false awakening

110313*+ 11 ~4? time chg SSILD WILD patience. "The next time I see , I am dreaming!" (and I mean really see not just images flashing by). Fragment remembered when getting up to go to the bathroom involved a group and making sure that everyone is showing that they are thankful. I walk around a little bit go back to bed and think about new goals since I hit one of my biggest short term ones but I didn't make any of the goals real concrete so need to work on that. Anyway I was patiently laying in bed not the least bit worried getting to sleep- maybe a few times and put it out of my head. After a while I feel like I am about to enter the dream state and I get what I assume now were just convincing HH's of my wife getting out of bed probably to go to the bathroom I assume. Since I feel like I'm almost there I try to will myself out of bed and it seems like I can't move out I do get the sense that can rotate parallel to the bed in my sideways position laying
on my side and I began to rotate and it feels like fun and then I think this feels like a rollercoaster and I imagined I really long dive on a coaster and before I knew it I am flying along holding on to the rails of a rollercoaster kind of like my hands became rollers on the track I am enjoying going up and down the roller coaster. Is one of those coasters where you're hanging below the track. Is daytime and it is just incredible when I reach the bottom and the track is getting ready to go back up I release and start flying over a beautiful cream landscape feels like suburban area there's a lot of green rolling hills but there is also plenty of activities cars driving on their way to wherever. This was one of my new goals I thought about when I'm back to bed I wanted to see crowds of DCs is it seems like they're usually just small groups of people in my lucid dreams. I'm focusing on one particular truck like a big cargo truck just too see what the DC
is doing and the truck has an accident and flips over upside down and I think no not interested in seeing what an accident victim looks like in a dream and I continue flying.But then I hear sound from my bathroom that I thought was waking life...I feel some vibrations...and I even thought I sensed the light was on in the bathroom but it seems like so long ago that my wife seemingly got up but it was just a false awakening. FA continued: When she came back towards the bed I asked her where she was for so long and she said that she had to go to the store to buy some medicine and I looked at the clock and it was something like 130 in the morning (in the dream, it was really much closer to 530 or 630 IWL according to the time I actually woke up later). I ask why would you go at this time of the night? And then I started looking for my dream journal to record the incredible lucid experience I just had and it was missing. Ask my wife did you do something
with my papers over there. Where is it? My wife threw it away. Where is it...is it actually gone? And I start imagining all of the journal entries that may be forever lost. I feel heartbroken. She asked me does it give you release before your games? I said yes okay so do you still have it? Then Girl Friday appears to my right completely naked mostly with her back to me (I included her in my new goals also) . Her body looks so beautiful. I realize it's a dream! I start to hold her and we both move towards the bed but now the room seems different . We're kissing and touching each other enjoying each others naked skin and at some point I'm looking at her face and I realize how incredibly vivid and beautiful her face is and then she starts acting strange as if she doesn't know what is happening. We have our tongues in each others mouths and she pushes mine back out with her tongue and I think that is strange, look on her face is strange and I wake up. When
thinking about what just happened I was obviously exhilarated I also wonder what happened at the end there and with my mind running wild it made me question if only for half a second whether or not we were both and some shared dream experience and she realized hell real or weird it was and have that reaction. One of the other goals is to continue the second part of traveling above the earth and continue on to the moon for some fun. I also thought it would be cool to fly around over to Paris or some other places around the world. I also remembered what I wanted to be able to freeze group of DC's in time while I continue to be able to walk around like in the old Twilight Zone episode.

110213**+ 1030 ~3 mini-wbtb ~5 wbtb SSILD WILD. On my first noticed awakening I only remember a fragment of a dream where I was wondering why would the church be teaching this(what?, I wonder if it was LD related as it feels like I forgot something important). I remember a title or something: "Witchcraft in the Church." I get up go to the bathroom remind myself the date and quick review of goals and go back to bed and do my variation of SSILD cycles...shorter version. I get the HH visuals fairly quickly and am mostly letting them float by but attempt to engage a few of them later on. Eventually I get one with N's friend M in it...usually they don't make any sense or are not recognizable so I engage this one but was probably already dreaming whether I engaged it or not. M is sitting on the ground in a flirty pose in a dress with her left knee up and the other laying mostly flat exposing her underwear. Another woman thinking it is unintentional tries to push her dress down with her foot but M lifts up her knee again and this time I can see even more clearly...white lacey underwear. Knowing this is a dream I tell her to remove them with my thoughts. Next thing I know we are both completely naked and sitting on a seat or could it have been a toilet (weird) but we were rubbing out bodies together enjoying each others naked skin on skin when I woke up. I turn over and write down my lucid and I get up go to the bathroom, go to my home office where I thought about reading a few pages from "Are You Dreaming" but realize the light will be too bright and is shining across the hall and might wake my wife. I walk around a little then lay down and think about my goals and focus on the back of my eyes thinking the next time I see I am dreaming over and over maybe 15 times. Do my SSILD, longer version and decide to enjoy the quiet time and patiently wait like Sageous talked about. Again I start getting the HH visuals and some audio fairly quickly but they don't seem to be going anywhere so I decide to roll over and hope for a DILD but then it happens I half suspect I am dreaming but worried I might still be awake but decide to will myself out of bed and I roll out of bed without actually engaging any muscles lest I wake myself. Sure enough I am light as a feather where as I normally feel very heavy when getting up and know I am dreaming but my vision is very foggy so I pause and decide to do one of the TOTM I just read about last night. I recited the months from November backwards starting slowly got a few of them more quickly and going faster almost tripped me up at April to March as I thought what comes before April but slowed down and finished. I continue out of my room slowly float walking and I see the railing from the overlook and everything is very clear now. I fly down over the railing down to the first floor. As I open the front door I think for a moment if my wife might hear the door opening and should I lock the door and I remind myself no worries, no need to even lock it my dream for any reason I can think of...keep going! I fly/float down my street kind of sluggishly and think that I must have read too much about how some people have various trouble with flying and realize I have flown well for as long as I can remember and I zoom off quickly to Girl Friday's. I think for a moment if I should go direct to my goal of flying out into space to look back at the earth but the temptation is too great. I arrive at Girl Friday's and I see a few other people outside that are often around her and might look sideways at the married man coming here at night but remind myself it is a dream - no worries (something I have been working on - reminding myself it is a dream - in conjunction with my daytime awareness check-ins and RCs). I float around back up to the back room and imagine that she will be there getting undressed. Sure enough when I look in the window she is unbuttoning her blouse. I knock on the window and give her the big eyes look and she is into it. I continue to float out side and she continues to undress one item at a time. I feel myself getting excited and I ask: you want to see this don't you. And as I start to pull it out I imagine it will be abnormally large and it is! And then I noticed that kind of hurts as if has expanded too much. I say you want this but I decide it is time to move on and I fly up into the atmosphere at super speed probably for 10 or 15 seconds towards my goal. As planned I look back down towards Earth but I must have flown too far earth is tiny and not the site I imagined so I flew back down towards Earth and stopped when it was in nice view. I could not make out the continents, the atmosphere was cloudy just blue ocean and clouds it seems, but so beautiful. The planet was glowing...I just sat there completely in awe and actually started to cry overwhelmed with emotion and I woke up. I get teary eyes just recalling it. I had planned to also fly to the moon and do a little bounding around on the moon and surgery with a piece of moon rock...but maybe another time. A little later on after laying in bed while recalling what a wonderful lucid dream I just had on top of a good one earlier in the evening I have a dream where I'm laying down on the floor on my side and I am apparently at work as I hear several of my coworkers talking and going by and R greets me in his normal up-beat way and I realize its Saturday there's no way I'm at work I'm dreaming again I tell him I'm sleeping and I notice how cool is this but then I focus on drool that seems to be coming out of the corner of my mouth and I wake up. I must have dozed off because I did not enter the dream consciously as I normally do with a DEILD, so I am thinking it is a DILD and possibly an FA caught(since I was in the sleeping position in the dream). I decided that's probably it for the night and decide to get up. Sweeeeet!!!!

10/27/13*+ 1145 505 WBTB SSILD. I am in my home office doing one of my typical functions closing out. The computer software is freezing up. I hear the sound aluminum blinds rustling and I realize I'm dreaming. Perhaps because I do not have blinds here. But I wake up. I deild I feel the vibrations and I see my ceiling up close this is the second or third time recently I have entered a dream this way. I look at patterns on the ceiling and realize that they are probably nothing like patterns of my actual ceiling and they start to form very consistent pattern. I think about how I want to proceed from here and I feel I'm back in bed and vibrations start up again this time decide picture a beautiful view of the ocean. I end up in the ocean start swimming putting both hands in front of me and paddling outwards to move forward. I remember suggestions to just keep going, moving forward, to stabilize a dream and I do this. I also think about rubbing my hands together but then I realize I start to sink and I resume swimming. I
remember my goal and I start to visualize an island after swimming what seemed like a decent while. A small island appears with a single palm tree and I crawl myself on the shore and the dream fades into a false awakening where I write down my previous dreams not wanting to forget but then I noticed that my son is here and and we dropped him off already IWL so I realize I'm dreaming again. I talked to him about dreaming and I say that we are dreaming right now and he says yeah I guess we are...or something like that. Then I tell my wife the same thing and say look we even have visitors sleeping over that we weren't expecting a lady over there and a baby. My wife says nah like she doesn't believe me that we're dreaming. I lean over lady I think she looks kind of like G's friend from last night. My elbow and forearm accidentally touches her down in her private area and I feel awkward wondering if I should pretend like I didn't notice... she looks at me
funny and seems to get upset this makes me lose my already dwindling lucidity it seems...thinking I am awake now I get & hide my DJ before wife starts tying it together with my mistake. The lady notices what I'm doing and says something about what I'm doing being wrong or something and she begins to prepare something with another lady. They put two dabs of something wet on the space between my foot and my shin but closer to the foot in the front of my lower leg or upper foot. I start to think this is weird and she has some occult website up on her laptop that she has and is following along like she's going to chant some spell and I start to say no no no you're not going to do this. She says it makes you feel good. I say yeah the evil can make you feel good but then you start doing things that you don't want to or should not do. Odd!!! This should have brought me back to lucidity. I guess I was so wrapped up in the attempt to make sure I stop them from proceeding. I wake up and write down
the dream for real this time. I can see in my dream journal this morning where as the first part was not obviously. My next dream there's an announcement for all police officers to stay clear of a particular intersection. I even remembered one of the streets maybe both of them but do not recall them at this time and I don't think they are street names that mean anything to me. It seems but that they are tracking someone near that intersection and they don't want any police presence to scare them off. I'm in a room and I hear a knock on the door, open the door or someone else opens the door and someone pops out from out of sight and it startles me and I wake up. It feels like I realized it was a dream right before I woke up but I'm not sure if it was as I was waking up so I'm definitely I'm not counting it. Fragment where someone says salad with spicy chicken chunks is the only choice to eat at this time. I wake up and write it down. I have a number of advanced
dreamlets with with short action and dialogue and I try to grab onto a few of them. When that doesn't work I just observe them as passively as I can. My last dream was not lucid unfortunately but I'm in line at McDonalds or a fast food place like it, and I see a little girl go behind the counter and grab a piece of food. I then notice that what appears to be her father is also behind the counter in plain clothes(not a uniform) and it seems like they're family of one of the workers. He is putting miscellaneous food items in his pocket to eat later I assume. I do wonder how cleanly that is and whether I should order food here. Then another girl probably another daughter is getting food as well and putting it in one of the containers they use sitting on the counter. I wake up and write down the dream. I close my eyes and see if I have any random odd thoughts or images come up indicating that I might still be able to dream but I think it is too late in the morning and I decide to get up.

10/19/13*

Many dreams and fragments tonight. Slept in and perhaps the day journal also helping.
Go to bed too late, 1 a.m. Wake up approximately 3 a.m. Probably too early but do some SSILD cycles. Remember a dream about dream control someone is teaching it online. Another dream fragment something about nobody wants to look at homes in B when they can just look at the homes in A. Something about the former has some areas that are not as nice where is the latter is pretty much all nice. Wake up at 6 a.m. do proper WBTB and try the cycles again. Some of these dreams are before 6 a.m. And some of them are after 6 a.m. Fragment no one wants to play on this field or they are the tennis courts? because the lighting is too low. Walking away from the courts and it is night time. There seems to be apartments or some other buildings around.
Something after some kind of gathering with people from the office. I say hey D good to see you as always they have some leftover cupcakes and it looks like something was in the middle of each of them but its gone now maybe like a candle or some kind of
decoration and there does seem to be some wax that burned off from the candle onto the cupcake but the cupcake taste delicious(unfortunately not lucid here).
There is some kind of gathering at a house and there's a group of people sitting around a table including me and it seems mostly women but when I think that I look over to see at least one other guy sitting around the table. One of the women is either A from my recreational sports team or just reminds me of her. We had a game last night. After chatting for a while I say well I better get going and the person to my right gets up so that I can get out I'm kind of at the far end of the table farthest from the the exit from the table because it is backed into a corner. Someone on my left mentions I could have let you out this way and I said no that's okay if I went that way three of you would have to get up where is this way only one person has to get up to let me out. I say well thanks for having us over but then I realize I'm not talking to the homeowner here just some of the visitors and as I head towards the exit I wonder if I should look for the
homeowner or sneak out. As I'm approaching the front door I see some other guests in a living room area and then the homeowner comes out and it looks like the guy I see walking his dog in our neighborhood and who used to work at the same place I did. I say to him thank you for having us over and he seems to nod his head in agreement I don't remember him saying anything specific until I'm starting to go out to a sliding door. At this point there are three Bulldogs two smaller ones and one bigger one and he's trying to open the sliding door in a way that I can get out but the dogs do not get out. I attempt to help him by stepping over the biggest dog and keeping my foot in the way as I go out the door. The biggest dog is barking but more excitement he doesn't try to bite me or anything. The homeowner did kind of jump like he was worried that the dog was going to bite me. As I go out the door the bigger dog is putting his foot and claw through some part of
the door and homeowner says oh I need to remove that last claw so he can't do that when he says that I look back and he has a silver piece where the back claw would be kind of like someone might have a silver tooth and I notice it. I see the dog examining it as I walk away. I think it's strange but it doesn't seem to make me lucid.
I'm walking down a street and there are two women in front of me maybe early twenties. I can hear one of them tell the other one I know I look cute. They enter the building probably an apartment building what flat and I can see them walking up the stairs. Continue on and next to the left of it there's a big open window with all kinds of art interesting art and its up on the 2nd or 3rd floor...someone's home. I see two other women coming my way and I don't want them to think I was just checking out those two women that went into the apartment so I pretend to stop and admire the art and then really start to admire it forget all about the women. Some of the art looks like stuff I may have seen in waking life somewhere but I'm not sure. Now all of the sudden it is like that homeowner is selling a bunch of stuff on the street out front. Someone mentions how he has a piece called Marilyn in Paris or something like that and seems to be Marilyn Monroe. Before
I get a chance to go check it out someone has it in her hand as they walk around looking at the other stuff . Too late for that one. I'm looking over miscellaneous stuff on the table and it seems to be a series of DVDs on the table that seems to be some kind of racy artsy movies they are all in black boxes with plain riding no pictures and the total includes the word mind. Also there was some nice older paintings that look like originals and it seemed like he wasn't selling anything for too much money.
Some fragments about a strike and alternatives .
Me and J from my recreational sports team are in the downtown area. It seems like where in the city north west of where I live. I'm not sure why would be hanging out with him. He's the one teammate I do not get along with very well. We are leaving someplace and heading down the main road by the water when I say over should go back to where we came in to make a right up the hill and then another right up the hill and then all the sudden we are walking and making our way through the city scape . At one point we have to jump down of a Ledge down to a landing below and when I drop down there such an away and I seem to be able to grab it and move it as I'm landing. We continue weaving in and out of some alleys.
I am in a kitchen that is probably supposed to be some mix between my sister in laws house and my mother in laws old house. My brother in law and his brother are sitting in the eat in kitchen area and I and my sister in law are in the kitchen. There's a little divide where you can't see directly from the you didn't catch in area into all parts of the kitchen and were tucked away a little out of you of those people in the eat in kitchen area. For some reason I say to my sister in law you know you want some of this. And she or I says well do you want to go in the bathroom. It seems like the suggestion is she's going to give me a blow job. Very odd! She's not even attractive anymore. She used to be somewhat.
I am sleeping in today and I get up maybe around 9am after 8 hours of sleep go to the bathroom walk around a little bit have a quick snack and then lay back down and do the cycles once more. It seems like I have a little trouble getting back to sleep but eventually I start to get the vibrations and I enter a dream lucid. I'm looking into a window I think I am and floating because it seems to be an upper floor and I am outside and there is a woman in a flowing white gown more like a night gown than a dress but it's fully covering her. She looks somewhat ghostly but I do not take her as a ghost and I do not see her as a sexual mate but rather I want to get closer to her for some reason.Unfortunately this is when my wife tolls over and says hey do you want to go to the farmers market? This was definitely in waking life because when I eventually got up, sure enough that is where we were heading even though we have not discussed it the day before. Because her
timing is sometimes so terrible waking me from a lucid dream I sometimes question whether or not it could have been a false awakening but this one I'm quite sure was for real. I even asked her in that moment if I was moving or something why did she wake me if I look fast asleep and she said no I wasn't moving. I asked her to please just let me sleep until I roll over or something. She doesn't really understand lucid dreaming aspect and doesn't really like me focusing on dreams except when I tell her of the seven or so dreams I've had with her father who has passed on. Somewhere during this late morning sleep in period I was able to see in my room even though I had the sleep mask on and I realized that I'm dreaming because I could still see despite the sleep mask but I think I woke myself up trying to sense if the sleep mask was still in position over my eyes and sure enough it was unfortunately I was awake by then. For my lucid dreaming count on TV I
only feel comfortable counting one tonight even though there were two events both of them too short. Not sure how to count it for the competition.