Lucid-Wannabe's Dream Journal

I have a bunch of Mirtazapine that I got when I had an injury and it was difficult to go to sleep. But I never used it because I was kind of spooked by some of the things I read about it. Turns out there's a lot of reports of it causing intense dreams.

So two days ago I gave it a shot, I took about 3.5mg - this was not last night, but the night before. I felt like I was going into REM really fast, I kept getting zapped back awake from things that were happening in my micro dreams but eventually got to sleep and had a very dreamless sleep.

Even though I slept long, the next day I felt like part of my mind didn't sleep at all. As the day went on I got slightly groggier until I was so tired at 9PM, way earlier than I would normally feel tired. So I went to bed, this night I didn't take anything.

And man, I must have had no REM sleep the night prior because I was just non stop dreaming last night. I would wake up just to turn to my other side in the night and then go right back into the same dream - this happened many times.

Even though it got to the point where I knew I would be entering right back into my dreams during these points in the night, I couldn't manage to become lucid - it was strange but really fun.

Dream 1

In a WoW-like universe. My friend and I are a sort of night elf/na'vi race. Our skin is a dark blue and our long hair is bright red as it's constantly dripping with blood, apparently that's how it's naturally supposed to be. We're riding in horse-like creatures. We are exploring a vast desolate landscape that is punctuated with charred trees here and there. We are being followed by an albino humanoid creature that is definitely hostile.


Dream 2

I'm swimming down a river with a friend in an inner tube that I'm pushing along from the back. There are lots of other people swimming as well. When we get to the end of the river I dive underwater and into what looks like a tunnel. Upon entering I see that it's a dead end, as I turn around a metal grate gate drops down on the opening and I'm trapped inside. Other people that were swimming notice this and begin shouting to some sort of park operator that someone is stuck. The gate opens and I swim out back to the surface, I was only trapped for a few seconds but it was pretty freaky!


Dream 3 (Fragment)

I'm playing WoW and someone has a name that is very similar to an old friend I had. I ask them if they are who I think they are. The player pretends to not know what I'm talking about but whispers to me confirming they are my old friend.

Dream 1

I’m a student in grade school. David is there and he’s wearing costumes. There is a boy who is dressed completely in a police uniform, his name tag says “Robert”. His dad ends up showing up wearing a police uniform as well, his name tag says “James”.

Dream 2

I meet a programmer by the beach. He’s describing problems he’s been having with certain ideas he wants to implement. I ask if he has tried applying machine learning to the issue as it would be a fairly easy fix. He ignores this and keeps talking about his issue.

Then James and I are walking along a cobblestone street with storefronts around us. He suddenly makes a mad dash into a store and runs to the back of the store past an ‘employees only’ sign, which prompts an employee to begin chasing him. He runs up a tall zig zagged metal staircase against the back wall of the stoor and vanishes into a higher floor.

I slowly walk into the store and see that there are glass display boxes waist high showcasing all sorts of retro gaming consoles. I stop by the N64 one and appreciate the familiar look of the console with a cartridge in it and it’s unmistakable controller.


Then I hear a voice and I turn around to see a man at the entrance of the store. I walk over to him and it’s the guy from the beach again. Now he’s holding some small black sphere that he’s been tasked to program the functionality for.

He again begins explaining troubles he’s had with his programs and I ask again if he’s tried throwing some machine learning at it - he again ignores this and keeps describing his issues.

Dream 3

I’m in a FPS like game with an ally. We go down a hallway and find some loot, two weapons. My ally checks out the gun she got and it was legendary and had amazing stats, mine was just a green uncommon gun and not so great in comparison.

We continue down this maze like hallway and an event triggers that turns my partner into an enemy. She whips around and locks her sights on me, clearly controlled by AI now. Since her gun was so much better she kills me and we both start at the beginning of the hallway/maze that we started at.

We begin again and get to the loot part, she again gets a better gun. I say to her that maybe we should swap weapons so that when it comes to the part where I have to kill her we can get past it.

She seems to have no memory of the last run and doesn’t like this idea of being killed, so she keeps her gun. We get to the part where she is forced to turn hostile and I unload my rounds at point blank getting all head shots but it wasn’t enough and she took me down.

We were still having fun regardless though.

Dream 4 (fragment)

I’m closely inspecting tea cups with interesting art on them. The art isn’t painted on but rather molded into 3D designs.

The artist shows me one where a character is wrapping its arms around the cup but they don’t quite meet at the back of the cup.

I've woken up two nights now after four and a half hours of sleep anticipating to take a galantamine and return to sleep, but I've been cancelling after my alarm goes off.

Dream 1

A man and a woman are going through a boutique store after hours. It’s night time and dark in the store. It seems that the items are all made in the style of wicker baskets. They seem to be trying to find their way out.

Along the way the woman spots a wheelchair made in the same style and wants to steal it. As they leave the front of the store the man spots a camera above the door and tells the woman to hold on as he begins to throw his coat over it. But the woman went ahead anyway and turned around to look directly at the camera moments before he covered it.


Now it’s the next day and the town put out an announcement that they will not persecute whoever stole the wicker wheelchair, and urges whoever stole it to feel free to use it publicly.

Went to sleep around midnight and woke up at 4:30am for WBTB. I then drank some sage tea because I recently learned it's has some potential acetylcholine boosting effects. I attempted to go back to sleep at 5:20am but had some trouble, maybe from the sage.

Dream 1

I’m a guest at someone’s house, there’s a man and a woman that sort of represent Booky’s parents but also Zoë’s at the same time. Weppy may have been here too.

There’s about five of us, we go snowboarding/skiing. At the bottom of the run we arrive at the house of the hybrid parents.

It was a pretty nice cabin, but one part of it was not very furnished. This part felt like a hotel or something. There was one wall that was sort of unfinished.

On the unfinished wall there were five water fountains, the kind you would see at a school or something. They went from small to large except the largest one was only a foot off the ground and the smallest was mere inches from the ground. I pointed out how weird this was to someone.


Then we all went on a walk, there were two identical twin sisters walking in front of me.

Dream 2

Tami and I go to Penny’s and move some furniture around for some event we had planned to do there. Then when we leave Tami puts the furniture back but in a slightly different/better position than before. Penny is being really strange and mean towards Tami so I decide we’re going to leave.

When leaving outside there’s some sort of tour bus that we have to use to leave. When the door opens we see that there are only two seats left and Penny had Ryan tasked with blocking them so we couldn’t go.

Some sort of standoff ensues.

Had one of those nights where I just couldn't get to sleep. Then I was tossing and turning a lot, just total garbage sleep ughh! I was initially planning on a WBTB.

Dream 1

I’m in the kitchen of the PA house. Audrey is there and she’s about to head out, she’s adjusting her shorts over and over again. I ask her if she’s okay and she says “Tight shorts don’t really work well when you have a penis!” I just accepted the fact that she must’ve always had a penis and asked her if she was planning on doing some sort of surgery at some point to remove it?

She says that she plans to someday, but it costs $800. I was shocked that something like that would cost so little and was contemplating giving her the money right there.

Dream 2 (fragment)

This one is fuzzy, I was on some sort of adventure with Rachel. She was very confident about our every move and we were going to lots of places.

WBTB attempt:
I went to sleep around midnight and then woke up at 4:30am. I went out to my livingroom and sat with the lights very dimmed as I worked on waking up my mind. I didn't move around much to keep my body from waking up too much. Went back to sleep at 5:00am - unfortunately no lucids but these following dreams were fairly bright.

Dream 1

I was walking by a bunch of very small stores side by side like a strip mall. Looking in through the windows I notice that they all seem to be mainly selling books, one store sold magazines.

The owner of the magazine store was walking with me and I was going to show her my store which was maybe 5 stores down from hers.

As we are walking I suddenly know that these stores have very cheap leases. I now begin to wonder if some of these stores are personal libraries of some people and not stores at all.

We reach the door of my store, there is a finger scanner I use to unlock the door. But then I notice there’s another scanner beneath it. The second scanner appears to unlock the door via a ‘jawprint scanner’ that a dog bites into with a small enclave going into the wall for a dog to stick its snout into to bite on for identification.

As I’m looking at this weird second scanner I notice there’s drool on it, so a dog (my dog?) must have used it to unlock the door recently.

My shop is also full of books, we end up having coffee at a small glass table out front of the shop. Before we went out I grabbed some paper towels to clean up the dog jaw scanner.

Dream 2

It’s night out and I’m a floating perspective coming down into a parking lot. My view is zooming into one of the many cars there which I am to understand is mine, it’s not the same as my waking life car.

A van hurriedly drives beside my car and someone gets out and crouches by the front bumper and does something then quickly jumps back into the van, the person was dressed in black with a ski mask on.

There was an old man parked on the other side of my car, we were parked nose to nose. He seemed to be living out of his truck as it had all sorts of trinkets and really random items in it.

I’m no longer a floating perspective and I’m now looking at my bumper where the ski mask guy was. I can’t tell that anything was done to my car but I have the feeling that a RFID tag or something similar was applied to some part of my car in that area.

So I went over to the old guy in his truck to ask him if he may have seen what happened. He had a white scruffy beard and really well worn clothes, he had a beanie on his head.
I asked him if he saw what the guys did that pulled up a moment ago. He seemed really aloof and asked me to repeat myself a few times and sort of hinted at not seeing anything but it was hard getting any direct answers out of him.

He then gets a little more lucid and is proud to tell me that he has been scientifically tested and proven to be one of the least likely people to ‘say yes, to trying new things.’

Dream 1

I’m in a FPS video game. The map is huge and it feels like a world-war scenario, sort of past mixed with modern. The dream rapidly goes from feeling like a video game to feeling like real life.

I have some sort of old school assault rifle, a sniper rifle and various grenades attached to my belt.

I work on my positioning carefully and pick off enemy soldiers at range. I switch between the short range and long range rifles often. Eventually I reach 15 kills.

My assault rifle is out of ammo and the sniper rifle takes a long time to load each bullet. My position is known and I’m inside of a small structure now, there are three viking-cannibal enemies coming for me with hatchets.


I frantically search myself for a sort of tank pipe bomb that I saw on my belt earlier as I run towards the corner they will be coming around from. I figure I could at least reach 18 kills if I take them out when they come around the corner, the building would be too small for me to survive the explosion no matter where I set it off.

The enemies pour around the corner right as I reach it, I hurl the explosive down at our feet and it goes off.

Dream 2 (Fragment)

I'm dismantling a video card to see why it's temperatures have been so high. It has two very tiny fans inside and a button between them to adjust how much power they use for faster speeds. It's very dusty in there too.

Dream 3 (Fragment)

I'm talking to someone when I realize I'm wearing a pink hat.

I was planning on a WBTB tonight but ended up cancelling when I got to sleep too late.

Dream 1

I'm in my childhood home in Pennsylvania. I look out the bedroom window to see that Zoë just parked in the driveway and some other dark Honda or Hyundai parks there as well.

The interior of the house doesn’t resemble the house I know at all. Zoë enters the room and is explaining to Tami and me about how her car has been weird recently. She says all the doors can open fine but if she opens the trunk while she's dreaming it wakes her up.

A sort of cutscene shows me testing out opening the trunk and it sends me to France. Then I'm at the car again and I close the trunk and re-open it again. Now I see these magnetic balls repelling each other repeatedly.


Now I'm back in the room with Zoë and Tami, I tell Zoe that when I open the trunk of her car it doesn't wake me up from my dreams, rather it causes weird things to happen. We’re perplexed by this. (How didn’t I get lucid here!)

Dream 2 (Fragment)

I'm playing with this putty-like-material. I learn that if I drag it repeatedly across the same spot on a fabric that it cuts through it. I think it's strongly acidic. I cut some different fabrics with it. The lines from the cuts are very clean.

Dream 1

I'm at some sort of fundraising event. There is a large organization of people involved in the fundraiser outside in a grassy field, we are are splitting up to raise cash in a variety of ways and then will reconvene. Once we meet back up it will be up to each person/group if they want to keep what they raised or donate it to a cause.

As I'm going around, it's not clear how I'm raising money but the cash I have keeps on growing from whatever activities I'm doing. I keep running into different women that are all really flirty. I realize that I'm in some sort of movie where in the end I'll have to choose one of these women to be with or something to that extent.

At one point a lady was walking by in tears, I sat down with her on fold out chairs in the grassy area the group met at the beginning and asked what was going on. She explains that she just got a call that her apartment bunt down. As I was consoling her about this she takes out a cigarette and starts smoking. I take a mental note that I don't want to be with her in the end because of the smoking aspect.


Then I'm with a group of people and one lady was being really chatty with me. We're getting along pretty well and another lady says something like "Oh it's too bad she's taken, she has a daughter you know" to which the lady I was speaking with replied "Yes I have a daughter but I"M SINGLE, and looking - thank you very much".

A bunch of these cringy situations keep on happening. At one point I'm suddenly jumping from rooftop to rooftop in some very dry, sunny, arid arabic kind of town. I look over the edge of my building to see another one down below, it's shaped like a slice of pizza but it's so very narrow. It was only large enough to have windows and doors on it's sides but it was so incredibly narrow that nobody could possibly be living in it. I stared at it for a bit thinking about how strange it was.

Dream 1

I am levitating and fly towards a massive wine glass shaped building. I enter an opened window.

It seems the room I entered is a doctor's office of sorts. I get the I formation that I am in a country that is cut off from the rest of the world, one that operates under a dictatorship and that I am part of a resistance group.

With this new info in mind, I decide that gathering medical supplies would be a good idea.

I look around, opening closets and cupboards and grab a handful of some supplies.

I go back to the window and fly out of the building.

Dream 1

I’m in a store with Tami, I’m describing something to her but I’m also playing with a plant that has white fuzz on it. As I begin picking it off I realize it’s a cotton plant. The texture and colors look really cool.

She mentions something about the activity of playing with the plant either helps certain people describe what they’re saying better, or to help with listening - not sure which.


Dream 2

James and I have some sort of new hobby where we go into the woods and find tobacco type leaves and then make a fire and burn them in it. We seem to have been using a library to learn about this and we return to it to get some more information on techniques.

The library has massively high vaulted ceilings and it is a very large place with large marble pillars going up into the darkness. It’s sort of an eerie place.

An old astute woman pops up and begins asking us questions about what we’re looking for or what we’ve been up to. James, halfway up a ladder reaching for a book - looks at me and shakes his head as if we shouldn’t speak to the woman. He comes down and pulls me to the side and says we shouldn’t tell her anything, she wants to rip off our process (lol).

I kind of brush that off and fill the woman in on what we’re doing. She realized what James was worried about and then asks us kind of sarcastically “Oh, and where did you learn to do something like that?” - to which I respond “Here”

Dream 1

I see someone pulled up to a McDonalds ordering window in their car. Their window is down, and the person that is supposed to be inside the store taking the order is instead sitting on the person’s car door - the window is all the way down so he’s sort of half sitting at the bottom of the window.

As the customer is telling him his order, their faces get really close and the eye contact is very direct. The man in the car says something he wants, the McDonalds guy asks if he wants anything else. It goes back and forth a bit and the employee ends up backing up a bit and is punching the order into a device on his wrist.

When the man in the car is finished ordering they both turn to the order display screen to confirm everything is correct.

A narrator begins saying how this McDonalds employee is the most dedicated employee McDonalds has. How he’s been blowing up in the news recently because he’s so passionate about his job that he always goes right up to the people in the drive-thru to take their orders face to face (A view appears briefly of him standing out in the rain, enthusiastically taking someone's order by the drive-thru speaker/billboard).

Now he’s speaking with another customer at a drive thru, but he’s offering advice on the Mac Ultra Workstation, and how if you were you purchase a refurbished unit you should double check the GPU to make sure it’s okay because these machines are actually prone to infections - yes he mentions that they are part flesh part machine.

There’s a news segment on this part as well, that he’s offering tech advice.

A first person view from the employee's perspective shows him opening up a letter from the current CEO of McDonalds saying that he deserves a raise for what he’s doing.

Time jumps forward, it’s 4 years later and he’s slightly burnt out now working at a different place. He recalls his time at McDonalds and that he never did get that raise.

I think his name was Micheal.

(This is from yesterday, 12/26/2023)

Dream 1

I’m sitting on a beach with a towel in front of me spread out on the ground. On it I have an assortment of silverware organized with forks, spoons and butter knives - set beside each other as if they were in a silverware drawer. I also have some painkillers such as Tylenol and Aleve in their bottles beneath the silverware.



Tyler is jogging by me and pauses to let me know that he wants to purchase all of the silverware at $900 a piece and to hold it for him when he finishes his jog.


Dream 2


I’m on a small boat with some other people as well, it ended up getting flooded and we needed to return to shore to empty the water from it. As we’re backing into the shore I notice that we are actually backing up in a large pickup truck and the boat is in the bed of the truck (even though the boat was much larger than this previously)

Under the boat on the bed of the truck is a large plastic sheet with little pouches. A woman gives me a piece of lingerie that needs to go into one of the pouches for some reason so I put it into the requested one.


Dream 3

I’m on a boat again and some of the people there include two women that have begun a relationship and previous to this boat ride did not know each other. They were arguing and the darker haired lady wanted to break up. The lighter haired woman took a closed shell gift that was gifted to her previously by the other woman and broke it on the ground - there were some tiny shell fragments inside it that smelled like pine and she said “So this didn’t even actually smell like pine after all huh?” The darker woman responded explaining how the smell of pine is the combination of many micro-organisms working together and that neither the pine tree nor this shell can completely own the smell of pine.

After this the darker haired woman was hitting on me.


Dream 4

Jesse, James and Rohan are running across little skyscrapers - almost a post apocalyptic sort of setting where buildings are hap-hazardly stacked on other buildings. Half way down the building they are standing on there is a narrow boat jutting out of it. Jesse looks quite old with a long white beard.

Jesse jumps from the top of the building, gains a lot of speed while in free fall and then lands violently on the boat.

It was hard to see what happened when he landed as I was on top of another building quite far away, but I now have access to video footage that was tracking him as he landed, it was zoomed in and in extremely-slow motion.

I scrub the video to the point of impact, I watch him slowly begin his landing on the boat and then his feet land and the force of him stopping so hard begins to pull all of his skin downward fighting against his skeleton which came to a complete stop. The skin on the top of his head splits open and his skin slides off his entire body revealing another version of Jesse underneath from 20 years ago or so - the one I am more familiar with.

James and Rohan on the other hand were still standing at the spot Jesse jumped from in disbelief, James found an alternate path to get down to the boat and Rohan followed.


Dream 5

I’m sitting at a table with a bunch of google next/alexa style devices with Tyler and his family. We’re talking about ChatGPT and notice that one of these devices uses ChatGPT. I talk about having a different model of one of these devices.

One of the girls is talking about just how much she uses ChatGPT. I then mention how going back to one of these normal AI assistants is pretty bad after getting used to ChatGPT.


Dream 6

A lady in her 40’s or 50’s on the lower deck of a boat is unhappy about aging. She speaks about how she wonders if her face will generally look the same from now on and mentions that her co-workers have been complimenting her face recently.

She seems overall unhappy with herself and generally sad. Her husband stands nearby but doesn’t say anything. They remind me of Rose/Rich.


Dream 7 (fragment)

I’m trapped beneath a boat underwater. I seem to be pushed against the hull of the boat, maybe because it was accelerating quickly and I was closer to the nose of it.

I drag my fingernail along the hull and notice it’s waxy. It’s very firm, but it comes across as a high tension, inflated stiff object rather than a wooden or metal hull - even though in appearance it looks like some typical boat material.

I was pretty tired around 2:00pm after a shower, getting ready to go to a family Christmas gathering. So I decided to lay down and just rest a bit with my eyes closed.

While I was resting I realized that my eyes are almost always moving even as my eyelids are shut. Even when trying to keep them relatively still they make little micro-movements as I'm thinking about different things.

So I try to make them completely still, which turns out is very difficult. Even once I got them feeling quite locked down, and it feels like they aren't having any micro-movements - I can tell there's still a few now and then.

Eventually after about 25 minutes my eyes are actually extremely still, and by the time I got them this way they have a very distinct and strange feel to them.

Suddenly my arms start to vibrate, then my whole body. I recognize this as the feelings that happen when transitioning into a WILD. The blackness behind my eyes starts to expand and somehow get 'closer to my eyes'. I feel an insane rush of energy going through my body - causing intense tingling.

Unfortunately my heart rate shot up from some adrenaline - as I wasn't expecting this WILD to happen and was really excited that I may have discovered some new technique or something, as I've never gone from just laying down for around half an hour during the day and go straight into a lucid dream. My excitement peaked at about the time the dream state was starting to form and it completely collapsed.

Even though the unexpected WILD failed, I'm really interested in the possibility of this 'still eye' trick to initiate a quick-WILD. I'm definitely going to be exploring this more in the future.

Dream 1

I’m in some sort of church where with a group of maybe 20 or so people, we are starting a new religion as a joke. We have some bookmarks made with art on them depiction our religion and I hand them out to everyone hanging out there.


Dream 2

I’m with Tami and Penny. There is a little pile of unidentifiable food in front of us. It looks like it’s got a covering of general tso’s sauce on it. Penny is talking about how usually people serve this too sticky and wet and she was happy the way she made it.

I am eating it and feel like there’s something wire-y in the back of my throat, I reach in and pull out a pair of little spindly bird feet and toss it on the ground. It was pretty nasty.


Dream 3

I’m on a little island with Tami, the perspective and everything was like WoW. We’re fighting some mobs by the shore, we’re about level 23 or so and we’re alliance, I’m a human ret paladin.

Suddenly an orc druid in a hybrid cat/bear form appears and completely destroys us. Once I return to my corpse and revive I realize he took nearly all of my gear.


Dream 4

Costco has some crappy AI service where you insert an image and then it generates a new image. It doesn’t even use prompts or anything, you just put an image in and get a random transformation back with no choice on how it's generated. Most of the image generations came back generally the same but glitchier than before. It was really slow and awful.

Then I realize that because of this they’re charging me $94 a month now.


Dream 5

No visuals, just the Gerudo Valley soundtrack from Zelda Ocarina of Time.