Turquoise Dreams

8/26/14 - Monday

I forgot to write this down. I was watching TV in the evening, trying desperately not to fall asleep. It took huge amount of willpower to keep my eyes open. Even so they were blinking rapidly and I had hard time keeping them opened. When they closed for longer than a second, I got a sinking sensation. First time since I lost all my transition sensation. This ofc jolted me awake from axcitement. So I kept my eyes closed in hope of getting it back. But I realized it has to come by itself, when we not thinking about it.

Next time I closed my eyes, I got a rapid ascent sensation. And one more time. All those time, including the sinking one, was so authentic, I got butterflies in my stomach, just like when you on a rollercoaster.

I could not get the sensations when trying to get them. Only when I forgot all about them and was falling asleep. As soon as the movie was over I shot the TV down in hopes of fall asleep and "get me some", but what do you know, suddenly I'm wide awake, no chance of falling asleep. wut