Lucid-Wannabe's Dream Journal

Notable day substances: No caffeine, Decaf, phosphatidyl choline, 5mg Benedryl 7:30pm
WBTB substances: 6mg Galantamine ~4:00AM

I wanted to have my first lucid this time around since my last break to be without Galantamine, but I'm impatient so I threw it into the mix tonight.



WBTB with Galantamine and WILD

I woke up at 3:45 am after 4 and a half hours of sleep. I read some Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming until I felt like my mind was awake, which took 10 minutes. Then I took 6mg of Galantamine and went back to bed.

I normally try to fall asleep as fast as possible after taking Galantamine because it works pretty fast and it’s difficult to sleep after it starts working. After about half an hour with no luck of going back to sleep on my right side, and attempts of laying very still for WILD - I turn over to my left side to try to WILD there.

Over 10 mins I made less and less movements until I was very comfortable and still. After a while I couldn’t really feel my body and that’s when the transition from waking into sleeping consciously began.

I had no visuals but I felt like I was sitting on a rollercoaster. I could feel when I was traveling up the tracks and the momentum and speed when I was going downward, I could feel myself lifting out of my seat. This went on for a while and was really fun, it felt very realistic. I also started to get some slight visuals of the track which was going around a ski-lift over and over again.


Then the visuals started. A colorful background appeared and there was some nonsense text in the middle that looked AI generated. The text made no sense but when I pretended to ‘read it’ it would transform into a new gibberish text. The text was only ever between 1 to 4 words long. Each time I ‘read’ one of these it felt like I was doing something right and getting deeper into something and the visuals got brighter.*

Now a ‘loading screen’ appeared, it was 16-bit SNES graphics scrolling from right to left of a brick wall. It was very stable and I would pick a piece of grouting and watch it go from one side of my vision to the other - the clarity and detail in lucid dreams always amazes me.

After maybe 10 seconds of this the loading is finished and I’m playing a SNES-style beat em’ up genre game**. It looked like Super Double-Dragon - the very basic track ‘Train Ride’ from this game was playing as well, which I haven’t heard in probably over 10 years.


So now I’m playing this game, the graphics are very bright and vivid - enemies are coming at my character which I’m controlling. But I don’t have a real body, it’s like I’m looking at a screen with blackness all around it and that’s it.

I told myself before going to bed that if I had a lucid I was going to go with whatever the dream was, for stability and practice sake. But I didn’t want the dream to be about playing some SNES game, I at least wanted it to be based in a reality-like setting.

So I test out transforming one of the enemies I’m looking at, which begins to work but the contrast and brightness of the dream begins to dim. I figure I’ve only been in here for less than a minute so I should slow down, so I stop doing that and the contrast and brightness return.

I still don’t want to be having this experience so I close my eyes and now I feel my body in bed. I decide to do a reality check and reach over and plug my nose - I can still breathe just fine! Also I’m seemingly on my back, but I know I’m on my left side in reality. So I decide to try to get out of bed to get out of this gaming situation.

But as I start to move I feel like my left arm is still not totally asleep and that if I move it I will wake up, it feels really heavy compared to the rest of my body. So I close my eyes and enter the video game again, just to see a enemy hit my character and die. The game over screen says ‘YOU FAILED!’ with a big fat purple weasel laughing with a high pitched voice as the dream collapses and I return to feeling my actual body in bed laying on my left side, awake. (5:08am)

I think I just tried too much too fast and needed to let the dream develop more and become more involved. I’ve had plenty of close call WILD’s but normally I get to a point where my body feels like it’s humming with electricity as the visuals begin and the dreams collapse very early. I’ll count this as my first successful WILD! Even though I used Galantamine and ruined it pretty fast.



Dream 2

I’m on the phone with JohnF, a guy I only met very briefly maybe 10 years ago. He’s severely depressed and I’m trying to make him feel better but it wasn’t working. I suddenly had the random thought that he hired a hitman to kill someone. I asked him if he had done something irreversible. He said ‘yeah…’

I don’t know what he actually did but I said he should try to forgive himself and maybe do something that feels like he’s giving back to the world in some way.

I heard super Mario RPG music coming through the phone and asked him if he was playing it. He lit up a bit and said he was, the remastered version. And that he had plans to swap if for another game when he was done.

Then an unknown friend of mine comes by the room I'm in (PA house, bedroom at the end of the hall on the left). He says he got a purple coat and a mustache and he's really excited about it. He doesn't want to show me though because he doesn't know the guy I'm talking to, who is now in the room with me.

JohnF and I both say we wanna see it so he shows us. 'It's not purple at all!' I say upon seeing it, it’s a deep mustard yellow. He says 'oh yeah? Well look at THIS!' He opens it up to reveal a mustache on the hanging loop/tag on the jacket. He takes it off and clips it to his nose, it's a really convincing mustache. We both applaud him.


This dream started out serious and dark and ended feeling funny and relaxed.



Dream 3

I’m deep underground in some sort of mine. To demonstrate how extremely deep a hole is, a man/woman pair toss a raccoon down into it. Immediately it sounds like it hit pipes or something and there are lots of scrambling sounds. The man then throws a basketball down which hits something, and then it's silent.

The woman explains that the raccoon was so relaxed when it fell with its limbs stretched out, that when it made contact with the only pipe exposed it quickly grabbed on. Then the basketball was thrown to hit the raccoon and send it all the way down..

We spoke about something but I forget what. I vomited up a strange pufferfish looking like creature into a nearby basin with water in it, which freaked the lady out and she ran off.

This dream just had all around gross vibes.



Dream 4

A gust of wind blows the front door open slightly, Mogmi makes a run for it! He gets outside and I chase after him. He goes right across the street into the backyard of the neighbors (which is unlike IWL).

A man with a large beard is smoking a cigarette on his phone and there is another guy standing there with him.

Mogmi is hopping up like a dog trying to smell the cigarette. I grab him and apologize, then take him back to the house.



*I suspect this was REM starting, reading these short sentences were making my eyes dart back and forth a lot.

**At this point I became aware of NPT (nocturnal erection), which happens during REM.

Notable day substances: No caffeine. 3.75mg dd @ 9:30am


Dream 1

I'm walking with a guy to go on some short trip with him in his truck. He mentions something about having done a burnout recently so the tires might not be that great.

When we get to his truck the tires are all worn down, but not evenly - it was like just one side of each tire was ground way down.

After one look at them I said I'm gonna pass on this trip and that the tires are about to blow (I also imagine how bumpy the ride would be).

The guy says they're not that bad and that we should go. I say sorry but that's a hard pass for me.

We both repeat where we stand and he starts getting angry. I'm slowly backing up and he reaches for me. I have a tac in my hand and jab it into his forearm, lol.

He looks at the tiny hole in his arm, then back at me and says 'what's your problem!? '

The view goes third person looking over the back of his shoulder at me. I'm SpongeBob SquarePants now, I turn around and walk off disappearing into a large coral reef that is on dry land.

The view zooms into to the guy's face and he's furious, veins throbbing in his temples. He grabs a large canister that has a hose attached to it, he then grabs a friend that has been out of frame the whole time.

Truck guy says 'let's do this!' He puts the end of the hose about an inch away from his friend's mouth and opens the valve on the canister.

A thick cloud of heavy purple gas begins bellowing out and into his friend's mouth. He inhales it and it also looks like he's drinking and swallowing it at times.

His skin begins to turn purple and he begins to grow and transform into a massive purple version of the hulk.


The purple hulk looks toward the coral reef and the truck guy screams 'get him!!'

As the purple hulk leaps towards the reef a female reporter begins speaking 'Although where SpongeBob's lives is not known, fans of the show have narrowed it down to an area in Bikini Bottom'

Eventually the whole reef is stomped flat and the camera switches to a part of the destroyed reef. I (SpongeBob) sit up saying 'I'm fine, I'm a sponge'.




Dream 2 - fragment

Tami wanted to try giving me a Mohawk. She finishes and I look in the mirror and see that it's not symmetrical. I point it out and ask if she can fix the one side. She can't see the asymmetry of it.

Notable day substances: No caffeine (decaf coffee, blech)

I woke up for WBTB after about 4 hrs of sleep and then stayed up for about 25m. Getting back to sleep was a little slow.


Dream 1 - Recalled when waking up to WBTB

Tami and Zoë are studying for upcoming finals or something. Zoë is really struggling with something so I offer her some programming to help. It’s just one line of python code that is totally irrelevant to what she’s doing, something similar to:

Study = pd.read_csv(‘data/finals.csv’)

She doesn’t really understand, so I mention that she doesn’t really have to know what it does but just to apply it whenever she’s stuck



Dream 2 - Recalled when waking up to WBTB

I’m in an area that can be best described as where the orcs were working underground in Lord of the Rings. Where there’s lots of fire and mud, gears and machines and scaffolding.

I’m on one of the scaffolds and there is a huge machine in front of me, gears whirring - it’s covered in a thick black oil lubricant which is being splattered everywhere from the mechanical parts moving.

The center of the largest gear is eye level to me, it has a rectangular aperture that begins to slowly open - revealing its interior.

But instead of gears and fire and whatever would be expected to be going on inside, it revealed a view of the inside of a Target/Walmart sort of store. The contrast from my dirty, glowing environment to the clean fluorescent lit view of the store was shocking. The rectangular aperture grew until it was just large enough for me to climb through, which I did.



I was now inside the store and it wasn’t the same as a normal superstore. There were cubicles here and there with people working in them and there were no shoppers. I ‘knew’ that this wasn’t a store for customers but for employees to work, even though there was merchandise everywhere.


So now I’m sneaking through this place, feeling like I don’t belong here. I run into RacheL and Kevin who are casually walking through one of the main paths. RacheL is happy and in a carefree mood while Kevin seems kind of moody, we seem to talk for a moment.

I run into RacheL and Kevin who are walking through the store. RacheL is happy and in a carefree mood but Kevin is reserved and broody. We are talking and walking together now.

We end up finding this long winding 'road' that transcends the store in an upward spiral*. There is no more ceiling, it's night time and the stars speckle the sky. We continue to walk up it.

I feel kind of happy and free, though I feel nostalgic towards RacheL. I felt melancholy. **



Dream 3 - Recalled when waking up to WBTB

Possibly a continuation of the last dream, I'm now in a Jeep with either Bugsy or Bill driving. I feel like Tami/Zoë/RacheL may be there too.

I'm simultaneously in this car yet also have full vision of a game I'm playing with James. It's like a top down sort of 2D shooter style game.

The game is high stakes, something bad would happen to us if we lost and something good if we won.

At one point there are so many enemies around us I mention to James we should switch to area of effect attacks. We seem to be doing pretty well.

Simultaneously, in the Jeep Bugsy/Bill is drifting around corners and has no clue what he's doing.




Dream 4

James, Elisabeth and I are standing on small floating icebergs in the ocean. The beach is nearby behind us and it looks like we hopped from tiny iceberg to iceberg to where we are now.

Elisabeth is out the farthest on a massive iceberg, James is hopping his way over to her and I'm behind him.

I'm thinking just how bad it would be if he slipped and fell in the water, which happens on his next jump.

He swims over to Elisabeth and she pulls him out. I shout over to him saying we have to get out of here ASAP, the exposure is going to kill him. James tried to jump back onto the previous spot he was on but his coordination is all messed up from how cold he is and he ends up back in the water.

I'm thinking he's almost certainly going to die here. I look around for options and notice there's somehow a chain link fence behind me. It goes all the way back to the shore.

I grab it and shake it to feel how sturdy it is, feels pretty firm. Then I see a really long wooden rod leaning against it. It's very long and one end is resting on the seafloor.

James is still trying to get out of the water, I tell him to just swim to me instead which he does.

I get him to hold onto the iceberg I'm on somehow and then use the rod to push us back to shore pretty fast.

Elisabeth hopped back and was with us rather quick and then we all went to my car.

I asked James just how cold the ocean felt when he fell in but he was shaking too violently to answer, I guess that answers that!


*Reminiscent of my upward spiral platform dream in the void recently.
**This is all most likely from some news I heard from RacheL the other day.

Notable day substances: No caffeine

I slept for a really long time last night, yet I can hardly recall anything.

Dream fragments:

Moreso can recall feelings than anything else. Mainly slight aversion and annoyance, probably from a IWL scenario from yesterday.

Been feeling like garbo recently, low motivation too.


Notable day substances: No caffeine

Dream 1

I find out that Jimmy Carter lives down the street by the PA house. James is talking to him and sort of doesn't know what to say. Carter is talking about passing away or something to that effect.



Dream 2

Mogmi is trapped under Tami's car. I look underneath and he looks passed out, the back tires are on his front paws and if she drives forward she would hit his head. Tami's panicking and I tell her that she has to go in reverse just very slightly and absolutely do not go forward. I go underneath the car to move him as soon as the car starts moving.

Notable day substances: No form of caffeine



Dream 1

I'm standing in the shallow spot of a river.

I'm holding a 'water piccolo' that is attuned to the river. I jump into a deeper part of the river and the river spirit teleports me way downstream.

I forget what I do here but I later find myself in the same shallow spot in the river later on.

I wade down towards the spot where the river becomes deep again and I jump in, again holding the water piccolo. I expect to be teleported, but this time it doesn't happen.

Instead, I can't control my legs now and I slowly sink to the bottom of the river.

I gain the dream knowledge that the river spirit decides when it's your time to go, and this was my time.

Struggling and losing clarity of mind is the default/beginner's way to die, the river spirit tells me. I try to pass in meditation.



Dream 2 - Fragment

I receive a package from booky. I open it, it's a VHS on machine learning that I 'left' at his place. It’s in a Blockbuster sort of shell, but it had a different name that began with an S, like Sharp or something.

Dream 1

I find a shortcut to some sort of ultimate last boss in a WoW like game, Tami is grouped with me.

The shortcut takes us behind the boss where a large treasure chest is. Normally a raid would only gain access to this spot after defeating this boss, who is still alive and in fairly close proximity to the treasure. The boss is some sort of giant undead lich with possessed chains encircling it - it's giving some strong spellcaster vibes and has a purple aura about it.


When I get close to the treasure it gets the attention of the lich, which howls towards us and I get a curse debuff applied to me along with multiple other extremely harmful spells. The ground crumbles and gives way and we fall into the ocean. We die shortly after and respawn in a Stormwind-like city.

I notice I still have one of the curses applied to me. It has a bunch of negative effects but it also reduces all of my spell casting times to instant and removes the global cool down.

To test this out I cast a powerful healing spell that should take 10 seconds to pull off usually. It casts instantly and my character raises his arms to deliver it. I try spamming the ability and since it wasn't meant to be done so quickly he repeats the completion animation over and over and his arms reach into the sky more and more until they're comically stretched about 10 feet into the air.




Dream 2

I'm in the PA house 'suite' area*, when I look out the window through the driveway is from the VI house.

I see a tractor trailer in the driveway, the back is open as a man is taking a large package out. He's heading towards the main doors.

Meanwhile a woman he's working with is holding a clipboard, and is near my door. She's waiting for him to put down the package before she knocks and gets me to sign, but he keeps going back for more large packages.

She calls out to him "How many more packages are we delivering?" He calls back "Nine in total!”. She responds with something along the lines of she wishes they were all for her.

Now the delivery guy is coming in and out of the room I'm in and I attempt to pay little attention to the situation but I'm on high alert. I notice the desk I'm at now has tools all over it like screwdrivers and wrenches and that underneath the desk has many drawers also full of tools.

Something is tugging on the lower right side of my shirt, I look down to see a girl that's maybe six years old or so. She's asking me random kid-like questions.

I look to find her parents and run into the delivery guy, I ask him if she's his child. He says " Oh yeah sorry about that! It's just something work is making us do, bring our kids to work today ya know?"

Behind him is his wife who I didn't see till now, who has their second daughter with her. I 'know' that this isn't her job and she's not normally in this situation. She has a 'very stressed, but making it work' kind of look on her face, her blonde hair is very messy. I feel upset that they're in this situation.


After dropping the girl off with them I want to figure out what's going on with this delivery etc, so I find the woman with the clipboard and ask her if these packages are for me.

She answers saying it's a country wide package lottery event that everyone was drawn into and that I won. She may have mentioned they were appliances.

*I really focused yesterday on the fact that I have so many PA house dreams. So I mentally went through the house when I was awake and reminded myself that if I see any of these places that I am certainly dreaming. Of course this dream was in one of the only places I forgot about, and one of the last changes to the house before I moved from there.

My mind was really active all night working on some ideas, I feel like my recall and focus really suffered from that.
I was taking a break from caffeine to see how it effected dreaming but I think I was going off it a little too fast. I've been having lots of headaches from that so I'm going to go back to just one coffee in the morning for now and maybe taper off slowly.


Dream 1

I’m in a living room watching tv with Emma and Kaya. Kaya and her are acting best friends in this dream (they’ve never met IWL). Emma is pregnant now and she’s no longer engaged, she seems to be flirting with me, I’m put off by the whole thing.

I begin walking out of the room and I hear Emma mention to Kaya that she wants a huge ruby for her wedding ring from whoever she’s going to marry next.

I end up in the bathroom, I look in the mirror and I’m me at 16. I look at myself closely and forgot about this haircut I used to have. The representation of myself is very accurate.



Dream 2

James, Elisabeth and I are eating some sort of soup at my place. Elisabeth and I are joking around, doing impressions.

I’m now holding a box which is apparently what the soup came in. On the back of it near the bottom underneath all of the cooking steps it says “If you want to order this soup in our restaurant, it will be listed on the menu as “Barney Cologne”!

Then there was an icon at the bottom, it was Barney’s face head on with his typical mouth open smile look. It was a RIP tribute honoring him saying something about even though Barney was made fun of often, he just wanted to make children happy. I kind of frown at this and think something like ‘wtf IS this?’

I didn’t have much strong feelings in this dream either way.



Dream 3

Tami, Zoë and I are hanging out at the H-Town house. Tami and I are in the bedroom at the end of the hall, laying in bed talking. I can’t recall much else.

I didn’t feel all that great yesterday, so I gave myself a break and didn’t sleep with any strong dream recall intentions.



Dream 1

I'm in the PA house*, hall bedroom on the right. I'm laying in the bed and I notice there's all of these dead looking plants hanging in transparent green 3D printed plant pots** on the wall. There's about five of them in a row.


They look like they really need water and they're leaves are all hanging down. The leaves are bowl shaped and they're holding some water in them.

Sunlight begins to hit the wall as the sun rises and it hits the first plant. The leaves respond by slowly lifting up to their full height, causing the water to stream down from the leaves into the soil. I think to myself "So that's why its leaves are shaped like that.. A plant that waters itself!"***

The sun spreads across the wall as it dances through the blinds and various trees from outside. Each plant responds to the sunlight the same.



Dream 2 (probably a continuation from the first dream)

I'm in the PA house, living room. There's music playing from the speakers. There's some sort of family gathering and everyone is doing art, I only remember specifically seeing Katie's face. I'm not too interested in what's going on here.

I go upstairs to the bedroom at the end of the hallway. In here there's also speakers in sync playing the same song which was “Savage Garden - I Want You”****. I turn the volume up to the max and lean my forehead against the system and close my eyes. The bass is rippling through me and it feels like I'm getting a full body massage. It’s so strong I feel like my heart is skipping beats. I say 'woah' but it comes out all choppy from the music.



Dream 3

I'm some sort of superhero and I'm writing a letter to a little girl. I'm trying to break it to her that I'm losing my superpowers.

I draw an image of me flying with a cape, holding a car over my head.


Then I draw an image of me walking, explaining that I can't fly anymore.


There were a few more images and notes that I forget. I finish the letter writing that I'm still working on making the world a better place but now I'll have to do it like normal people.

I say something about how we have the same abilities now and that she can be a superhero too.


* I should focus more that this place is a dream sign.
** The same plant holders I printed a few years ago for fun.
*** Another often dream sign seems to be these ‘aha!’ moments where I’m trying to understand something.
**** This is most likely because I checked out the DV Discord recently and listened to a song Lang shared that made me think ‘This sounds so much like savage garden’

Dream 1

I’m jumping up from floating circular platform to circular stone platforms with simple circular Celtic designs on them, they’re ascending. I look down to see where I came from, more circular platforms spiral down into the blackness. Besides the platforms, I don't see anything else that exists.


Dream 2 - I woke up around 5:30-5:45am briefly to change positions but decided to try to recall my dream which came to me very easily. I decided to try writing it down now rather than when I wake up later like I usually do.

I'm in the PA house, downstairs by the Ivy window. I realize I only have until the end of the day to finish and submit an assignment. On my phone it shows as a red 7 hrs left (till midnight) - so I guess it was 5:00pm in this dream

Some guy is outside in a truck slowly driving through the neighborhood. I look and see that the driver is a really young guy and that his full sized truck is actually a really souped up ATV (allowing him to drive it without a license) - making me think he must have some pretty wealthy parents.

He notices me watching him and revs up the hill.

I avoid my homework by going out for a bicycle ride. It's nice and sunny out. I begin going down a hill.

I notice some people that fell on the road and I almost hit them so I brake as hard as I can and pull to the right, I hit into the bumper of a parked car.

There's two men and a lady. One man and the lady were in the grass on the side of the road, and the other man was in the middle of the road.

They must've been riding as well, as their bikes are nearby, I'm not sure how they fell.

I go over to help one guy up who looks like he'd be a giant if he were standing, like maybe 9 ft tall. I grab his arm then lean back to help lift him as he stumbles to his knees, then rocks back to the balls of his feet before standing upright to his massive height.

The way he went through the motions of getting up had me saying to him "woah, easy there transformer!" And then I produce the 'transforming' sound effect from the old show. It comes out of my mouth/throat with these crazy electronic-robotic vibrations/sounds and is a completely accurate representation of the sound*, my awareness spikes from how strange this is and I almost get lucid! We look at each other like in a 'How the fuck did that just happen' kind of way.

We both laugh for a sec over how weird that was. As my semi-lucidity dims.

I check on the others that are on their feet now, and one of them was director Paul, which I am so surprised to see here (also semi lucid)

"Wow, hey what's up Paul how've you been?" He's also surprised to see me and a bit embarrassed over the situation.

I say that I've got to get going, which I can tell rubs Paul the wrong way. I think he wanted some fanfare in front of his friends or something. As I'm walking away I can hear the woman (one of the ppl that fell) ask Paul "oh, you two know each other?" And I barely heard Paul respond "Yeah, we've worked on some film projects together...."

Then another woman pops up and is walking with me "You know Paul too huh?" She asks. She's has an energy about her of assertiveness and exudes confidence in how she walks. She's wearing a light colored, kind of flowy dress and possibly boots?

I fill her in on how Paul and I know each other a bit, I don't think she really cares about that, it's more like she's on a mission for us hanging out which I'm fine with, she has a really fun energy to her.

We're walking to my place now, apparently I live in an apartment that is attached to the airport. We're walking down a long hall at the airport that leads to my apt.

She kind of side hugs me while we're walking and mentions something about messing around when we get there. I tell her that I think she's great, but will have to pass since I'm currently in a relationship. She jokingly lets go of me and straightens up and does a quick salute and says "yes sir!" In the deepest voice she can muster, before relaxing and getting closer again, holding my arm.

We're coming to the end of the airport hall now and Jenny is the security guard there! She has shades on and smiles brightly at us and hands my companion a pair of sunglasses saying "Now with the other ones I gave you, you've got a set" , but then sort of realizes that she's not Tami and frowns a little and looks at me like 'hrmmm?', I just think "eh it's not like that Jenny'' and slightly shake my head at her, but don't say anything and we keep walking. My new sidekick is looking at the sunglasses. I notice the sunglasses are two toned and I point out how the colors match her dress, she likes that and puts them on the top of her head.

We stop at a desk on the way to the apartment as the dream begins to fade and she shows me something she's written down, it's hard to remember what but it was sort of in a crossword puzzle-style. She holds it right in front of my face for a bit and raises her eyebrows as if she was expecting me to clue in on something.

I don't remember what else happened, I have the feeling we made it into the apartment but the dream ended at entering the door. I don't know if this is because I'm writing this down at 6:00am right after the dream rather than when waking up later, but holy shit the details are clear. And that feels like the first dream which someone in it felt like a real person, that woman. It was like she was aware of something. Everyone else felt like regular dream characters. I got close to lucidity a few times, wooo!

*I ended up finding this sound online and I can't believe how accurately it was reproduced in the dream

No recall from last night, going to put down my dreams from the previous night though.


Dream 1

I’m in a hospital waiting for a surgery or something. Two nurses begin prepping a ‘surgical pool cue’ for me. I have to hold it and rotate it slowly as they glue round metallic objects on the end of it. There were some technicalities regarding the cue tip as it had to be designed based on a fraction of the measurements of my body, though it just looked like a normal (but metallic) cue tip to me.

After the surgery I find myself at home and I’m describing to Tami how funny the idea of a ‘surgical pool cue’ was, but also just how well made it felt. For example how polished it was, it was more like an art exhibit piece.

Then we both notice it beside me and that I must’ve accidentally brought it home with me. So I started showing it to her in person, but it’s kind of different than before. Now it’s kind of got this textured wavy dark pattern all over it which makes me a little upset that it didn’t match my previous description to Tami - it made me feel like I betrayed her in some small way by not providing an accurate description of it.


Dream 2

I’m piloting a large mech, one of the arms I control has a massive drill on it. I head over to the side of a dirt hill which is sheared and vertical, like some massive machine just took a chunk out of it.

I test out the drill on this dirt wall for fun and it very easily carves into the wall. I felt free and really enjoyed how intuitive all of the movements were in this mech.

I then head over to a cliff which overlooks a very large lake. There’s a man there and he points out a massive truck-like vehicle that sits at the bottom of the lake. It's very rusty and looks ancient, it’s a beautiful view.


Apparently we live in some sort of micro-community that is working in this area, and it would somehow be really beneficial if we could remove this rusty structure/vehicle from the lake - even if we were to move it half a kilometer or less.

We go over the details of the depth of the water and how feasible it would be to try to get in the water with mechs, without destroying them by going too deep into the water. Among other ideas we consider having divers go down to attach metal cables onto the structure, and then tie the other sides of the cables onto mechs on the land and then sort of drag it in a certain direction.


Dream 3

Allen is in the PA house, parents room. He has hundreds of black binder clips clipped to his clothing. All arranged so that the non-black tong parts are facing down, if that makes sense.

(They were facing the opposite direction as they are in this generated image)

I kind of went into the room to see this, he stares at me and I just stare at him and take it all in then laugh about it. He then laughed too and was in a genuinely good mood, which is so unlike him.

I walk away and run into Sue, who informs me that Allen updated some sort of contract making me legally obliged to do housework or something for them - it was called ‘the ring contract’, which she showed me on a clipboard - that had a heavy elaborate ring placed on the middle of the papers on it.

I feel strange and betrayed, and just let down.



Dream 4

I was in a garage playing some sort of wind instrument, possibly a didgeridoo. Someone puts some milkshake-like stuff in my hoody, and a friend's hat or something? But I didn’t notice until a minute or two after it happened. I was really upset about this and wandered out into a parking lot and crawled into the open hatch back of the car that I was certain the owner of this car was the one that milkshake-hooded me.

The entire two front seats and the floor were just filled with the same milkshake stuff, which I spat in to get back at them.

Everything about this dream felt so childish, definitely some sort of middle school pranking vibes. Also some feelings of betrayal which seems to have been the theme of this night!

Dream 1

Jesse is in a prison cell and the view is close up on his face. He looks all old and wrinkly. He's looking at his face in a mirror and slowly moving his head around while looking under one of his eyes.

He says (to his cellmate?) 'oh look! If I face this way, and look here, there's a long wrinkle under my cheek that lines up with the pupil of my eye!'.


As this was going on I was thinking to myself that he doesn't look like that at all.

Then time jumps forward a bit and he's laying in his bunk, my view is his first person view. Sunlight pours in from a window on the left and half of his lower body is covered in it.


His cellmate mentions that this place gets 14 hours of sunlight a day. There is a breeze coming in through the window and it's very cold.

The view changes to outside of the prison, of a quad drone lifting off from the ground, Jesse is piloting it from inside the prison.

As the drone is flying I think 'it would suckif he crashed it, there would be no way for him to set it back up again. Maybe the guards would set it back up for him?'. I feel kind of worried for him over this situation.

The drone flies over a road and now the view is focusing on two cars that are driving on the road.

Danielle was in the forward car and behind her was someone tailgating very closely. He pulls over off the side of the road and gets out of the car and runs down into a park, it turns out a bunch of police cars were chasing him, they pull over as well and begin looking for the man.

The guy then murders someone (I'm not sure how, the view wasn't on him) and the police immediately find him and arrest him.

Now the man is in a police department being interrogated by Walter White who is a detective. Walter is very angry and at one point is shouting so close to the other man's face that their noses briefly touch. At one point Walter inspects the man’s shin to discover there are four monster energy drinks* tied to it. He then kicks each one so they all leak their contents.


The view jumps to Danielle in her car, who is worrying about feeling a ‘shock’ in her molars.

Dream 2

I’m in a basement-like setting that feels like the H-town house. The LB’s and their friends are there. Sue comes in with a plate of bacon offering it to each one of the people there and each person declines.

She looked sad that nobody wanted any so I took one. She was surprised I wanted one after turning it down, I made some excuse as to why I changed my mind.

The bacon was awful, it was undercooked and cold.

I didn’t really feel great about this location or the people I was around, I didn’t want to be here.

I'm on their porch outside now and there's a damp outline of a turtle on it. It's beautiful out, it's very warm and sunny. I see older Paul laying over a small kid-pool reaching in it and some other people standing around it.

There's the turtle from the damp porch outline in the pool, it's pretty large! I had the feeling they just got it recently and unfortunately it died. I felt sad for the poor turtle.

They were trying to figure out if the water was not the right temperature or what could have caused it to die. The pool was right beside some old shed and then some people inside the shed called out ‘there’s mold in the shed!’ - to which the group of people present let out a collective ‘Ahhh..’ declaring that was the cause of death, case closed.

Dream 3

I'm in the passenger seat of James's car and he’s speeding trying to make it through a traffic light before it turns red but he was a little late. We made it through but it was solid red for a second.

He’s still speeding after the traffic lights and we’re in a very busy city, I’m feeling anxious about this and tell him to slow down.

Behind us a sort of police-firetruck-hybrid appeared and was flashing its lights with its sirens on. James tried switching lanes to let it pass, I kind of laughed to myself over the idea that he didn't think they were trying to pull him over.

They switch lanes as well and stay close behind us. James pulls over. I'm worried that there might be drugs or something in the car and I spot a quarter of a pill which I hide beneath the middle of the car seat.

The cops are talking with us and one points out that our center console coin holder wasn't up to spec. I look and instead of a radio there's this large square metal device with lots of little compartments to hold all sorts of coins. Each compartment had a metal lid, though some were missing and others were bent and that's what the issue was.

I sort of absentmindedly said 'oh yeah, it's just they're so expensive to fix you know?' - idk why I answered as if it was my car. The cop agreed and said he'd get James's insurance to pay for it to be repaired.

At this point there was a drug sniffing dog on the scene, so I just grabbed the mystery pill and swallowed it.

One of the cops pointed out that we were next to a new 'Zit store'. I asked 'Zit store? ..like pimples?' and he said 'Yeah! Nobody believes me though'.

I am now zooming in on my location on Google maps on my phone and sure enough there's a small 'Zit store' wedged between two buildings nearby.

I mainly felt anxious and annoyed throughout this dream.


Dream 4 (fragment)

Some kid is in prison, he keeps getting into fights with the others there. He has to be moved to another location or something.

Dream 5

I'm driving at night in the middle of nowhere and being closely followed. I pull over into a grassy field and the other car does so as well. We get out of our cars and meet.

Two of the three people that got out of their car excitedly rushed up to me showing me a large bowl of gummy worms and other candy that they 'brought for me'. The third person was standing closely behind me, they were taller than me which felt weird . I had a really creepy feeling about this, I felt like my neck was about to be broken for some reason.

So I grabbed a huge ball of the gummy worms candy mix and shoved it in my mouth going 'mmmm!' with a thumbs up and a big gummy worm filled smile as I pivoted and backed up to see all three people clearly.

I then notice the pinkish clouds way in the distance have a distinct voxel look to them, like we're in Minecraft and they were 'built' with millions of cubes - it looked beautiful. I said 'Woah.. Did you guys make all of this?? (As in, the entire world we were in)' They all responded 'Yup!'


This dream had a sort of fun feeling, besides the person that was behind me for that moment.






* I bet this is from reading one of the shirecats dreams days ago that I commented on about the monster energy drinks.

I had so many dreams involving like, cops or prison or murderers last night - what the heck! After receiving advice from a friend, I tried to focus more on recalling more about how I felt in these dreams. Turns out I kind of neglect that so I think it will be helpful!

Dream 1

I'm walking around a mall super sarcastically, like with my arms way out to the side like I'm muscular and jacked and taking huge exaggerated strides. I'm also wearing sunglasses but the arms that would rest on my ears are several inches higher, giving my sunglasses a huge tilt. I have shorts on that are unbuttoned and unzipped so I had to walk with my legs very far apart so that they don't fall off.


I strut into a clothing store and stand in front of a full body mirror by a cashier. I nod at myself in the mirror and just stand frozen in an awkward pose for far too long then look at the cashier and say "hell yeah!" Then I leave the store.

I'm now leaving the mall, walking and acting more normal now. I am expecting to see James and his friend Margot here somewhere.

I leave the mall and run into James and Margot on the way out but I make some excuse as to why I can't hang out and walk past them, mainly because of how i'm dressed.

I look for my car but then notice the whole parking lot is flooded with like 5ft of water, all the cars must've been shorter than that because there wasn't a single one to be seen. I wait and it all drains away eventually.

I spot my car which appears to be a 70s or 80s stingray Corvette. I try to start it but no luck, maybe the water fried it.

The parking lot is slanted a bit so I put the car in neutral and start coasting on the slight slant. After coasting for a bit I try to start it again but it still fails. I have to maneuver around some other guys with the same issue trying to start their stopped car, but I come to a stop.

The guys take a look at my car and point out that it's actually idling, one of the times I tried to start it was successful and I had not noticed. I test the gas and some water shoots out of the tailpipe.

Dream 2

I'm at the PA house, I think Inka is moving in. Tami and I check out the basement and we're keeping the lights on for some potted plants growing down there.

At one point I'm fixing my hair in a mirror and I make some crazy expressions jokingly and am a little freaked out that I don't look quite myself.

Dream 3

Jim Carrey is buying some $3mil sports car. He acknowledges that he has had 50m in his bank and that he could've bought one whenever he wanted to, but 'actually doing it is exciting!'

Dream 1

I was standing in the middle of a 4 way intersection of a neighborhood with a bunch of firefighters and other people. I was volunteering to help people out who just had their homes on fire (that were already extinguished).


One of the firefighters let me know I was assigned to one of the homes on the corner of the four way so I started walking over to it. When I went towards the front door the firefighter called out and mentioned I should use the blue door on the side.

So I walked around the house, looking for the fire damage as I did but didn’t see any. I went inside and there was a man frantically tossing items around the house in a garbage bag. The main living room was carpeted.

He looked really stressed and worried and I told him I heard there was a fire in the area and that I was here to give him a hand if he wanted. The man was very flustered and looked like he was deciding to introduce himself or keep throwing stuff in his bag. I said that it’s okay to take a moment to gather his thoughts.

He thanked me and kept doing what he was doing before but was now talking to me and filling me in on his life. Something happened between him and his boyfriend and his boyfriend left and he was really distressed over it.

I was helping clean up the place and was confused that there wasn’t any fire damage anywhere. Then his boyfriend came in through the side door and started arguing with the guy cleaning, he also let a goat into the house through the side door as well.


Dream 2

I’m driving on the middle lane of a 3 lane highway as part of a convoy of maybe 7 cars. All 6 of the other cars were in front of me and we were driving very close together. I noticed in my rear view mirror that a cop was coming up from behind us, pretty far back

This caused the leader of the convoy to communicate to the rest of us to come to a complete stop on the highway. His logic was that we were speeding and that we were turning ourselves in before we got pulled over, though we were only driving about 50 to 65 km/h.

The cop had to drive around us since we were stopped now, then he slowly drove over to the side of the road and put his lights on.

Dream 3 (fragment)

I’m in the PA house and I’m fighting someone. I can’t remember exactly what happened but we kept on having these really fun battles through the house and outside in my neighbors yard. At one point I had some gun that only had one shot and it connected which was satisfying. I felt like I was trying to escape.
Dream 4 (fragment)

I’m talking to two women that are sitting together in a hanging egg chair, one of them is pokemaine. We were having some funny convos but this dream is really fuzzy.

I have a bunch of Mirtazapine that I got when I had an injury and it was difficult to go to sleep. But I never used it because I was kind of spooked by some of the things I read about it. Turns out there's a lot of reports of it causing intense dreams.

So two days ago I gave it a shot, I took about 3.5mg - this was not last night, but the night before. I felt like I was going into REM really fast, I kept getting zapped back awake from things that were happening in my micro dreams but eventually got to sleep and had a very dreamless sleep.

Even though I slept long, the next day I felt like part of my mind didn't sleep at all. As the day went on I got slightly groggier until I was so tired at 9PM, way earlier than I would normally feel tired. So I went to bed, this night I didn't take anything.

And man, I must have had no REM sleep the night prior because I was just non stop dreaming last night. I would wake up just to turn to my other side in the night and then go right back into the same dream - this happened many times.

Even though it got to the point where I knew I would be entering right back into my dreams during these points in the night, I couldn't manage to become lucid - it was strange but really fun.

Dream 1

In a WoW-like universe. My friend and I are a sort of night elf/na'vi race. Our skin is a dark blue and our long hair is bright red as it's constantly dripping with blood, apparently that's how it's naturally supposed to be. We're riding in horse-like creatures. We are exploring a vast desolate landscape that is punctuated with charred trees here and there. We are being followed by an albino humanoid creature that is definitely hostile.


Dream 2

I'm swimming down a river with a friend in an inner tube that I'm pushing along from the back. There are lots of other people swimming as well. When we get to the end of the river I dive underwater and into what looks like a tunnel. Upon entering I see that it's a dead end, as I turn around a metal grate gate drops down on the opening and I'm trapped inside. Other people that were swimming notice this and begin shouting to some sort of park operator that someone is stuck. The gate opens and I swim out back to the surface, I was only trapped for a few seconds but it was pretty freaky!


Dream 3 (Fragment)

I'm playing WoW and someone has a name that is very similar to an old friend I had. I ask them if they are who I think they are. The player pretends to not know what I'm talking about but whispers to me confirming they are my old friend.