Choi's Journey of the Conscious Mind

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Normally I would say, I were out last night and went to bed late.. So I did no attempt because I was to tired.
Or .. The battery of my Iphone died so the alarms didn't wake me up all the way. But this time I did all the misstakes that I have allways blamed my not succesful attempt on, but I still succeeded![/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I got to bed really late! But I just changed the timer so I slept the same amount of hours.
When the alarm wakes me up. I feltl really uncomfortable so I moved.. and then I fell back to sleep again.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]Then I had 4 False awakenings in a row. I know that they were false awakenings, because my Iphone died long before those awakenings... But I dreamt my own alarms! On the fourth false awakening I thought about vaccation, and the exact same words that I thought about I now heard my mom say in the other room "We should go to Spain". But I didn't become lucid...
Then I woke up and saw that m Iphone had died... So I thought "Ok I failed no big deal, I know that it would have worked if my Iphone hadn't died.[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]Then I close my eyes and I see that it's a yellow cloud on the back of my eyes! I observed it and my last thought of a location I were on the previous day becomes my dream.
Either it was a False awakening that I WILDED in, or it was a normal awakening I don't know, but it doesn't matter because I got lucid anyway. I was now standing on a parking lot and (I'm am chocked and ashamed over what I did) my bestfriends crush M. is looking with horny eyes at me and my dreamy me thinks "This is a dream, it wont hurt my friend". I don't even like her that much in reality... But then she jumps at me and tells me that she want to have sex. I stabilise the dream by feeling her lips when we kiss and touching her body, and rubbing the.. hands haha. I scream I am dreaming! It stabilise only for a bit. But I am still in a dizzy feeling, then I just forget that I want to stabilise and I have sex with her. Then my friend shows up next to me not even bothering! And then he joins and that feels a little weird so I left. But he followed me so I thought hmm the last day we were bragging about how we knew how to impress girls, even if he didn't know them. So I tried to imagine the location we had been at. And the dream changed, but then it morphed into something random. I thought "Were do I find nice girls?"
Then it started to appear lot of McDonals restaurants! And was like "WTF?!" Then I just went into one of them, and there were nice girls alright :shock: I walk up to one of the girls, and say "Hey what's yor name?" and she answers "Annie". But then she says alkjhaaöhwfwaf :? ... And then I say to my friend "Come man you have to dare to fail to succeed.
Then I pushed him to talk to someone and I talked to a girl that was 15 years older than me, it felt weird to hit on her :/ Yeah I was a total jerk in this dream... [/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I think it's pretty interesting that dreams tend to draw my attention to forbidden thoughts
Sex with my bestfriends crush, hitting on older girls. Maybe that is the stuff my subconscious is fighting with holding back. The norms and my conscious mind believes it wrong, but my subconscious loves and hates what my conscious hates and love.
I did stabilise properly in this dream, but it still didn't work, it got stable only when I stabiised, the second I stopped the dream become more unstable. Subconscious VS Conscious 1 - 0 ...
I think I am going to try the spinning technique next morning, because that is something that many people have talked about and sais that it works. The truth shall be told![/COLOR]