Keitorin's Dream Log

Fell asleep: 12:10 A.M. (with 50mg trazodone)
Woke up: 9:25 A.M.

9 hours 4 minutes sleep last night
7 hours 10 minutes restful sleep
1 hours 53 minutes restless sleep
79 % restful sleep

Fragment1: Something about a spider and one being behind my pillow. When I woke up, I was paranoid for all of two seconds before exhaustion said eff it and I went back to sleep.

Fragment 2: Two people talking, just in time the big dude goes into the room where the other is and closes the door as an Alien movie type creature patrols by. We were there hacking into a database, and we thought it was all good until the other (me??) looks at a terminal and sees green text and numbers (like in Matrix) flashing and I warn the guy about it. Skip. We're transported on top of a mountain-island. The details are jumbled here, but we transport off of onto another island. It seems like the mountain-island was some hard place to get to, so maybe we shouldn't have left. On this island, we realize that we have to take down these orange creatures before we can keep going.

Inspiration: The RPG event going on in Hesokuri Wars (Osomatsu-san app).

Fragment 3: Mom is looking through my mismatched socks and finds the green/white tie-dyed one. She seems to be about to throw it away, so I quickly reach out for it and explain that I want to keep it. I start to mention that the other one has a hole in it, but my mind freezes as I recall that we already had this conversation.

Inspiration: We actually did already talk about the socks but she thought it was fine to keep the one.

Fragment 4: Looking in the fridge and being surprised to see that my blue flowery cup is in there and full of water. I wonder how long it's been in there and if it tastes okay.

Wakeup times:
1:50 A.M. for 10 minutes
3:20 A.M. for a minute
4:01 A.M. for 3 minutes
4:20 A.M. for a minute
6:40 for A.M. 4 minutes
7:57 A.M. for three minutes
8:10 A.M. for 2 minutes

I remember waking up once for the spider dream, once because my cat was sleeping on my back, and once because she was rustling a bag and I sat up and saw that it was stuck on her head... I know a woke 2-3 more times for dreams but was too tired to do much about it. I stayed up a bit late reading. @_@

Fell asleep: 1:55 A.M. (with 25mg trazodone)
Woke up: 8:10 A.M.

6 hours 14 minutes sleep last night
5 hours 10 minutes restful sleep
1 hours 4 minutes restless sleep
83 % restful sleep

Fragment 1:

Apparently my Uncle J made a surprise visit, and he transported his pool water with him and put it in a ditch. We went there to see him. The water was turquoise blue. I got upset because K, J's daughter, was there too, and no one had told me. This would be the third time my sister had surprised me with her and put me in a vulnerable position.

Gap.

I was in the water and trying to swim around, but it was just way too shallow and uneven for it.

Note: While my sister did hurt me twice IWL, one time involved school friend A and the other another school friend (L) and her dad. K had nothing to do with it, but my dad was talking to J & K via Skype yesterday.

Fragment 2:

Cole (Pillywiggin on here) showed me about 7 sheets of paper. They were all from penpals he was writing to. I was surprised and like "why didn't you tell me? :O". They all had fanart drawn on them, some had a little text, some had a lot, but they were all in Japanese.

-Detective Conan. Doodles of Conan mainly I think. There was a lot of text on it and I was worried Cole wouldn't be able to read it all. Some part of me asked why Cole would have this, because he isn't into DC like me.
-Undertale. I remember a small Toriel doodle.
-Sailor Moon. The page was mostly filled with a colored illustration of Sailor Moon.
Aaand that's all the ones I remember. :'<

Cole said that the art he'd sent back was all from the Homestuck game he'd been making but had never finished.

I was really curious about doing it too, but I wasn't that great at art like Cole so I was worried what I'd put in my letters.

Wakeup times:
7:25 A.M. for 20 minutes

General notes:

I find it so interesting when I question things in the dream idly. I can see where it could lead to becoming lucid if more awareness was in the picture. It's kind of amusing to be going along in the dream and be like 'but x doesn't make sense' and such and still just...keep going. Either because you make up an excuse or because you shrug it off. *smh*

Yesterday:

I’m wandering around the store with mom. I tell her that I have to go to the bathroom, but she’s insistent on finding someone (grandma?). I say that I’ll pee my pants if we don’t find a bathroom soon.

Gap.

We’re walking on a cement path, and mom points out something she made while there – at her old college.

Gap.

Somehow I end up flying across into some water. I can’t swim and think ‘it’s over’ but try holding my breath in hopes of floating to the top.

Somehow I make it to a little building suspended on wooden sticks, and I cling to them.

I see three people in black jackets with POLICE written on them standing facing away from me, below knee deep in the water.

“HELP ME!” I scream. When they don’t quite react, I scream it once more. This time they turn around, guns out, and head toward me shouting for me to put my hands up, etc. It scares me even more and I start crying.

Gap.

I’m dead and holding the parts you get when your body is gone. There were three things, but all I remember is a screw-like item.

I go home and am talking to mom about it. Apparently grandma or grandpa had died a few days before.

I ask her if I look any different (I believe I’m a ghost). She says I just look a little faded. I try to see if I feel any different, but I just feel kind of wobbly and off.

They’re about to eat – soup and something else. I realize that I can’t eat any, and figure I’ll just hang out while they do.

Inspiration: Some police cars and an ambulance went by last night. I think the ‘items’ from the body comes from watching Big Hero 6 and the microbots.

Today:

I break up with a guy and am getting ready to leave. I see a inanimate cat lying on a table, there’s a way to animate it. I blew a puff of air onto it.

I leave with a celebrity girl. I climb into the car, and am surprised when she gets in on the opposite side I expected her too.

I’m filling out the third part of a form, it’s normally reserved for cats but I’m using it for something else.

Gap.

I’m lying down and someone is kneeling next to me, attaching a device to my body. Then they untied the wires and said ‘they could still see something’ and I got the impression it was something like an aura around my body.

Inspiration: I’ve read a few fics with daemons lately, think the cat was inspired by that. And being a ghost/having an aura most likely was inspired by me watching Steven Universe lately.

A guy is in a swimming race, but it’s not in a pool, but on a water slide type thing. He’s going through a building on the way, and it’s like an obstacle course, looking for a way through. There were some other people there and he’s stopped by someone.

He’s talking to a medium. She prepares him for the next stretch, but says she can’t tell him about his opponent.

Inspiration: I feel strongly that the racers were Yowamushi Pedal characters. I just watched an episode that focused heavily on Imaizumi and Midousuji racing each other. The medium thing rings a bell too but I can’t remember what from.

Two guys are trying to figure out some mystery. One has darker hair, the other light brown/blond. They hear a girl say something like “I don’t want to see you ever again.” They had heard that line spoken by another girl. They jump into action and see a girl walking away from a bald guy whose features are a bit like Uncle Fester’s from Addam’s Family. She had very long brown hair and was wearing makeup.

The dark-haired guy takes the girl aside to talk to her. The other hides at the bottom of the stairs to the left. The setting was like a fish village with wooden docks. The bald guy comes over and sits on him like he’s not even there. It’s pretty comical. The blond guy wiggles his way out from under him.

Jump.

The two guys are riding their bikes through the village. There are other people riding, and they’re all bald guys. I think how much they stand out.

I turn to look at mom and say how it’s making me dizzy to watch them ride in that perspective – it’s a camera view from the sky, and you can see that one of the boys is riding close to the edge, and there’s water surrounding them.

Mom agrees.

‘I’m’ on a ship that’s sailing through a body of water. It passes the same piece of log with ropes tied on it three times, and there was some story about sunken ship(s). As it gets to third one, one of three(?) girls mentions it worriedly. Another says something like ‘it’s just a legend’.

There’s a view of a boat ahead paddling past the log, and the left paddle almost hits a piece of wood sticking out from the log.

The ship is parked next to something like a sandbar in the water. The mood feels like a vacation, everyone’s preparing to relax and have fun. The girl who was worried before gets off the ship and goes onto the strip of sand stuff and feels safer there for some reason.

There’s a little girl playing on the circle at the end of the sandbar and a ‘ritzy’ couple sitting off to side with their small dog.

Scene changes to inside the ship. A couple is trying to have sex but their child keeps interrupting. The man tells her to go do something and not come back until she reaches ‘zero’.

The couple canoodling scene changes into one of a NC-17 rated horror scene, a mix between the Halloween movies, Law & Order: Special Victims Unit and Criminal Minds shows. I unfortunately remember parts of it and I woke up feeling sick and had a hard time getting back to sleep. So I’d rather not have to type it up. @_@

The girl’s voice sounds, saying ‘here there are’ and such. She brings a worker/cook (she’s wearing a uniform and apron) with her, who starts screaming when she sees the scene of carnage – and the killer who’s causing it. The killer reminds me of Jason and Michael. Think he was even wearing a mask, but he had near shoulder length kinky red-ish hair.

The girl is screaming too. They run. The girl had short, mousy brown hair and was about ten or eleven years old. The worker was middle-age or younger with her light-colored hair put up.

Tags: murder, disturbing, children, water, ships, dogs

The dentist tells me I’ll need to eat something. She gives me a saucer with a small strawberry on it and then leaves to clean up. Apparently there’s going to be an operation or something.

Me and mom can hear the water running and wonder what’s taking so long. I figure she must be taking a shower rather than washing her hands.

I talk to mom about how I hate strawberries and wonder if I should tell the dentist how I puked the last time I tried one. I might be fibbing there, but close enough.

I end up hurrying out of the room to try and find something else to eat. I find a basket of pears [that’s actually peaches] and slice off some of that. Somehow I end up with some kind of cake stuff on the plate too.

I’m looking at a magazine and mom suggests I trade it with the one I have [something to do with the date on it?].

Then I’m looking through a book, which has scraps of paper in it. I figure some of them were used as bookmarks by the last person to read it. I come to a paper with Spike Spiegel on it. It has a place to sign your name and the date, and something about putting down what power you have but it was some strange term. I didn’t know what to put there so I just out my name and date [though I don’t remember what it was].

I can’t remember if it was in the magazine or book, but a ‘date’ was written: 1-2-1.

Back in the room with plate in hand, a guy comes in and starts talking. I’m wondering who the heck he is but apparently he’s taking over or helping.

Inspirations: Talking about our teeth issues, mom has peaches in the fridge and I have coffee cake, I saw a Spike Spiegel post on tumblr recently, been reading food magazines lately, have had a lot of doctor’s visits lately and was thinking about my teeth

I went over to the stove and saw that mom was making some kind of pasta dish. I decided to make some with egg noodles instead. Mom later tells me she liked them better but I liked hers.

I’m in a parking lot sitting on a car or something? My black fan is running on high on me. Mom comes over to apologize, saying she’s been tired lately. She lets the fan run on her. Rane goes by slowly on a bike and asks us a question, maybe what we’re doing. The fan is on low now and I figure mom turned it down.

Mom is in a garage looking at stuff. She points out a package on top of a vehicle and says I need to get to looking at it. It has a bit of water on top of it.

-Déjà vu looking around at stuff. [I’ve had a few dreams where I look around at stuff in places.]



As I open it, Midousuji comes over and jeers at me. Apparently it’s a gift from him.

The first thing on top is some fabric material with aliens on it or some creature in a cartoonish style. I say sarcastically sweet, “Aww, how cute!’.

Underneath is a smallish book, some kind of sacrilegious school porno book called ‘The School’ or something.

Inspirations: The pasta I made the other night, me and mom being moody lately, me receiving books in the mail in packages, me watching Yowamushi Pedal and trying to figure Midousuji out, looking at fabric to make me a new quilt and pillow covers…

1. Me and Rane steal a treadmill from a storage unit full of them, because, “she [owner] will never notice, she has so many of them”. I’m initially worried but then realize the truth of that statement.

Inspiration: (Nearly) stole an elliptical in a previous dream. Storage unit from a memory palace trigger plus a different dream. I think that because I don’t know a whole lot of people I see regularly, my sister kind of stands in. I’ve been trying to increase the faces in my ‘database’ lately though.

2. I’m trying to escape a room I’m locked up in. The room is kind of messy with things scattered around. I’d already tried the windows in the main room but they were locked securely, so I went to another smaller room and took off all the coverings on the window to open it.

I went back to the other room and started shoving things into a sack, including a few long-sleeved things and two of my pajama pants IWL (one with moons and stars, another with clouds).

I went out the window, and there was a wooden porch, but there was a gap to get to the ground. As well, there was some kind of torch system going at intervals, and the only way to get down was to go around it, and risk getting burned. Plus the railing was thin, so I had to balance carefully.

I carefully climbed around and tried to pass the fire when it was off, but it came back on and the heat of the flames burned my left thigh. It was intense but not a strong burning sensation. I hurried on and jumped down to the ground, where I saw some water trickling out of a gutter or something. I turned from it and let it hit my thigh. It was cold.

Back at the house, some time seems to have passed since I escaped. A woman says to a man that it’s all his fault I left. It kind of felt like they were supposed to be my parents. Then I see a scene the man had set up. There was a small bag (think tea bag) labeled ‘Marijuana’ and a paper that had “Do it” written on it. He was trying to set the woman up for something.

Inspirations: May be symbolic for how I feel about wanting to ‘escape’ my current lifestyle but can’t because I’m dependant on my parents. Also, I had a déjà-vu like feeling and remembered another dream like this where I was trying to escape a room out a window. The déjà-vu feelings tend to come on pretty intensely the more I work on my recall, but lately the feeling comes because I recall similar dreams. The porch felt like my grandma’s back porch despite the differences, in which case her house is one of my memory palaces and is a dream sign. Marijuana probably comes from the trigger ‘meth’ in my dream palace.

Wednesday: Angel wings on someone, a wolf (me?)

-A man gets in water to heal, but apparently there’s some (light gray) stain left over that a woman points out on his chest. He thinks it may just be a stain on his shirt, but when he lifts up the shirt, the imprint is on his body too.

He’s at home and wondering how to tell his family.

-Someone (me?) is drawing in pen. They lean back and see that it’s a picture of Kabeyama (from Inazuma Eleven), but he’s a bit off on one side.

-A girl (possibly Ella) in a house talking (to me?).

Note: Still fixing my sleep schedule, so I’m tired lately and my recall/productivity is suffering.

1. I’m modeling and I look in a sideways full-length mirror hanging on a wall. My hair is long and brown, and I’m wearing overalls. I’m supposed to be modeling as a guy, so I’m not wearing a shirt underneath and don’t have breasts. I believe I had a conversation with someone before this.

There’s a box with a smaller black cat in it, and the cat is my best friend Pillywiggin. She was using her powers to turn a different color and to blend in to the box.

I remember leaning back against some pillows on a bed at some point, and there was mom’s heart-shaped pillow.

2. Cupping water in my hand and freezing it with the F8 key (after trying out other keys). I held up a chunk of ice and was showing it to someone.

Inspiration: 1) I was looking at some old pics of myself this week. I used to have long, brown hair in one of them. Bed/pillow comes from my reading on my mom’s bed every night.

Notes: I managed to get to sleep a bit earlier than usual but woke up early again. Since I am worried about oversleeping, I’ve been subtly shifting my schedule to wake up an hour earlier. Today was a tiring day so I know I’ll get to sleep pretty fast.

1. Impression of a boy who might have actually been a girl + something to do with soccer, and two bulleted lists

2. I ran out of my grandma’s house to escape from a scary dark-clothed shorter man. I’m running down her gravel driveway as he comes out the door. The scene jumps into one of me running down a road in heavy rain, I can barely see where I’m going. I believe it was dark out.

3. I’m in a big jacuzzi-like bathtub, my dad is off to the left. I think it must have been on a TV, but I’m seeing a scene of Xena and Gabrielle from Xena: Warrior Princess making out/as lovers.

4. I have to pee but I can’t go downstairs because the bottom steps are blocked off by a curtain because we’re bombing for bugs downstairs. Apparently the bathroom up here didn’t exist in the dream, because mom says I’ll have to use that one - she points to a bathroom squeezed in in the space between at the top of the stairs and mom’s cabinet.

I pull the doors (there were two) closed, but then realize I left the way to the stairs open, so I push the outer door back open (even though it doesn’t really block the way well). I’m sitting on the toilet but there is no door anymore. Mom looks in and I get really upset. I run to my room nearly in tears, slam the door (it doesn’t work right as usual, so I pull up on the handle as I do because it’s messed up) and throw shoes at the door.

Inspiration: #2) No idea but it was scary! Although the rain part was interesting, such heavy rain! #3) I get the feeling I saw something about Xena in the last few months, but before that I hadn’t thought of it in a while. #4) We sprayed for roaches this morning. I woke up at 6:40 before the spraying and went back to sleep so the dream came after that. Come to think of it, that’s the longest dream I’ve had taking place in a house I currently live in.

Notes: I had a hard time getting to sleep and woke up multiple unrestful times. x_x Just realized all the dreams but one involved water… I did sorta have to go when I woke up but not that bad. Hm.

-A man lost his water creature. The setting was some kind of enclosed space with foliage and streaming water. Best way I can explain the creature is if it were a tadpole version of the dragon from the book I’m reading:



Except the dragon in that book is still young at that size, that’s why I say a tadpole version. =P The creature is really just a bit bigger than a lobster.

I remember being there in some capacity and looking the other way when I hear he lost it, as if I didn’t want to get involved.

-We’re (me, mom and dad) packing our stuff in a car to move, but it looks too crowded in to me. Mom asks me to get in, but when I do, I feel very claustrophobic and have to get out. There’s a big desk in the back.

-Before moving, I go to a pool to say my goodbyes. I think I wasn’t polite as I could have been.
~Carrying like three bundled up white blankets to put into the trunk, mom is helping me. I notice that you can see semi-provocative BL images on the sides of a couple of them, but I decide to pretend it ain’t no thang and continue packing them in.

-We’re in a hotel type place and there are a few people coming and going - seems like one of them is going to stay there after we go. I am sitting on the floor or leaning over and tickling the toes of a little girl sitting on a coach as I wait. She gives me a grumpy face and kicks her feet away. Mom is disassembling the desk. I worry that she’s mad about it for a moment, but she actually almost seems gleeful as she breaks it up. Someone says “we still have two minutes” - just in case the people staying there next seem antsy.

Inspiration: Water creature - probably from the book I’m reading. Pool - possibly inspired by Free!. Same with the BL.

Notes: Why am I having so many moving dreams lately? o_O

Emotion: Panic/claustrophobia, feeling like I was rude

The only thing I remember about this morning's dreams was something about recordings, mom and dad, and a town or something/a game??

Yesterday's dreams...

Dream 1:

- I was talking/arguing to dad about religion, specifically about how Paganism was infused in everything.
- Dad and someone else were going to ride on an oven pan (lol wat), but I needed it and was hoping they'd be done with it soon. I wondered how they'd fit on it, but I got an image in my head showing that they could fit a foot side by side.
- I was walking in the woods when I stumble across a group of bears huddled together. I freeze and drop down into a pile of leaves and stuff, but they've already noticed me. I remember that I should keep totally still.
- I'm cuddling up with the bears and they're talking to me, totally harmless.

Dream 2: I'm floating from sandbar to sandbar on a beach and collecting lost items from old campers. I'm a bit scared and sad as I think about what might have happened to the people who lost them. What the water's depths might be hiding. [I still remember that feeling, looking down into the deep water.]

When I reach the end, I step over and into a house with the stuff. The cats are sleeping in a cat bed or something down the hall and I get really worried about them getting outside and lost, so I make sure the door is really secure.

(I've lost some of the details since I didn't type this up sooner or try and remember them better.)