would get me.

I would lay there in my bed silently in the night, watching these little blue "imps" or demons, fly across my room. They would pass through my floor, walls, and jump off my dresser and vanish into thin air. I still have an image of one of the imps walking toward me, and poppin up and down. It is burned into my mind.

One night I woke up after a nightmare and found 3 scratch marks on my stomach. Sign of a demonic haunting. I would also get the extreme feeling as I was sleeping, of being raped. I have never had any such things happen to me ever in my life. They call what i just describe, a succubus.


I didn't realize what I went through until actually a month ago. 25 years after the incidences took place. I remember though, always walking through life, feeling disconnected. Like I was constantly looking or searching for something I was never going to find.

Through all the oppression, I found out I was an Empath. I found out I can pick up on people's energy, past and present. Energy in my surroundings. I also sense spiritual energy.

Through out my life and my piecing together the puzzle pieces of what I went through and this so called "ability" I mastered the art of Astral Projection...

This is how I can best describe it.

I am greatly intune with my own inner energy. I can feel my energy constantly wanting to leave my body, but the only thing holding me back is the solid mass it is stuck inside (my body).

I sometimes get this sensation i describe as the "Drop Floor Effect ". Where you get the extreme sensation of the ground below your feet just vanishing and your energy free falling, but cannot escape your body.

I also get the extreme feeling of my energy wanting to lift up off the ground and start flying (same sensation when I lucid dream) but cannot due to being trapped inside my body.

There are other times, I feel as if all my energy on the inside is "sucking inward" or "imploding" on it self. Imagine a circle just shrinking until nothing is left, that is how it feels.

I feel honestly if I did not have a body, I could teleport. Thus is not possible, due to being stuck inside a solid mass.


Lastly, there are points in time almost daily, where I feel my inner energy is so charged (all my body hair stands up, i get energy "goosebumps") that if I were to reach out and touch someone, I would shock them.

The last month, coming to terms with what I went through in my childhood home, and putting together all the other pieces of my "ability" I feel as if I unlocked a part of my brain that allows me to constantly Astral Project at will, and I cannot "shut it off". Like my IQ just went through the roof type stuff.

People think it would be amazing to have an ability like that. To be an Empath. To feel the worlds surrounding energies. To feel spirits of the past and present.

If you ask me, I feel my soul and energy is wanting to leave and escape my body. To be free.

I am telling everyone here at dreamviews, I am that damn close to just "being gone". Only thing holding me back is my body. It's the cage that sustains me.

If you ever seen the movie "Powder" when he runs through the field one second, the next, gone. Ya, How I so wish could be possible.



There is more I want to explain, but to prevent a novel i'll post more later. Please let me know what you all think.. What can I do to help these sensations of wanting to leave my body?

Thank you,

Your beloved DV member since 2005

SpiritoftheWolf