lucid

Well CL, you were right. We recorded an in depth podcast, and it was like major fodder for my lucid early this morning.

I woke up at 5:30 am when Danny had to go to work. I know that before that, I was tossing and turning for hours. Because I ate a bunch of cheese crackers right before bed. At some point after Danny went to work, I fell back to sleep. Then I had a brief FA, where I thought I had woken up, but to my left was Danny sleeping in the bed. But I knew that he'd already left for work, and Danny always sleeps on the right. He looked like Danny, and rolled over on top of me as if to give me a kiss, but by then I knew it wasn't him. In a split second I went from "Oh shit...." to this thing wailing all over me. My vocal chords were paralyzed, so I couldn't talk nice to it. I felt like something was holding my hands down, but the demon wasn't touching them. It was so weird. So I just started thinking happy thoughts. He started to kinda shrivel, and slide away from me, down the bed, in a sort of catatonic state. But I still couldn't move very well. So I started trying to move my arms, which I could a little, then ZOOoooommm, the creep was right back on top of me, screaming and looking all freaky. His head would shake back and forth really fast, like that Tool video (Sober). Before I thought to think happy thoughts again, I noticed that everytime he shook and convulsed like that, I could feel vibrations in my hands. So I just decided to close my dream eyes, and sure enough, my usual WILD vibrations swept over me. I opened my dream eyes again, an was alone in my room. I tried to slowly get out of bed, but I was really entangled in blankets this time. They were too heavy to get off me, then I woke up. Fortunately, the vibrations came right back, and I ended up in my room again. I got up, an went to the bedroom door, blankets all wrapped around my legs. But as soon as I left the room, they were gone. WHEW.

I knew that a personal goal of mine for a while (which is also one of August's TOTMs), was to create a portal to hell, and share a cold beer with the devil. I wondered that if, after all that DEILD Demon nonsense, if I would be too chicken to do it (since in the past, there was a TOTM where you had to go to purgatory and rescue a soul. But my portals kept going past purgatory and straight into hell, and I was too scared to go lol. That made me mad so I became determined to conquer this). Anyway, I didn't feel that scared. But as soon as I got to the living room, I noticed that the front door was open, and Danny was standing on the porch, looking as if he was waiting for the rain to stop before getting into his car to go to work. I questioned if I was dreaming or not afterall! I went outside and notice that it wasn't raining, just the sprinklers were on. I looked at him and we exchanged a few words, can't remember what. Then I noticed the skin on his nose was gone. Like a skeleton meets Michael Jackson kinda thing. Ah, ok lol. I went to give him a quick smooth before continuing with my task, but when I did, it was like kissing air. So creepy.

I went back into the house, and got on all fours on the floor. I had to hold my glasses in my hand, which kept falling of my face. I pressed my face into the floor, and it phased through. A huge, craggy tunnel formed, and went straight down for what looked like miles. It was illuminated with a fiery orange glow, and I could hear sounds from way deep, like, chains and heavy things hitting against rock. Just like the last 2 times. In waking life, I had already promised myself that the next time I found this tunnel to hell, I wouldn't be scared. I told myself, "It's ok Ophelia, nothing to be scared of. It's just a dream. And when you find the devil, he's going to be really nice and you're just going to share a beer together." I really felt ok with this. I began to descend, in a sort of rock-climbing fashion. But the dream environment didn't seem to match what I thought it should look like when you are climbing downward. Hard to explain, but it seemed like I wasn't really going anywhere. So I decided to just float down slowly. This worked, and I was slowly falling, not too fast, which would have woken me up. I probably SHOULD have looked down though, because I didn't really have a focal point. I should have looked down and visualized the bottom, because what ended up happening was, I just fell a while, and then woke up naturally.

If I had succeeded in this task, I wouldn't have counted it for myself, since I had a heads up on the task. Who knew that I would break a dry spell on the FIRST of the month lol.

All kinds of new stuff here. First of all, due to some recent family tragedies and issues, I was up until 5:30am. I woke up at 6am, then again at some point, then again at noon. This time when I went back to sleep, I was drifting off and watching some swirly images on the back of my eyelids. I thought to myself, "If I have a lucid dream now, I don't even want to attempt any goals or anything, just a hookup." I felt so mentally and emotionally exhausted, that I didn't even like the idea of any tasks. This has happened to me a few times, happen to any of y'all? Anyway, the swirly images took me straight into a dream then right back out, but the images now looked like my dog Daisy's nose lol. So I just focused on this snout, because somehow it anchored me right into a dream. NO vibrations.. a first for me.

But like my usual WILDs, I started out in my bed. For some reason I didn't try to take anything carefully or slowly like I usually do, I was just in kind of an IDC mode. I just sped to the bedroom door, almost tripping over the entangled blankets. I got to the door and I thought I about lost the dream, because my heart was racing, and I was breathing hard. I really felt it. Everything went kinda "Wom wom wom wom wom" for a moment, but I held on, and I didn't wake up after all. I left the room and went down the hall, already set on finding a hot chick (yes I'm aware I have a problem, or I'm half gay or idk what). The hall opened into the living room and there was an older woman and a young guy I think. I walked up to them (completely aware that I was female at this point btw, because I remember feeling a little awkward that I could see my long hair all strewn about my face, yet I was about to ask them something that a guy should be asking), and asked, "Hey, where's that hot chick who lives here?" [Notice I didn't ask "IF" there was a hot chick here, I asked straight up "WHERE" she was ] The older woman pointed to another room. It was a sunny room with a bay window. The first object I saw in the room was a baby grand piano, and a pretty lady was playing the piano. She was wearing a red turtleneck sweater, and a short skirt. She looked half hispanic, with a really nice layered hairdo. I walked up to her and she smiled at me, and I noticed one of her teeth was slightly crooked, but in a cute way. I just said, "hey baby" and grabbed her , lifted her off the piano bench and tried to kiss her. She didn't want to at first, but then I was like "Come onnnnnn" [my dream, my woman]. I kissed her and she let me this time. A few heated moments of frenching and kissing her neck (I like doing that, maybe it's because i like MY neck being kissed irl?? And I think as a guy, I can do it better than guys irl hahahaha, sorry boys). I transformed into a guy without even trying this time. There was a mirror on the wall by the piano, and I caught my reflection in the corner of my eye in between kisses (I keep my eyes open the whoooole time by the way, just in case of lost lucidity), and I had short hair like a guy. Plus I noticed something happening downstairs So predictable. I I pulled down my jeans and sat on the piano bench. I lifted her skirt and sat her on my lap. Then ... same ol' same ol'. Felt gooood though. No wonder men are such hornballs. At one point (and this is weird), I put my hands under her shirt while we were at it, but she didn't have a bra, and hardly any boobs. Which felt like I was in danger of getting turned off, so I just massaged her chest until boobs started to grow right under my hands. Really interesting sensation. We did it for maybe 15 seconds but I woke up just when I was about to finish. Oh well.

Didn't get her name either I'm such a jackass.

I was having a nonlucid about being in a college class. Suddenly all the students starting moving the desks in little rows in the back of the class, so that we could all see the professor's desk better? Something like that. Anyway, after all the seats were rearranged, it situated me right behind a pretty cute guy! Not what i typically go for; he was a little taller than me, light brown hair with one of those hats like ACDC wears. HE was wearing a red flannel plaid shirt, and had a little goatee. Very reminiscent of the guys back in my college days. he flashed me a couple flirtatious looks, before finally asking me out. I think I gave him my number, I seem to vaguely remember struggling with the number (irl I just got a new iphone and number, so it was hard to remember in the dream lol). After class we walked down the hall together, talking about I can't remember what. Our arms swung to our sides as we walked close, occasionally grazing a finger on the other's hand. I was tempted to just hold his hand, but I didn't want to give away so much before the first date.

That's all i remember from that dream. When I woke up, I was thinking about him. Then I went back into a nonlucid dream about college again. I was headed to a class, when I saw the same guy. I thought to myself "I Just had a dream about this guy!" Yay lucid. I was pretty elated that this DC found me again, and now that I knew it was a dream, I didn't have to play hard to get anymore. I went straight up to him and grabbed him by his stupid flannel collar and kissed him square on the lips. It felt gooooood but I closed my eyes and woke up.

It was time to get up anyway.

Man I had some crazy nonlucids the other night when I went to bed sick, but they'll have to wait. I gotta tell y'all about the interesting WILD I had this morning.

Went to bed at 1am, woke up at 7,8,9 and it was sooooo hot. But I kept trying and ended up WILDing probably at around 10:30am because I woke up from the WILD at about 11am.

Anyway, traditional roll over, vibrations, then WILD. I got up out of the bed, and my vision was bad, balance was off, and it was really really dark. One of my eyes was blind too, if that isn't insult to injury. [Doctor says to the patient: sorry, your vision is 20/1000, and that's in the eye that ISN'T blind, chuckle chuckle.] ANYway, I left the room and went down the hall, thinking of the hug task. The hall opened into a sunny little play room that doesn't exist irl. A 3-year old version of my son Chris was playing on the floor with some colorful blocks. Perfect! [A little side note about 3-year old Chris: that was the age he was when we had to go to a shelter, and he had regressed somewhat during all the turmoil. Point is, it was during a crappy time for me too, so I feel in many ways that me and Chris missed out on a lot of fun during his 3-year old time. When I was 3 and my parents were split up, my mom took me to Disneyland. Alot.] Happy to see cute lil Chris, I just bent down and picked him up and hugged him super hard and long. Best feeling ever

Then I thought of the write name in sand task, and I noticed that part of the playroom had a sand pit. I won't really count this task because it was indoor sand, but I told myself at that time that in case I don't find a beach later, I'll just try it here. I wrote "Lisa" fairly easily, then "Ophelia" next to it . Ok, still lucid, what were the advanced tasks? I couldn't remember them, even now as I'm typing this out I can't remember, oh yeah, punch the pres. Oh well, all I could remember at the time was the only one I DIDN'T want to do, which was to jump in the volcano. But I figured I could just go there anyway and maybe I'd get brave when I got there. I asked Chris if he wanted to come along and he followed me to the front door. I could hear that it was raining bad outside, and Chris said "Mommy, umbrella" and pointed at the closet where we keep them. I told him that we won't need them. We stepped outside and it was pouring horribly, and super dark. Now, I never have much luck getting rain to clear up, but I remember that one member who uses his DCs to do things for him. So I told Chris to point at the sky and use his magic to make the rain stop. It took a few tries, but the rain stopped, and it got a little brighter out.

I didn't see any mountains or volcanoes anywhere, but a van drove up to us. A guy was driving, and a lady was in the back and she opened the sliding door, asking if we needed a ride. I said, "Mount Fuji is over there somewhere, can you take us there?" She said ok, for $40. So I handed her a $40 bill Which did seem normal at the time lol. Anyway, we weren't driving for long before the van was now on the tracks of a roller coaster. I said to the driver "Man, we gotta get off this thing or I'll lose my lucidity!" as we rolled and tumbled, with visions of Mount Fuji going in and out of my peripheral vision. We finally stopped and got out, and we were in DisneyLand! (Anaheim).

I knew that one of the rides was situated around a volcano that I could probably make real somehow, because I had seen it from inside the van. But then I noticed that Chris was in the arms of that woman from the van, looking really sad. He said, "Mommy, I don't want you to go into a volcano.." Ordinarily this would be where I combated the DC guilt trip and said something like, "Ok, you stay here with Aunti so-and-so, while I go get some 'ice cream' wink wink," and then continue on to find the volcano. But here I was, totally lucid, with 3-year old Chris, AT DISNEYLAND! So I thought fuck it, "He Chris, want to go ride some rides?" And he ran over to me and grabbed my hand. I thought to myself I don't even care if I lose lucidity at this point. The lady gave me back my $40 bill and said, "Here, you can have this back to get some ride tokens." So we went to the token dispenser (so not existing in real Disneyland, oh well who cares. Mickey coins sounded fun). I stuck in the entire $40 dollar bill, which seemed to empty the dispenser of all its tokens. Me and Chris just started filling our pockets with the tokens, much to the dismay of a dad and his son, who were waiting to get their tokens lol. Then Chris and I walked hand in hand and got in line for one of the rides. I believe I did start to lose lucidity at some point in that line, but I don't think I was ever happier in a dream.

This one had some positive points, as well as some facepalms. But I'm starting to understand some stuff better about my LDing self.

So I WILDed pretty much like I did yesterday morning. Woke up at 5,7,9,10 for various reasons. Went to the bathroom and got water a couple times. I finally rolled over at some point and felt the vibrations.

I opened my eyes slowly and recognized right away that I was in an alternate bedroom. It's been hot lately so I didn't fall back to sleep with covers on, so I started the dream without and bedding issues. I opened the door to the bedroom, which led to a hallway in a hotel. These rooms were on the 1st floor apparently, because the hall eventually opened into the hotel lobby, which also resembled a huge mall. A hotel-mall, do they have those yet? Seems like a fun idea

Anyway, on the left was one of those make-up selling counters, with beautiful women who try to squirt you with perfume or offer a makeover as you walk by. I saw a really pretty blonde one that I though to go for first, but she rushed off with a customer and I lost her. I came upon a nice looking asian-american woman, who clearly paid alot of attention to her makeup. She had shoulder-length perfectly straight, shiny black hair, and meticulous eye make-up and frosty pink lipstick. I asked her if she wanted to go out with me, but she was reluctant. I'm still female doh! I guess some part of me thinks that if I act like a guy, the DCs will see me as one. Oh well, she had one of those circular swivel mirrors, so I looked into it.

I looked like I did in college but with a bob style hair cut. So I started hard at myself, willing for change. My hair darkened and shortened to shiny black, and the shape of my eyes became a thin almond shape, resembling someone who was part asian. Then my jaw got more square. I looked semi cute, like I could have been on Karate Kid II haha.

Anyway, I took the lady's hand and said, "Come on." She still kinda didn't want to. I just pulled her down the lobby by her hand anyway, and she didn't struggle. I pushed her against the window of one of the stores, but I accidentally did it a little too hard, and she bonked the back of her head on the glass a little. This was going so bad lol. I looked at her apologetically, and took her face in my hands. I kissed her gently a few times, then I remember to ask her for her name. She said something like "Hatika." I whispered her name to her a few times, in between kisses. I was just trying to make the effort to remember her name after I woke up, but I guess she liked it, because then she started really getting into it. Breathlessly she whispered to me, "I want you ______." She referred to me as some name but I forgot it.

That did it for me. Across from the store we were making out in front of, was a little spanish-style restaurant. The only light in there was from little votive candles on each table. But the center of the restaurant was completely dark, since no light reached it. I marched her straight to the carpet in the middle of the restaurant floor, threw her down on her back. In about 10 seconds, I managed to scoot our pants down just far enough, get 4 thrusts in, and I was done! I woke up immediately after.

So..

I'm still a dickhead. 2 one-night stands in as many days, and I still don't know their names. I'm glad I remembered to ask for her name this time, even if I forgot it. And I'm happy I can find hot chicks to make out with me, and that I can transform pretty easy. I think part of my problem though, is, well, the restraint for one. But I also think I'm kinda settling, since I'm not finding the precise chick that I want. I mean, right now, I feel like it shouldn't matter which chick it is, because it's all part of an experiment. But IN the dream, I'm more emotional I guess, so I want exactly what I want, and I want it now. So I need to figure out a way to combat this, or work with it.

So I'd been thinking lately, and LinkZelda and I discussed this last night, that it would be cool to change genders in a lucid dream. And not the thing I usually do where I grow boy parts and just stick it in whatever walks by me first. I wanted to actually turn into a guy, and ask a nice girl out on a date, maybe make out a little bit. The point was to have the experience, and not be a mindless dickhead out for sex, like I usually am in my gender bender lucids.

Anyway, so after working 6 days in a row, and thinking about this goal alot, I finally have 3 mornings in a row that I can sleep in. So last night I looked at pictures of pretty women, not overly PlayBoy-ish, just.. nice ones. And I settled on one and kept her in my mind.

Then this morning I tried for WILD. Woke up at 5am, then 7am, had a non lucid about zombies and grizzly bears (may post later), then kids woke me up a bunch of times. I was getting frustrated, but I kept my goals, and lucidity right at the top. I got up at about 9am, went pee and had some water, then lay back down. That did the trick, and pretty soon I drifted off, then rolled over and felt the vibrations.

I saw a bedroom form as my eyelids became transparent. Not my room at all. I slowly got out of the bed as usual and the sheets were stuck around my ankles a little. They vanished as soon as I walked towards the 4 doors in the room, looking for the one that led out. The first door had a dead bolt on it, so I turned it and opened the door, expecting it to be the way out, but it was a closet. I tried the next door and it led to a hallway.

I walked down the hall which opened into a livingroom, and there were a group of people sitting and watching TV. I looked for the lady that I wanted, but she wasn't there. A few older people were on the couch, and a really pretty young lady on the chair. Before I could think if I would ask her out instead, everyone in the room said "Hey Lisa." Crap, I'm still female! I asked them if any hot chicks came around looking for me, and they said no, without looking away from the TV. I went to the front door of the house and opened it, hoping to see a beauty on the other side. No one. So I decided to settle on the lady in the chair. I went to the large mirror behind the folks on the couch, and my reflection was basically me, with a long ponytail. So I looked at my reflection in the eyes and said "I am a really hot guy, named Michael." My hair cut short, and a ball cap appeared on my head. Despite some red-neckish looking clothes, I looked pretty good. Dark hair, blue eyes and chiseled facial features. Like what I ordinarily go for myself haha.

Anyway, feeling quite confident, I went up to the girl in the chair. She looked alot like this one actress, I'll see if I can find her pic and post it. I just took her hands in mine and said, "Hey, do you want to be my girlfriend?" She beamed and said "Ok!" First mistake: I didn't even ask her name. I led her into the hallway, and I suppose fearing for dream time, I just pushed her against the wall with my body. I took her face in my hands, and planted a kiss right on her lips. Then I used tongue. The whole time I kept my eyes open, just in case of accidental loss of lucidity (gotta work on that schema). The moment was so vivid. I kept feeling the skin on her neck and face, her hair, and all up and down her arms and body. A couple times I stopped to kiss her neck, and all along her jawline, loving all the chirpy little sounds that it elicited from her. [I gotta stop right here just to say this to the men in the audience: Bravo for every time you were ever in this situation and resisted the urge to just nail the girl. Because in the similar situation, I FAILED.] Her skin was so soft and satiny, and it would get flushed and burning hot to the touch wherever I kissed it, especially her neck. That neck, mmmmmmm mmm mmm! I ran my hand down the front of her shirt, stopping momentarily to cup a breast. I truly felt like I was going to explode on myself right then. I was really aroused, and my goals all went right out the window. Didn't ask her name, ask her out on a date, have ANY conversations of any kind. I just started ripping her clothes off right there in the hall. One goal. Solo. Uno. Everything else in the world was just gone. And I was punished for it. Right when I was about to give my first thrust, I woke up.

So...

I guess I can say that I'm happy that I got the opportunity that i wanted. I just need to play my cards better next time, and not be so greedy. I ended up DEILDing back into that same bedroom, but I woke up halfway down the hall

Edit: Oh it looks like I inadvertently completed the basic mirror task. 3 cheers for lucid mirrors!!

Edit again: The girl on the left is the one I wanted, the one on the right is the one I got (but with shorter hair and tanner skin). I can't complain.

Looooooong dream, beware:

I hate that my LDs lately seem dependent on my days off since I work so much more now, but at least if the LD is really epic, then it's a pay off for me. The like one I just woke up from. It's also in part to the sweet podcast that CL and I recorded last night.

I didn't think I was going to have one at all, because I kept sleeping in and waking up, and nothing. I was hot, and uncomfortable. Finally Danny got up and I rolled over to sleep again. Then the bed suddenly felt cylindrical, and I began to feel like I was slowly rolling off, but never did. I get funny sensations like that sometimes when I'm about to have a WILD. So I just relaxed and remained still, and a wave of vibrations washed over me. I very patiently waited a few moments before slowly getting out of bed. Everything was realistic, but I noticed that the fan was missing from our ceiling fan, but then appeared suddenly (like as OOPS forgot). Also the pillows had fringes that don't exist irl, so I knew for sure I was dreaming.

I went to leave the room, but I had blankets attached to me. I left the room and there was still one wrapped around my legs. I cursed it in my mind, then continued to the livingroom. I remembered the naked task, and was happy to see the livingroom was full of people. Mostly kids, and a lady on the couch. I knew it would be ok since it's just a dream anyway. I said "Hey guys, I'm about to get nekkid!!" They totally ignored me, while watching TV. Then I remembered that piece of paper from an old TOTM still in the kitchen. I had a personal goal of wanting to check it out again. It was in the right place, but it was covered with nonsensical words that changed everytime I looked at it. At one point, I saw that it said "turn over" and when I did, it was blank. I turned it back over, and it had changed again. Anyway, I went back into the livingroom and started taking my clothes off. The blanket had vanished at some point during all this (the power of ignoring annoying crap in dreams). I said "HEY! I'm naked!" One kid looked at me and said, "Oh look, once Ophelia's done with this, I'm going to teach everyone how to smoke pot!" Then I lost it, I laughed so hard at that boy. I looked at the lady on the couch, who glanced at me for a moment, then looked away like she wished I hadn't done this. SO I said "Bye, I'm going outside to fly in the buff!"

I went outside and hit the air, but I either flew too low and bounced, or I went to high and would lose my vision. Oh yeah, I had my glasses on, and I remember seeing if I could still see without them, but I needed them, oh well. Keep them on for now. After the flying, things got really blurry, and sketchy, and I couldn't make anything out. So I relaxed, and said "Imagine a barn. A red and brown barn.." and one appeared in front of me. It was still all a little sketchy, but I decided to go to the barn and look for a mirror transport. I noticed a big black bear walk on its hind legs into the barn, just before I did. I walked down a hall toward what appeared to be a bathroom, when the bear came at me, mouth wide open and bared teeth. I rolled my eyes and stuck out my hand, and he bit it, and locked on. It hurt but it was bearable. I just kept walking toward the bathroom, then I went inside and shut to door, which made the bear let go. Ha! I looked in the mirror over the sink, still not great vision. I kinda absent-mindedly turned on the bathroom light, and then BOOM! It was like someone had turned on the sun! I was about to go in the mirror, when I noticed Kim and Nicole from work outside the window. I yelled their names and told them I was LDing. They ran over to the barn, but by the time they got there, they were 2 Kims instead. They looked kinda angsty and said something I forget. I just ignored them and went back to the mirror while I could feel them watching. I poked my head and torso through, but it was a really large room that was kinda dark. I didn't really want to go there, but I couldn't pop back out of the mirror for some reason. It felt like this new room was sucking me through, so I went with it.

I plopped out into this really large room, where all the walls were bookshelves, and there were kids toys here and there. Also alot of unfinished paintwork. A woman was putting books away on the shelves, when she suddenly was aware of my presence. She whipped around, then came at me with a small axe! I just stood there, and when the axe came down, I caught it by the handle and pulled it out of her hand. I said "Ma'am, I'm just traveling, you don't have to be scared of me." Then I heard it: an inhuman scream. It sounded like it was coming from a man, but it was so loud, and crazed. The woman looked even me scared at that then she was of me. I left the room to go toward the sound, when I ended up in a hallway where I noticed 3 men putting together an elaborate story book. They came up to me, pretending like they didn't hear this screaming. They walked me through the story, telling me all about it. I couldn't believe they were ignoring this sound. Finally I saw the source: A man walked toward us, carrying a small boy. I knew at that moment that he was the woman's wife, and this was their child. The dad was completely 100% INSANE. I knew he was rich though, because this was a really big house. I had assumed that he hired those men to make a really great book for the child. The dad was still screaming unintelligibly, at the wife I believe. Just pure anger and insanity. The child in his arms looked just, sad and yet resigned to it. I said to the guys writing the book, "He must pay you guys a lot of money to be able to ignore that shit!" One of them nodded at me. I thought, oh hell no. I still knew I was dreaming, and the axe was still in my hand. So I ran at him, ready to chop him to bits, while hopefully saving the child. The wife stopped me, crying something about not killing the father of their children. So I flew above the man, who finally shut his mouth and just stared at me in disbelief. And I said, "Mr. Dead Man? Yes, I call you DeadMan because this so called son of yours it not your son, because you don't deserve him. You are now dead to him." Then he just rolled over on the floor, and lay there in a vegetative state.

I ended up DEILDing 2 times after that, one where I was a man and hooked up with that woman to take care of the family, but when I stripped down I had boobs, whoops.

Then another where Danny came in wanting to have sex, and I accused him of being a DC and I'd rather have the real thing. And he said maybe we're both LDing right now, you can ask the real me in the morning. I said ok I'll tell you a code word now, that I'll ask the real you tomorrow. THen he gave up haha. Creepily, the real Danny came in after I woke up this morning, and he was dressed JUST like the DC one, the room was the same amount of light, and he sat on my bed and was talking a bunch of weird crazy shit to me. I had to RC, but nope that was the real Danny.

Man I've been a real dick about my DJ lately, I apologize. Mainly sorry to myself. Anyway, had a really, uh, nice(?) nonlucid, followed by an ok WILD.

The non lucid was before my WBTB. 7 celebrities were taping an episode of their newest reality show at my parents old house. We were all there helping. I only remember 3 of the celebrities, which were Kevin Durand (<3), Russell Crowe, and Alec Baldwin. The 3 of them tended to ham it up together alot, I remember that. Anyway, I remember that it was a wednesday, and that the next night would be the last night of taping followed by a big party for them. So we, including the celebrities, were all in charge of cleaning up the house. Kevin got vacuum duty. Watching a 6' 7" hunk of burning love and muscle vacuum my parents' house was just.... nice. I told him to stay out of my old bedroom though (it was too messy and I was embarrassed).

I was helping mom in the kitchen, and I remember being kinda stressed about everything going on. I leaned against the island counter and rested my head in my hands, when I felt a really large presence come up behind me, and start lightly scratching my back. I whipped around and it was Kevin. I backed up a couple feet with my hands up, saying "Dude! Don't..." (Bear in mind y'all that I believe this is all real, and I'm loyal to my bf). Kevin put his hand over his heart and said, "Ok, ok, I'm sorry. Now I know not to try to get to second base with you at the party tomorrow." Then he grinned at me. I just stood there, completely frozen, when it dawned on me that Danny and I DO have a deal that we can each pick one celebrity if the opportunity presented itself. Danny picked Sandra Bullock, I picked, well, you know who. I said, "Oh are we going to the party together tomorrow?" He just kept grinning and looking sexier than just about anything I had ever laid my eyes on. Then I said something corny about how nice he is in real life, then I ran to my room, looking for something sexy to wear to the party, while humming some opera. That's all I remember from that dream. I woke up at about 6:30am from it, with an emotional hangover.

Anyway, so y'all can see what I'm working with here:



The WILD was less interesting. WBTB, then I woke up, rolled over, felt some vibrations. Instead of opening my dream eyes, I just tried to see through my eyelids, and it worked. I could see my room slowly form in front of me, as if my eyelids were becoming transparent. Maybe the 2nd or 3rd time I was able to do this. Really cool. Anyway, I got out of bed, feeling like I really was getting up in real life. I was happy when I left the room and saw the livingroom empty of all furniture, with Chris on the floor playing with toys. I tried to think of the TOTM I wanted to do, and I remember wanting to summon Kevin Durand as the archangel Gabriel from Legion I said "Hey Chris, want to go outside with me and see if we can summon Gabriel?" So he followed me outside. I called to the clouds a few times, but no success. I woke up shortly after.

Gotta work on those summoning skills!

Ok. I was floored by this. But first, my routine. I went to bed a little after 1am (bad I know, but I knew I could sleep in). And I had my mind on the lay and egg TOTM for days now. Woke up at 7am for the kids, then it took me at least an hour to get back to sleep. I woke up again, then fell asleep again. As I did, I thought about that egg..

I drifted off, and was suddenly aware that I was at work, in the PFDS department. I saw a woman walk up to me, and it hit me that I had just fallen asleep like 2 seconds ago. (note: This is happening to me more and more lately. Instead of WILDing seamlessly from awake to lucid dream, I'm losing my awareness for a few seconds, while the dream forms itself, then I quickly realize that I was just falling asleep in my bed a few seconds ago. No vibrations or HH that I'm aware of. Just a super quick DILD. No complaints.)

Anyway, I fell the dream slip a little upon awareness, so I just focus on the woman coming up to me which helps. The lay an egg task bursts into my mind, so I ask her point blank, "Hey, wanna watch me lay an egg?" She stops and says, "Ok..?" I pull my pants down just to my knees and squat. I push but not too hard (some of you members brought up the accident thing and apparently it crept into my dream, spanks a heap!).

But then I suddenly woke up (or so I thought). I was lying on the bed on my side, facing Danny, and I felt my pants fill up with something warm. Oh shit. I said "Oh no, I just tried the egg task and I think I crapped myself!" I told Danny. He laughed and said he didn't even want to know. I felt so embarrassed, but at the same time, it didn't really feel like poop in my pants. More like, wadded up cloth. So I reached down the back of my pants and felt what seemed to be some wadded up material. I pulled it out and it was a purple t-shirt with Disney characters on the front, dressed in Halloween costumes. At this moment, I believed that I had somehow carried something from my dream into reality. Danny asked me what the hell it was. I just said forget it and tossed the shirt onto the floor, feeling really confused. But then he got up and took it, and when I asked what he did with it, he said he threw it "over the ledge." Ledge, what ledge? Suddenly he was a black man, WEARING the shirt I had just laid. And our bed was suddenly a table with weird food all over it, that I was furiously trying to sort through. All this confusion finally reached a hilt and I questioned my reality.

I'm still fucking dreaming. I pooped a shirt but it was still in the dream! I looked at black Danny, and the second basic task popped into my head:

Me: Hey, I'm dreaming and you're a character in my-
Him: SHUT UP!!!!!
Me: Heh, ok you're a dream character and this is MY-
Him: No YOU'RE A DREAM CHARACTER!!!!!!
Me: No, YOU are a character in MY dream dumbass
Him: *pinches the spot where his nose meets his forehead, as if he has a horrible headache*
Me: Careful, this is where my DCs' heads usually explode. *I makes gesture with my hands of an exploding head*
Him: *jolts in surprise, but head doesn't explode*
Me: Hehee, keep the shirt*

Ok there's more, stay with me folks. I walked away, and got to this "ledge", which was an open stairwell like in a mall. As I was just about to descend, a few guys were coming up the stairs. The one in front looked like a young Baldwin - extremely delicious. The two behind him said something to the effect of "Yeah, he's new, and is the guy in charge now." I just grabbed his shirt and pulled him into a kiss. I could tell he was inexperienced, which just made him hotter. We were making out hard, and it was like the rest of the dream environment was gone except for him. He just seemed so hungry for this, which was such a huge turn on.

Spoiler for WARNING: sexually explicit:

It wasn't long before I unbuttoned his pants, ripped my own off, and began banging him on the stairs. The kissing was incredible, incredible incredible... I couldn't get enough! In a few moments, we were on soft, silky grass outside, sparking in the sun. But I was getting really really bored wtf! So I asked him if he wanted to turn over and try it another way. So he turned over on his belly and I switched to a dude. But he vanished. This ticked me off because I was a dude, and pretty hard too. So I grabbed the first DC near me, who was a really pretty blonde woman with long curly hair. I turned her over and starting doing her, but again... nothing. I felt nothing. I got up and started wandering around, remarking on how this dream was pretty long for a lucid. I didn't think about any more goals, I just wanted to wake up.

Spoiler for WARNING: sexually explicit:

So I did.

* I didn't really say "Keep the shirt" but I wish I had! I thought it added to the humor.

Wow what a night. I woke up at 5am and didn't go back to sleep until after 8am. This may very well be my longest WBTB that led to a successful DILD, not counting the times that I actually GOT UP early, then took a nap later in the day.

Anyway, the first thing I remember is being in a nonlucid where Danny was taking me to work in the morning. We were running just barely ontime, so I was a bit frantic. When I got out of the car, I thought Danny was helping me get some of my stuff out of the trunk, but he just vanished. I was like ffuu thanks alot. So I grabbed everything myself (including my shoes which I hadn't put on yet in the rush). I got to this ramp(?) that led to the bakery. I just dropped everything to the floor, trying to get my bakery garb on. (Oh yeah, and before that, I thought I saw Danny at customer service, but it wasn't him). Anyway, at that moment I realized that I had the wrong shoes. They were my privos instead of my nonslip work shoes. FFuu again. So I got my cell out and was going to call Danny and ask him to go home and get them for me. Then 2 of my bosses came down the ramp and looked at me like "Wft loser" and i just said" OK I'm hurrying, I just gotta find Danny!" They just walked off looking disappointed. I got my cell, and was looking through the contacts. All I remember at this point is massive device failure. I couldn't find Danny in the contacts. Then when I found his name, I couldn't find the call icon. I was suffering over this shit for a few moments, when I thought to myself that this HAS to be a dream. Too much stress and nonsense! The weird thing at this point, was that I didn't "feel" lucid, but I thought I'd try to kick my feel up and do a little low hovering flight, just to test things. And sure enough, it worked! I was weightless. Oh Lord JESUS thank god I'm lucid haha!

I took to flight with all my stuff gathered up in my arms, and was going to fly out the front door and go find Danny at the car maybe. Then I remembered I still hadn't done the food TOTM yet! I looked at the stuff in my arms and realized that there were some groceries there, including a bunch of green onions. I just bit of a huge hunk of the green parts, and they tasted crisp and spicy, just like they should. At this point I thought since I'm at work anyway, and right at the produce section of Whole freaking Foods, I should have a feast! I walked by the fruit stands, and noticed a displaced cookie case that should have been in the bakery. A giant, soft-baked chocolate chip cookie with marshmallow chunks stood right in front. SO I grabbed it.. god, it was still warm. I shoved about half of it into my mouth, and it was heaven. Chocolatey, melty-marshmallowey, ewey gooey warm sweet deliciousness. I started just going glutton all over this cookie, when I noticed it was making the dream unstabilize. I thought of Alyzarin in her recent food lucid (if you're reading this ALy, I owe you one), so I thought to calm down, and shift my focus. This seemed to chill things out. This next part is VERY sexually graphic. You've been warned.

Spoiler for EXTREMELY Mature Content.:

I felt so triumphant, which usually leads to a wave of randiness I reached down and my boy parts grew on command. I hadn't done this in a lucid in a while, so I just belted out "Oh YEAAAAH baby, here I come!" Why am I such a dickhead in lucids when I'm a dude? Anyway, there were a ton of people passing by in the produce section, but no one looked good. I remember specifically a tall, gray-haired old man. Nooo thanks. Then I noticed a young woman with soft curly brown hair in a flower-print dress with a matching purse, sitting on a stack of crates by the apples. She looked pious and virginal. I said something really crude, I can't remember what it was. I'm sure it was something along the lines of "Hey baby wanna f---" Anyway the crate she was sitting on put her hips at about hip level with me. She agreed to have sex with me, so I started unbuttoning my jeans. All the while she was talking to me, saying things like she didn't really know how to do anything, I just ignored her. What happened next was the most vivid lucid sex I have ever had. By vivid, I don't mean really all that pleasurable or satisfying, rather the details and the length and the regular 5 senses were really increased from what I'm used to. I was just going at it, and she would moan when I did extra things, like bite her neck, or when I put her boob in my mouth. I remember feeling like this wasn't really doing much for me, but I just kept going, since the dream and my lucidity was hanging on so well. I would push her upper body back and go faster, then I would pull her back up into an upright sitting position on the crates and go slower, kissing, sucking, giving HER all sorts of pleasure, but my dick just kinda felt numb. I finally felt the dream begin to fade, so I just let it. I basically got what I wanted from the dream, if I wanted to get off I could do that manually irl when I wake up lol.

So I finally got the coal TOTM! Then I attempted the drawing one, but it didn't quite work. Anyway, HORRIBLE night sleep, ended up having to call in sick today. As such, when I was finally able to sleep when the house was empty and the dogs were quiet at last, it was about 8am.

I had a really super fast WILD. I wasn't trying for it, I just wanted sleep. But one quick round of really faint vibrations and I felt myself in my bed in a dream, all tangled up in blankets. I slowly tried to disentangle myself but woke up before I could finish. I went back to sleep and had a FA where I had gotten up and went down the hall, but it was the hall of some other building. And I remembered in that instant that I had JUST woken up from a short LD, so yay I was getting a second chance! I thought of the coal task right away, and continued down the hall. Fortunately it opened up into my livingroom. I knew that all I had to do was go into the backyard by the grill, and grab a piece of Kingsford coal from the bag. Only one obstacle: the sliding glass door. If I open doors or even phase through them in LDs, most time I get a scene change. SO I just quickly opened it, and sure enough, I ended up in a random room that doesn't exist. I saw a second door that went outside, so I imagined that my grill would be on the other side, and it worked! Only it looked more like a piano. I didn't see a bag of coal, so I opened the piano grill hoping to find a semi-used piece of coal inside. Nope, just piano keys. I imagined that o nthe other side of the grill would be a bag of kingsford coal, and sure enough, there was a bag of coal (the 365 brand from work, fine by me!). I grabbed the first piece which was stuck to another piece, so I separated them and kept the smaller of the 2. I held the coal in my left hand and covered it with my right, and stepped into the sunlight. I wanted to see my diamond sparkle in case it worked! I saw the sun illuminate my hands, and I thought to myself "how realistic this lucid light looks." I pressed my hands together as hard as I could, and I felt the coal disintegrate immediately. It almost felt like watery mud. I pressed very hard and imagined heat helping me out. I finally felt something hard like glass amidst all the mud, so I opened my hands and blammo! There was somewhat smoky colored diamond, cut into a big fat emerald cut. I took it in my right hand and held it up to the sunny sky to see it sparkle. When I did that, a giant image of the same diamond appeared in the sky, and even took on the smokiness. Once that happened, the diamond in my hand was no longer smokey. And it was suddenly princess cut. A big, sparkly, maybe 4 or 5 carrot diamond. Man I felt proud. I just held my diamond in the sunlight, looking at its giant smokey twin in the sky, thinking "yeah, that's enough for now," and woke up.

I went back to sleep and this time I was walking down the hall at work. What's with halls all the time? Oh well, give me time to walk and think and realize I'm dreaming lol. Anyway, again it hit me that I was just in bed, and I knew I had called in sick to work, so I shouldn't even be there. I bumped into my boss who said, "Well, since you're here you can go ahead and work your shift if you're feeling better." I just said, "Nah I've got other stuff to do," and I left. Now Chris was suddenly with me. I thought about the drawing task, and then I noticed something new: we were walking home, like we used to when we all lived in the apartment in Dallas. We were approaching the train station. Chris started taking off really fast, and it was starting to get dark. I panicked a little and called after him, telling him to wait up and not to run off, but he wouldn't stop. Then I just said, know what? fuck it, I'm doing the TOTM (HAH! +1). I attempted to draw with my finger on the side of the train station, when I remembered that my dream body had just come from work, and I always carry a pen and a sharpie in my pocket at work. I reached in my back pocket and found the pen! I was about to draw on the building, when I noticed to my right that there was a blank post-it note on the wall. Seriously? Is it my birthday? So I thought fast and drew a comet, with motion lines behind it, crashing onto earth. Then I looked up at the sky. It was dark now, and I could only see stars and a few wispy clouds. Then I saw a tiny illumination behind one of the clouds, and it got brighter and larger. Then something the size of a ping pong ball popped out from behind the cloud, and landed on the street in front of me, then bounced away. This happened a few more times, and each time the light behind the clouds was even more intense, suggesting that THIS time it would be a comet. Yeah right. When I finally got tired of watching ping pong balls, I just caught up with Chris and walked to the apartment. Danny had just come home from the grocery store, and was unloading groceries in the kitchen. He asked me to help him, and I started to. Then I said, "Nah, I may try the drawing task again," and left. I looked up at the sky, and there was a giant red Snoopy constellation in the night sky. I willed it to turn into a comet and crash into earth, but then I woke up.

Well poopananny then. But yay, a diamond!

Odd WILD. I crashed early after me and my boyfriend bow-chigga-bow-wowed, at about 10pm. I was really pooped from work. Anyway, I woke up a little before 2am because of a wee headache. I tried to go back to sleep, but all I could think about was the advil bottle in the kitchen. Which is probably a good thing, because then it forced me to get up, put on my pjs, get the advil and some water, then go back to bed. Then I was up maybe 20 more minutes waiting for it to kick in. I dozed off for a bit, then woke up again after what felt like maybe 10 minutes.

Then I was primed for the vibrations. Fortunately I was in a better position then that last time when my breathing got weird. I think I forgot to post about that. Anyway, I let the vibrations wash over me, then I phased into a lucid dream like usual. I got out of bed and thought of the prank TOTM. I left the bedroom hoping to find maybe Chris and prank him, but I woke up super fast. Fortunately I was still in the same comfortable position, and I felt vibrations again. I phased easily into another LD again, and I was able to get up, leave the bedroom, go into Chris's bedroom where I found him asleep in his bed. I couldn't think of how to prank him in an April Fool's style. All I could think of was to scare him awake. So I grabbed him and yelled "BOO!!" He woke up and yelled lol. I tried to think of one of the advanced tasks but I jus couldn't I really wanted to do the coal task. Would have been perfect because I was already in my house, and I have Kingsford in my backyard. Dadgummit. I woke up before I could really do anything else.

If it isn't one thing then it's something else haha. I was having trouble with the vibrations and transitions last couple weeks. Then I fix that, now my lucid memory stinks. It's really hard now that I work those 2 extra days a week. That's 2 less chances to LD the way I like, by sleeping in really late. On the bright side, these 2 short LDs happened between 2-3am, instead of my normal 7-10am. I don't get those very often so it's always a plus when I do.

Another short LD I had on my vacation:

Again, I was tossing and turning alot in the hotel bed. One time when I drifted off, I began dreaming that I was walking down the back hallway at work. Fortunately it's a long hallway irl, so I guess that gave me just enough time to think, "Hey, I was just in my hotel bed not 4 seconds ago!" So that got me lucid, and decided to wreck the store (didn't even think of any pre-thought-out goals or TOTMs, I just wanted to wreck stuff). I found a small square board with wheels (imagine a skateboard, only square in stead of elongated). So I sat on it, and rolled down the hallway, knocking things off all the storage shelves on both sides with my hands as I went down the hall haha.

Then I turned and went out the side door that leads to the floor. I started knocking down a display of glass juice bottles, when the store leader, Carmen, walked up to me. I stood up from my little vehicle, and decided I would finally give her a piece of my mind concerning the stupidity occurring in the bakery. As soon as I was upright, my vision got blurry ONLY where Carmen was standing. I could hear her voice, but couldn't see her. Before I even had much chance to be annoyed by this, I woke up.

This LD was so quick, that I didn't even remember it at first when I woke up for good that morning.

Finally joined the Taste Club! I was away for the weekend, and I usually end up having LDs when I'm in a different bed. I was tossing and turning alot, so it was perfect for an LD.

I was having a non lucid about my 11th grade English teacher, Ms. Pasqual. She was a biaaaaaatch irl, and in the dream too. So we were all in class, and I don't remember what she did to get the whole class angry with her, but some students grabbed her, held her down, and told me I could bite her finger off. So I took her hand and put the tip of her index finger in my mouth and bit down. I bit down pretty hard, and began to hear and feel a crunchiness. As I was biting, I thought to myself "Hrmm, what does this taste like... kinda salty.." Oh shit, this is the Basic Task, I'm lucid!!!

I was so happy, so much so that I decided to be more kindhearted and let Ms Bitch keep her finger. But I wanted to taste something else, so I looked around the classroom. There was a large, wooden pepper-grinder in there for some reason. I picked it up and licked it. It tasted like salty wood. I wanted something more interesting, and found a box of crayola crayons. I told the class that I'm going to be tasting these crayons, and that their flavor will correspond to the color. So I grabbed a key lime crayon out of the box, and it tasted like lime! Only a bit sweeter, like key lime pie or something. The white one tasted like coconut, the blue was blueberry, the red was watermelon (I actually debated for a moment making the red apple or cherry, and the green would be watermelon, but I had already made green the keylime), and it was a really pronounced watermelon flavor. So fun, but I woke up right after that.

I actually DEILDed back into the classroom unintentionally, and went for a red crayon, hoping to make it taste like cherry, but then I woke up again.

Fun times

Had a DEILDy thing. My alarm woke me up at 6:45, then I went back to sleep. I got up at about 7:30 and went to the bathroom. When I went back to bed it hailed like crazy for 20 minutes. The power came on and off a couple times, then I fell back to sleep.

I was dreaming about being at work, and I had to go get something off one of the aisles really quick, so I ran. As I was running, I felt like there was a possibility that I was dreaming and could maybe even fly. So I jumped up as I ran, and took to flight. YAY lucid. I flew for a bit then remembered the basic task ii for this month. Fortunately the store was filled with DCs: team members and customers. I saw Alice (from the cashiers) walking away from me with another girl. I said "Hey Alice!" She turned around and looked at me, then turned into a random black girl.. weird. Anyway, I asked her "If you had one wish, what would it be?" She took a long time to answer, and I was afraid I was going to get a mute, brain-dead DC on this one. Finally she said, "I wish someone would make me my sandwich." So I grabbed her hand and said "Alrighty then!" Good thing this dream happened at work and there was a sandwich station. We went to the pre-made sandwich section, and I told her to pick one. She just couldn't. After a few suggestions, I finally picked up a tuna sandwich and said to her, "Oooo, look at this one, it's tuna! Doesn't it look goooood?" And I shoved it into her hand. Then I woke up.

I rolled over and felt vibrations right away. I waited for a few waves to cycle, then I felt like it was safe to slowly open my eyes. I got up slowly, noticing DC Danny sleeping in the bed. I didn't want to disturb him in case I wasn't in a dream yet (I still can't tell for sure sometimes in those first few seconds, which is why I always take it slow). I felt myself entangled in the sheets again, so I knew it was a dream. Then this is cool: as I walked to the bedroom door, I felt part of the pillow on the right side of my face. And I remember when I rolled over before, I rolled onto my right side. I could feel it as clearly as if I were awake and noticing the feeling of my face on the pillow, and the weight of my head on it. And yet here i was, standing up and walking around my room. Very surreal, like I was existing in 2 places at once, though I was more in the dream. Just a hint of the waking life dimension. I'll never forget it. Then I woke up.

I rolled over again, felt vibrations again, then opened my eyes slowly again. Again I wasn't sure if I was in the dream yet or not. In fact, I was more sure that I wasn't, so I closed my eyes to try again. Then I noticed that my mouth was filled with sawdust. It seemed perpetual as I kept digging it out of my mouth and spitting it out. Then I remembered that this was a dream sign of mine (and others), so I opened my eyes and got up again. But even after all that, I really felt like I had gotten up for real. Nothing was out of place at all! But I like to have that fuck it attitude when I WILD, just in case. Or else I'll be kicking myself later for having a FA. Anyway, I promised myself I'd test it out by flying when I got outside. I was pretty sure I was dreaming though. I made it to the livingroom, when I saw the DC version of my son Chris. He said, "Mommy, my bandaid is coming off," and pointed to his leg. He had some drooping gauze around his calf, and blood was starting to ooze from it. I forced myself not to tend to it, because I knew it wasn't real. But I invited him into the kitchen where I got us each a wine glass. And I told him we could throw them. So we threwthem against the wall and they shattered. That's so never going to get old haha. Then I said, "Ok Chris, just give me a few minutes. Wait right here," and I went outside. I started jogging, and broke into a run. As I was running, I hopped a couple times, and took to the air. I saw some interesting landscape ahead that I can't quite remember in detail. But I wanted to get there without soaring uncontrollably up too high, but not too close to the ground either (some lucid flying issues I have). Anyway, that's all I remember before waking up happy.