non-lucid

non dream - lucid - non lucid

(false memories / background)
I'm an assassin, highly skilled with blades and firearms, but I'm not a bad guy.
For some reason I was on a science project about entering another dimension through a portal some scientists opened.
100 of us went there, the portal collapsed, we couldn't go back.
We immediately got split up into 2 groups due to internal disputes, my group and the "bad guys".
After some time (a year or so) every group has erected their own mansion.
We know that the other group is still capable of opening portals, we're basically part of a science experiment to see how we'll survive in this dimension or something.
We're angry, we want to go home, and we stage an attack onto the other mansion, to secure their portal and go home.


The dream starts during the attack, I'm with some army guys in military gear.
I myself only have a standard pistol with a few ammo magazines, and some poisoned needles, I don't need anything else.

I’m following my team up some stairs leading to the mansion. We stop just before reaching the top. There is a single guard, he hasn’t spotted us yet.
I tap our group leader on the shoulder and make him a sign to stand down, I got this. I have a small belt of needles strapped around my left wrist.
I remove one needle. They are poisoned with a very strong sedative. I leap out from my cover and throw the needle.
Before the guard realizes what’s happening it hits him in the neck and he drops to the ground. We’re moving in…

… We’ve been in the mansion for some time. A lot of fighting has been going on. There are only 4 soldiers left in my team.
As we move into a new room, suddenly a woman appears on a balcony just above us. I instinctively target her within a split second, but I hesitate to shoot.
I never hesitate… why did I? The woman had a hand gun pointed at my face just as fast as I did. And suddenly I realized who she was: Ziva (Ziva David from NCIS).
She and I go way back. We’re both assassins. I had no idea she was in this world, and I assume she didn’t know I was.
This is a very odd situation; I’m not sure what to do. I’m not going to shoot my friend, and there is no way she’d ever side with villains.
But I need to keep moving, or else I’ll be in trouble.
I take a shot, targeting the balcony. I manage to startle her for a split second, which is enough for me to get moving again.
I’m close to the portal room. An overwhelming enemy force is approaching us, we don't stand a chance and my allies fall quickly.
I have no choice but to make a run for the portal room alone. After some very fancy acrobatic moves, I manage to slide down a set of stairs whilst shooting enemy soldiers trying to kill me…

… I’m entering the portal room, at the same time Ziva is entering it from the other side. We meet again.
The room only has 2 entrances, one at each side. We’re both standing just in front of each other, both having a gun pulled to the other one’s head.
Both of us ask at the same time: “Why?”
Me: “What do you mean why? You guys have the only portal to go home, and you cut us off!”
Ziva: “What portal? There is no portal! You guys came to steal our water reserves!”
There’s a short period of silence. I have trusted her all my life, she has no reason to lie to me.
Me: “Our base is next to a fresh water source, why would you think we’d attack for water?”
The expression on her face changes. She clearly didn’t know. She had been lied to. I slowly move my gun back down. She waits for a few more seconds but finally follows.
We take a closer look at the room we’re in. All the walls have been filled with formulas, even the ceiling. It’s mostly written in red, it looks like written in blood.
There are magic / alchemy symbols all over the walls as well. Fancy pentagrams and all sorts of things.
I look at her. “You’ve never been here, have you? This is the portal room.”
She looks to the ground, where we’re both standing. There are circular burn marks. We’re standing in the exact spot the portal used to be.
“FUCK!” Ziva screams in anger.
We’ve both been fooled, both part of some kind of experiment.

We hear steps. The army guys are approaching.
“Now what…?” Ziva asks me. “Your guys are all dead and mine are in on the whole thing. They’ve been coming into this room all the time… Once they figure out that I know…”
I interrupt her: “We’re on our own.”
I drop the clip from my gun, knowing it only has 3 bullets left. I replace it with a full clip. 2 Clips to go and one bullet left in the gun, 37 shots.
We’re cut off, we hear the enemy closing in from both sides. There is no way to take cover in the room, it’s empty.
We stand back to back, supporting each other, guns drawn at both doors.
Army guy: “2 armed hostiles in the next room. Proceed with caution, shoot to kill.”
I can feel Ziva’s back shivering in anger, but right after hearing the call, she stops.
Although we’re both fueled by anger, we’re professionals, we’re fully concentrated, and although the odds are against us, we still stand a chance.
Army guy: “Go go go!”
Time slows down. The first guy appears in the doorway, within a split second my gun is aimed at his head and a shot fired.
The moment I take the shot my vision blacks out. I still hear the after sound of the gunshot echoing though until finally I hear the bullet casing dropping to the ground.
It hits the ground once… twice… and the moment it would hit it for the third time, I wake up.

Realizing I just woke up I turn around to see if Ziva is okay. Staring at my pillow I am very confused for a few seconds.
Then, after realizing how wrong that thought process was I feel like a bit of an idiot. It puts a smile on my face though. Waking up randomness can be quite amusing.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I set myself a WBTB alarm to go off after 6 hours of sleep before going to bed.
I have also started reading "Exploring the world of lucid dreaming".
I remembered a lot of dreams this night, but none of them were very vivid, and my recall wasn't very good either.

1. False Awakening (before the WBTB alarm)
   I wake up, my mobile is ringing. I turn the alarm off thinking it's the WBTB alarm I set earlier and decide to try one of those mp3’s which help you become lucid.
   However, my headphones are stuck behind the mattress, I can't get them out...
   -
2. (This is after the real WBTB alarm)
   I can’t seem to fall asleep after the WBTB. (I'm actually already dreaming at this point)
   I touch my shorts while turning around. Wait… I never wear shorts in bed. I RC.
   Cool, I quickly get up, but realize the dream is unstable and a mess.
   I try spinning to fix it, which partially solves the problem.
   I jump downstairs, go to a window, and push myself through it without opening it and fly away… not very far though.
   There’s a girl at my neighbors house waving to me. I land next to her…
   -
3. Fragmented
   I’m in high school. I realize I don’t belong here, but I only become half lucid for some reason. I get the urge to investigate my surroundings, but I don’t understand that I am dreaming.
   We leave our classroom. Everyone goes right, a single girl goes left.
   I follow the girl (obviously, right? *cough*)
   We get to the chemistry lab. It requires a retinal scan to open it up. She provides it and we get in. There’s a teacher and another student inside…
   
   … The girl hands me a “potion of power”.
   I’m intrigued and drink it in a single go. It heats my body up quite a bit, I feel really strong…
   
   … The potion had some adverse effects, there’s something growing on my belly…
   -
4. (This was clearly the most vivid one)
   I follow a very athletic girl in 3rd person view.
   She’s a rather sexy treasure hunter. (think Tomb Raider)
   She’s at a sea, diving down very deep without any scuba gear.
   Having dived before, I realize this is physically impossible, but I don’t become lucid.
   She enters an underwater temple from the bottom. She accelerates upwards, jumps out of the water, to grab onto a thick cord about 4 meters above the water surface.
   Impressive!
   There are more cords all over the room.
   She starts jumping from cord to cord. She is incredibly skilled.
   She’s wearing some sort of climbing aid, a belt with a hook, which she can use to secure herself on some of the cords, but she rarely uses it.
   She suddenly turns towards me as she reaches the highest cord.
   She looks me right in the eyes.
   I no longer feel like I’m observing her like a game character, I now feel like I’m floating next to her.
   She takes a red slightly transparent yoyo out of a pocket and hands it to me.
   
   “For you!”
   I take it.
   “Thank you!”
   The dream ends.
   -
5. False Awakening
   I immediately realize I'm dreaming and go to my window to jump out.
   I’m being attacked by an oversized (human size) parrot. WTF?
   I start kicking him to go away. Suddenly I become aware that I can use much stronger powers than kicking. But I don’t want to kill him, so I quickly draw a portal as he approaches.
   He flies into the portal and disappears. I have no idea where I just sent him, I find this quite amusing.
   -
6. False Awakening
   I wake up again. I remember to RC every time I wake up.
   Ha, still dreaming.
   I walk out of my room; my mother is in the next room. I don’t like having my parents in my dreams, I unsummon her...
   -
7. False Awakening
   I wake up again and succeed with another RC.
   This time another girl is in the room. She’s wearing a very sexy black dress. I go say hi, ask her why she’s in my house. She can’t remember.
   I ask her name, she doesn't know that either...
   -
8. False Awakening
   I wake up again. I RC.
   I note that this is quite a FA chain I got going on here…
   Someone’s standing next to my bed and yelling at me. I try to fall through the bed and floor of my room just to see if I’ll manage.
   It works and I land in the next floor, on my ass since I forgot to turn myself around mid air…
   -
9. False Awakening
   I wake up in bed yet again, perform another RC and become lucid.
   This time my cousins children are in my bathroom. I talk to them in my native language rather than English, which I usually do in dreams.
   “What are you guys doing here?”
   They jump around super happy.
   “We’re dreaming! We’re dreaming!
   I remember that both have told me that they have lucid dreams.
   I wonder if it's really them.
   I think that dream sharing would be easier for children, because they don't over-think what they experience.
   
   (They have told me not long ago that they have lucid dreams occasionally
   One of them has actually described to me how she ends unpleasant dreams, or changes the scene.
   She told me she closes her eyes and visualizes a new scene. I was impressed that she had such a level of dream control.)

This is after over 2 weeks of not remembering a single dream at all...

Awake / Comment
Non Lucid
Lucid

1. Clarity: 3/10
   Importance: 2/10
   
   … I enter an unknown house with some friends (2 I think). They need to do something and go upstairs.
   I stay in the hallway waiting for them to come back. For some reason I question that this is reality and perform the nose pinch RC.
   I’m indeed dreaming. Before I can fully grasp that I am lucid, I notice I’m soaked wet and wearing nothing but a bath towel.
   In the very same moment a man enters the hallway and is quite surprised to find me here.
   “Who are you? And what are you doing here?”
   Not really sure how to make sense as to why I am standing alone in his house, wet and dressed in nothing but a towel, I tell him.
   “Yeah… I’m here to meet Christian”, as I recall that one of the guys I entered the house with was named Christian.
   He shakes his head and is clearly annoyed, and quite confused, but leaves me alone and goes into another room.
   This sudden event throws me off quite a bit, I completely forget to stabilize the dream or set myself any goals. Due to this the dream isn’t very clear, and I’m not as aware as I usually am.
   I completely forget that I am still on a quest to meet “her" (http://www.dreamviews.com/f11/recurr...er-dcs-106461/) again.
   I decide to explore the house, but I don’t really have a proper goal for this dream. I walk down the hallway, past the kitchen, where the man I met before and his wife are having a discussion.
   I wonder if they’re talking about me. I continue down the hallway and go downstairs. I get the idea to use some form of dream control, but I’m not really sure what to do.
   I try to summon someone inside the room downstairs… not sure whom to summon, I settle with the idea of a cute girl about my age. That’s pretty much all the details I use.
   As I enter the room I find a cute girl, about my age, watching TV. I’m happy that I can still do this easily, even though I barely had any lucids lately, or recalled any dreams for that matter.
   She’s confused. I intruded into her room and she doesn’t know me. She clearly wants to say something, but she can’t find the right words.
   I use some more dream control, I want to make sure she doesn’t scream or something like that.
   I try to charm her by projecting my energy onto her. She completely forgets I’m an intruder and embraces me. She can barely stand, maybe I overdid it?
   I didn’t really account for how much energy I wanted to use, it was more like a random reflex, and I have no idea how much energy I used.
   “Kiss me!” she says. Well... who am I to deny this lovely lady a kiss, somehow thinking that I’m pulling a bit of a Hank Moody.
   I enjoy the kiss, but I can feel her whole body shaking, I really must have overdone it with the energy projection.
   Suddenly, my vision fades. Damnit! I forgot to stabilize the dream.
   
   
   
2. Clarity: 2/10
   Importance: 2/10
   
   I notice I haven’t moved yet after waking up. I immediately try to recreate the scene from my dream since I’m still somehow half in it.
   I can still feel some remains of the girl’s body heat, but I see through the eyes of my real body, which are closed…
   Suddenly I’m back in the dream. It didn’t really feel like a typical WILD transition, it was way too fast, still, I’m convinced it was a DEILD.
   … I notice the girl is gone, which is quite confusing... and there are 2 armed men in the room. Oops? This can’t be good.
   The man I met earlier is there. “You tried to steal my most precious belonging!”
   What is he talking about? Ooooh, right! I’m a thief and I’m here to steal something from him, in fact, I already stole it…
   I lose lucidity at this point, after all the thief story made so much sense *cough*.
   I have no idea what the item is that I stole, but I strongly believe I have it in my possession, and that I was hired to steal it.
   Both of the armed men draw their guns, time to get the hell out of here. I instinctively draw my own gun and shoot a bullet just past both of them.
   This startles them quite a bit and gives me enough time to run around the next corner. They try to shoot me, but I’m a thief, obviously they’re never going to hit me at that distance.
   I keep running down a corridor and know how to get out of the building. (It’s different from the house I was originally in)
   One of the men reappears in front of me; he must have found a shortcut. I need to go past him though, but I don’t want to shoot him.
   I try to knock him unconscious with my gun and he falls to the ground. The other guy is getting way too close, I don’t have a choice, I shoot him in the chest and he drops dead.
   Shooting the gun was hard (physically) I remember that I often experience that in non-lucid dreams, but I do not notice that I am dreaming.
   For some reason I know I’m running out of ammo, I decide to pick up the semi-automatic gun dropped by the guy I knocked unconscious.
   Unfortunately, the blow to his head wasn’t strong enough, he was still awake. Before I am able to grab his gun, he puts some kind of metallic spring onto my right index finger.
   It looks like one of the springs used in pens. It’s rotating around my index finger, and with every rotation it adds another layer of spring.
   I try to stop the rotation with my middle finger, but it just starts rotating around both.
   I try to use my left hand to pull it off, but it starts rotating around both hands. Well, this is a very annoying but highly effective device.There is no way I’ll be able to remove it here.
   I start running again, and remember this place in Thailand which to a normal person seems like a place where you can get your nails colored, but it’s actually a good spot to get handcuffs removed.
   (I saw an episode of American Dad before going to bed, and Roger went to exactly that place to get his handcuffs removed)
   I successfully stole the item, I just need to make a stop there and it’ll be all good…
   … I’m in a car with 2 people. They’re associates of the one who hired me to steal the item. They’re bringing me to the airport so I can leave on a plane.
   As we approach the plane I notice that it’s a concord. Do they still make those? No they’re not… I wonder if this is a dream?
   My thought process gets interrupted by someone shooting at our car. The driver startles and drives our car straight into the landing gear of the plane, what an idiot.
   I get out of the car. The pilot of the plane is not amused and goes to warp speed. Wtf?
   One of the guys I was in the car with says “Did you see this, this thing accelerated this fast on only 6 out of 8 engines!”
   He’s right, only 6 of the thrusters were lit… The dream fades away…