Tomas's DJ - "Exploration of the inner Self"

I feel that this one is situated somewhere "Jistebsko" or so.
I am not sure how it all started, but there is an old lady living in a little house near a big one. She is a mother of the man living in the big house. I know her somehow. I think there is some money involved. Then once I go there with some friend and the window is open. I just get closer to the window and smell rotting meet. Then I spot her lying on the floor. She is dead. I am not sure what to do. For some reason I think that people might suspect me of murdering her. I even think that I did it. I think that I killed her with knife. So I leave. Then I come back few days later as someone calls me to check on her as they haven't seen her for some time. Well, surprise surprise!! I look inside the house again, just through the window. Now it smells really bad. I can just see her legs on the floor (the rest of the body is out of view). The meet of the legs is all bitten of my rats or perhaps other animals. I then go to the house to report that I found her dead. But the people walk towards me. They are shocked. Then they start asking me loads of questions. When they open the door to the house, the body is covered. There is a knife on the floor, all covered in blood. For some reason I think I had just the same knife. Then this man (from the house) reaches on a side... there is a little hole in the wall (near the stairs) and he pulls out a piece of paper. I take it off his hand.. I know that I wrote it. I crumble the paper instantly... than I think... "shit".. this is so suspicious. I look at the paper. Yes, I wrote it. But its about meeting some girl, some other one than I was seeing. I start explaining to the family, what the note means. I talk about Adriana (for some reason the note has something to do with her). They listen. I feel a lot of pressure on me. Then we talk about holidays... and I think "shit, I should just get out of here, somewhere far!"

*I live somewhere in Zelezny Brod and I am going home. It looks like winter night. Suddenly there are some people trying to stop me. First there is some man in a black winter jacket, then some gipsy guy. As I am passing by him he punches me lightly to my stomach and says something from which I assume he knows me. Then some other person comes to me and starts talking to me. I don't understand him. Then another group of some gipsy people tries to stop me and try to take some of my stuff, such as keys and volute. I realize that they know my name and where I live and so on. Twice I get in a fight with them and fight back my stuff. When I get home I chat with my mum about it. The whole dream is happening at night. I asked someone to check on CCTV how I have been attacked. It all looks too unreal and it makes me thing whether I don't have some mental illness such as paranoia or schizophrenia. I read an article in the new scientist about those mental disorders.

**I am at some swimming pool area. I feel like I have been here before. Then I notice a big water slide made of metal. There is some instructor saying how old it is and how people used it in the past. He says that for some time water was thrown down the slide as it slid better, but later on they stopped with it.

*I am at some construction place. It seems like there is some supermarket being build or so. At one point I can see thick metal wires going up from the ground and it could be some 30 meters high. Around each of them are spined two plastic, orange pipes with holes as if some DNA model. I return to the place later and those pipes are already drowned in concrete. The construction must have progressed greatly. I am there with someone else. I am not sure who it is, feels as an old friend. I am on the top of the concrete block and I can see the pairs of holes to the concrete where the pipes were. I think it must be some kind of ventilation system. We are thinking of throwing something in, but because we don’t know what is it for we don’t do it.
**I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses along the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember that I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house but for some reason it feels like it has been build really quickly. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. The kitchen is nice and bright with a wooden floor. I look right and see a small room at the end, some 15m away... so I walk towards it, I fell thats where I need to go. I enter the room, its small room looking like an atelier or so. There are the two girls. I always bring a few canvases and these two girls paint some painting on it for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is also some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then **I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses around the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. Then I turn right, which leads to a small room. The kitchen is nicely bright with wooden floor. Then I entre the small room and I always bring few canvases and these two girls paint some painting for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then I am in my sister’s room in Zasada, but it is mine now. I think I am ill and my sister offers that she paints a picture for me. Then I go to sleep and when I wake up I see that she painted on the wall. I admire those paintings because it looks really well. On the left of the Window that faces our green house, there is a really good painting of a stylistic giraffe. It is partially like robot; with its head down as if through the window and its head is in between the window and radiator. I really admire how good it is. On the opposite wall there is some abstract painting. It is very colourful, yellow, orange, blue, and green. But then I think I go to sleep again or walk out of the room. When I wake up or come back to the room it’s all different and it surprises me greatly. So I do reality check, just in case, I look at my hands and both thumbs are to the right. So I realise it is a dream!!! And my mom walks in the room. And I am so excited that I tell my mum “Mom I am dreaming, I am dreaming!” ( I am very excited about it). I tell me sister to continue painting....and I wake up.
***I am at some area that reminds me of Berany. It’s a hill with a road running in serpentines up the hill and a running and cycling race is taking place there. There is my brother and my father with me. We tease each other about the race and my father suggests that one of us will race. We have to let the bike tune up and it takes approximately 30 min. When I come back, it looks like my dad is going to race as he already has a number on him. I say that I want to go too, so he says I need to go to register in the office. I walk there but the lady says that it’s too late now even for the run.
Next I am running up the hill so I can see the race, but there I see two men in some Viking suit running up and down the hill in a kind of fight. The one that is at the bottom of the slope throws his wide, undecorated sword at the other one but misses. Then the one high on the slope throws his sword at the bottom one and hits him in his ankle. I don’t think they notice me. As I run I pick up one of the swords but drop it a few meters later. The two warriors notice and run after me. I keep running and because I know the place I lose them. I am running very fast. As I run I also pick up a green blanket (???) but also drop it. When I return to the bottom of the hill, there is my dad without the number and he tells me that he raced already. He says that it was very difficult. We are going home, we live in a little house nearby and there are two huge stones in front of the house. I still have a feeling that those warriors are hunting me. I slide between the stones. I am wearing jeans and jacket and as I slide through there is something that looks like pea & ham and it messes my trousers. But I think its ok and it washes away easily.

I am with Pavel in her grandmother’s house in Zasada. But the setting is different. It looks like that the house is in the middle of nowhere just an asphalt road is in front of it. There is a heap of the asphalt in front of the house on the road which I removed at some point, by some drastic method. However, for some reason Pavel doesn’t want anyone to know that it was us removing the heap from the road. At some point a man in a blue t-shirt and some girl come around asking what happened on the road, referring to the heap. Pavel is very aggressive and he wants to kill them. I go pretty crazy arguing with him about how insane it is, and that he is overreacting! But he is not listening. (I wonder about how is it possible that his mind is so stubborn. How come people cannot accept different perspective) ((I think this has cause in my recent arguments with Melissa about her view on life)). I tell Pavel that I am leaving, because I don’t want him to get me in to some serious trouble because of the heap on the road. He is threatening me that he will tell that it was me removing the heap. For some reason I don’t want anyone to know.

*I am somewhere around highway or motorway. There are several train lines and I can see many trains staying as if there was some train traffic jam. I can recognize one of the trains, it is Pendolino with its typical white, blue and yellow colours.

**I am walking down a long street at night (dream sign). It looks like a motorway with two lines in each direction. I notice green lane for cyclists. As the cars pass in both directions it creates the lines as when one takes picture with long exposure. I notice that the lights reflect on the street, it must have been raining recently. Then I notice that along the road, cyclist lane and pedestrian lane are light slopes everywhere, with colourful rings as the light sources. I am amazed (not realizing it’s a dream). !!!I think to myself, that they should turn down the intensity of the lightning because it burns too much energy (as it hurts my eyes), but then I think to myself, “This is just the way it is these days.”
By my right hand side is a large garden surrounded by forest. It has precise rectangular shape and there is a large mason like house at the far end. Then I get this (as if) message from my mom and my brother to go home, to that house, where I apparently live. (I am not sure I can see them though). I realize that it’s the 12th of March. It’s my birthday!!
Next I am in one of the room of the house. There are two large sofas, one of which is facing away from me and the other facing along...on which my mom and my brother sits. I look at them and then I notice that behind the of the sofas are some presents. I can recognize foldable green bike and a big box of LEGO and some other things. I feel touched. I feel like crying out of happiness or being loved. My mom asks me what’s up. I only shake my head to give her a sign that I am fine, because I feel that if I start speaking I would cry.

*This dram is set up around my village. It was happening at night (dream sign). Some kind of pest or frogs is uncontrollably overpopulating. I have developed some new kind of animal that attacked the overpopulating kind. I also developed some kind of fish for the same purpose. I have also developed new kind of plant that was grown at composter at my grandmother’s garden. It was very successful killing the right amount of the pest (now I feel it’s rabbits). I gave some samples to my friend Pavel O. ...At this point my recordings make not sense!!! (well funny though....”I told Kolovska that she is fat and she complained... Pavel and Skrbek are two bloody liars, so I put a wardrobe there, turn on my computer and cat ).

I am running somewhere outside, I think it's night again. There are fences around and as if some river. There is my friend Jaque and she has her exam marked already. She is not happy with it as she did get very good grade. The I realize that I can have mine too. So I get it. It's social psychology exam. It was actually marked by my other teacher Anna Saunders from previous Uni. I look at the exam and I got only 44%. I am very unhappy. I flip through the pages and there are no marks or corrections. I am very unsatisfied and want to talk with Anna about it. She only says that I used Twitter as en example. I flip through the pages and actually can read the writing. (don't remember what was said there, just the twitter bits). I am very disappointed as I expected much better mark.

I am waiting with my friend Marek and Martin at a train station. But there are no trains coming. Then eventually some train comes. I realize that we are there to take some training in coffee making (this must be reflection from the previous day experience from caffe Nero, where Melissa and I were served coffee that looked nothing like on the menu picture). The training is taking place in one of the carriages, along a long table. There are more people sitting around. Then we move on and continue going where we intended to. (I am not sure where). Guys are all the time ahead and I keep loosing them. I try to call them and text them, but with no luck.

Another scene is somewhere outside. I am standing under a cloudy sky. (I am there with someone, but not sure who. On one hand I feel like it was my friends or my boss Mark). The person that is there with me points behind me. I turn around, like bending backwards and see tall glass building and above it dark clouds cumulating. The clouds are almost dark blue. Its starts raining. Just a few bug heavy drops here and there, but I know that its going to get worse in seconds. I see some building and train station in front of me. One of the corner and the closes buildings is a starbucks. Its all glass and I can see inside. It is a small coffee shop with a little room in front. As soon as we get there its starts pouring down. I look around thinking I will get something as the rain was not going to stop any soon. I get coffee and a cake. (The whole rain theme is surely projected from the previous day as I experienced something similar with Melisa - Nero). I have banoffee cake. Then the waitress comes and gives us another one, its slightly messed up, but its a whole cake. She says that the store room is getting flooded as it is in the basement.(this is also from the previous day as I saw a waitress in the Nero going in to the basement for something). Then she brings another one. I hesitate to take it, and look around if someone else wants it. I notice the Starbucks manager giving the waitress mean looks, as if "what the hell are you doing".

Then we go to the station waiting for the train. I am thinking, where to stand at the platform as it was long and I thought that maybe the train wont be so long. It is not. We go inside.

Another scene is in out house. I am in the kitchen and Martin is hanging washing outside. Then suddenly his phone starts ringing. I look at the display and see there my name. I am confused about this. I cannot be calling him. So I think its for me. I pick up the call and I hear some man introducing himself as a manager. I realize that he thinks its Marin on the phone. I rush outside to give him the phone. He takes it and tells me "you know its not good to touch others stuff" (I believe this is form the previous night when I went to Melissa's handbag for our wine and she told me off to ask first before I go there next time) one of the interesting things is that when I went outside to give Martin his phone, it was nice and sunny. Most of my dreams are dark or cloudy.

DS: dark sky,

The theme of todays dreams were catastrophes.

I am riding a bike with Marek and Martin. We are running away in front of something. Its at night, everything is dark. We come to some area that is surrounded by wire fences, but its all damaged and from the mark on the ground I can see that people were cycling and walking through the gaps in the fence. We ride in, but M&M are saying that the area is for depositing radioactive waste. There are trees around and behind them there is a large field looking like a dumping place. Its raised up some 2 meters or so. Guys dont want to be there and cycle away, but I want to have a look. I go on the field but there is nothing much to see. I get back to my bike and see that the tires are almost flat. I start pumping them up. I am not happy about it. The I hear some noise and look up. I see a wall, made of marble or so and to it there is a bed connected. It looks creepy. Its all set up and in the corners the are some columns. Before I start wondering how did it appear there, just above the bed the wall opens, like slides apart. There is a TV set with some news on. I watch the news and see the reporter talking about tornados in UK. There are images of the tornados and strong wind lifting various material from the ground. There is an image of a couple that is holding on to something. Then they are taken by the wind. But the couple is confessing, thus they must have survived, and the girl is describing how strong the wind is and how she tried to hold on to he boyfriend but he couldnt hold on to the pine or what ever it was. But they survived.

Next:
I am standing in the middle of a little square, with grass. Its raised up some 2 meters above the road level. I can se houses around. It all happens very quickly, I just appear in the middle of the scene. There is a large yellow crane-truck. (this must have projected from one of the previous days as I saw one of those cranes when I was running, it reminded me of my friend and I also wondered how it could lift such heavy loads). Next to the truck there is a green pillar and there is a woman on it some 3-4 m high. Then suddenly the truck starts moving forward, but not fluently. Jumping like. The woman starts screaming and banging on the truck. Suddenly as if I could see inside. There is a small child sitting and a man, but he seems to be asleep of dozing off behind the steering wheel. The child starts hitting him and he wakes up for a second. But the he falls asleep again and the crane keeps moving forward. It goes closer and closer to the edge of the square. I notice that the crane gid is expended and if the crane falls the gid will hit the house opposite. There is a pub of a house with a balcony. The gid will hit the balcony I can see it. Then the crane falls, just the front vaults over and the gid tip hits the balcony, but no one gets hurt.

*I go somewhere with someone. Skrbek joins us but is upset because of something. We go to swimming pool. We get to the changing room upstairs. I have a pack of bonbons he has one too. There is some problem with the locker. I keep rushing him, but finally we get to the swimming pool. I take many things with me, such as wallet, goggles, and clipper. I think about loads of things. When we go home, I see that he lives in a small box like home (bunka). As we keep walking on the road, there is a big lorry that cannot go through a turn. There are some police mans that redirect it different way.
**I am at a petrol station. I am not sure if I work there. But probably yes. (then I say pure random stuff)

*Melissa and I are at “Rysovka” hill. I think I had a plan to go there with my friends and that they are there with us. (Back home) My friends ask me whether I have a sledge. I am going to buy one because I don’t have any. When I come beck my friends are cooking something. It’s a fish and when I taste it, it’s pretty tasty. Then I come back with Melissa. We are looking at some pictures. In one of the pictures there is a girl with a tattoo on her leg. The tattoo is pretty good.
I go to buy them fish, because I need some more. I put them on a plastic tray because I don’t have an oven one and put it on the fire. Next second, I quickly pull it back as I remember that it will burn in the fire because it starts melting. Now Sharon is there and is making some comments.

*I am at a station; it looks like Liverpool street station. There is a girl (probably Reshika) running in front of me trying to catch a train. I am supposed to go with her. But as she runs through the tourniquet and I follow her, it doesn’t let me through. So I want to run around, but the attendant shows me that I cannot go around. So I show her my oyster pass, but she says no. I distract her attention and get through, but I cannot get in to the train. I knock on the window on her that I cannot go. She looks upset. Later I decide that I will go after her on my bike and start preparing all necessary things. Though, I feel that I haven’t cycled for a while. We exchange few texts as I am preparing my stuff, and I can see that she is very upset about the fact that I didn’t go with her.
**A reappearing sign in this dream were two chameleons. Every time as I am coming back home I can see two chameleons sitting on a branch. One of them is greenish colour and the other brown. I seem to have a friendly relationship with them. But one of them changes in to a ferret or such, and goes hunting. I could see it running around on my GPS. Then I see one of them on GPS being still for long. It’s in the middle of a motorway. It never returned back. It must have got killed by a car or so. That’s what I feel.
***I sit in our living room in Czech with Martin. There is a little plane. Martin says that he needs to cook and went shopping for vegetable and other stuff. He is probably going to the Turkish shop, he says that he needs onions. He has the paper plane. I think there is Salaba too and he plays with the airplane. But he tries to move the wings and they break. He gets upset and repeats that he has to buy a new one. At this time I am leaving on my bike, going to see R. She messages me that she has been crying for the last two days.
****Then I am at work. There is Laura some other guy and I. The lights are very dim (!!!!!!!!!). So I turn on the lights. Then I realise that there is the inspection coming soon. So I say we have to clean and polish everything. Laura starts saying that it’s all clean. The lights come up. Suddenly some man enters the deli. I don’t like the way he looks and don’t feel any sympathy towards him. He says “look what I have got for you” and shows us large plasma screen. He says that he comes to install it and asks where we want it. He suggests putting it right by the entrance near the fridges. I have a feeling that there used to be a TV. He drills the holes and starts pulling the cables through. But he needs something heavy and takes large chunk of meat from the fridge. So I look at him what he is doing and ask him. He tells me that he needs something heavy. I tell him off that no way this is possible because of health and safety. He starts pulling some green cable trough but needs some help so he asks me. I come to help him and when I start pulling the green cable out he gives me another one to tie them together. I asked him whether to connect them ends the same way or opposite each other.

I am in some church with a friend of mine. I am now sure who it is. Someone is looking for us there, and we are hiding. Then some architect comes there and starts checking everything. He checks curtains also. It looks all very suspicious.
I am in some cooking course in some camp. There are some two Filipino guys presenting the cooking and I am surprised that they speak German. We talk about cooking.

*I am moving houses. Everything is somewhat related to Serendipity. I am chatting with some girl. We chat about why my relationship with Serendipity ended. I tell her that it was short but good relationship. I am moving the house because in the place Serendipity was meant to live with me. We chat about how am I going to move all the stuff, probably by train.
**I run in to the house. There is a big glass window. Then I go to the bathroom, where is another big glass window to the corridor. Suddenly I see through the window that someone walked in to the house. The person I see has his face totally damaged. The person tries to ask me something through the glass.
***I run to some coffee shop where I am going to play cards or so. There are stairs leading to two different coffee shops. I want to go only to one of them. There is my friend George with me there. There are more people that I know there, such as Helenka Sarounova, because many of them live in the area. Most of them is smoking. I am chatting to someone on the bar and suddenly everybody is gone. I notice just a wall board there...
****I am looking for a job as a reporter for local newspapers. I go for an interview but they don’t want to take me because I am inexperienced. I feel that it is not true.
*****I meet Nick Sam, I am not sure where this is. When I see him, I say in a bit of an arrogant tone “Ahhhhhh, Nick Sam??”. He acts overly and fake cool, and it feels pretty awkward. He smell like sweat (reminds me of my old teacher Hradecky).

I am at Pavel’s or Barbara’s house. The whole setting is about me having some arguments with Emil, Barbara’s uncle. At one point I want to go to the toilet (number 2). The bathroom is where the bedroom on the first floor is in Pavel’s grandmother house. I go there and lock the door, but I can’t. I can hear Emil coming downstairs so I pretend that I am not going toilet and start having a go at him. So as we argue, I try to sort it out psychologically, to find a common way. But he is stubborn and aggressive so I punch him several times in the face. I can feel how nicely the fist landed on his face. (This is different from most of the dream fights, as I normally feel as if I missed or so). Even though he is aggressive, I can sense good deal of respect from him. (What I like about my dream self that I have no fear at all and react fairly masculine to situations like this.)