side notes

I just realized. I should not be scared of "going down", as in underground or "down" in general. Because it means "inside", going deeper into my being, to my Higher Self.

I was dozing on on the sofa while watching tv, after coming home from an early morning shift.

The whole thing lasted only split second, but it gave me some "memory". Apparently I used to frequent a cooking chat with 4 others, when I stopped going. And I just now remembered that.

After snapping out of it, I actually felt sad that I stopped going to that chat while trying to figure out if it did really happen or not and why in the world did I forget about them and not go there any more.

Not sure what's going on. Not really remembering dreams. And if I do, they are chaotic, nothing that I can put into words.

True, I sleep less than normally. Going to bed around 9-10pm and getting up around 3am. I sleep better than when I was on midnight shifts, but something is off.

I'm also having hard time getting a morning nap, since I have only one shot at it having only one day a week off.

Too many thoughts in my head, too many things to work out. I kinda know what's bothering me, but I just can't get rid of it. Maybe with time. Or maybe I don't want for it go away. This way there is always hope.

Where are the times of 7 DEILD chains? Happy times.

2.4.16

Slept from 2 am-10 am

Third or fourth day of reading this book about paying attention as a way of increasing self awareness in WL and also in lucids. Among other things it says that higher lucids are those where we remember our name and location and that the dream is created by us and we can make it go away.

So I practiced saying my name and location out loud in WL haha. And I got a non=lucid in which I remembered the location and also location of my friends with correct name of their county.

Last saturday 12/12/15 was my last day working at night. On monday of this week I started day shifts.

For last 2 weeks or so, my dreams are so compeletely effed up. Bad dreams with things that...urgh

9,16,14

Was taking a late evening nap - 6-8pm

Yesterday was first, today was second time I got a nice image of a place while falling asleep.

Yesterday was a house on a hill near a valley.

Today, an abandoned fortress or city. It was just one side of a building built from larger, rectangular, grey stone. It had rectangular, smaller windows cut in the stone. No glass or window frames. Buiding was hugging a hill behind it, and it was partially inside of the hill.

Side was a grassy hill, also flat top was created by soil with short green grass growing on it. To the right and above, valley was visible. I got a feeling, that I should know that place. It was a very nice image. I was wondering, if I was maybe remote viewing.

8/26/14 - Monday

I forgot to write this down. I was watching TV in the evening, trying desperately not to fall asleep. It took huge amount of willpower to keep my eyes open. Even so they were blinking rapidly and I had hard time keeping them opened. When they closed for longer than a second, I got a sinking sensation. First time since I lost all my transition sensation. This ofc jolted me awake from axcitement. So I kept my eyes closed in hope of getting it back. But I realized it has to come by itself, when we not thinking about it.

Next time I closed my eyes, I got a rapid ascent sensation. And one more time. All those time, including the sinking one, was so authentic, I got butterflies in my stomach, just like when you on a rollercoaster.

I could not get the sensations when trying to get them. Only when I forgot all about them and was falling asleep. As soon as the movie was over I shot the TV down in hopes of fall asleep and "get me some", but what do you know, suddenly I'm wide awake, no chance of falling asleep. wut

8/23/14

had dreams, and good feeling from them, but no recall.

Something interesting happened today at work though.

[20:45] <@gab> have you had past life regression done, omkar ?
[20:46] <OmkAR> no, but i asked to see my past lives in a lucid dream once
[20:46] <@gab> have you?
[20:46] <OmkAR> and i was about to teleport to my past life . . and some guy grabbed me out of nowhere and said "YOU DOn'T WANT TO DO THAT YOURSELF RIGHT NOW MIKE"
[20:46] <OmkAR> and then i was all spooked out ever since
[20:46] <OmkAR> er do that too youreslf
[20:46] <@gab> oh lol, damn DC
[20:47] <@gab> or was he?!?
[20:47] <OmkAR> it was a strange vibe though, i was thinking maybe . .. geeze, what happend to me in my past life
[20:47] == OpheliaBlue [[email protected]] has joined #DVLounge
[20:47] == mode/#DVLounge [+o OpheliaBlue] by DreamBot
[20:47] <@gab> hey OpheliaBlue
[20:47] <@gab> I'm sure you had good ones and bad ones
[20:48] <OmkAR> maybe i was gangbanged in medieval times
[20:48] <OmkAR> u never know
[20:49] <@gab> would that be a good one or the bad one?
[20:49] <@gab> 0_0
[20:49] <OmkAR> in medieval times .. probably bad
[20:49] <OmkAR> lol
[20:49] <@gab> hehe
[20:49] <OmkAR> oh OpheliaBlue is here
[20:49] <@gab> I just had a weird experience at work today
[20:49] <OmkAR> we were just discussing being gangbanged in our past lives
[20:50] <@gab> she not talking, so maybe she is not here
[20:50] <OmkAR> did you get a de ja vu
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> sorry, comp ran out of juice while I was watching Divergent
[20:50] <@gab> I got more than that
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> some big lucid and shared dreaming themes in that movie
[20:50] <OmkAR> Divergent is out
[20:50] <@gab> oh she is here
[20:50] <@gab> so I'll tell you some other times omkar
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> almost over, brb
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> !brb
[20:50] == OpheliaBlue has changed nick to OpheliaBlue|BRB
[20:50] <OmkAR> oh ya DIVERGENT
[20:50] <OmkAR> i watched that
[20:51] <OmkAR> it was 100x better than hunger games
[20:51] <@gab> didn't see either
[20:52] <@gab> so omkar, you gonna be here for 5 more mins?
[20:52] <OmkAR> ya
[20:52] <@gab> I was at work and doing my stuff and thinking about this japanese warrior female mismagius told me about
[20:52] <@gab> tomoe gozen
[20:53] <@gab> and why I kinda identify with her
[20:53] <@gab> and with my sig picture of a warrior
[20:53] <@gab> and decided to change my usertitle so something reflecting the worrior thing
[20:54] <@gab> and that moment I just started crying out of the blue
[20:54] <@gab> I had to leave the room to collect myself
[20:54] <@gab> just the strongest feeling of something with past life warrior
[20:55] <@gab> no clue what to make of it
[20:55] <@gab> and add my frequent dreams of being a leader of some freedom fighters
[20:55] <OmkAR> oh weird
[20:56] <@gab> I never felt anything like it
[20:56] <@gab> as if I just connected with something
[20:56] <OmkAR> could be legit, u should try a TELEPORT to your old 'home'
[20:56] <@gab> I will do that
[20:56] <@gab> I wanna know so bad
[20:56] <OmkAR> i had these weird experience in the astral once, i saw this old log house, looked like it was from medival times
[20:57] <OmkAR> there was straw beds
[20:57] <OmkAR> and the feeeelings i got being there were sooooo strong
[20:57] <OmkAR> i USED to LIVE THERE
[20:57] <OmkAR> sleep there everynight
[20:57] <@gab> oh wow
[20:57] <OmkAR> kinda feeeling, it was reallly intense
[20:57] <OmkAR> and scary too
[20:57] <@gab> this feeling was so strong, not preceded by any warning or thought
[20:57] <OmkAR> trying to imagine how . .. it was . .. just a straw bed like that, stone/wooden walls
[20:57] <OmkAR> i mean, no books or computers
[20:58] <OmkAR> just RAW
[20:58] <OmkAR> raw living
[20:58] <OmkAR> nostalgic feeeelings
[20:58] <PKJacker> Sounds pretty interesting
[20:58] <@gab> I now what you mean, omkar
[20:58] <@gab> since today, I do
[20:58] <OmkAR> ya i never had that in waking life though
[20:58] <@gab> I see
[20:58] <OmkAR> that's interesting you did
[20:58] <OmkAR> ive only had that on the other side
[20:59] <@gab> I was cutting strawberries at work, like a ton of them, so my mind kinda wandered away
[20:59] <@gab> and the thought of tomoe gozen, spartan warrior and MAKING IT MY NAME
[20:59] <@gab> something clicked
[21:00] <@gab> started crying and I'm like "wth"?
[21:01] <@gab> insane

7/15/14

Last night bed 10:15 - 4:45

Working again.

Srs, if I don't start RCing at work, I'm gonna kick myself.

8/19/14

Working today from home, after running some chores in the morning. Got so sleepy, because last night woke up around 2am, couldn't sleep till 3.

So I fell asleep on the sofa very fast.

DR
I'm at WL work, only place looks different, more warehouse like. We are moving boxes around with merchandise. Our director is talking on the PA system, telling us what to do. It's 5pm, time to clock out, but she is telling us more things to do. We are pissed and trying to figure out how to do it. Something is hidden in the box. We are talking with a friend of mine.

/5/14/14

last night bed after midnight - 7:10am

Everytime I woke up, I knew I dreamt about DV. Members, posts,... No recall of anything specific.

4.16.14

Last night bed around 8:20 - 1:50 am

Came home from work at 7am, talked a bit on skype, then took a nap 11:25am-3:48pm

Had a very long and detailes dream with OpheliaBlue.

I'm kinda getting used to this 3am work thing. I have one more day of this, then 3 days of 6am. Don't know my next week schedule yet.

Disappointed with GM though. Took 2x4mgs + 2x300mgs of choline. Not a thing. My head feels normal, no bubbing sensation or headrush or anything. My gm could be getting old.

2.20.14

Last night bed at midnight - 7am

I have been remembering dreams every time I woke up at night, but didn't feel like I remembered enough to write it down. I know, that's a mistake.

2.16.14 Sunday

last night 11p-5am

Another short night.

Again, I knew I had some long dreams, and I could almost recall it. So close, yet so far : (

2/15/14 saturday

last night, bed around midnight - 9am

Everytime I woke up, I knew I had a dream. But it seems like I'm missing the recall just by seconds. Like catching the "red wave" at traffic light, when it seems like you catch every red light as yo go. If only you drove few seconds faster, you could get out of it.

I'll do better tonight. Reading book about Cayce. It really is awesome. It makes me pause after almost every sentence to be able to absorb what it's saying. I'm very inspired by it.