CasperKid

This journey is getting ridiculous because I don't know whether I am doing things wrong or whether this is part of the whole process in order to get over some hump and have my body just relax into it.

Last night I went to bed at 11pm and set my clock for 5am. I couldn't get to sleep for what felt like 2 hours, but the whole time I was having these vivid and fantastic flashbacks to everything I had been doing in my life, ranging from age 7 to age 18. It was amazing, but it also felt inopportune. I know that I shouldn't attempt to WILD before getting at least 2-4 hours of sleep, so I wasn't exactly trying to get myself to transition into that state, but I was occasionally reaffirming my intention to recognize the dream state, which I think kept me conscious longer.

With this trouble falling asleep, I am also having trouble staying asleep. I will toss and turn throughout the night and I can't fall asleep as easily when I do find myself awakened mid-night. Before this journey, I would very systematically just fall asleep within 10-15 minutes of going to my bed, and then have the ability to drift off to sleep if I woke up after a REM period or something.

I think my alarm woke me up at 5am, but I didn't register that I was trying to CAN-WILD, so I just rolled over and tried to fall back asleep, which is the cardinal sin of CAN-WILD! Do not move when the alarm sounds! So, with that being said, I have school today so maybe I will be better distracted from this effort and will be able to just fall asleep more easily. Let's see what will happen, I'm excited!

Maybe WILD isn't for me, but I'm not giving up yet. When I finally get the access to post I will ask these questions in a forum.

How do I fall asleep quicker?
How do I WILD without giving myself the conscious intention to do?
Did others have this similar setback when they started a WILD Journey?