Ophelia's Book O' Fun II

This was fun. First I had a nonLD about finding some robin eggs. I brought them into the bedroom and showed them to Danny. He said he believed that they had been fertilized already. Sure enough, I looked at them and they had sticky stuff on the outside of the little pink shells. "EW!" I dropped one on the floor and it cracked slightly. I was so worried that I might have hurt a potential little baby bird inside so I picked it up. I was holding it in my right hand, when I suddenly seemed to be lying down. I "fell asleep" in the dream, holding the slimy little egg, then had a false awakening:

I "woke up" or so I had thought, and was immediately aware that a slimy egg was in my hand. But I knew that finding the egg and dropping it had been a dream, because it was a house I didn't recognize, and now I was in my real room. How was I still holding this egg? LUCID!! Now it felt like a jello egg, and I let it kinda "sploop!" out of my hands, and I got out of the bed. I recalled the elevator totm because I've been talking about it for days. I've been thinking alot lately about the power of expectation, and have come to some conclusions about it, and how I've found a mechanism that helps it to work better. I'll have to post about that sometime. Anyway, I opened my bedroom door, and as I did, I told myself, "Now that I'm in that hotel, I just need to find the elevator that's just down this hallway." Sure enough, as soon as I opened the door, a hotel hallway stretched out before me. I walked down it a bit, thinking to myself, "The elevator is right about here." On my right was the door to a room, but to my left was an elevator! "I'm going to hit the down button." And as I approached the doors to the elevator, a simple up arrow and a down arrow button appeared. I hit the down arrow and the doors opened right away. It looked like a normal elevator: wood floor, carpeted walls and a metal bar that went 3 quarters around mid height. But when I looked at the back wall of the elevator, the left part looked like it opened up into another elevator. Kinda like twin elevators, with a partial partition. When I got the the partition, I realized immediately that it was in fact a mirror, because I saw my reflection. Only it wasn't me, it was my stepdad! Wearing that same dumb blue and green plaid shirt and khaki pants lol. I screamed at first because it startled me, and jumped back. The reflection imitated me at the same time. I laughed so hard at the ridiculousness of it, that I started float-flying in the elevator, occasionally projected forward a bit by my own laughter as if each laugh acted as propulsion. So weird haha. Then I woke up.

Had another lucid after that where I pinched my own balls. I felt it as if I had pinched my inner thigh lol. So weird, again.

Most of what happened here was discussed in irc last night, so weird.

Anyway, I went to bed at 2am, and must have woken up around 5 because it was still dark. I was lying on my stomach, and felt the demon climb on my back. Been a while! Must have been that midnight ramen. I tried to move, but when I did, he'd growl (my fan, distorted) and my fingers would get all tingly where he was holding me down. I fell back into dreamless sleep, then woke up and it repeated. This time I thought about irc, and just rolled slowly off the edge of the bed and stood up. He was still in the bed, writhing and twisting up the covers. I just smiled and waved and said " bye bye now! " and he waved back lol.

I remembered the naked task but none of the others. So I dropped my pj bottoms and pulled my shirt off fast and was naked. Felt good! So I darted out the room down the hall and into a strange looking livingroom. Oh yeah , my sight was a little weir until I got into the well lit livingroom. Suddenly Danny appeared, looking at me and my nakedness like a hungry wolf. I screamed and ran in a circle, and tried to catch me when the phone rang. He actually left and went to the kitchen to answer it lol. I tried SO hard to remember the other tasks, but nothing. I noticed a piano similar to mine in the room, and thought of my personal goal to play something. There was no sheet music so I just started playing this simple sonata I had memorized from when I was a kid. It started out great! The. It wasn't long before I started making mistakes, and I was having to concentrate really hard. Felt like when I try to play after too much wine haha.

That's all I remember. I woke up and it was still dark. That is really early for me to WILD, and with very little sleep.

I woke up at 6am and couldn't get back to sleep until after 8am. I began to drift off to sleep and immediately started dreaming that I was standing in a room staring at a painting. I felt confused for a moment, then remembered I was just trying to get back to sleep. Yay dream! So I started walking and thought of the telekinesis task. I felt like my mouth and voice were paralyzed though. So much for the performance task. I tried to speak, and I could make noises but my mouth was locked shut. You know, like when you try to speak without opening your mouth? Really weird.

It wasn't long before I realized that my vision was beginning to get all washed out. Not a very stable lucid at all. So I just stood there for a moment, then this is weird: I felt another set of eyes open, and everything was stable and I could speak. I didn't do anything to 'stabilize' the dream, it was more like I needed to wait out some kind of transition phase. This isn't the first time it has happened to me during a DILD, but it's the first time that I had the understanding that I just need to do nothing and wait it out.

I'm skipping some stuff due to time, but there were a couple things with mirrors. Anyway I decided to lift a cell phone without touching it and I did it. First time for me. Then I started lifting people. One was my store manager and I lifted her, made her to horizontal, and spun her around and around and she was screaming the whole while haha.

Then I thought to try the performance task. Singing wouldn't be an issue but where was I going to get a band and an audience? I went outside and saw an amphitheater with a band at the center! I ran up to them and asked if they wanted to perform some Heart. One guy said sure. I wondered if I could 'lift' people from the horizon with telekinesis. I focused on the horizon and lifted my hands, and a row of maybe 10 people appeared and I dropped them into the audience seats. I did that maybe 3 more times. I started singing a Heart song but forgot how it went, and suddenly the band and I were performing some Barbara Streisand.

I'm running out if time gotta go to work. Ill post more later but I have to say that I got booed really bad for singing Streisand hahaha. I just laughed in the dream and decided to get really obnoxious and sang Magic from Xanadu. A fun dream for me.

This lucid was a really nice break from a month long dry spell. What began as a 5 hour long WBTB, ended up becoming quite an escapade.

I woke up at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep. Then I had to go to a 6am meeting at work. I went home and tried to go back to sleep before having to go BACK to work at 11am (my schedule sucks). I fell back to sleep probably about 8am. I started having a dream where I was in a house I didn't recognize, and some kid that wasn't my son was doing some homework on the dining room table. I suddenly became lucid because I remembered that I was just trying to get to sleep just moments before. This is a very common way that I DILD now. Anyway, I had been thinking of the performance and limerick tasks as I was trying to get to sleep, so I decided to bust out an aria from Mozart's Così fan tutte, "È amore un ladroncello." It was the first one to pop into my head. I only sang the first 4 bars then quit, because I didn't think the one boy really qualified as a whole audience. Also, he was barely reacting to my presence. So I decided to move on to the Limerick task. I started hearing the Popeye the Sailor Man melody (which has a limerick rhyme scheme and meter to it) in my head like I planned irl, and one of the Popeye-like garbage can limericks started happening. I remember the first 2 lines and the 5th one form right away, then I struggled with getting 3 and 4 to rhyme as well as fit the rest. I don't remember the trial and error precisely, but I remember feeling a little frantic because I didn't want to run out of time. It all probably took a minute at the most, I'm guessing, but here is the result:

There once was a man named Stan
Who lived in a garbage can
When he was in the mood
To fry up some food
He used the lid for a pan.

I woke up laughing at myself, and I can't recall for certain but I may have started laughing in the dream. What a goofy ass little poem. What followed was 3 more DILDs. They were very DEILD like in nature, because I would wake up and go back to sleep and start the dream in pretty much the same house, but it would take a few seconds for the awareness to kick in. So a DILD-chain? Weird. Seriously, leave it up to me to jumble everything up.

No lucid sex for nearly 5 weeks woke up something extra animal in me it seems. I fell right back to sleep, and I appeared in a bedroom in what seemed to be the same house. Again, I was bumbling around for a few seconds before remembering that I was just waking up from a lucid dream not seconds before. All I wanted to do was find an attractive DC and celebrate my TOTM success. I discovered a lady who was fairly tall, thin and tan, standing in one corner of the room. Not ordinarily what I go for, but I guess I DO go for it since my subC is the one that came up with her! She had long brown hair and I think she was pretty, but I never really looked at her face for long. I gotta break that habit. I started for her, and she ran lol. I took off after her, and as I ran past a mirror, I saw that I was female. I hoped that wouldn't mess things up. I cornered her in the opposite side of the bedroom, and she seemed to go a bit docile.

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I reached down to check if I was at least male in that respect, and I was. One of the few things that's guaranteed in my lucids. I pushed her down on the bed, and she fell on her back. I lifted her shirt up and tried to kiss her boobs, but she was really flat chested. This happens to me a lot, I don't know why. I went for her left nipple anyway, and started working on it. Her skin was ridiculously smooth, but she didn't react much. Anyway, it still turned me on too much and I woke up.

I fell back to sleep and had a similar lucid onset. Ended up in some bedroom in that same house, or a house, and got lucid seconds after. This time there was a blonde chick with glasses not 2 feet away from me. Before I could even think, I grabbed her arm and threw her on the bed. I didn't want to wake up too soon like the last time, plus I wanted to do more than just wham bam thank you ma'am. So I was more gentle with pushing this one on the bed. I got on top of her and started French kissing her. It was actually pretty nice, though I had to keep my eyes open. Anytime I try to close my eyes when I kiss in lucids, I end up losing the dream. Plus I don't miss as much this way. She reciprocated the kisses nicely, but her front teeth were kinda big and kept clashing with mine a bit lol. Kinda awkward. In a bit of a blur, I removed just enough of our clothes to start having sex, but I got too excited and woke up again.

I went into the 3rd and final lucid the same way. This time I appeared in a hallway of possibly the same house and became lucid when it dawned on me that I had just been chaining dreams. Now I wanted to really bump things up a notch. I decided that the next hot DC I found, I was going to try having sex up against the wall. I found a cute brunette guy in his 20s leaning against the wall, who acted clearly gay. I didn't waste a moment, but I was beginning to struggle with lucidity and removing my pants seemed to take forever.

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I finally managed nailing the guy up against the wall, but I gotta be honest, things felt a bit numb. Not the first time either. We stopped doing it against the wall, and resumed on the floor. I hoped I could get better traction/friction(?) this way. Anyway, still kinda numb feeling. I mean, I was turned on, but it felt like there weren't enough nerve endings in my thing. Or as if I had 5 condoms on lol. Then a weird thought occurred to me: I decided to touch my dick while we were doing it. I just put my right finger on the top of the shaft, right at the base. I guess I was hoping to feel a bit more friction this way. It totally worked, I could feel everything so much more! I guess because I incorporated tactile with everything else? I don't know, but I lasted about 10 glorious seconds before climaxing then waking up.

And it was just 9 o'clock! All that jazz happened within an hour. I went back to sleep and slept dreamlessly for another hour and felt awesome.

I had a long, miserable WBTB. I woke up at 5am and probably didn't get back to sleep until well after 8am. But I made the effort to keep my awareness, and incubate some TOTM possibilities. I decided during this time, that upon gaining lucidity, I would find a DC, and stick my leg out as he walked by, tripping him. That's about as basic as that one gets, but I thought it would be an easy one after such a long dry spell.

Anyway, I slipped into a coma like sleep finally, and had some nonlucids that I've already forgotten. At one point, I was having a nonlucid where I was holding a cat, and petting him, and he was purring, and all sweet. But every so often, I guess I was petting him wrong, and he'd go ape shit biting my hand. This cycled a few times when I realized that it was indeed happening in cycles, and I could kinda feel vibrations associated with the biting, like when I WILD or DEILD. I realized I was dreaming (YEAH!) and thought right away about finding a DC to trip. I was already in some house, but it was unfamiliar. My left eye wasn't working right, but I ignored it. I walked into the next room and saw a really beautiful African American woman. Great body, beautiful face and hair.. made me think right away of black Barbie. She was standing in a corner of what looked like a small, cluttered family room. I said "Come 'ere.." to her, with the idea that when she walked up to me, I'd stick out my leg and trip her. But she just shook her head and said "no." Stupid DCs... when will they learn that you're not supposed to tell us dreamers no. There was a long couch next to her and I willed her to flop down on it, and she did, landing on the couch on her stomach.

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I got on top of her and nailed her. I won't get into the nitty gritties here, but I will say that I'm shocked that I was able to finish without waking up, because it was pretty damn exciting. My eyesight was terrible, so I just went with feel alone. I remember making an effort to kiss and caress the skin on her back a lot, which I think helped me stay grounded. Toward the end, I was really moving and moaning, and I was super scared that real me was moving and making noises in the bed and how embarrassing that would have been!

Anyway, when I was done, I was thrilled to still be in the dream and lucid (THRILLED TO BE ALIIIIVE!!!!!!), so I made a move for an area of the room that had a window overlooking a grocery store. The window was like a portal with a preview haha, I love it. I phased through the window and entered the store from a second story height. My eye started working a lot better, and the store was really really vivid and colorful and clear. I love grocery stores in LDs, because they really are very colorful places with lots of neat stuff: colorful flowers, fruits and veggies; beautiful packages and cans of food, meat and fish and big displays with loud signs... basically a candy store for me, in dreams as well as real life. Anyway, before I could think up another task attempt, I woke up.

Best part about all this, is that I told Danny about it when I woke up, and he actually got turned on by it haha! There's only one guy in the world so freaky as to love a freak of nature such as me and I'm lucky I found him <3 Seriously, the amount of random crap he entertains me telling him, all this DV nonsense, podcasts that make no sense to him... must be all the good grub

I hate journaling from my phone, but I gotta get this dream down!

There was craziness before this part, but I have little time: I was in a nonlucid where I was a little girl in a blue dress, eating Cheetos and skipping through the aisles at a Dollar Store looking place. I dropped several Cheetos on the floor, and decided to go to where they kept the brooms so I could sweep up my mess. As I approached a broom, I recalled that I had WBTBed just moments before, trying for a lucid. Yeah! I thought "now what did I want to do?" But could not for the life of me think of doing a TOTM. So instead I just grabbed the broom and decided to fly around the store on it like a witch. I hopped on the broom and rose up a bit then landed. I thought "damn, you fly all the time in dreams without a broom, you can do this." So I imagined the feeling of flying on my own, and that the broom was really just a prop, and it worked! There were 3 large mirrors in the store, and I flew by them so I could see myself on the broom. I even tried side saddle lol! I was still wearing a blue dress, but now it was a long, formal blue satin gown. My hair was in a bun and I was wearing glasses, looking very much like the fairy godmother from Shrek, only taller and younger. I got off the broom and went to a tall mirror. I remember thinking how much lucid dreams are like being a witch or wizard. I decided to give my reflection a makeover. I slimmed my hands down my waist, trying to elongate my body to look more svelt. Then I created THIS SONG IN THE DREAM as I was parading around in front of the mirror. It sounded like something from a Disney movie. And the last line actually was from little mermaid, which is why is doesn't fit with the rest. But the first four lines totally came from me. I woke up right after and forced myself to remember it because it was so ridiculous!

I can make myself thinner and trimmer and slimmer,
Leaving only what makes me look niiiiiice,
I can remove all the pouches and slouches and gouches,
So that EVERYone always looks twiiiiiice.
I pull out what's inside and I serve it up fried,
God I love little fishes, don't you?

This is another one of my "ewww OMG" lucids, so proceed with caution.

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I drifted off into mindless sleep after a bunch of WBTBs, after we lost power early this morning irl. I suddenly was aware at the start of a dream. It all happened kinda fast, and I thought at first I had just woken up because I was just lying on my stomach in my bed in the dark. But not 1 second later I heard a voice telling me to "go ahead and have sex with her." Sure enough I could feel the form of a naked woman beneath me, and her arms were above her head, tied to idk what (since my bed doesn't have bed posts). I remember that most of these next few moments were pretty much all feeling, an no seeing, since it was almost completely dark. You know how your mind forms a picture of something that you feel when your eyes are closed or when it's really dark? That's what it was like. Really cool, because I feel like I wasn't so distracted visually, which tends to happen a lot in my sex LDs. Anyway, I was fully male at this point, and decided to go ahead and treat myself haha. The woman seemed to not want me to, and protested at first. Sorry babe, this is my dream. I had a little trouble at first getting it in. That happens to me sometimes, where it kinda goes limp in places, then gets a little bendy while trying to go all the way in lol. I need to remember to try lucid Viagra one time and see what happens. I didn't give up, and finally started banging her. She stopped protesting at this point, and this is my favorite part: Since I wasn't encumbered by the scene visually, all my lucid energy and focus went to just feeling. And hell, the scene was already set up for me at the start anyway, so I just got to go with the flow. So I started kissing her skin: her neck, shoulders, arms. I massaged her boobs and they felt freaking real. Her skin was ridiculously soft, and I've said this before in my DJ: no wonder you guys go bonkers for chicks. I kissed her chest, all the while still having sex with her, and stopped at her right breast. I sucked on the part where her nipple should have been, but there wasn't one. Then suddenly a pencil-eraser-sized nipple just kind popped into place, which drove me almost to the edge, but then I woke up.

I woke up feeling pretty good after that one!

I was non lucid, shopping around with my mom, and Brian from work. He sold 2 of his lamps that I wanted to a member on DV in the dream, on a side note. Anyway, in the car on the way back from the store, a dream sign that I can't freaking recall, was kinda tickling my mind. I remember looking out the car window thinking about it, wondering if I was lucid. The dream was so boring and uninteresting at this point, that first I convinced myself that it was real life. Then something snapped in my brain and I realized I WAS in fact dreaming. Wish I could remember what it was.

Anyway, I asked mom to slow down the car. It took a while for her to stop, which annoyed me. I even closed my eyes for some reason. I felt the car stop, then I opened my eyes and we were parked in a garage of some house. I got out and went inside, and mom and Brian followed me. All 3 of us were in the livingroom, which only had a large mirror and curtains, and wasn't very well lit. Told you I wanted those lamps BRIAN. I was frantically trying to remember the basic tasks, but I couldn't. I asked mom and Brian, they shrugged. I even pondered for a moment if I would have luck getting on DV on my phone in a lucid lol. But no use, the only task I could remember was the one I didn't really want to do: take out my heart and give it to a DC. I stood in front of the mirror, and I was wearing a red, lowcut shirt. I just stuck my thumb and first 2 fingers into the flesh just above my heart, and pushed. I didn't actually break the skin, just my fingers were phasing through the layers of skin, fat, muscle and bone, just above my left boob. It didn't hurt and there was no blood (which is customary in these types of LDs for me). After a few inches, I felt a medium sized organ, which felt appropriately shaped like a human heart. It was warm, and gooey, and suspended in warm goo. I gently wrapped my thumb and fingers around it, and slowly pulled it out of my chest. There was a long slit in my chest left behind, but again, no blood. I went to hand it to my mom, but only Brian was still there. When I went to hand it to him, he didn't want to have anything to do with it lol. He actually looked panicked. I just said "Hey man, this is just for a task. Just hold it for a second and then give it back if you want." I thought I would just spend the rest of the lucid trying to put it back in my chest. So he held it for one second and gave it right back. I don't think he even looked at it. I looked back to the mirror, and pushed my heart back into the crevice that was left behind. And that was about it. I remember feeling accomplished after that, then I woke up maybe 2 seconds later.

Later on I had a non lucid where I explained to my son what I had done. I went through the whole thing again, but with him instead of Brian. Even took my heart out again, to demonstrate. It didn't occur to me once that this might be a dream. It was a very well made retelling of the story haha.

So this was from a few nights ago so I don't even remember when I got lucid, only that it was a DILD. I only recall thinking about the bonus task from January and not really wanting to do it. So I SOMEHOW came to the conclusion that the basic task was to "look at myself in a mirror or reflective surface, see my reflection, then cause the mirror to crack." Lol WHERE did I get that???

Anyway, I was in something resembling the Plaza of the Americas in Downtown Dallas, and I thought, "Hey! I can use the ice rink as a reflective surface!" I was up way too high to get to the ice, and thought about jumping over the rail, but didn't want to feel pain if I cracked on the ice. I was feeling incredibly lucid, despite my TOTM memory blunder, and saw a way to round the corner of the rink that would put me level with the ice, and an opening to the rink was there. So I ran to it, and entered the rink.

I noticed that there were ice hockey players practicing at the time, and they were so rough on the ice, that somehow the ice cracked in sheets and sunk mere inches below freezing water, right when I was trying to get to it to see my reflection. I had a moment of doubt about seeing my reflection on ice rink ice since it's opaque, plus the fact that it was now a bit under water. I plowed forward. I crouched down on the slowly submerging ice, looked down, and sure enough, I saw my reflection on a chunk of ice a few inches below the water. I looked at my face, willing the ice to crack, and it immediately split down the center with a crack!

Today, I recall nothing after that moment.

Although not in lucid form this time. I've been having bouts of insomnia this week, so last night when I accidentally awoke during the Witching Hour, I decided to try to WILD, recalling what CL and I had discussed in the podcast last night about getting back to sleep successfully after a WBTB. I fell right back to sleep, and proceeded to miss some pretty big signs in this Post Zombie Apacolyptic dream:

I was suddenly standing in an alley in a residential area, with no memory of who I was. I instantly thought to myself "Ok, try to remember where you just were, and where you were headed.." (per the RC solution to help with the "jump cut" problem we discussed in the podcast last night ). I had no clue who I was or where I was, but pretty soon I noticed that there weren't any people anywhere. And things looked pretty trashed. Like when the scavengers have finished raiding houses after some kind of mayhem. "Zombie Apocalypse" popped in my head, and I knew it was the truth. I just started skipping through the alley and noticed that I had unusual strength. I could skip several feet in the air, and could go quite fast. (Really, Ophelia? Ffs.) it was a bright warm day, and I remember feeling really thirsty. I had a water bottle on me with maybe 2 sips left. I needed more. I kept skipping along and ended up behind a commercial building of some sort. I noticed a big cooler full of ice and cold water bottles! It made me thing there must be live people close, since the ice looked fresh. But as I went for the water, I heard a loud machine come up behind me. It was a medium sized, remote operated tank that I knew had been designed to wipe out zombies. One if the barrels turned and pointed straight at me. I used my superhuman speed to dive behind the large cooler at light speed. I watched as the tank fired 3 clumsy shots around me, completely missing. Suddenly the machine shut down and I heard a woman's voice. She walked up to me and helped me up, giving me a. Little of water that I don't recall if I ever drank. She told me something about what was going on, but the only part of the conversation that I remember was the explanation as to why I couldn't remember who I was. I was a clone. Humans had been successfully able to clone some of us who had been bitten by zombies, before we turned. The original me was destroyed, and the result was a healthy clone that had superhuman strength. I asked her if she was a clone too and she said yes. No clones had any memories of their original lives. Crazy huh. Anyway she took me to this rigged up clinic where there was a lady doctor who was responsible for some of the cloning. I don't remember why we went there, but when I met the doctor I asked her if she was a clone too. She coughed up some blood into a handkerchief and said no. She had been bitten and didn't have much time left. Before I could ask her if she was going to save herself by cloning herself, I woke up.

I gotta say, even though this dream was nonlucid and I missed some big signs, and I never even got to see a single zombie, I felt like freaking Alice from Resident Evil. I woke up feeling pretty bad ass

Seems like I only LD when trying to do a TOTM these days. Come on Ophelia, a little more motivation here!

Anyway, I had a TON of lengthy nonlucids last night/early morning. So many that I barely recalled my brief stint with the basic task of the month. I don't even recall how I got lucid, just a vague recollection of jumping high and being in an extremely odd building. I do remember being happy that I was lucid, and thought of the basic 1 task right away. I was alone in this huge building that was somewhat reminiscent of a super fancy embassy suites: lots of interesting hanging plants and water falls, and all the many levels of rooms in a circle, surrounding the structures. I thought that I might find a DC if I simply walked into one of the rooms, expecting someone. Sure enough, I could hear someone peeing in the bathroom. I walked in and peeked (I knew it was just a DC, so I didn't care that they saw me peeking while they peed). It was a black dude sitting on the toilet, peeing lol. I said "Hey what's your name?" He said "Pepsi." I asked him "What's your new year's resolution this year?" He said something garbled, and I swear it sounded like he said to drink more Coke haha. So I asked him again to repeat and it was still garbled. Which made me mad because I really wanted a clear answer. Stupid uncooperative DCs. Then suddenly, Parrish (from the seafood department at work), grabbed me by the shoulders and hustled me out of the bathroom, which led us outside somehow. He said "Pepsi just wants to drink more Coke." I said "Ok, well what's YOUR resolution then." He just got really sad looking and said, "To be more like you."

D'awwwwwwwwwwww.

It kinda made sense though because irl we've been talking about work stress, and the effects it's had on us. Work stressed him to the point of ulcers, he can only eat like 5 things I swear to god. And he's lost a TON of weight. Not the good kind of weight loss: he was really muscular before, and now he's super skin and bones, he just can't eat. Anyway, in the dream, I just began giving him therapy about how in life when thins don't go your way and you meet your goals and find out it's not what you really wanted, you gotta replace it with something else: other goals, or hobbies. This is just typical mid-life crisis type stuff.

Anyway, pretty sure I lost lucidity after that. I remember Danny eating dead birds and eggs off the ground because the concrete was hot enough to cook them to medium-well. I told him he really DOES belong in the damn jungle.

So I was having a nonlucid where I was flying, which got me lucid. So I tried to will myself to fly faster (since I usually fly slow because I get vertigo). I did a sort of superman pose, which made me feel more streamlined, so I was able to gain speed. I tried to remember a task of the month, but all I could remember was "change gender." Which is stupid. Because it's not. What happened there was I was somewhat recalling the conversation I had with CL and BrandonBoss in the TOTY thread about if it still counts to change gender for some of the fairytale tasks. Since for example, a straight guy might not want to make out with the Beast, as Beauty lol.

Anyway, in midflight I grow boyparts, and land at some random clinic. At this point I really really believe that the TOTM is to change gender and have sex. So I end up in one of the rooms, and the nurse practitioner is a petite woman in her 50's. She's attractive, so the age doesn't put me off. She asks me some medical questions while her back it turned to me, and I just strip down as fast as I can, answering her questions in as deep a male voice I can muster. But then I caught a glimpse of myself in a full length mirror in the room, and I see that I'm still female. It reaaaaaaaaaally bums me out for some reason, and I lose lucidity. Don't really remember much else.

I want to do something that I've been thinking of for a while. Sorta like a "stabilization" thing if you will, but really more of a reaffirmation of lucidity. Every few moments or so in a lucid dream, I want to have a "time out." I'm hoping this will engage my rational mind a bit more so I don't get too caught up in stupidity. I really feel like my lucids have been shaky at best lately.

It was about CL, and it wasn't bad, just really goofy and gooey and silly, so I don't wanna say.

I will say this though, because it's totally weird. In the same night, I had a subsequent nonld where I was trying to explain to a coworker about the dream. As I was reflecting on this dream memory, it wasn't CL anymore, it was Sign Bob from work. And instead of gooey it was a bit more perverted.

Interesting how you can reflect on previous dreams in another dream, and all the blah blah. I'm out of words. Long day.

So gab and I were chitchatting about Precog dreams the other day, and while I'm not a big believer of the idea that you can predict the future in dreams or waking life, this was nucking futs:

So those last two totm lucids I had contained a couple interesting elements. In the one with the animated snowman, I dreamed that it snowed, and the next morning it had snowed in real life. Mind you this is Texas we are talking about. Now, the coincidence could be attributed to me knowing that freezing weather was coming. But I can tell you that for a girl from the south, that dreaming about snow, then waking up and it looking outside the way it did in my dream from a few minutes before, was weeeeeird.

Ok in the same LD, my mom gave me some purple orchids per the basic totm. So, that same morning in real life after the lucids, Danny and I decided to walk to the store for some groceries (no way were we gonna drive on that ice). So when we got to the store, they just happened to be selling potted orchids. Never saw them before at this particular store mind you. Sure enough, one of the plants had the same, hyper color purple blooms as in my lucid. If I wasn't in enough of a daze from having a lucid about snow that manifested itself into reality the next morning, then those orchids did the trick.

I think what made this a extra weird for me was the fact that the dreams were LUCID. I've had non lucids before that had some elements that seemed to come true, and I just chalked up to coincidence. But the feeling from having TWO things in a lucid dream happen the next day in real life is just plain weeeeeeeeeird.

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In the first one, he just came to my birthday party. I remember giving him a big ol hug (the only kind of hug you CAN give to a beasty piece of meat like that), and saying something like "Nothing makes a little girl happier at her birthday party than when her favorite celebrity shows up!" He said "awwwwwww," and I remember my head was chest-level to him (he's 6'7" or something), and I could hear the "awwww" rumbling in his chest. THen he pushed me to the ground and we started making out. As the dream faded, so did he, until I was left holding a book. I don't remember anything about the book, except that when I opened it to the copyright page, all the way at the bottom, filling the tiny sketch of a dragon, it said "Ophelia Productions." I was left with the feeling that Kevin knew this, and he would find me again. Then I woke up.

Sure enough, I had another nonlucid where Danny and I went to Kevin's wedding. Now, in real life, Kevin Durand is on my celebrity card (you know, the only person you're allowed to cheat on your spouse with.. Danny's is Sandra Bullock). Anyway, throughout this whole dream, Kevin and I are walking around the church, prior to the wedding, holding hands. And I'm thinking to myself, "this is ok, because he's on my celebrity card." But then it starts to dawn on me that probably Kevin's wife to be isn't going to be so accepting lol. At one point we go check on her, and I shake her hand and meet her. This seems to have a fucked up effect on Kevin, because he gets really flustered and kinda sweaty, like he suddenly got a fever. So I took him to another room, fanned his face with a magazine, and wiped his sweaty hair from his brow. I asked him if he was alright, but he was pretty unresponsive. Too bad because he looked good in his tux, minus the jacket. He sat on a cardboard box full of fruit, and started playing with the fruit, when I woke up.


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