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10/13/13(written morning of, just now getting around to posting) 1030 355 547 awake
Barcelona? Possibly recurring dream I have to look at my dream journal I'm quite sure it is very similar to a place I have been before and my dream that was a huge place that had a big tall pedestrian bridge that went over to a shopping area. And this one we are on some kind of rooftop garden with all kinds of weirdly rounded statues kind of reminds me of that artist that did a lot of the interesting architecture around Barcelona, Antoni Gaudí. Wife is worried that we may be missing a lot by not being on an offcial guided tour. pat I think it is was showing us some stuff. It felt like it was supposed to be my sons University . It was such a big beautiful place but a lot of the details are fading. The word "dog flower" came into my head as I was waiting to go back to sleep. I had 3 very short lucid dreams so I will only count it as one. I wonder if I was using too much logic connecting myself back to sleeping in bed in these or if I was just sleeping too lightly. Made
myself reminder to check out the podcast that talks about light sleepers. Normally I am a deep sleeper. Anyway in the first one I was looking up at the sky and I was telling my wife look how thick that fog is and I realize that moments ago I was simply lying in bed trying to wild and it makes me lucid but also quickly wakes me up and I go back into another lucid dream which I cannot recall the details and wake up quite quick into a false awakening where I thought I wrote down the first two lucid dreams but when I woke up they were not in my DJ so I only realized after the fact that was a false awakening. But i did go back into another one where I'm at the bottom of a cave or in well and I realize that makes no sense, that I am dreaming and I'm definitely not at the bottom of a well but once again wake up very quick. I also had vibrations coming into or out of some of these and I wonder if I am focusing too much on the vibrations since I have been able nudge them on
before. Colored red for interesting Some kind of nightmare it didn't seem scary at all must have been semi-lucid. There was someone pretending to have died to get out of some kind of predicament and there were three others in the room that meant that person harm so he just keeled over backwards and pretend to be dead. Next thing I remember is a graveyard scene where he another woman the guy or I'm waking up in their coffins and they are coughing (I just realized talk similar those words sound) as they're waking up as if they had put themselves into some kind of state in order to fool people they were hiding from. It flashes back to what seems like the first room with a guy was first pretending to be dead and it seems like the woman is lying on the table and blood and other liquefied material is flowing out of her like a fountain maybe about 1 foot tall very very odd! Later dream we are in some older hole in the wall restaurant and it seems like it's close to closing. I go in the
closet and I'm getting myself some ice and this older Hispanic man is sitting near the cash register along with this older hispanic woman who is counting or balancing the cash drawer. I tell the older man that I'm just getting myself some ice in their closet I will help myself. I think we ask them if we can order some food and the older woman just slowly repeats No No No. Some other guy that me and my wife are with starts frying up some steaks on a giant grill that looks kind of like a foreman grill where you can pull the top down on top of the main grill below and serves me up a steak but it is way to raw and I like rare steak but I have to spit it out it was just to slimy inside. Oh before that I told my wife and the other guy that if you want to get a drink you better drink it inside the closet because it looks like they are closing and they are not going to want to sell you the drink. So my wife drinks a coke like always. I just remembered another
dream while thinking about a street fair. It may have been during the Barcelona dream and we were in a vehicle or a bus and I think it was my wife and son and I inside the bus looking out and was a blonde guy standing there it seemed like at first he was completely naked. He turned around and then it was like he was wearing some spandex shorts with material was missing down the middle in the back and he turned around again and it was the same in the front as if he was wearing the shorts trying to get people to look at the bare strip down the middle where his thing was.

10/12 to bed very late 1am 605 615 wbtb 622 flonase 722 still awake some light HHs. Close drapes. Prior dream driving up into hilly area. Almost miss the exit...think using GPS. Pull over after exit and there are 8 or so color coded stakes...all green except last one orange or red? Seem to indicate whether camping spots are free. When get there lots of foreigners or immigrants are staying there and have come from a ship. They have a lot of old burlap sacks and old style luggage. I wonder if they could be passing through the panama canal?? Richly forested area. There are guards for their luggage. I see it sitting there...(did I ever see a ship or water? Maybe a dock.) Camp sites and hotel rooms available. Small thin black guy with accent tells me at least (something like) $39.95/day...assumed for camping. I forgot my tent! Predicament. I check out the hotel and go to same room twice. The 2nd time it looked like someone may have already gotten it as the bed cover was
ruffled and something I can't recall was out of place close to the door. I go out room see 2 women in the neighboring room and others in hall and wonder if they will wonder what I was doing in someone else's room(reminds me of old dream in multi level apartment bldg...big complex while typing this up...very different looking places). Head toward front desk to see if rooms still available and for how much...fades or forgot rest. (I think this dream was influenced by watching a documentary on the California Gold Rush last night some travelling overland, some by ship from the east coast all the way around Argentina and back up to the west coast.)
After wake back to bed I do the SSILD cycles and also do what Dolphin mentioned just looking at the back of my closed eyelids waiting for the dream to start but specifically with an intention to wild. I got up a few times to close the curtains go to the bathroom and went back and did the same thing each time. In the final. Before getting up for the day I had quite a few mini dreamlets it kind of felt like dreams trying to start and me interrupting them by paying attention to them and at first trying to grab a hold of them and interact with them but they may have just been ordinary dreamlets I'm not sure. But each one after a while had some action and dialogue to them and I was conscious of them of course as well but I was still waiting to actually enter the dream. (Probably around 10am) At one point I notice thumb index and middle finger tapping the bed beside me in a dreamlike way and it made me think of the fild method and I started putting focus on willing my fingers
to move and I felt the vibrations and zoomed into a dream where I am flying up out of my bed I'm excited I know I'm dreaming I zoom down the stairs out the door and down the street to where they're often kids playing thinking about the basic task of the month. I zoom up to them half running half flying and just roar like I never have before I felt like a different creature and felt so powerful and the kids just went crazy running off down the street and into the house. (semi-lucid, doubting>>>)Then I am back in bed and hear footsteps it is my wife telling me it's time to get up now but I have since confirmed that it was a false awakening. She had earlier told me she was going to get her hair cut in waking life and when I came out of the room after really waking she was still gone at her appointment and I went in to my sons room who's home for the weekend from college and ask him if he came into my room and if mom is still gone and he said he did not come into my room and
confirmed that mom is still gone and told him about my false awakening. So it was definitely a false awakening but during the false awakening while i was laying in bed and having her come in I suspected that might be a false awakening but instead of doing a reality check I decided to roar at her but it seems more like I was projecting a roar and I wasn't sure if I was actually doing it and she wasn't reacting anyway. Going to bed so late I think made my trip to lucidity a longer road than normal, so need to avoid that!

I held off on posting this dream from the night before last since I had no idea what to make of it. I messaged Sageous to get his expertise and what he said brought back the rush of excitement that I had when I woke up that morning. The short version: his opinion was that it was an LD during NREM/Delta sleep and he knew exactly what I was talking about from the description below...

(Written morning of 10/10/13 in offline dream journal)

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I went from vibrations to a view of my room. I doubt it for a moment and wondered if I had slightly open my left eye IWL but then I focused on my left eye and noticed it was completely closed, both eyes were closed. I think me focusing on my actual eyes started waking me up but I was quickly back in the vibrations and this time I try to imagine a scene I wanted to come into but it did not work and I ended up in a void. This time was very weird it was like I was "inside" & interacting with HH's instead of just hearing them or having them happen to what would normally feel like my normal sleeping body. It definitely was the dream feeling being in the void but dreaming about HH's and experiencing them in a very different way while realizing it was a dream and not just the prelude to a dream. Just floating there, relaxing enjoying the experience. It is hard to explain. But I woke up very excited and just have a pep in my step today. I don't get that from regular HH's. After my wake back to bed a couple of ideas in my head for a possible mantra to use but maybe it's too long. I also got an idea to pull the focus away from my body in order to bring on sleep quicker. It was basically focusing on the dream world as being a vast bubble just above & in front of my forehead just beyond my sleeping body. After I woke up from that I continued to attempt to wild and had an incredible number of regular HH's all quite interesting but did not take me directly into a dream that I recall. Dream before my wake back to bed involved one or two other people bringing dreams to me to compare to see if they were related to mine. recall was quite foggy but I don't think that made me lucid.

10/4/13 Quick notes: operating table looking up at the bright round light over the operating table I think of the task of the month bonus task planning to do a self-bone marrow transplant via my arm but it turns dark as in a darker dream more like a nightmare but then I regain control and I hear a woman quietly whispering in some foreign language or made up language definitely not English she goes on for at least one minute before I drop into a non lucid or perhaps woke up . Going to the office but the door to the office is interior inside of another building some strange big woman with dark curly hair comes in she looks startled to see someone else here this time of night. I told her I'm just here to go to this office as I put the key in its not fitting and I realize it is a dream. I went in and out of a few brief possible lucids with vibrations(can't recall content at this time. I also had a dream where someone was teaching me that there's nothing to fear if someone kills you and you can just say haha I will just come right back you can hurt me. This made me laugh and made me
realize it was a dream and I got a little excited again about the whole idea of throwing it back into an attacker's face but during the dream I thought that it was strange that I was being taught something that I already knew almost like it was something from my childhood.(was dreaming about lucid dreaming and that was what made me lucid, not truly lucid before that I am thinking) Had dream where I was standing in front of my house and my friend had but a nicer house J and in this scenario it was right across the street and I could see him through the bathroom window just his head and I thought I do not want to know that he's about to take a dump...odd. I also had a dream where I might have been semi lucid where I was laying in bed (while my wife was actually getting ready I realized afterwards) we were spooning, some kind of Cinemax movie was on TV and it seems like she was half asleep and didn't realize the TV was on and I started to touch her down there and then I heard a noise from her getting ready and woke up this was probably a false awakening...as well as the one I was
standing outside of my house. Just remembered another dream I was being told by M that he was going to make a low offer on a house and I kind of gave him a look like there's no way you will get it at the amount. He then turns into someone else that I know that I can't recall at this time and he is saying well who are you to tell me what I should offer! First dream I remember from the night I was looking and choosing some old cheesy action movies and they were all in VHS boxes and one of them was titled something like "(give 'em?) HELLLL" with extra L's at the end of the title. We were choosing a movie for some kind of demonstration project. One of the movie boxes had an actor that looked like Ben Affleck.
I counted this as 2 LD's instead of 3.5 or something since those last 2 weren't clear enough though I was definitely lucid at least at the end of that childhood teacher one. The couple possible LD's coming in and out of vibrations I don't remember at this time so can't even be sure true LD's. I was motivated to LD this night and planned to go to bed at 10pm..despite going to bed late and feeling too tired to normally try on a worknight I decided to, with SSILD around 5:30am.

10/3 I had a couple of short lucid's but my non-lucid dream was the most interesting!
First of all I am NOT going to read too much into this dream. At this point it's definitely just a dream possibly fueled by news stories about the government shutdown and talk of not raising the debt ceiling. The earliest part of the dream that I remember I was on a bus or tram traveling into a city. (I take it to represent the city to the north of my home IWL). We are pulling up to a downtown area a big building kind of like a civic building. There is a huge crowd gathered around the building almost look like they're lined up and for some reason at this point I thought they were college students coming back from a trip. But there were so many of them and I asked someone next to me what they were doing? I do not remember the response. Then I noticed they looked angry and they were chanting something and raising their fists pumping them in the air. We passed the crowd and we're coming elevated so perhaps on elevated tram or bus going over the overpass and I see a fire down below in the middle of the street but its
small and for some reason I don't think much of it but then I do see more fires various businesses/stores on fire. They're begins to be a lot of debris on the street on the left side and the right side piles of debris and it is about this time that the bus or tram driver makes short announcement something along the lines of well it looks like the issue was resolved by the public. There were a few cheers and a few laughs on the bus. Myself, I felt awkward. We were in an urban area and a lot of the people that looked upset were African American and I was thinking that this whole bus or tram was full of Caucasians and that this vehicle might be a target when we get off. We are now passing a body of water on the left and there is a piece of what I first thought of as a cruise ship in the water...the section where the captain would look out. But as I looked closer I realized it wasn't quite that big, perhaps a very large yacht. Then I start seeing police
standing in a marina area . There are yachts that have been pulled up on to the docks out of the water and some of them smashed some of them just pulled up. In one spot a police man is standing in the water up to about his waist or stomach and I assume that he's guarding the yachts that are still in the water and I think to myself I wonder if is gun is below water and will no longer function. The various things put out of the water gets smaller and smaller and there is this surfboard that I grabbed perhaps as we're getting off the vehicle but I don't actually remember getting off the vehicle. There were still police around and no crowds so I guess it seems safe and we walked into a building that must have been a sports club or a resort of some type and at this point my wife is definitely with me(dream mood changes to all is okay, just remembered at some point on vehicle I was thinking that I need to go downtown to where my wife would be and make sure she is ok..but now she is with me?) and we go to an outside area by the pool and decide to lounge on some of the lounge chairs by the pool. There is a woman and
perhaps her daughter sitting across and slightly to the right of us and the daughter is looking at me in a flirting way, possibly aged 17 to 19. I look away and over to my right and I'm looking at another lounge chair with a towel sitting on it and it kind of looks like the towel is moving but at first I think that it is the pattern on the towel...it is rolled up in a sloppy ball...and I think it is one of those patterns that give you the illusion of movement. But then I notice that the lounge chair is moving also and I look closer and there is a raccoon that is playing with the chair. (I saw a raccoon 4 days ago digging in a trash can in an urban area IWL). I feel like I was semi lucid at this point. The raccoon starts coming over to us and I know that my wife will not want it anywhere near her although she doesn't seem to be reacting so I lightly toss some ice from the cup I'm holding towards a raccoon thinking it will scare him off but it comes closer to me and goes at my neck and
this makes me fully lucid. At this point it feels more like he is tickling me and the dream fades into vibrations and then back to staring at a close up of some beige carpet probably less than 1 square foot so I must be right on top of it. I know that it is a dream so I think I should reach out and feel the carpet but dream fading again back to light vibrations. I know(can feel) the vibrations are too light for quick re-entry or to even attempt to magnify them after trying briefly. Before the riot/revolution dream I entered the void through vibrations but I can't remember if I did anything from there so probably did not too much... Besides my non lucid dream was the most interesting one and it was so vivid. All of the above was after 6 a.m. when I woke up feeling very rested and even though it was a work day I decided to do some cycles of SSILD. Regular dream before that point involved me driving in a car and I hit a couple of grocery carts that were in the middle of the street I was
trying to weave between them. Earlier there were also what felt like were a couple of false awakenings where my wife was upstairs popping old balloons so she could throw them away while I was downstairs doing something productive I forgot what. And I remember going around the house quite a bit...it felt like a cross between my current house and my grandmothers house that is long gone.

092913 (early morning of) 1130 115 (s mental barrier defeated) IWL 145 son home=woke me. 450 SSILD wake from 2nd LD 730 all times are approximations.
Two mental barriers sex and flonase both defeated! Dream before wbtb: and then unusual nightmare for me perhaps aided by the flonase. Woke up looking at connection between flonase & dreams.

*Please note, anyone deciding to read this, there is a lot of commentary and analysis that may be boring to someone looking from the outside.

First dream of night was non lucid nightmare which I will put at the end. Skipping ahead...

After wake back to bed I have a short DILD. As I am waking up back in bed I tell myself to remember it but opt not to write it down because I felt like I could easily DEILD. I was able to get lucid again but I did forget the first lucid dream. First LD was kind of short anyway I remember that much about it. It wasn't true DEILD because I didn't stay conscious and instead came into a false awakening. In the FA, I
don't remember (my dream body) getting up but I was at the foot of the bed fumbling around near the TV and I look back at the bed and my son is in the bed as well for some reason. I can't remember if he looked much younger since he might sometimes be in our bed when he was a toddler. But there was also a plump, balding guy between my wife and son. He looked nothing like me(I think I got lucky...got the hair from males on my moms side & have no signs of balding so far...). The guy is touching my wifes face WTF , what are you doing man??! Son asks what is wrong and I tell him that guys touching moms face! I go outside disgusted. I'm rifling through a pickup truck that seems to be mine even know I've never owned one and I look at the next driveway over and I see my wife leaning against a car staring at me. This gives me the "aha" lucid moment. I get out of truck...My wife disappears and I realize that I am standing in front of what is supposed to be an approximation of my
childhood home in E. I decide that this could be interesting and do not immediately fly off and I think that I want to look around and see if I can really see that house in this lucid dream. As I look at the house some of the details start materializing. Yep there's those multi colored bricks, and the faux shutters. There's the tree we planted and the little border the tree. I forgot about the shrubs, they were prominent. I think about going inside but nah... I'm usually trying to get out of the house lucid as quick as I can seems to be more adventurous outside. I fly over the nearby intersection with the two convenience stores and over my childhood hometown eventually to my highschool, though many details are missing from the townscape (or I forgot details of the LD). I think of the locker room task the month and think about doing it again. I enter and I'm going through the hallways of the school and no one is around at this point. I try to remember
where the gym is. Do I even remember if I took any physical education classes in high school? I didn't play any school sports that required going to the changing room. Ah, i realize, the gym is where the pep rallies were! ( as my waking memory becomes more clear) but I wake up try to go back into the dream I seem to be to awake.
Earlier non lucid turned nightmare:
Earliest part of the dream I can go back to: I was sitting in a church and we decided to sneak out a little early me and my wife and my mother in law. my mother in law left first through the side entrance on the opposite side of where we were heading me and my wife & I decided to cut through the church out of the opposite side to catch up to her. I told my wife we should have went down the aisle that we were already on we went down the parallel aisle which made it less efficient. I'm always talking about efficiency in waking life and it bothers her and my son usually. For some reason we're trying to catch a bus instead of going out to our car. We see that we just missed the bus because it pulls away and I wonder if my mother in law was on it she is nowhere to be seen. There's another bus
right behind it and it is parking in the parking lot I think that it must be parking in order to wait for the next scheduled time next scheduled pickup. My wife and I walked over to the bus and he starts pushing another vehicle with his bus I can't tell or can't remember if I thought he was helping the other vehicle or pushing it out of malice. Perhaps thinking about the malice aspect lead to the nightmare portion of this dream. Or perhaps the flonase or perhaps my conversation with my son the day before the dream where videos he showed me inspired me to want to have a nightmare which I normally do not look for and which I specifically told my son that the video made me want to have a nightmare. This wasn't really the kind I was looking for though. The video my son showed me IWL was related to Halloween mazes and the end of the dream was much like a dark corridor Halloween maze. Anyway we go up to the bus driver and ask him when the next bus leaves and he says there will be no more at this time of night his bus is out of
service for the night. He showed us on a detailed map where the next bus stop over still has lines running this time of night. It seem like it would be a long walk but we could do it and then perhaps a false memory of being at that other bus stop before and it was a place with a huge parking lot and lots of cars parked in like a commuter parking lot. All these buses were going into the city. What city I do not know but it certainly was no place familiar in waking life. At some point a dangerous pit bull dog is barking and making a fuss from the bus I believe. I think the bus driver is holding the dog back and giving us a chance to run and for some reason at this point it is me and my son(instead of me and wife) and we are both running as fast as we can . My son jumps into a car locks the door and I don't want to have him re open the door so I run into a warehouse the dog follows me but then I lose track of him I start searching for the dog which seems to be a dream sign for
me dogs and I wonder if it's because I'm hearing a dog barking in real life while I am sleeping sometimes we have a few dogs barking but not usually too much. And besides I wear ear plugs usually after my wake back to bed but I can still hear a little bit through the ear plugs. Somehow I have a shotgun double barreled so I can get off two shots with each load. I'm searching for the dog I look under to stall doors sort of like bathroom stalls and probably were bathroom stalls. I don't see anything under the bathroom stall doors and I continue looking down the corridor but then I go back to the two stalls and think how could this dog have disappeared maybe he's sneaky and jumped up on the toilet so I couldn't see him under the door? so I kicked in each door nothing there. I go back into the corridor and wonder where in the heck did he go ? This is some kind of super dog. Then I see that there is another room that I missed before that has those plastic
curtain blades hanging vertically like you have when you walk into a walk in freezer the kind of plastic you push aside to go in for easy ingress and egress but still keeping the cold air in. I finally see the dog facing away from me and I decide to sneak up on him to try to shoot him... Sorry pet lovers I would never do this in waking life unless I thought he was still coming after my son or I. The shot seems to wildly miss or at least it doesn't hurt the dog in the least... I shoot again nothing I reload and try to shoot some more and then I wake up.

warning: the only thing interesting about this particular post with Non-lucids is the fact that all 4 dreams that I remembered at 4 distinctly different times of the night were all related to something Chinese. That is not a dream sign for me so far and I don't remember ever dreaming about anything Chinese related before although I'm sure I have at some point. They may have all been inspired buy a photo I saw last night of a white man and an older Chinese man that looks like he might be a famous comedian that were in a professional photo shoot making faces. I was wondering a little bit last night what the photo might mean if anything.

9/27 not trying to LD, work night & tired. Chinese on my mind 4 separate dreams.
1045 215 Chinese burglar. I am in a house that I do not recognize with my brother and we have a couple of TVs on it seems like my mother was visiting and had just left and she mentioned something about my dad coming soon and sure enough he was at our(?) door with some guy that looks kind of like my son's roommate but taller and who I saw later in a dreamlet...I believe it was the same guy. I go to get something for my dad in the garage and I see a Chinese man a little older going through our stuff and I ask him what he took he pulls out nunchucks of all things and I ask him again what did you take what did you take and I believe you pulled out a few things from his pocket and stuck them back in and took off running I yell out thief and started chasing him around the neighborhood and continue yelling thief and my neighbor from across the street in waking life joined in we were going to throw rocks at him grabbing rocks from the ground and he picked up a small rock don't know what happened to the nunchucks and threw it but it didn't go very far or with any speed. The last thing I remember is getting ready to throw a rock at him and I was sure I could throw it like normal but I don't remember the dream faded at that point or I'm forgetting the rest but I remember waking up it seem like my heart rate was a little faster than normal. Wake up again about 545 and the dream I remember was I was meeting a Chinese guy that was in charge of some Chinese performance troop and I was basically picking which performers I wanted to appear at the show that I had won I guess. One of the performers it seemed like the name sounded familiar or I knew they were more famous or popular and I asked for them to appear also and I think he said that they would be busy with some certain dance classes or something and would not be able to make it. After I go back to sleep I have a dream that I'm at a Chinese grill like a small restaurant that will cook up food to order and has a different menu every day where different specialty everyday and for some reason today they were serving something that included guacamole and TL was there, she is also Chinese IWL and she was talking to me I was surprised to see her there and she was telling me oh I'm just waiting for my quacamole among other things. My very last dream before waking up and getting up I was at Chinese buffet and I wasn't expecting it to be Chinese food it felt like it was on a cruise ship or vacation we just walked in and its you all you can eat without any extra cost and I see all kinds of different food items that I've never seen before some of them included those puffy rice chip things but they look different multi colored and there were some other items that didn't necessarily look Chinese but as I went down the line I could see the theme was definitely Chinese food some of the items I recognized, some of the items I don't think I've ever seen anywhere just made up by my dreaming mind. There is a waitress bringing out a big tray of additional food looks like some type of meat filled pastry and there was some conversation that I do not remember I was there with some people that I know but it is all a bit fuzzy right now. There was so much food!

9/25/13 feel very rested this week and getting to bed at a decent hour so I decide to try to LD tonight. Earlier in evening I re-listen to dreamviews podcast 3 with CL & OB(newer series) and earlier in the day decided I need to refocus on recall/dj which I have been lazy about
I type out mantra before bed 40 times: I remember all my dreams. To bed ~10:30 wake ~3:30 I had left the windows open and it was quite chilly in the room with a breeze coming in probably influenced the dream I just had. I was in a big almost permanent tent with open flaps for doors(probably our curtains) and it felt like we were in the desert...it was barren around. Wife, little A and his sister(?)are sleeping on the floor of the tent. I am sneaking out for some reason, feels like I am sneaking out to do something sexual(I seem to be very bad in my dreams). I hear wife's phone ring and slip right back in through the flap. Trying to remember more. Back to bed SSILD And I think I WILD here as it seems like I keep consciousness all the way through. It feels like I am not going to sleep but I start getting different HH's including a finger running down my arm and do my best to ignore the HH's. I start to feel different and decide that I might already be dreaming and should try floating. At first it seems like nothing is happening and then I start floating, first I see a beautiful tree with purple leaves and green leaves, it is so beautiful! I continue floating upward on my back facing up and see a pink blossoming tree maybe cherry blossoms and still other trees of many varieties. I then seem to be in a void and think about a TOTM that I hadn't done calling on the phone. I imagine the phone is already in my hand and it appears, I hold it up to my ear and think, wait I didn't dial a number, I will voice dial "call - home" I get our answering machine and it sounds like it is very similar to what we have...fades, I hear a distant ringing and some softly spoken words-I told myself to remember the words as if it was a great saying or something...next thing I remember I am in a non-lucid dream until becoming lucid at the very end of this next dream: I am at the office out front on steps but it looks different with more of a covered porch but office style not residential. LP comes running...we must both be running late. Start to go but forgot some stuff outside..gather lunch, book..one more item...a zipper bag open with one small round black item and two other things. I grab an office by the front window, there is an identical office on the other side of the entrance also by front window, there is one small monitor and I usually use 2 larger monitors side by side...computer looks old stacked on top of an old cpu, (this should make me lucid with my awareness heightened but I may only suspect shallowly and move on) I am thinking I should find a different station and let the supervisor know I am switching and will be a little late. R starts talking to me in his normal jovial way...I nicely let him know I gotta go and let supervisor know..She is already coming out of her office towards me but I don't recognize her but in the dream know it is the supervisor. I start to tell her what is happening and she says lets take a look and we start to walk towards the front office that I grabbed on the way in..but then I hear a strange noise over my shoulder and become lucid. Unfortunately I wake up faster than ever and find myself in bed but stay still and get vibrations again and transition quickly to a casino scene and know that I am dreaming. I see a woman walking away from me in the distance and I fly off to catch up to her and around a corner but she is gone...I start waking up again and find myself in bed but stay still and get vibrations and decide to let them go on without nudging them on like I have been doing, but this time I feel someone roll over-much heavier than my little wife and stronger holding me from the back as I lay on my side. I stay calm first thinking it is my wife but then some larger sexy woman but instead of that materializing I transition back into the Casino, amazing. I know I am dreaming. I see a woman, not sure if it could be the same woman from earlier. She is wearing a ruffled skirt and I am trying to catch up to her. I start thinking about what is under that skirt and somehow got the idea to project my vision from the floor under her (perhaps from the perspective trick I use for daily awareness work-Lidybug's Clear Light Perspective thread) to see what is under that skirt but she is moving too fast. I fly up quickly behind her and caress her from behind and she likes it. Other DCs around the casino start looking at us strange so I fly up well above the casino floor with her and I am having intercourse with her from behind. I notice how realistic it feels if a little dry. As I focus on this I notice it is a tight fit and as I focus on that it start becoming a little too tight almost squeezing but not bad but I do wake up much more fully this time and feel that I won't be able to go back into a dream any time soon. counted tonight as 2 lucids

away a few days, catching up...

9/21/13 1115 515 SSILD. prior to wbtb dreamed of looking at houses in O hills...several were old and ugly..last one old but interesting with long lot mostly in back. It was steep and wondered what could do with it...sliding down hill on cardboard but need something to stop you safely at bottom. After wbtb wife & I are getting our cars at a big wide parking lot where we parked on different ends. I lose track of her and wonder if she headed back already. She eventually comes by and I say or think where has she been? DILD super realistic courtyard or quad makes me lucid. Fades at some point back to partially awake and vibrations DEILD but seem to lose awareness before gaining it back in a room with a woman ~28-32 sitting in front and to the left of me. She looks back and everything is so vivid I know it is a dream. She is fairly attractive with somewhat squinty eyes..she mostly looked eastern European. I reach over to her and run my hands over her shoulders, arms, back and hair as I am amazed how vivid she is and as a way stabilize. I then kiss her and the scene goes in and out of darkness but I just continue to make out with her touching her breasts and kissing and not worrying about the visual...feeling like I can get it back or teleport. I believe this leads to me in bed with wife or this was a FA. Wife & I are fooling around her top is off. We are in a smaller bed and house is laid out like my childhood home in E...but for some reason her mother & A are coming through the door..lose lucidity in here somewhere. I pull up the covers to cover my wife. Little A is playing around and tugging on mother in laws dress and almost pulls it off. They are looking for a boardgame and take it and leave. I find 2 more pieces and bring it out and that is when I see the layout of the house is like childhood home: hall, our two rooms to the right, brothers, then mine@end. Wife & I were in what was my brother's room. I went to my room to get or give the 2 game pieces.

9/22/13 1130+ 510 wake very drowsy. dream before waking up to go to the bathroom: me and son at some warehouse, son goes to the bathroom, there's an off limits area (marked as such) that goes upstairs to a loft I guess and for some reason I'm trying to clean some oil off the floor. People come by, they said there is a tour on the way and someone asks if they can take pictures in the bathroom. Son says well after I'm done. Later dream, I become lucid seeing a female wearing bra and leaning towards me I can see nipple on right side under the top edge of the bra . I cup her breast and we make out. Wake to static I turned it into waterfall again and started thinking I could visualize that I am under smaller waterfall and could go out and hopefully be at top of angel falls and dive off but it fades. Back in bed DEILD start floating very cool feeling once again this time I stay in my room and looking towards my bed I decide to take a peek to see my sleeping body(like CL did recently) but I am NOT laying there! Means anything? I start to think maybe I'm actually awake looking at my bed and do the nose plug several times every time I can breathe through my nose and I think it is the coolest thing I don't believe I've ever done a nose plug RC during a dream without it fading. I fly off to go see Girl Friday and she is in bed and i take off all my clothes and get in but it starts to fade and this time I am very awake in bed . I try to re enter the dream and then to re enter any dream but all I'm getting at this point are dreamlets. Some very interesting ones kind of like when I take a nap.

9/20/13 quick notes... recall absent all night. LD was only save here. I think a few FAs. No plan to try tonight..work night..but house alarm by C IRL. 6am SSILD. DILD knew but decided to do RC..went fuzzy then floating in void. Floating was very neat, slowly rotating like astronaut. Don't RC if already know? (If not about to jump out window or something.) But transition was fine. FA caught, Wife was L (T's) through roleplaying and very hot..agreed to quickie. Pulled off shorts and then see wifes white shorts she wears to bed and then I remove them, we both get undressed and she is sexy and I am very very excited. Yes..a longer LD before but thought I would remember easily... remember thinking this is continuing & wondering if I am speaking in my sleep. My room was different...smaller bed by window but bathroom was in same place. Only count one LD...too unclear if DEILD chains...

9/14/13 Bed 12 WBTB SSILD 4:50 I think this first dream was inspired by me talking about my Dad's last visit last night. Sports club and woman taking pictures also inspired by stuff from last night IWL.
Parents visit, Mom is coming too and I wonder or question if my brother is coming but she is bringing 2 guys not G & my brother? She's bring Isaac or similar sounding name & an american name...names of people I do not know and I wonder why she is bringing them. My dad has a rental car Dad-my Mom thinks they should return it, my dad says they already have it so should keep it. I start to say if he wants to keep it let him keep it...but I stopped myself thinking maybe he will feel like I don't want him to use my car. My Dad came on a Monday in this dream but not expecting him until Thursday. C is nice even though he's early and though she said to get him a hotel. Sports club with TVs I'm checking a game/scores in lobby area. Same club? mirror weird LD I am jumping up and down in front of a mirror going towards it and away from it making faces but there is a lag...I smile big but doesn't show in mirror for about 1-2 seconds later-aha LD. I continue jumping around for a while having childlike fun and just take all the oddness in. Same club? nap room picture & sex: I go into a quiet room with a couch and lay down on it there's also a blanket, a black woman comes in and said she's taking pictures for the club and I say well don't get my face in the picture it's kind of embarrassing me laying here all alone so she stands above me taking pictures and I start to wonder if the blanket is transparent and they will be able to see my face in the pictures but then I started thinking she's kind of attractive so I notice: her hand is touching my hand as she's taking pictures so I move my hand back and forth a little slightly just enough to let her know it's intentional. She starts kissing me and we both know where this is going. I reach up and touch her breasts not real big but just right and I take off her bra and I begin to think about the fact that she is a black woman and I reach down to feel her butt wondering if it is very large, but no maybe slightly larger than average but not really very large and she is thin through the legs not real thick. We each remove our pants and underwear and she is still on top of me so I decide to stick it in from that position and that is when I realize wait a minute do you have a condom, what if one of us has AIDS or something. She says oh just some fun diseases or something like that. I remember feeling the warm moisture inside of her and decide what the heck I've already put it in. On a bus to a hotel and the driver maneuvers impressively between two columns into the parking area -tv in room I think that there has to be at least a couple of movie channels to entertain me. This hotel might have been on the way to the Sports Club or maybe the Sports Club was inside this hotel. Recall still could be better lately. I think this is one of my earlier dreams in the night I am outside and realize I am dreaming I do a huge jump and flip off roof of a house. I am in some backyard. It was dawn. I decide to take off all my clothes. I
start to(censored) and I think no I might be waking up too much. I end the night with (another?) DEILD attempt some light vibrations but perhaps too late/after REM and I wake up thinking about the different dreams I had I'm trying to remember them. I think there might have been some DEILD chaining in there but since I do not remember the transitions I am just counting it as 1 LD. I think I went to bed too late to have great recall and sustained awareness so I might have just been fading in and out of lucidity...not sure. Either way has to be some of the lowest level of lucidity I've had in quite a while and wake up remembering it.

9/12 I feel motivated to try to do a proper WBTB on a weekday and besides I got to bed by 1030 and incubategirlfriday. Wake 12-something decide too early to pee- back to sleep. 415am dream DV forum related...thinking about my DJ and my task entry cape vs other term that would have been clearer & transport vs teleport. WBTB incubategirlfriday again, different scenario then SSILD FA DILD white wall blocking my hall@home where it should not be. Boom I realize it is a dream but I don't remember how much I did but I'm pretty sure I didn't go out of the house my recall could be much better lately. I find myself back in bed and I attempt a DEILD and feel some vibrations but either wake up or enter a dream without awareness or forgot. I find myself back in bed again and this time I'm able to successfully DEILD and this time with the vibrations I decide 2 start thinking of where I want to end up and I thought the beach would be nice and that's where I was. Nude beach apparently I was there
with several women and we were all nude. The beach did not look familiar it had short run up to the water and the water was fairly calm but it was obviously the ocean. It felt like somewhere far away. It was daytime and it was beautiful and the nod beautiful blue. Eventually I find myself back in bed and successfully chained together another DEILD. I think I lose awareness for a little bit and I am inside a house that I do not recognize. It feels like the house is out in the country. I hear the doorbell ring and I go outside. Outside is a big tree. I don't see anyone but I walk up to see if someone is behind the big tree and there is a boy looking at me curiously and this for some reason brings back up my lucidity. I wonder if he represents a younger me. I decide to show him what I can do and I fly up into the sky and then back down and land on the ground and I say check this out... I fly up and around the planet a few times and I wonder can he even see me and I fly
back down and land right where I left off somehow. I shoot up again and fly around the planet multiple times I'm not sure if I land again before waking up finally for the day. No Girl Friday though.

After WBTB and SSILD I drift back to sleep at some point but regain awareness with the vibrations that I notice on occasion. I nudge on the vibrations and start to be able to see through my closed eyes and there is a dark figure with a cape draping down near the floor and I decide to ignore him/it. I end up in a dark void and decide to recite my ABCs. I kind of rush through it and complete it (I wonder if these false awakening-like LDs bring more waking memory with them?). Feeling happy that I completed a basic task I decided instead of trying to form a locker room from scratch like last time that I would pick a place I had been in recently...the nice gym in a fancy condo complex (you enter from either a mens locker room or a womens to the gym in the middle) and I transport to the gym and make my way "out" through the women's side this time. I come through the door and see no one but can here the showers running, I go around the corner and there are 2 women in the showers with their backs to me, focusing on one, it is beautiful and she has a kind of girl-next-door body, shapely but not a traditional swimsuit model body, I watch the water trickling down her skin. I am not sure if either one knew I was there and the dream started to fade and I find myself laying in bed and try to DEILD but I am too awake.

Had a lucid 9/3 featuring failed advanced TOTM...couldn't quite create the scene I needed but had an exhilarating dream last night.

9/6 later dream I arrive at some house where there is a guy from Australia I think he's here to play golf but is also coaching soccer. He had some kind of poster board with him that told me what he was doing here the golf and the coaching soccer. I asked him so you brought your son with you on the trip? It seemed like he had a little blonde son that was pictured on the poster board. This dream in which he seemed to be on a kind of exchange... transitioned into a dream where I am an exchange student I'm in that same living room, same house with two other exchange students. One of them goes out of the house to go somewhere and the attractive one is still sitting across from me on another couch and we start looking at each other, attracted to each other. She has a shirt on
top of a silky undershirt/lingerie and she begins to remove the outer shirt -I say don't do that to me indicating that she is turning me on and part of the undershirt comes up and exposes one of her breasts. We are both excitedly looking at each other at this point and she comes over to my couch and we start making out and I start caressing her breasts and we are kissing feverishly. I ask her if she has a condom and she says maybe you have one in your little fridge(why in the fridge?). Then we hear the other exchange student coming up to the front door and try to play it off like we were just talking on the couch even though my shirt is completely off and she is in her under shirt. The one I was making out with says something like Oh hahaha like we were just talking about something funny. Wake up feeling like I do after a good lucid! Looked kind of like Miki, but hotter.

Earlier more boring dreams: I'm on a wide open beach and there is a lot of sand and distance from the beginning of the beach down to the water perhaps tide is out with just one of those huge Southern California beaches. I am there with M from S for some reason and she kisses me a little peck on the lips and I look around and say or think that it is risky others may have seen that...didn't feel exciting, only akward...no feelings for her. Don't remember much else but it seems like the dream started at the mall somewhere like nearby what seems like I've been in a number of dreams. Different dream it seems like wife is with me and we are waiting for a bus where the bus turns around to go back along a particular route and we were trying to figure out where it will be stopping we guessed wrong but ran over to where the bus stopped and got on it seem like she got on ahead of me and I lost track of her so just grab the one seat I could find and kind of squeezed in between two bodies it was tight. I realized I forgot my wallet and I wondered
what I was going to do all day at work without my wallet how would i buy lunch etc and I don't have my bus pass but that seems okay because they never seem to check for my pass.(I don't even ride the bus to work, odd).

interesting regular dream I was learning advanced mind techniques. One was to overcome pain through the mind. Felt like lessons or practice taught by some guy in a sitting yoga position? unusual dream for me. Bed 1140 wake 412 no plans for LD but not quick back to sleep so SSILD after while. Lose awareness and then gain awareness as the vibrations start coming over me and I nudge them on/amplify and I enter the dream and fly off to go visit Girl Friday. This time we have full blown sex. Previously I don't remember it going beyond 2nd base especially in an LD. Reminder to self: Don't believe what you hear about LDs unless it's a positive thing. After messing around and as I get ready for intercourse I worry slightly that it might wake me up..but no, not right away at least! It felt like it was not hard enough but realized differently upon waking. Try to re-enter the dream or any LD but after 10 seconds I decide it's not going to happen and I start doing the SSILD cycles when I realize that I can see through my eyelids I'm back in an LD. I'm sitting in a kitchen that looks like one I have been in before but I'm not sure I recognize it from waking life. Starts to fade and then I come into a new scene sitting on what feels like one of my childhood beds-twin size in a childhood bedroom looking out the window but not sure if it is a false memory of a bedroom. It felt so neat and felt like traveling back in time and thought that it was a cool use of lucid dreaming-time travel. Find myself in some grayish room with horizontal boards with gaps between the boards for walls did not seem like anywhere I wanted to be so I flew out the wall or a window(did not focus on any barriers to exit). Find myself in front of a large mirror wall like you might find in a workout studio , martial arts studio, or dance studio. I decide to try something I was reading about yesterday: practicing sports techniques and moves. I looked a little thinner than I currently am and moved with such ease right down left down right up left up .. Almost floating in the air with some of the moves it was so much fun. I do a flying karate kick quite well. I have been doing a lot of reality checks in waking life so I thought let me see what my hand looks like. At first I only had four fingers but I could see the fifth finger was curled underneath my hand and it felt like it was hard to pop it up but eventually I did and my hand looks fairly normal. I then look at my face in the mirror and I recall a previous task of the month and my face looks thinner maybe a little bit younger and there are five small black dots above my lip on the right side. They look like tiny bugs but I don't remember seeing them move. Starts to fade out and then fade back in to staring straight into an eye or the inside corner of an eye and the face around the eye is silver .. It occurs to me that I should not be scared and I decided to just close my dream eyes and move on but instead I wake up. Besides waking up after the 1st LD, I assume that the other transitions to different scenes were from within the dream so not counting those separately but I am NOT really sure if I was chaining them together in little mini awakenings. It seems like I would remember if I was doing it through actual chaining.