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    1. Lucid dreams!

      by , 11-20-2011 at 05:15 PM
      I AM BACK!!

      For the past 2.5-3 weeks I have completely renewed my motivation to try and lucid dream. Every night I would be trying to have one. AND TONIGHT I HAD TWO BACK-TO-BACK LUCIDS! SO EPIC!!!

      Lemme write 'em down.

      1) Class Interupted

      I am in a science class in my high school. I am standing near the back of the room with a lab partner at this black table. Its marble table and I recognize the layout (itd be hard to explain to yall).

      The teacher is standing to my right inbetwen two separate black lab tables. There is a computer behind her and she is facing toward all of us.

      As she is talking, I jump up on the black table and start to sit. I am not paying attention, and then I lay down. She is still talking normally, then I turn my head so I can see her, and when she looks at me, she keeps talking but gives me this clear signal with her body language and the slightest shift of her head sideways (classic girl code, anyone who has had a gf will know this sign) that she is upset that I'm lying down.

      I completely understand this sign immediately and start to feel guilty. I almost instantly begin to move and shift my position. As I begin moving, however, I have this thought that's like, "Fuck this, why am I moving so fast? I should take my time" that thought evolves into "Why am I moving at all? She didn't even say anything?" That thought evolves into "Why would I move? THis is a dream anyway"
      Boom. I become lucid and I look down at my hands and start rubbing them together to maintain lucidity. I am so excited that I have reached this state that I totally lose all focus and just decide to find some girl to have sex with!
      (I'm still laughing about it, I woke up cracking up today)

      As I continue to rub my hands, I'm walking, at a pretty fast pace because I want to find the girl and start before time runs out. I walk down a couple rows and find a girl to my right. As I approach her, she gets taller and taller, until I get right up next to her and she seems to sit down.

      When she gets really tall thoughts run through my head like I'm putting her pussy on a pedastol and I'm taking this way too seriously, I shouldn't care if she wants to have sex with me, I should just go for it. I want it.

      This brings me out of lucidity a little bit.

      Then I start to make out with her and rubbing the back of her body. BAD MOVE. Closing my eyes to kiss her brings me into an abyss of blackness. I decide I'm not ready to end the dream yet so I keep rubbing my hands to together and SHOUTING "ENHANCE MY LUCIDITY NOW!!" "GIVE ME AWARENESS"

      Just after this, The floor starts to levitate and rotate. I'm on some spinning rectangle and the room is still totally black. What happens next is hard to describe but These rectangles eventually make stairs that lead to the ground.

      I walk down them and take the door to my left outside of this building that I've apparently been inside. I am now walking through a parking lot, and I am so happy that I am still lucid. I am literally giddy and trying to imagine what I should do. The first thing that pops into my head this time is drink alcohol because I don't drink in real life.

      I find some guy walking away from me with a bottle of grey goose in his right hand. I run up behind him and easily snatch it from him saying "yoink" and just laughing the whole time. I think I got carried away and focused outside of maintaining my lucidity, which brought me out of the dream

      I woke up with this gigantic smile on my face haha... I went back to sleep and found myself walking through these two large doors to a church or synagogue. I felt like I was in a movie.

      As I walk in, I am being directed where to go by my mom. We enter this auditorium where there is an audience facing toward the front of the room sitting in individual brown chairs. At the front, I see a speaker and Adam Sandler.

      We keep walking all the way to the front and across the stage and then right before exiting the out the front door toward the pool area, I am supposed to shake this guy's hand. I try to shake his hand but realize he had reached out his left hand. This shock definitely increased my level of consciousness because I immediately had to switch hands.

      Right after that, we walk outside. I have been conditioning myself to stop after exiting a building or door into the world and this clearly helped! As I step outside, I stop and look around, I see my mom and two other people walking away and I see a pool that some birds are flying to. Somehow I say in my mind "this is nice... definitely too nice" and I look at my hands and rub them together. I AM DREAMING AGAIN!!!
      I still haven't come up with a general plan of what to do and I don't want to waste my time thinking about it in the lucid dream, so I just start walking and doing whatever comes naturally.

      I walk back through the auditorium, and there is this girl eyeing me from the corner. As I walk past her I am kind of blantatly staring at the computer she has on a table in front of her. She quickly switches windows and kind of gives an angry sigh...

      I walk out the back door all excited and giddy. This exit led me to a school. For the next 20 minutes I start walking around commenting on everything going on around me and making fun of it. At one point, I start walking back to the synagogue and I find this kid wearing a green shirt with some sign on it I read it as "Canada has roles" even though I think it said "gender has roles" and I say to myself "what the fuck would Canada do with roles"

      At this point, I have my skateboard in my hands and its shaking from the force of a motor inside of it. This confirm I'm still in a dream, and I try to figure out how to turn it off until I find the switch by the trucks.

      I walk back into the door of the synagogue but this leads me into a gynasium instead. My mom and a bunch of other parents are apparently waiting already for something and I'm the last to join. I walk in a little bit and A HUGE SMILE POPS on my face because I know I am about to have fun, but I question whether I am still dreaming because I don't want to make a huge ass out of myself and do some ridiculous shit and have it not be a dream.

      So I decide to reality check by jumping. I jump a normal height and everyone looks at me funny, but I KNOW that I am still dreaming. Not being able to jump really messed with my head and caused me to go into the dreaded passobs. Because I was still kind of lucid, I was thinking about how to get sex from this one mom that was there hahaha....

      The end of my dream was essentially this woman giving direction for how to play safely in the gymnasium. She is boring so I announce "Who wants to go into the foam pit?!" and like three people agree. The woman is like "I guess a majority of people want to leave" in a disappointed tone. I'm like "yea, sorry" as I put my skateboard up against the wall.

      The next thing I see is a word being spelled out by people in mid-air in the middle of various flips. This image holds steady for a good 30 seconds. After just watching it float there for a while I wake up.


      Tags: lucid dream
    2. Dream Journal-- Day 2 (2)

      by , 09-12-2011 at 02:41 PM
      Dream 1--

      This dream was an amazingly long and complex dream. There were several scenarios and several reoccurrances. I would jump around from place to place with similar contexts.

      In one situation, I was in a hotel room with my cousin and my older sister. It is night time outside and there are almost no lights on inside of the room. My cousin and I are high on weed and we are laughing and talking.

      My cousin really wants to eat something that we make on a tray like butter with bread or something. We don't really say anything but somehow that is tacit agreement. We start making the bread, and my ability to think clearly and view the world clearly starts to diminish (as if I were actually on drugs).

      Then, my cousin walks around a wall and out of sight and comes back using eye drops. I say that's a really smart idea and use them after him. Weirdly, I don't really use them. I just put the eye drop bottle close to my eye without squirting the liquid.

      In a little bit, after I finish. I hear a knock on the door. I immediately know it is my grandpa and grandma, especially when I can hear their voices through the door. I also look through the key hole and see a blurry outline of their figures.

      Since I'm high and I didn't use the eye drops, I immediately regret that decision and feel my body temperature rising, my heart beat increasing, and a general panic rushing over me. My grandpa wants me to walk him to get some water or something, and I tell him that I will, so I speed over to the bedroom and reach into one of the drawers to pull out the eye drops before we go.

      I can hear the door open in the other room, and my grandparents find my cousin and start to yell because they can tell he is stoned. I am desperately trying to squeeze the liquid into my eyes, but I can't feel anything. I start with my right eye and get a couple of cooling sensations in my eye but that is the extent of it. I switch to my left eye but no such luck.

      I hear my sister lying in the bed behind me say something like "thats what you get"... Suddenly, my vision drains out because I was closing my eyes and I am having this mental image of my mom rowing a boat. There is an immense sadness in the scene and then i see my mom get beaten by a belt over and over again.
      Tags: ds: weed
    3. Dream Journal-- Day 1

      by , 09-10-2011 at 02:51 PM
      Ok I have now resolved to write in my dream journal for 5 consecutive days! I think this is a feasible goal. I am definitely motivated to try and start lucid dreaming.

      Dream 1--

      I am with a group of friends, when I decide to head to the bathroom. As I get up, I am instantly in the bathroom walking to the stall all the way at the end on the right. The tiles are light grey and bright and the doors are more grey/white.

      As I reach the door, I realize there are two guys who are messing around with the door. They seem to have tools and are using them in some manner I can't tell. They are talking to each other and having a conversation. No body notices me and I assume I am just a spirit simply watching the interaction occurring.

      Soon, I conclude that they are trying to pull a prank on everyone. As I stand back and watch, I see the two guys open the door to the stall to get to the other side. As they are going, there is a nail sticking out of the door that gets pushed out from the other side.

      This sparks my curiousity and I enter the stall with the two guys. I see a third person squatting down with a screwdriver, pushing it into the empty space where the nail used to be. AFter the nail drops off, he looks through the narrow space.

      Then, I walk back outside the stall and see my frat bro figgy. He starts to explain how people are rigging the bathroom as a prank and he tells me I cant let anyone else know. I'm like ya man don't worry I wont say anything. Just then, I see my high school friend Luis enter the bathroom wearing a red shirt and two black wrist bands that have white text on them. He also has a big jew fro (his usual hairstyle). I am still standing at the other end of the bathroom and there are many people who are all doing some type of labor.

      He comes in and yells at everyone asking if they have seen something of his that he lost. Then he continues to ramble about how he has fixed millions of fridges before. He picks up a long strip of black rubber substance and starts to place it into the open door of a fridge right next to him. I just watch in curiosity to see what he will actually do.

      After a little, I decide I need to use the restroom, so I enter the next stall on my left. I close the door behind me and lookdown at the toilet seat. It has a red cover and a small hole in the middle that is the size of a O. I try to pee in the middle of it anyway.

      Then the door opens behind me, but I continue to pee while trying to push the back of my shoulder into the door so it won't open. I feel the person push back into me, attempting to open the door harder, but then stopping. He then looks into the bathroom, realizes it me and then steps in.

      I am like "dude, what the fuck?" and I notices its Shoener. He starts talking to me about the genius part of the prank he pulled. He changes the text of some URL so that people can't access a webpage or something. It reads something like AP # 4837204984=$

      I can see this blue text floating on a totally white field of vision next to another AP # 4837204984=$ except they are different fonts. As I am caught up in the vision, I hear somebody say "I would like to see that copy and pasted." At this my alarm clock goes off.

      Dream 2--

      I had this dream a while ago but it has stuck with me.

      I am in a pool with my other water polo friends from middle school. We are all wading in the water next to the brick on the edge of the pool. My chin is resting on my hands that are crossed, one over the other on top of these bricks.

      My coach starts throwing out either blue or white caps (as he would do when we would pick teams during scrimmages). He doesn't throw me a cap, but makes me swim laps. I start swimming, trying to complete the laps before the game is over. As I swim, I notice in hindsight I didn't have to breathe at all and I could control my speed simply by thinking about going faster or slower.

      I start swimming as I notice my teammates paying not 10 feet away from me. I am then transported to the other end of the pool where I am now swimming much much faster. As I swim, I look up at the clock and realize there are four hours left in the game, so I probably have time to finish the amount of laps I would have to swim.

      I start to swim exceedingly fast. As I look up I notice parents and spectators really enjoying the game, and this motivates me to swim even faster. I swim at the wall, and turn around and keep swimming. I wake up.
    4. Dream Journal-- Day 4 of retreat

      by , 06-01-2011 at 02:59 PM
      Dream 1-- Lent

      I am reading my bible on a certain verse regarding lent. There are two other guys talking to me about it as well. They are trying to recite the verse from memory as I read it right in front of me. I wish I could remember the verse (because its not real, its something my dream mind made up)...

      THen we are randomly in a room that looks like the waiting room/entrance to nice restaurant. I am sitting at a round wooden table facing these two wooden doors with a single black push bar to open across the middle. There are now two others guys in the room with me talking to a girl who is sitting behind the counter.

      We are still discussing the verse and the girl tries to recite the passage from memory. At this point, after having looked at it for so long, I can actually recite it from memory, and I do. The girl gets really excited that I know it, gets up from her chair and walks over to me as I am saying the verse. She starts talking to me but I am not paying attention. I am looking at the aquarium over her left shoulder. There are cool fish swimming around, and all of a sudden the water starts to turn a dark blue color. This reminds me of how I flushed a toilet yesterday and the water just turned dark blue instead of flushing.

      Dream 2--

      I am in a dark room with a bunch of people around me. I think the situation is some sort of party. Me and a bunch of guys are standing almost shoulder to shoulder looking out at what appears to be a roller rink on the other side of a window. I can't think of anything to say so I am just not talking the whole time.

      THen I walk forward to talk to these other guys. I notice when I open my mouth I become much more happy and less tense regardless of what I say. This puts me up in my analytic mode of thinking about why this is or how this is happening (a reflection of my nature tendencies in real life).

      Dream 3--

      Me and my friends at this retreat are walking through a series of rooms. The ground is carpet, the walls are grey, and the doors are randomly spread out through a maze of hallways and giant rooms. There is a guy leading us around because we are looking for the bathrooms. This interestingly reflects how we were getting a tour at the YMCA today and had a guy lead us around all over the place.

      Anyway, as we are walking around, I happen to look at a sign that shows all the various rooms we are walking through, and it appears that they are a giant circle that is totally auxiliary and unecessary. The bathroom was on top, and all these other rooms formed a ring that only led you back to the bathroom. I started to wonder why we were even walking around in the first place, but I didn't say anything or talk to anybody the whole time.. Maybe my subconscious is really trying to communicate to me about my lack of talking to my fellow retreat-mates...

      Tomorrow I want to take notes on my phone like I didn't do tonight, although I remember waking up to a thunderstorm around 230 and repeating "lent Lent Lent" to myself in order to remember the first dream. That seemed to work pretty well.
    5. Dream Journal-- Day 3 of retreat

      by , 05-31-2011 at 01:42 PM
      Dream 1--

      I am in my garage apartment with my middle sister. She is playing some video game with my older sister, and I can't exactly comprehend what is going on in the game because I am only half-watching. My main focus is trying to get her to stop playing so that we can do something together.

      After they finish their current game, they start playing another one. I complain and my sister says she will stop, and she tries to send a message by typing it out with the controller, moving the cursor to the desired letters and then clicking. THis process takes a long time and she eventually hands the controller off to me because I can apparently do it faster in her opinion.

      I am fiddling with the controller, but I am getting distracted by the game and my sister talking to me. After maybe 5 minutes of me being distracted and unsuccessfully trying to send this message, my older sister, who is our opponent, talks to us through like intercom or xbox live or something and asks if we are even playing because our counter is still at 0. We tell her via the intercom that we are quitting and she gets a little pissed and says that she should get a white mark or something that signifies that she won, but in my head I realize that it won't give her any points.

      My recall is getting really bad after waking up because I know I had at least three other dreams I wanted to record and this has happened to me three nights in a row. Tonight I want to sleep with my phone nearby, maybe use the dreamclock application, and record little notes about my dreams throughout the night to jog my memory.

      I will record at least three dreams every day from now on, and I will become lucid by looking at my hands at least three times during the day today. Doors are especially key. I want to RC when I see a door.
    6. Dream Journal-- Day 2 of retreat

      by , 05-30-2011 at 01:42 PM
      Dream 1

      I am in a hotel room with my roommate, someone else, and Millsap. We are hanging out and talking and I am paying attention to Millsap. He is wearing these jean shorts and he starts to stick his down them. He then laughs and says "haha I am sticking my hand down my pants while we are all talking."

      No one says anything, and I turn to my roommate, who is now making the bed or something. His back is turned to me but he wearing blue.

      Then the whole room starts to shake, and apparently we are catapulting through space. Our hotel room is being transported to a new location. About 20 seconds later, I change perspective and see the hotel room flying through this desert city in the shape of a truncated cone. It lands in this circular port by a lot of tall buildings. The scenery reminds me of total recall....

      When it lands, my perspective shifts back to first person, and I see this big poster for a tan guy who looks like he has a 20 pack of abs. I try not to think of him, but this struggle causes me to change location. I am teleported into a workout studio and I can see outside this birght window to watch the poster-guy without a shirt and this girl walking down some pavement to get to the door to the studio. I think of course he is working out and wonder if I could ever get that jacked.

      Dream 2

      I am in the wrestling room, basically by myself. I start working out on my own by doing this ab workout where you lie on your back and bring your toes to your butt while lifting up and touching them with your fingers. I do this maybe ten times, then realize that there are four guys sitting behind me talking and laughing.

      I change ab workout and start doing crunches so I can turn and face them. It's, of course, four other guys who were on the team with me, Dalt Jack Demars and fourth guy. As coach walks by, I'm the only one doing crunches. He looks at me and then looks at the other guys while he is still walking and says "you guys are working hard" to the four stationary people. Dalt says "I know" and coach keeps on walking with a slight smirk on his face. He says something like "Good. You'll only be quitting yourself."

      As I continue to do my crunches, I can see my legs are bare and there are these gnats or flies accumulating right over my head. They start to get pretty numerous and annoying but I don't try to brush them away, I get woken up by an alarm.
    7. Dream Journal-- First day of Summer Retreat

      by , 05-29-2011 at 02:20 PM
      Dream From 2 nights ago--

      I am walking across the street into a shopping center that looks like Preston Royal SE corner. I am walking toward the McDonalds, and I see some tables in front of me to my left, where most of the parking lot should be. They are circular grey tables, and there is my roommate from next year sitting down alone, facing away from me, eating some food. I walk up to him and say what's up, he talks back. We have a short conversation and then I walk past him.

      I get into a car that was parked in a space and start driving forward. I have extremely little control of this vehicle. I am trying to go to another space, but when I start going forward, my car veers slowly into another car coming toward me. I hit them head on, we bump away like bumper cars, and even though there is damage I keep driving. I park in the space somehow, I have no control still.

      As I get out, I somehow am immediately in the store I wanted to be in. I have a skateboard under my feet and I don't realize it. When I take a step forward, the skateboard slips out from under my feet and goes down this slope of the restaurant floor. It hits this fat guy who is sitting in the corner. He doesn't seem to mind. I get really confused why I can't control anything and start to get scared. This fear causes me to go passobs and then I remove from the dream.

      Dream 2 from 2 nights ago--

      I am in a store, shop lifting some items. I am wearing a purple sweater that I wore while I was getting hazed in my frat. As I am stuffing in items, I think about how guilty I should feel. And I do start to wonder if I will get caught. Maybe they have video cameras. Maybe the cops are already coming and I need to hurry. These rushing thoughts force me to leave the shop with whatever I already have.

      As I exit through a corner exit I might find in a CVS, the cops start walking toward me. This causes me to 180 back into the store and run through the nearest aisle. When I reach the aisle, I grab something and throw it back to them in an attempt to slow them down. I am now running down the far side of the aisle, and I head all the way to the back corner of the store. There are hallmark cards to my right and I can turn to run down the farthest aisle.

      Looking down the aisle, I see the cops and I decide to full sprint toward them. I run so fast that I hit the perpendicular stack of stuff at the end of the aisle. I pick up some ham and I throw it at the fat woman cop. She catches it and smells it, closes her eyes in pleasure and gives me time to escape haha...

      I run into the parking lot, and its night outisde. There are some people playing soccer to my right as I'm running. I sprint to my mom's chevrolet suburban, and hide right up against it. As the woman cop drives her car around the parking lot, I stay low and watch her through the suburban windows, hiding right next to the suburban where she definitely cant see me. When the cop car passes back, its a taco bell delivery car. I can tell because its a normal car with the taco bell sign on top.

      After she turns out of the parking lot, I find a red GT mustang, and I get into it. I turn on the car, and JT opens the passenger and asks where I am going. I ask him if he wants to drive because I'm so tired. He gets in and says no while laughing. I am kind of frustrated by that, but I figure its better for me to drive when I'm wanted by the cops. We drive for a little and then suddenly arrive at a rave party.

      This party seems unreal, like a cartoon. I am forced to stare downward, unable to look up or around. My vision is also very shaky and I think I am jumping but I cant feel my body. We end up sitting on a bed, with JT to my left. I'm still looking down and thinking about it just causes me to go passobs.

      Dream 1--

      Most of my dreams tonight occur in a hotel, which is interesting because I just entered into a summer retreat, meeting a whole bunch of new people.

      I am in my hotel room, with my normal roommate, watching a cartoon. The cartoon looks like Jesus holding on to the 2 tablets that have the 10 commandments written on them. He is shouting something but the TV is on mute. THen I hear what sounds like God damning him to hell.

      I look away and see my roommate on the left side of the room. I walk to the table and say jesus just got owned. I am reading something on a yellow piece of paper at the same time.

      Suddenly, I am walking out of a cave. I feel like I am now jesus and I have escaped from hell somehow. There is this woman following me though, and I have the intuition that she is against me, trying to stop me. I start to run, but I can't run very fast of course. She has these high heels or something because she keeps complaining that she's wearing the wrong shoes.

      Every time she gets close to me, I turn to kick her, but I never actually kick, I just fake her out to make her stop running. We are running on a floor made of bricks outside. It's daytime and there are green circular tables to my right. We are running toward a green gate a little ways in front of me.

      Eventually, she catches up to me, so I actually kick her. At this point, she tries to take off her shoes while we are fighting because she is wearing the wrong shoes to fight. Then she turns into this girl that I do ninjitsu with at USC, wearing long socks with that are blue and pink striped.


      I am in my bed, and I wake up (false awakening) and my roommate is awake. We start talking. He somehow pulls his bed all the way toward me just by scooting in my direction. Now the beds are separated by about a foot. We keep talking and I don't know why but I feel really inferior and bad about myself. I am watching what he is doing to get an idea about what he thinks about me and how he is responding. As he talks, he will sometimes look at this white macbook in front of him with some youtube video playing.


      Elevators.. I can only remember going down in an elevator to the lobby where people are.
    8. Dream Journal--

      by , 05-26-2011 at 03:58 PM
      Dream 1-- Adam Sandler Calls

      I am walking down a sidewalk when I get a call from Adam Sandler. We start talking about this new movie that I think is Anger Management 2 because I can see the coverart in my mind and it looks like anger management 1.

      I start to basically ask him questions as if it were an interview. I ask him like is Jack Nicholson excited for the role, and he responds that JN doesn't even know about it yet. I ask him what he means, and Sandler responds that JN should like the script and will most likely be on board but he wants to clear it with the producers first.

      I ask him if he is going to call it anger management 2, and he says, really smoothly, that it will be called happy time 5. I detect no sarcasm. In my head this changes the cover art and the title that appears on the box.

      Dream 2--

      I am playing this virtual reality game. I am a cat or a spider, and I am playing with a friend, I think maru. We are in a dark cave, running away from evil panthers. The entrance to the cave is lit, but we get far into the cave where there is this giant mountain and its very dark. A couple of panthers gather near the entrance trying to detect where we are. They stand there, staring.

      On the mountain, me and maru are slowly crawling around. There is this minimap feature that shows us how well we are disguised on the mountain. There are a grouping of hexagonal colored shapes that not only depict the topology of the mountain but also our location on it and whether we are well hidden based on the shading of the hexagonal tiles.

      Maru is crawling around while I am standing still, clinging comfortably to the side of the mountain. As he crawls, I can see his figure change location on the minimap, slowly moving toward me. Then we ascend to the top, and the game changes based on our decision somehow. Now I can hear the voice of JT but I dont remember what we were saying.

      Dream 3--

      I am on a beach training to be in the army. There must be 200 other people here at least, and we are in lines of maybe 10. The guy in front is yelling orders at us and shouting general principles of the army.

      He tells us to do 10 pushups, I turn around and start doing them fast. I can feel my muscles tense and relax as I go up and down. I actually feel a weight distribution in my chest, which is pretty unique for a dream. There is a fat guy next to me who is struggling pretty bad and I feel the urge to help him but I don't know what to do.

      The whole dream, I was imply waiting for orders and following them as fast as possible. I wanted to be the first one done for every mission/task.
    9. Dream Journal

      by , 05-25-2011 at 04:01 PM
      Dream 1--

      I am walking down the path of my high school campus to attend this recital. I am not sure what time it starts or when to go so I call this kid Ferenc, who used to be the goalie better than me in water polo. He sounds high or tired on the phone, basically saying things slowly and as if he couldn't really figure out the answer.
      Me: hey man where is this recital tonight?
      Ferenc: ...Theres a recital tonight?
      Me: Ya, I heard its in the auditorium
      Ferenc: Oh... When is it?
      Me: I dont know, I think at about 7:30?
      Ferenc: Oh... Ok then...

      During that conversation I was putting stuff into and taking stuff out of a backpack that was on the ground. I keep walking and eventually end up in the auditorium. Stuff happens. I walk back out to my car, and then I get abducted by a helicopter. It's like a superhero movie or something. Then I wake up

      Dream 2--

      There is apparently a party at my house. I don't realize why or what's going on. I walk down the stairs and see my uncle sitting on the far side of the room in a chair next to this guy silverman who was in my dorm last year. They are talking, my uncle is telling him a story about the boonies. During this, silverman is just listening and inserting a funny comment every once in a while. It will be maybe 2-3 words, can't remember the specifics. Also, he is throwing singular dog food pellets at a dog. His hair is short and very very orange. He is also very pale.

      I walk over to them and sit across from them on a couch. MY high school friend J. is sitting next to me talking to me in a way that I remember as complaining but I can't remember what he was saying either. After a little bit, I get up and walk outside. I walk up my spa on the back end of my pool, and look back to see a bush covered in books that I have read or am reading such as Ecce Homo and Mindfulness.

      When I turn around my grandmother is standing in front of me. She tells me Oh there you are! We've been waiting for you. We thought you weren't going to come out to the party." its then that I realize there are lights and decorations around my pool and a lot of people are here. It's evening and people are drinking/socializing. I feel bad and stupid simultaneously, causing an emotional combination that makes me leave the dream.

      Dream 3--

      I'm in a buffet line with friends from high school. Liu, runas, criss, halperin and some others. They are ordering food in a line where I don't see anything I like. I want a healthier option that is also vegetarian (I like how that is now worked its way into my dreams!)... I walk down the line and eventually see a place where it looks like they are serving french toast in all its components... I grab some bread and try to put pieces of egg on my bread in a specific fashion such that all the eggs covers all the bread without overlapping. I do the same in real life.

      WHen I'm done. My high school friends are already seated, and I decide to sit across from runas and beside criss even though it means I have to walk all the way around the table and avoid other people as well. I don't know why I picked this table except that runas was a close friend throughout hschool.

      Dream 4--

      I am watching this midget blonde girl, who also appears to be a ninja walk through double doors. She is wearing all black and some clear goggles. When she walks through the doors, my perspective shifts so that I see her coming through the doors from the other side and walking toward me. In this hallway, its a pparently set up so that by walking through, you are bombarded with bullets.

      She flexes her abs when she is walking through, and proceeds slowly due to the barrage of bullets. I can tell she is struggling, but soon gets to the end, which is a door she enters to her right (my left). When she enters, my perspective shifts again, I become her. I walk to the back of this room down a middle aisle with big white rectangular tables on either side of me. There are people scattered around eating on these tables. I get to the back to get a plate, silverware, and food.

      I find myself brushing bullet cartridges out of my long blonde curly hair. I serve myself some pancakes and then sit down across from this girl, rettiger that I know. We start talking and then there are two more girls that end up sitting by us. Now I am the only guy by three girls, even though they might see me as a girl. The girl who just sat down says she came back from being abducted. I say that happened to me last week! (reffering to the dream I just had). She said that happened to her yesterday. And I comment how famous she must be if she is getting captured and hunted on a wednesday!

      I notice how I feel so much more comfortable around girls and wonder whether I would act the same way around guys or even say the same things. This thought process brings me out of the dream
    10. Dream Journal

      by , 05-24-2011 at 03:07 PM
      Dream 1-- Epic High School Dream

      The dream starts out I am walking down the street during the night. I somehow know it's about 3am and that I have school the next day, but I can't sleep anyway, I tell myself. As I continue walking down this street, I find a store that is very well lit up. I find a vending machine right outside the store and I look inside. I find Munchkin Fu (The game I literally played right before going to sleep), and so I sit down on a bench and begin to spread out some cards.

      After a while, I realize I need to go to school! So I pack up my cards and begin walking. Next thing I know, it's morning and I'm walking on the street to my school. Suddenly, I am walking down a hallway with my middle sister. We are talking, and I walk ahead of her to get into Steg's class first. She slams into the door. I hear the sound but I keep walking into the classroom.

      Steg is on the left and there is a round wooden table with about half the chairs occupied in no particular grouping. I sit in a chair relatively close to me on the near side of the round table. As I sit, the whole room changes. There is now no more round table, instead we are all facing the front of the room but still sitting down.

      Steg asks how everybody's weekend was. One person next to me says "Huffines' weekend was amazing" and Huffines begins to talk about a party that he went too and how he shouldn't have gotten that drunk. I'm sitting there a little confused because Huffines usually doesn't drink and I'm also thinking about how isolated I am from everyone because I don't drink.

      Then I hear laughter coming from outside the classroom. I get up and look outside. I see what appears to me my lower school hall way filled with about 4 of my high school classmates laughing hysterically. Two, in their uniforms, seem to be throwing a frisbee around and the other two start walking toward me. When the two get to me, I turn around and walk back into the classroom.

      Sitting down again, I turn 180 degrees in my chair to listen to someone behind me speaking. As I turn, I seemlessly change location. I am now on the left side of this huge auditorium. The ground is white (probably marble) and the chairs are on an incline as they get farther from the front until they reach another marble plateau at the top.

      Turned around, I listen to this kid talk about his shoe that he is holding up. He says that it is black and green, and has amazing support from the R to the D of the heel. A kid behind him says and its white and magenta, almost in a joking tone. Steg, at the front of the auditorium now, tells the student to speak up. He repeats the statement about white and magenta. A couple of people clap in the audience. One kid says the name of the shoe, which I can't remember. Other people start talking to each other, and I'm just sitting in my chair, staring at the shoe, listening to all of this happen.

      Then from across the auditorium, a girl wants to say something, so she walks out of her seat and beings to walk back behind everyone seated and stands on the marble plateau. I'm still turned so I see when the guy brings this girl a microphone perfectly. She is the blonde girl, very hot, skinny, wearing black pants, a hot pink undershirt, a black shirt, and black jacket. She begins to talk, I can't remember about what. Then she stumbles or says something she didn't mean to say and shouts "FUCK" then covers her mouth with her hand.

      She gives the microphone back, but then she wants to try again, so she walks to the far side of the marble plateau, facing everyone, but realizes she won't be able to speak loud enough. She walks back to the middle, and at this point I blink or something because the next thing I know she is tangled up in wires from the microphone and camera crew that was apparently there.

      I blink again. Now I am sitting at the head of a round table, trying to desperately do my homework. I don't even know what I am doing, and I figure it won't be worth much anyway. There is a friend sitting a little forward to my right, thinking about talking to him completely distracts me from the work I am trying to do. I sit there for the next 20 minutes or so, just not doing anything, staring at the screen, totally lost in thought.

      THen I come back to reality, close my laptop screen, and find myself walking back toward Steg's room. As I reach the room, it looks totally different, even the entrance. I look inside and see Steg sitting on the chair, with his legs crossed on the cushion of the chair. His eyes are closed and he is apparently meditating. I decide not to disturb him and so walk away a little. Then as I am waiting in the hallway, I hear Branch and Rafkin talking about going to a rave tonight.
      Rafkin: "you going to that rave tonight?"
      Branch: "ya, it should be fun"
      3 second silence Rafkin: "i dont think we should go, I have this assignment tomorrow anyway"
      Branch: "ya, thats cool, we don't have to go, we'll just party harder the day after!"
      This whole time I'm staring at the ground just listening, analyzing. Then I walk into the classroom and sit down near the right side. Then there is a woman who is grading a scantron final. I have the strange feeling like either I did horribly on the test or that I didn't take it at all. As she is talking, and she is talking alot, she starts to say things that are silly that mostly entertain herself but that I find funny too. I think about how awesome of a life she must live if she could really be in that mentality of self-entertainment.

      I see her marking up a scantron that has a lot of red on it! There are groups of over 7 consescutive questions missed! She then makes some jokes and is walking around. I begin to notice how the room looks like my den in my home. As she walks across the room and back, she makes a comment to me, that makes me put my head down while laughing awkwardly. I have no response and feel really tired. I guess putting my head on the table was my best response. As I look up, I look away from her and am now looking out a window, that in hindishgt looks exactly like the one in my den. I see many different clouds that remind me of animals or shapes. Then daniel is sitting to my right and comments about how the clouds look like stuff. I point out on cloud that appears to have moving parts and tell him to check it out. Then he tells me dude thats a car! And I stare at it for a little bit until I realize what he was talking about, and I can even see the wheels rotating! There is one cloud that is perfectly blotting out the sun.

      Watching the sky and clouds causes me to become a floating camera that is watching this girl on a bike travel through a college campus. She is wearing a brown bra, brown panties, and brown stalkings that cover her legs but not her butt. As she is riding, she has something in her hand, and as she passes one fat guy, he turns around and says "OH YEAH! PIZZA RUN!" Somehow I know it's not pizza she is carrying, but I forget what it is.

      She bikes off of my field of vision. As I turn to try and find her, I see two men standing and talking to eachother. Then, my high school friend, shulman runs into frame. With his back turned, he does a pose like zoolander, only moving his face around so that now he is looking at the camera with his back turned. I notice he is wearing these strange glasses that aren't natural for him and his hair looks very greasy. He looks the other way and then does the same head pivot from the other side. The camera does a freeze frame both of these times, and then it rolls forward.

      Shulman starts talking to the two guys about something, walks to the right, the camera pans right, and he throws keys into an open door. Someone says "cut!!" and they redo the scene, and now I am participating in it. This time, Shulman throws the keys into the open part of the door, and shuts it with enough force that it opens back up a crack. He walks away a little and laughs for a second. I walk close to the door and say "ohh its locked" in a very weird and choppy way in order to save the scene by pretending that the door is still closed. Shulman says "yea, Jay" and we keep rolling. We walk over to this patch of grass.

      It is me, shulman to my left, and this guy I dont recognize in front of me. I feel really awkward and don't know what to say. The guy in front of me looks at me and says "I'm thirsty" so I say "ya! lets go drink!" and put my hand up for a high five. He's like "ya!" and we start to walk right. The guy then tells me that I was supposed to say I'm thirsty because it's my line, he was just prompting me. As we walk back, there is suddenly a U shape of benches that some people are sitting on. I get back in place and look over the guy's shoulder to see Lo, my ex-gf, across the street. I look back at the guy and the next thing I know she is placing a deck of some cards in my hand as she passes me to sit on the benches. I look at the cards and throw my hands up in the air saying "YES!!" These cards have a group of text of the top, a horizontal line, and more text on the bottom, but I don't remember what they said.

      I walk over to her and sit catty-corner to her on the bench. She starts to sing and I begin to laugh uncontrollably. I feel so awake and am having so much more fun. Laughing so hard, I fall to ground and Lo, and this other girl sitting next to her, put their feet up on me. I start thinking about if I would do the same thing if these were guys and how I would react. This thoughts process takes me out of the dream.

      Dream 2--

      I am in my bed with my mom sitting next to me. I am trying to explain the dream above to her. As I am doing so, there is a plate of food to my left that I occassionally eat from. Without warning, my mom reaches her hand to get food from the plate, pushing herself across my stomache. As she sits back up, I realize I have a boner. I cover it up nonchalantly with my arm and it appears that she doesn't notice... The dream continues for another thirty seconds as I just think about whether she notices and what to do to make this boner go away...
    11. Dream Journal--

      by , 05-23-2011 at 03:24 PM
      Dream 1-- Basketball

      I am in my high school gymnasium playing basketball. The weird part about this dream is how the light alternates from behing on and allowing me to seeing everything to being off, in which case it is pitch black. This game was surprisingly long. I was playing against my dad and other people from my high school, and there were certain kids on my team as well.

      I don't remember score. There was a time when the lights came on and I could see my dad. I grab this black ball that he is holding in his hands and i think to myself "jump ball" but then his whole team gathers around and tries to help with.

      The lights turn all black and I have to dribble around dalton and lc. I juke out dalton, but lc snatches the ball from me as I try to pass him. I get to the basket a couple of times throughout the game but i dont think i ever hit a basket. This dream might have to do with the fact that i watched a basketball game the night before.

      Dream 2-- Link's revenge

      I am playing link in the super nintendo version of the game. I am going through a dungeon and slashing boxes and barrells containing ruppees and stuff. As I go into the next room, I die.

      Then later in the night I come back to this dream and decide not to exit the same way again. This intensity of thought causes me to have a sort of conversation in my head and then I hear my dad's voice saying "its like a conversation" as i open up the chest containing the boomerang. The music plays!
    12. Dream Journal--

      by , 05-22-2011 at 05:19 PM
      Dream 1--

      I am sitting in my high school's auditorium, in the middle section of seating. I look to my right and see a bunch of familiar high school faces located across the right aisle from where I am sitting. They are having a conversation, and I am listening.

      Someone says something like "what is it with you texan people" and I lean over and say "what do you mean you people" and then will leans forward and says "what do you mean you people"

      Then I have nothing to say. So I continue to wait. Then I see tassi stand up and begin to speak in the aisle facing toward the back of the auditorium. He is wearing these light blue gym shorts, is slightly bearded and is carrying a notebook.

      He starts talking about a group called second chaos and asking if people ant to join. In my head, start to space out thinking about why its called second chaos and think, as if remembering, that there had been an original group called chaos and it got dismembered.

      Dream 2--

      I am sitting in a chair and to the right of me are two other students that I don't recognize. A woman that I've never seen before walks into the room and explains to us that we will be taking a spanish quiz. I have a sudden flash of panic because I didn't study at all. I think about how much it would suck to get a B and all these other possible sources of anxiety.

      Then the teacher starts making all of these comments about how they have ensured that we will still get an A and she has this sly smile on her face.. I don't know what to think but the panic I feel causes me to go into PassObs and the dream fades away.
    13. Dream Journal--

      by , 05-21-2011 at 04:07 PM
      Dream 1-- Bear Hunting

      This old, wise hunter and I are going hunting for black bears. We are on a patch of grass, walking forward toward an extremely shallow tributary, when I see a black bear running toward the center of my vision in the distance from the right side. At that moment, I notice the hunter is holding this strange weapon, which appears to be a long black tube with a red ballon at the end. On the balloon is a big white star.

      At first I have no idea what the weapon is or how it works, but I am just following the lead of the hunter. We cross the tributary, approaching the bear closer. When we cross, the bear starts to run toward us at an angle. This causes us to run in the opposite direction, and the bear begins to run around us in an attempt to cut us off.

      At this point, I get scared. I have a feeling the bear can predict our movements and read our minds. Then I remember we have this weapon to use, apparently I now have one in my hands too. This gives me a surge of confidence, and I being to run forward. Running, I look down at what I am holding to get a better idea of how to use it. As I look back up, I realize I am now on a sidewalk and there is a fence to the left of me. I see a black bear cub close to the fence, and reactionarily pull whatever trigger is available. The effect of this weapon is huge gust of air that pushes the cub up against the fence with an extreme amount of force. I become regretful of my action because I not only abused the cub but now the mother bear will be angered.

      Out of nowhere, a group of people show up and start crowding around me, encouraging me to walk forward with them on the path of the sidewalk. We start walking and there is a lot of talking. I'm not saying much, but I am caught up in the momentum and inertia of the group. Then, the cub sort of transforms into a person, who joins our group. After we exchange a couple of words, he bites me but won't let me bite him back to be fair. This pisses me off and I leave the group.

      Enraged, I keep walking alone. It now becomes night time and I find myself walking next to balto. I have this internal debate about whether or not I should talk to him about my feelings. Then I decide to, and ask "who does ____ think he is?"(i cant remember the name of the guy who bit me in hindsight, in the dream I actually said a name). As we keep walking, we end up sitting in bleachers, it turns out there is a huge procession for the group of people that I was walking with.

      As I'm sitting down, I see some of my high school friends sitting in the bleachers, especially peg. Someone says "peg, i havent seen you in a while... you look like a druggie" and peg smiles and tells a joke as he looks around. His gaze settles on me and I look away. I think about how I should be a part of this procession instead of waiting here with everyone and how the issue wasn't whether or not I should talk about my feelings but whether or not I should act out my feelings instead of just running away and complaining later.

      Dream 2-- Watching People Take a test

      I am standing in the doorway of a room with the teacher and his desk to my right, and all the students taking a scantron test in front of me. They are all sitting on chairs, taking their tests on top of black tables. The floor is white. Many people seem to be having trouble with the test, and one girl in particular catches my attention.

      She seems puzzled by one question, and asks aloud, "how am i supposed to know???" My perspective zooms in on her face, and I become entranced by her lips. I seriously desire to just kiss her and hold her. As I continue to look, people are starting to file out of the room one by one because they have probably completed the test. I am still this passive observer, just watching and apart from it all. There remains on student left in the room, who looks like a simpson's character is frozen in a position that makes me smile. He eyes look closed, and his hand is awkwardly holding the pencil. He is brownish skinned and definitely animated.

      The scene cuts to a mall. I am coming down an escalator and I see the girl from the testing room except now she is wearing this weird whitish outfit and has totally blue skin with black stripes painted over her face. I look around and notice that there are a lot of people wearing the same thing, and I wonder why. I start to think that she is under age and so is dressing like that so they can't tell. Or that the school is going on a field trip and wants everyone to looks uniform.

      They all line up in this very long line. As more people start to file in behind them, I notice this one man who comes in, looks around and sees all the suspicious blue people, and turns around and walks away. As he was hesitating, I come to realize how suspicious it is that all these blue people are in line at the same time as well. As the man is exiting the building, I feel like I am in a comedy because there is a guy who I feel familiar with following him. The man starts running as soon as he exits the building, and my guy is running about 20 yards behind him.

      The man in front starts making gestures, and its funny because the man behind starts mimicking the gestures. I am really confused but am just watching from a distance, still inside the building. There are now two people following the man in front! The chase starts going up a parking structure.

      Suddenly, I am watching from a position on some random floor in the parking structure, and I see from below the guy running up an escalator and getting punched in the face once he gets to the top. The guys start beating him up. Now, I am watching them from an equal level. There are two guys that start dragging the Indian looking guy away and throw him over the side of the parking structure. As they were dragging him, he lost his sandals. I stare at what look like comfy slippers and have this memory of getting yelled at in my frat for leaving out sandals or something vague like that.

      Then, Tom and two other guys appear around me and they are sad. Tom says that was he really close friend and he can't believe that just happened. We start to walk away and I rub Tom's shoulders. Tom then walks the other direction. I start to think about how smart Tom is if he wants attention because we are trying to walk to a location, but he is avoiding us at the time he is most in need of our company. So we have a choice to either continue walking and abandon him in his time of need or stop everything that we are doing to focus on him.

      Dream 3-- Arcade

      I am in an arcade, walking arm-around-shoulder with another guy, who also has is arm around my shoulder. We are basically attached because we are holding on tight. We start walking down this dark staircase and appear in the light of the videogames. There are people playing them, and girls catch my eye. I want to hook up with a girl, but the guy I am with is just continuing to walk forward. Because I keep slowing down and keep getting my head turned we end up facing opposite directions as we are still arm-in-shoulder-locked.

      My friend then finds a video game that combines gallaga and pac man and we start to play. He plays pac man first and then dies rather quickly. There are three girls that walk up to us from our left. We see them but dont say anything, they are just standing there talking to each other. My friend then turns to me and says "I don't want to hook up with high school girls." I think about that statement and wonder if I am easy and will just hook up with anyone and whether these girls are actually high school girls.

      My turn shows up on the screen and apparently I am playing pac-man as the gallaga ship. I can move around the level and ghosts appear out of the bottom of the screen that I have to dodge. I take off one of my USC hats and put on another. This delay causes me to die. THen I turn around and hear an announcer from another video game say "...and gallaga is busting his nuts..." and I turn to a nearby table of my friends and say DID YOU HEAR THAT? HE SAID GALLAGA IS BUSTING HIS NUTS hahahah... people start cracking up, then I have no idea of I should actually say something else or what to do. My friend next to me says "trape the napes" and someone else says "trape the napes" and they laugh at that more. I think about whether my friends are shy and stupid or whether I am too self-conscious. Or both.
    14. Dream Journal-- Swimming, puzzles, fountain

      by , 05-20-2011 at 07:13 PM
      Dream 1-- Swimming to Stomping

      I am on a dock with Chevy Chase, and we are about to start some competition. There are a lot of people crowded around, and Chevy seems extremely confident about what is going to happen. I just follow along as we dive into a lake with a giant balloon and string.

      The string is somehow floating in front of us while the balloon is hanging over head. We swim and the balloon gets dragged forward. Chevy is swimming faster than me, and I am just trying to keep up, but it also seems effortless as it is all happening. We swim forward, turn left and continue to swim.

      As we reach the end of the lake, everyone is cheering, and the announcer says that it took us 1 minute and 58 seconds, but because of bonuses we gained earlier, it took two minutes off our time. So I say "It took literally 0 seconds." I then become very self-conscious about how I am reacting in comparison to how Chevy is reacting. I think about the comment I made as stupid, and I get very up in my head.

      Suddenly, as I am caught up in thought, I am transported to the land right next to where we were in the water. There is techno music playing, so I start dancing. I realize I am dancing really well when people turn and look at me, there is a circle starting to form. THen I try to consciously control my movements by thinking about how I am dancing, and it messes up the whole routine. I am staring at my black pumas and dark blue jeans and watching myself stomp.

      I stop, and face away from a corner. looking out I see TJ and daniel. I have a feeling we are at afterlife. I feel isolated and depressed because I am alone in my corner.

      Dream 2-- Puzzles in my room

      I am sitting on a rug in my bedroom. As I look around, I see a jigsaw puzzle on the floor that consists of entirely clouds. It is completed, however, so I just keeping looking around. As I look up, I see all my clothes in my closet hung up normally but with these enlarged light-blue jigsaw puzzle pieces hanging around them by what appears to be tinsel.

      I continue to look around and remember that I used to have a pokemon jigsaw puzzle. I picture it in my head and wish that I could find it so that I could give it to daniel. Looking at my bed, I see another puzzle on top of it. It is mostly incomplete, with some clumps filled out. I recognize this puzzle from before (in hindsight its from another dream I had) and become surprised when I see it. I try to remember what the whole puzzle was a picture of but that thought process just causes me to wake up.

      Dream 3-- Floating down a fountain

      I am in a crew rowwing single. There are many people rowing ahead of me, and I am just taking it easy. I have my head permanently turned to look behind me, and cannot tell how I am stroking, but when I am not thinking about it, my strokes push me exactly in the direction I need to go.

      Suddenly, instead of being on a lake, I am rowing in the middle of a large fountain. There are many other people playing in the fountain, so I have to be careful and steer correctly. At first this causes me to mess up because I have no idea how to accurately row in a dream, but then I forget that I am in control and it just guides me forward.

      As I continue to row, I am randomly in a room with a lot of half-naked women. This causes me to get an erection, and I am half-aware of it in real life as I am laying in bed as well. I know I hsould be thinking of something else. I try to look away and not think about these beautful girls, but that just causes me to get harder. I keep looking until I orgasm in the dream ( but stranegly not in real life).
    15. Dream Journal-- Debate Chase, Drug Pier, Bleacher Talk, Talk with Doc, Procession in a church

      by , 05-17-2011 at 05:31 PM
      Dream 1-- Debate Chase

      It's night time. I am on my college campus and I find myself running away and I don't know why or from what. I start to cross a street and head toward a grocery store. In the middle of the street, I realize I am running away from one of my fraternity brothers, as if it were some game of tag. Oviedo is chasing me and I'm thinking about making my escape inside the store. As I near the store, I turn around right at the automatic doors and decide to run away from the store.

      Suddenly, I'm on my high school campus and I'm still running away but the person chasing me has turned into my debate coach. I am running at a really fast pace, actually creating a large gap inbetween him and me. Then, as I turn a corner, I find myself in a chair trying to go up and down stairs. This is nearly impossible and it takes me a long time. As I am climbing the stairs, I look back and see my coach just now running into my line of sight from behind a building far off.

      This sends me into a panic. I start to sweat and breathe heavy, knowing that if he catches me I will lose. I get frustrated that I am stuck in this chair and start to struggle to get down the stairs. As I descend, I realize that these stairs lead to an opening where there are circular tables with people eating a formal meal around them. The tables have white clothes on them and the people look very serious. Good posture, expensive wine (and wine-glasses), the whole deal. This only registers in my mind for a second, as I jump out of my chair and start to run away again.

      It's almost too late at this point, as my coach has basically caught up to me. So as I round a corner and come to a glass door, I stop, standing in front of the door and looking at my own reflection. My coach runs up from behind me and pushes me aside. My point of view doesn't move. My perspective still sees the door and my coach, who is now standing there, but I am off-screen (so to speak), fallen down. There is a general silence and sense of worthlessness.

      Dream 2-- Drug Pier

      I am walking down this pier very late at night. There is almost no external lighting from the moon or stars to be precise. But the bushes that are growing all around this pier are very colorful and glowing anyway. There are two friends behind me, talking to me, but I never look to see them. I only listen as they describe these bushes as dope and shrooms.

      I am stunned and rather skeptical, but continue to almost robotically walk forward. As we proceed, the bushes clear away from the pier at the pace we are walking. At the end of the pier, there is a house to our right, so we climb up the house in a second nd I climb through the window. There are many people here, none of whom seem to notice that I have just entered the building. As I walk around and look at everything, still people fail to realize I am right there, so eventually I exit out the window.

      In the next instant, I am walking in the sand with my old friend from high school, B-lake. I notice that we are in the same beach as before and I try to guide him to where the drug pier is and the house as well. As we walk to the left, we reach a shore, but only see a very small pier that leads to nowhere. And there is no house either. We turn around and walk back.

      Dream 3-- Bleacher Talk

      I am in my old school gymnasium, talking to this old woman. She tells me to walk up the bleachers. So naturally I do and sit down next to this old man, who I recognize as Mr. Livengood. He begins to ask me questions about singing and my voice.

      "why do you want to join choir?"

      "because I really enjoy singing and I want to get better at it." I say this while stumbling my words and looking around.

      There are surprisingly other people around us, also sitting and talking. As I say this phrase, I begin to judge and criticize myself as to whether I would be good in choir and really enjoy singing. This brings me into pass obs and ushers me out of the dream.

      Dream 4-- Talk with doc

      I am in my old school boy's locker room. I am walking around, trying to find a shower. There is no one around and it is completely silent except for the noises whirling around in my head telling me which way to go and what to expect.

      As I look around, I find a shower-head, but recognize it as a chemical shower to be pulled only when you are on fire or have acid spilled on you. As I try to exit the locker room, I see shampoo and so I decide to shampoo my hear, even though I have not found a shower. Now I want to exit stealthily to cross the lobby so that I can get to a real shower. As I get out, of course, there is my 1st grade PE coach Doc leading a line of other first graders across the door I am trying to exit out of.

      I step back in fear of being recognized and wait for them to pass. None of them seem to even look at me until Doc comes through the door and sees me. He starts talking to me normally, asking me if I want to play frisbee, and I say OK, sure. Then I walk out the door and find my mom and sister sitting down facing away from me at a table. So I pull up a chair on the other side of the table and start talking to them. I think now I am fully clothed.

      I don't remember what was said, but I remember looking around a lot and being more curious about the environment than the conversation.

      Dream 5-- Procession in a church

      I am sitting in the back pew of a relatively crowded church. I am watching as a Lord is commanding a knight or somthing to bear two children. The Lord is saying that it's the knight's duty and he must follow these orders.

      The knight responds first by saying No I cannot do it! When the Lord repeats the orders, the knight says "no tiempo". A procession of music starts up and the knight begins to dance in a line with other people who are holding the instruments. As they dance around, the people sitting in pews begin to clap in a syncopated rhythm to the music, which I equate to Jewish tradition in the dream. k
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