Dream Journal

First lucid in many years,and the main reason I'm back on Dream Views. Nothing majorly interesting but the thrill of being lucid is what counted for me.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

The dream starts with me sneaking around a house-like building, with men on guard wandering around on duty. Anything before is hazy, but I spent a while recalling back to this point. I can vaguely remember a fragment that took place in a Halo: Reach-like area, perhaps linked to this current scene. I was crawling on a higher ground, spying through a small gap between the wall and roof, watching an armed man walk up and down. I was with someone, but I don't remember exactly who, most likely my step brother. I also barely remember some kind of animal/pet. We were spotted as we escaped the building. This section is hazy, but not long after I arrived near my home, where I did some DIY for my Grandmother, and passed through the forest next to my house to do some DIY for an old neighbour who moved nearby.

I headed back to the entrance of the forest and found myself with my step brother, who had a Bannerlord-esque army formation outside my house, opposing a similar army. I went into the forest and decided to try and test if my slow-walk chase nightmares are legit of if it's just the ground's fault. I slipped up and ran very slowly as expected, and concluded it was not the dream's fault but rather the ground I try to run on. Back at the forest entrance again, my step brother suggests we light the army of soldiers on fire - to which I disagreed and insulted him in a similar way to a previous dream - a sure dream element to keep an eye on. I head back down the forest path I had just walked, but after a few steps I become instantly lucid out of nowhere.

I never expected to get lucid so soon after returning - in just five nights after 4+ years. This feeling was very intense and vivid, my first thought was to focus on stabilising. I performed my main reality check and was pretty worried about losing lucidity, so I kept trying to remind myself. This, however, didn't get me very far, as I was distracted by my urge to change my surroundings. I took a few steps, and felt very sluggish and slow - almost like the previous attempts at recreating the nightmare slow-running. After failing to change my surroundings, I managed to create this very strong red tint across the trees of the forest, which shook the Earth as it rapidly grew in intensity. It vanished instantly after I lost focus on it. I ventured, at a normal pace, further into the forest, where I had a semi-lucid sexual urge for some reason. Instead, however, my brain decided to give me a dozen wooden-skinned, blank faced mannequins wearing skirts. I ran my hands across one's arm, intrigued by the surrealism and my lucidity faded rapidly.

I head back, yet again, to the forest entrance where I have a hazy conversation with a bald man until the dream seemingly ends.

Well, this one was really eventful considering how early I am into my return to lucid dreaming. My recall is better than it's been in years and most of the knowledge I learned during my times here in 2012 has stayed with me. Hopefully my next lucid dream will be longer and easier for me to control, and the rest of what I know deep down will return.

Possible recurring elements:
-Family
-Anger, bottled up feelings
-Local neighbourhood

Notes:
-Second dream I have had a negative interaction with my step brother based on bottled up feelings. Present in Dream #2
-Yet another local area, should be easy to form reality check habits this way. This local area is the forest opposite my house

Lucidity notes:
-Everyone vanished upon attaining lucidity, happens almost every time for me
-Control mostly failed, need to improve
-Stability needs improving greatly