I am not alone.
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, 02-07-2011 at 07:24 PM (2895 Views)
non dream - lucid - non lucid
I can’t sleep. The thought of shared dreaming is keeping me awake, the thought of going to the moon and meeting WakingNomad, Selene, and possibly many more people.
A million questions are on my mind, none of which can be answered.
I can’t clear my head, so I start reading. After some time I finally become tired and manage to fall asleep…
I wake up a few times during the night but can’t recall any dreams.
I’m driving my car. I don’t know the road, but for some reason I know where I’m headed. A girl is accompanying me. She touches my arm resting on the middle console.
I look at her. It’s Faye… she smiles. It takes me a few seconds to understand what her being there means. I become lucid.
I immediately want to go to Teraluna to visit Yuya, I want to go there now, and I know how.
I unplug my seatbelt, the car starts beeping. I summon the wings on my left arm and prepare to teleport to Teraluna.
I take Faye’s hand and apply the brakes. Our bodies lift up and go through the front of the car.
When my feet touch the ground, we are on Teraluna…
… We hang out for a bit (I can’t remember many details) and at some point Yuya is playing with a water sphere.
For some reason I suddenly feel the urge to freeze it, just to see if I can. When I create fire I try to create vibrations, this time I do the opposite.
The sphere freezes and falls into Yuya’s hand. She smiles.
But then I get it: the reason I tried this. I remembered what WakingNomad said. How I transformed into different dragons. As a dragon I can use more abilities than just fire.
But this is not what is on my mind right now.
“Yuya… we were hanging out yesterday, right?”
“Yeah, sure, we were hanging out in the pool, you remember!”
“I do… did we do anything else?”
“You were posing on your desk naked!”
She laughs, there is a small pose.
“... And... you went to the moon.”
"What? The moon? THE moon?"
“That’s why you’re asking isn’t it?”
“Yes… So it’s all true? He was here?”
“Of course. Are you going to visit him?”
Even though this is exactly what I wanted, what I was hoping for, it feels so weird.
I don’t understand what I currently feel, am I afraid of it being true? Am I afraid that shared dreaming actually works?
I contemplate teleporting to the moon right now. I need to know. But something is holding me back? Why?
“But… what if I can’t see him? He sees things so differently than I do. I don’t understand it, I will do something wrong. He knows me as someone so confident. What if I freak out? I…”
“Relax… I’ve told you about the layers of the dream plane before. I know it’s complicated, so I will explain the very basics of it only.
There’s an infinite amount of layers to the dream plane. Unfortunately, you can’t experience all of them at the same time, only a very limited amount.
If two people look at the same thing in different layers, they will experience it differently, but usually their experience will be somewhat similar.
Should the layers be 'far away' you'll need to alter your perception in order to share your experiences.”
I understand what she says, it makes sense, but for some reason I’m still afraid.
“Why am I afraid? … I don’t understand… I want to know! so why am I so afraid?”
Faye answers this one:
“For all your life you have been thought it is impossible, that what you experience right now is fake, that even the idea of shared dreaming is absolutely ludicrous. What you are feeling right now, it isn't fear.”
“Then what is it?”
“You will know.”
I summon the wings on my left arm and lock onto the moon. I’m shivering. She’s right, I’m not afraid to find out it is true, if anything it’s the opposite. But it is indeed not fear I am feeling.
Screw it, where’s my sense of adventure? I’m going now!
I take a step through the fabric of space and end up on the moon.
It is dark, barren, there is nothing here. But then I remember about the layers.
I close my eyes and try to alter my perception. I hesitate to open them for a moment, but I finally do.
And here I stand, on the green moon, and in front of me a man who has been waiting for me.
A man who stands there absolutely confident and calm.
My mind goes blank, I cannot think. I know that this person in front of me is WakingNomad, there is no doubt in my mind.
But I don’t know what to say, I’m just standing there.
“What are you acting all weird for?”
I open my mouth, trying to say hi, but the words aren’t leaving my mouth. I’m shaking, not of fear, but of excitement.
I feel so stupid. I can summon a fire dragon capable of destroying a whole city yet right now I can't even say a simple word.
My vision fades, I am way too excited and I can’t get it under control. The dream is ending.
Not sure if WakingNomad can still hear me so I project a thought onto him.
“I’m sorry…”
I wake up in my bed. My mind stays blank, I don’t think.
“Relax.”
It’s Yuya, she’s standing next to my bed.
I was sure I woke up, obviously I didn’t.
“He must think I’m an idiot. One day I’m all confident and the next I can’t even manage to say something.”
“Don’t worry, he’ll understand, and it won't happen again.”
Yuya joins me in bed. I immediately calm down, take her into my arms and fall asleep soon after.