Keitorin's Dream Log

A group of people including me are performing an operation, We’re inside a house stealthily moving around as we take down black-clothed people. When we’re done, I go into the bedrooms to make sure we didn’t miss any adults. I turn the light on and see kids asleep. They’re Japanese. In the other bedroom, the mother is sleeping.

Before we leave, I pause and tell them to go ahead. They pause and look at me before going.

I start looking around the house and things. In the kitchen, I grab a box. I’m looking at stuff on a shelf and see a bunch of writing utensils. I reach over to grab some and the pile shifts but doesn’t fall. I see a golden gel pen and take it before going in the kitchen again.

I get confused as I look down and see my small box and a bigger box nearby, I thought I had moved to that one. So I grab it instead. I see some framed photos of my family (mainly me and my sister as kids) on the fridge and a bit confused, take them down and put them in the box.

I worry the police will suspect us if I do that, so I take the cut out magazine strips beside them to make it look like a burglary.

There is a chainsaw running outside the bedrooms but the inhabitants don’t make an appearance. They appear able to sleep through anything.

I come across some of my clothes. I’m feeling a little befuddled as if things have changed on me, because suddenly this is the place I live [not IWL]. I take a few of the clothes (‘won’t I need these?’). What alibi are we going to give since we live here too??

I go near the right bedroom and hear one of the children talking - a boy. He says, “We can do that later.” Talking about future plans for the day. I realize he knows English from going to school here. I think about my level of Japanese.

I realize I need to get moving. As a leave, I hear them calling for their mom. “Mommy?”

Apparently we had killed the mother. I realized they were calling to her and getting no response, so they would investigate soon.

I head outside where the team is waiting. There are about six of us, including my parents.

One of them holds out some of my clothes, including a pair of underwear, as I approach.

“”We need to go. Now.” I say.

“Too late.” Someone says as the family rushes out from the house. We hurriedly get into the car and start to drive away.

A montage thing whites out the screen of the kids and their father without their mom, as her smiling face floats across the screen. The father had blond hair and the mother auburn.

I think, ‘That’s sad.’

Notes: And then my nose started bleeding and I had to type one-handed. Darn summer.

A man stands staring at a building that looks like a factory. It has black bits flying up through the broken up roof. He says, “What happened here?”. The owner is standing beside him. The black stuff happened just before the potential buyer came. The buyer says he will take the place anyway since he already said he would.

There' a scene of children in the building handing a baby with jet-black hair over to him. It fell with a meteor into the building

Another scene of a Middle East(?) man being initiated into a religion or something, one with God. A man with him directs him to do something but the Middle East man is confused. The guide says he might be more conformable doing ‘this one’. He directs him over to a container with some tannish substance in it and directs him to scrape a butter knife over it in a certain pattern. Then the Middle East man starts crying at the experience.



The factory man [Jin Tae-Jin from The God of High School now] is escaping from some kind of law enforcement group that’s after him. He barely makes it into a house. He crawls through the living room, grabs something like a flat, longer blue-ish colored pillow and lays it on the couch. He crawls onto the couch and lies down with his hands on his chest and dies. The group bursts in and starts shouting at him.

I felt like I was there the whole time so it was like I was being yelled at too.

When he was crawling I was wondering what he was doing, because I had gotten a glimpse of his wife in their bedroom beyond having died in the past there, or spent time with Jin on the bed talking together. I thought he’d go there to die, but I saw now that the bed (a big yellow foam) had been pushed up against the wall and the room was bare.

I(?) was going through a bunch of drawers [think I was still in the house]. There were some coins. I thought they might be special and asked if could have them(?). I received a negative answer but took them anyway. There were various clothing bits in some of the drawers. I got sad when I found a doll of my sisters [only in the dream], it looked like she’d been trying to get all the marker off of it recently.

Tags: fandom, fandom: the god of high school, death, religion, children, immorality

Inspirations: I’ve been reading a lot of the ‘The God of High School’ manhwa, so the baby was probably Jin Mo-Ri, the baby Jin Tae-Jin raised.

Dream 2. I’m watching from around a corner as a woman and two men stop at a room. The woman hesitates before telling them to leave this room as it is.

I feel like she was someone who worked on houses and maybe wasn’t the best person ever. The room was her (presumably dead) daughter’s and she wanted to leave it like it was.

When they leave, I go into the room. Recall is a bit fuzzy here, but I start looking for stuff to take. I figure the girl wouldn’t want her stuff to just sit around and go to waste.

In a side room, I’m putting the stuff in my knitted jacket pockets. I have to climb over some things because it’s kind of messy. I unhook a small electronic device. It’s a little scratched up but I know I can sell it for something.

I worry I won’t be able to get much more since my pockets are getting full. I look around for a plastic big but the ones I see have things in them. I think about emptying one. I look to the window, wondering if/how I can get out from there with my stuff.

I’m over to the left of a desk looking through the stuff on it. I see a notebook and look through it. It seems to be a diary, and there are some doodles in it. I’m surprised to see some Pokemon head doodles, one of them was Torchic.

I flip some pages and stop on Death Note head doodles, one being Ryuuk. I start to feel sad. I stop on some writing and see the name ‘Rose’ (from Homestuck) and think ‘if I have one more thing in common with her I’m going to cry’. I read a bit further and the writing turned out to be some other story.

1. Me and Rane steal a treadmill from a storage unit full of them, because, “she [owner] will never notice, she has so many of them”. I’m initially worried but then realize the truth of that statement.

Inspiration: (Nearly) stole an elliptical in a previous dream. Storage unit from a memory palace trigger plus a different dream. I think that because I don’t know a whole lot of people I see regularly, my sister kind of stands in. I’ve been trying to increase the faces in my ‘database’ lately though.

2. I’m trying to escape a room I’m locked up in. The room is kind of messy with things scattered around. I’d already tried the windows in the main room but they were locked securely, so I went to another smaller room and took off all the coverings on the window to open it.

I went back to the other room and started shoving things into a sack, including a few long-sleeved things and two of my pajama pants IWL (one with moons and stars, another with clouds).

I went out the window, and there was a wooden porch, but there was a gap to get to the ground. As well, there was some kind of torch system going at intervals, and the only way to get down was to go around it, and risk getting burned. Plus the railing was thin, so I had to balance carefully.

I carefully climbed around and tried to pass the fire when it was off, but it came back on and the heat of the flames burned my left thigh. It was intense but not a strong burning sensation. I hurried on and jumped down to the ground, where I saw some water trickling out of a gutter or something. I turned from it and let it hit my thigh. It was cold.

Back at the house, some time seems to have passed since I escaped. A woman says to a man that it’s all his fault I left. It kind of felt like they were supposed to be my parents. Then I see a scene the man had set up. There was a small bag (think tea bag) labeled ‘Marijuana’ and a paper that had “Do it” written on it. He was trying to set the woman up for something.

Inspirations: May be symbolic for how I feel about wanting to ‘escape’ my current lifestyle but can’t because I’m dependant on my parents. Also, I had a déjà-vu like feeling and remembered another dream like this where I was trying to escape a room out a window. The déjà-vu feelings tend to come on pretty intensely the more I work on my recall, but lately the feeling comes because I recall similar dreams. The porch felt like my grandma’s back porch despite the differences, in which case her house is one of my memory palaces and is a dream sign. Marijuana probably comes from the trigger ‘meth’ in my dream palace.

I remembered a dream as I was going through my palace last night and found a trigger I almost forgot was there.

I was with a group of people in a dark storage unit. I was wearing my long-sleeved dark shirt with flowers and a ribbon. We’re assessing the stuff inside to steal, which is mostly made up of exercise equipment. I find a nice elliptical machine and point it out.

Suddenly, we hear a noise at the door and voices. We freeze and wait in hopes that they’ll move on. I think they have dogs.

They burst in. We make a run for it. We get across a fence and are running across grass as the police chase and shoot us down from behind.

Inspiration: Me thinking about my elliptical, my zombie wearing a uniform trigger (had to look up ‘white uniforms’ when I was adding it and police outfits were the results).

1. Somewhere with a bunch of books, I start stealing some. I get a bit mad at the person with me (Pillywiggin?) because she keeps asking about and taking books that aren’t important. I say something to that effect. ‘Only the really important ones’.

Either they knew someone was stealing or this was standard, but you had to go through a line and ID yourself. I had a few different things and wasn’t sure which to use. A wallet, some kinda electronic device…

I had a Yugioh manga left in my bag, apparently it needed to be transferred to where the rest where, but I didn’t have time.

When it was my turn, I fumble for a bit until someone behind me hands me a small transparent trip of plastic. I give it to the scanner guy in front of me and pass.

I’m in the bathroom and am a guy, apparently it’s my disguise. A girl (Gou from Free!?) follows me in and apparently wants to flirt with me. I say I have to use the bathroom, and she leaves for me to do so.

Except I also remember the scanner dude revealing that he saw the plastic exchange?? And maybe the girl was supposed to be the one to have handed me the plastic?

2. At home with me, mom, dad and Pillywiggin. We’re mad at her for something she did. Dad asks me what a fanmix is. Apparently Pillywiggin had made him one. I explain it’s a mix put together by fans of a series about characters/the series etc.

1. I was in a part of a neighborhood of where I used to live about ten years ago IWL, I’d only been there once or twice. I’m walking away from a house, and suddenly slow down to take in things around me. Things come more into focus. I look down beside the sidewalk and see some yellow(?) and purple tulips growing.

2. About a strange family. In one room, two people are having sex. The one on top kisses the other, who freezes. The one on top thinks it’s because they don’t like it, but it’s actually because they were surprised by it, because the top one apparently had a hangup about kissing? Something about shark teeth??

Someone is outside the door spying through some opening on the door.

Something about a little boy.

3. I find some manga on the bottom of one of mom’s bookshelves and wonder what they’re doing there, since she doesn’t read them. Except that they’re longer, wider and thinner than manga. At least one of them was Sailor Moon, and there were four I think. I take them out and away, after scooping a few other bits up into my arms to leave. There was a yellow card and a white paper?

Notes: Soo I wonder if my practicing awareness is why I slowed down in #1 and focused? :O The shark teeth in #2 could come from Rin in Free!.

For some reason, Walmart was ‘down’, no workers, end everyone was going around and grabbing stuff.

Me and mom grabbed some cookies from the bakery (except it didn’t look like the bakery IWL), snack size bags, tampons, pads. I remember trying to tear a cereal ticket thing off of a sheet, but someone told me that you could just get the cereal down that isle (they point).

As I was going around the store, I noticed a few times that a guy sitting down at a table and chair was staring. He had brown, wavy hair below his ears.

Inspirations: Walmart, cookies and stealing were carried over from last dream.

I’m in a store. I grab a couple pairs of shorts off a shelf. I ask someone where to put them, and a woman points. I see small, round yellow stickers that have ‘ww’ written on them. I think to myself ‘Weight Watchers?’.

I’m wandering the store. In one section, there are batches of chocolate cookies (30 in each batch). There’s a stack of books, one with ‘The Rede’ in the title. I’m disappointed to see that they’re Christmas books. A woman walking be mentions that she likes my dad, because he ‘stays out of the way’.

I’m in an isle away from others in the back, and am looking at stud earrings. I find some small ones, some with white crystals in them. There are only four, and I have eight holes, but I decided to take them. I sneak them in my pocket.

-In Walmart, I see two girls in the middle of the store wearing pajamas with matching patterns on them.

-Someone on a bus not liking my music and putting their’s on me. I think there were big bags, and a small woman?

Possible inspirations: I’ve been wanting new stud earring to replace my hoops. Maybe the cookies come from the chocolate cookies I’d been making until recently. ‘The Rede’ comes from the song ‘The Rede (And It Harm None)’ by Gaia Consort, which I listened to recently. And you know, I think I remember seeing someone already eager for Christmas on GetGlue and it surprised me, so maybe it just stuck in my head.

Fragment:

-I zoom into a scene and see a flying character, and am able to make out that she’s carrying another female character. Apparently it’s a scene in ‘the new episode’. After watching it, I feel like I had already seen it before.

-Someone asking me if I’ve ‘seen the new episode (yet)’
- Someone calling the flying girls ‘old people’
-Think I remember seeing Greek columns in the scenery.

Possible inspiration: Me telling Pillywiggin that I need to watch the new episode of Free!.

Fragments:

-A community living off limited resources

-Image in my head of three Inazuma Eleven characters standing next to each other, maybe performing a hissatsu technique together.
- The phrase ‘Running away from the ball’.

Fragments:

1) Like three people transform into one thing into another and back? ‘I’ was talking on the phone to a man, but when I went to see him in person, it was a small black woman, and I called her out on it.

2) Me, Rane and her ex chilling in a bed, it was kind of awkward.

3) Looking at books in a library with a boy, there are some manga as well. I casually steal one so he can’t see, because I know he won’t like me doing it. In another section, I notice that someone didn’t sort a few manga right, one of them is a Bleach volume.

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Notes:

I had four dreams yesterday but they were mostly fragments/confusing.

Immorality is definitely going back on my list as a dream sign. n_n

I think deja vu is making a comeback in my dreams again as well.

5:55 A.M.

Cheating in World of Warcraft by jumping in someone’s server.

At first it was a fanart site, but I forgot what kind.

Then it was a manga site. A girl said something about manga for people who had read APH (Axis Powers Hetalia).

Then it was an Instance that turned out to have orc enemies and I had to run when I saw that they were Elite. For some reason instead of just logging off (maybe I was too panicked or it wouldn’t let me), I Ieft the Instance and the owner was waiting outside and caught me. She added me to her friendslist as I warped out of the game (so that she wouldn’t lose track of me).

…But it took me to town instead, and I’m in a Acolyte outfit in Ragnarok Online, female with the white hairstyle in twin ponytails over the shoulders and clasps at the ends. As I viewed my character omnisciently from a point a few feet away, I wondered if she/I was cute enough to get the server owner to forgive her/me.



Bam, the server owner is right next to me, she found me! I quickly type in “Sorry =/” and exit the game. (I never felt like she was going to hurt me, more like she just wanted to talk with me about it.)

Inspiration: Probably due to my increase in gaming lately, playing Dragon Nest and Inazuma Eleven. I played WoW and RO for a long time some years ago. The Acolyte actually looked like mine before she became a Priest! Oh hey, one of my old dream signs, immorality…

I've pretty much no excuse for not doing anything beyond the basics in dreaming for the last few months. I still write down my dreams when I wake up, and I rarely have days where I remember nothing. Every night I still use autosuggestion as well.

But, I don't: write out the dream fully - I use keywords or fragments, I don't type them up in my computer/online DJ, I don't strive to remember more than I do, I don't go to bed earlier (my schedule is atrocious), I haven't even thought about lucid dreams lately. My last one was...July 6th 2009... Wow.

I'm the obsessive type person - when I get into something, it's all that holds my attention the vast majority of the time. It doesn't help when my friend gets into the same thing and so we're both obsessive together! Lately I've managed to pry myself away and get into a few other things again.

I got Meditation for Dummies from the library to see if I could pick up anything new, and...I have to say, besides picking apart my life (ow), it reminds me a lot of lucid dreaming in the area of awareness. It talks a lot about that at times.

Quote:

"You can increase your powers of awareness by developing concentration.

Then, when you've stabilized your concentration, you can, through the practice of receptive awareness, expand your awareness - like ambient light - to illuminate the full range of your experience.

Next, you can concentrate even further in order to [/B]cultivate[/B] positive emotions and mind-states. Or you can use awareness to investigate your inner experience and contemplate the nature of existence itself."

And it goes on to talk about each type of awareness. I'd love to quote more, buuut I shall refrain.

I'm also reading Our Dreaming Mind, which is pretty good so far! Apparently the last chapter is on Lucid Dreaming.

Lastly, I noticed that all my images are messed up in this DJ now... Besides that, I like the new layout.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.06.2010

Coin Stack (Non-lucid)

Me and R are robbers. I think it's in Walmart that we make the clerk give us these coins. They're not quite gold, more like silver. She says she only has 75 and I say that's fine. Each coin amounts to $1.

I think we were in a house at one point?

Keywords: Contingency plans, rent

Recording (Non-lucid)

I was looking through a video camera type thing at a recording of a guy. I pulled the device away to see a guy messing around beside me. I'm pretty sure this took place outside.

Horror (Non-lucid)

Horror movie type murder - suspense, woman character, it was dark

Hide and Seek (Non-lucid)

I woke up a LOT and had flashes of dreams when I did sleep, so I woke up after the previous dream, went back to sleep and fell into the same one, only it turned into hide and seek and not so much horror.

Keyword: A button

Igirisu! (Note)

RL: Riley woke me up (or I was already awake) and was meowing. I sat up and called out 'England' instead of 'Riley'. She proceeded to respond to the wrong name by jumping up on the bed.

Notes: 'England' comes from Axis Powers Hetalia as the anthropomorphic country and personification Arthur Kirkland. So I may have been dreaming of that, but not the actual United Kingdom in RL. =P