non-lucid

Galantamine Dreams

I just had a series of false awakenings/Dreams that took me deeper than anything ive experienced before. I've recently been trying out the Galantamine/Choline combo from Dreamamins over the past week, and while I haven't become lucid while on them yet I always have false awakenings and intense Dreams anyway. What follows is the most intense series of Dreams and false awakenings I've had to date. What I've written is only what I could remember because by the time the last one was over, the first had already begun to fade from memory. I must admit that I felt a little trapped, like I was unable to wake from these Dreams but I kept trying, hence the amount of false awakenings. I liked it, It felt like separate lives...

In the first, I Dreamt that I was following Jeremy Renner around because he was some kind of secret agent. I don't remember exactly what happened anymore but I do remember that at one point he was being hunted by the Russian government, and at some point we walked into a room that had several people strapped to gurneys, all of them bled out and dead. There were two Russians in the room, I was given the impression that one was a doctor and the other was simply a killer. When I first walked in, i saw a larger man twitching on the gurney closest to me as though he weren't quite dead, but dying, and about six others who were dead. I also saw the killer Russian bent over a last victim slicing open their neck. As soon as they saw us, I became Jeremy Renner, or I should say, the secret agent. The Russian had two scalpels, but they were larger than they should've been and he came at me yelling and extremely intimidating. I found that at that moment I had two knives as well and we began to fight. He sliced and jabbed at me and I managed to deflect and protect myself rather expertly. This went on for a good minute and I began to think about the fight too much, and he sliced one of my hands forcing me to drop the knife. Then he tackled me and bit a chunk of my ear off, and the Dream went black, but I didn't wake up.

The next thing I remember is being in some kind of basement where people were working on something I'm still not sure of, but I remember there being farm animals there. I remember washing my hands with bloody plastic gloves on, and I remember seeing the smallest giraffe and gorilla ever. I mean tiny, just about a foot and a half tall, and they looked like they were made out of arts and crafts decorations but they were moving. I thought to myself how cute they were and that my girlfriend would want to see them so I tried to take a pic, but the other people there said that pics weren't allowed so I didn't take any, I just pet them. I was also warned that the giraffe bites, so I was trying to be careful with it, but every time I tried to pet his head he tried to take a piece of my finger off. Little bastard. Then I "woke" from this Dream.

I awoke to our bedroom and was a little disappointed that my Galantamine hadn't helped me to become lucid, again. I remember that I turned on the radio and started blasting P.O.D.'s here comes the boom out the window in response to our new neighbors being noisy jackasses. Then I remember my girl being in the next room and coming in to talk to me. Now, when I fell asleep before all these Dreams, my girls mom was supposed to come home for lunch while my girl is at work, this confused me because her mom wasn't home and she was, so I asked her what was up with that. She said she didn't know where her mom was and was carrying a pair of scissors in her hand. She was walking away from me and reached for something on the dresser, which I snatched from her fearing that she had done away with her mom and I was next. Tis isn't something I actually fear in real life but somehow was a concern in the Dream. When I grabbed it, it was the size of one of those poppers kids get that they throw at stuff, and it said TNT on it. The Dream faded and I was laying in bed.

The next Dream I remember was odd too but not so much. I had a false awakening and thought I woke up from the last Dream and that I was in bed. I even remember looking at the clock and seeing the time correctly, it was about where it should have been. The next thing I remember I was on the balcony of our apartment with the iPad, writing like I do, and our new neighbors were being jackasses again and he was messing with his truck for whatever reason. They like to do doughnuts in the middle of the night, but this time he did something else, he just peeled out and tried to take off but something, probably me, made his truck flip over. It landed on its top and was smashed to shit, I loved it. I loudly proclaimed YES! when this happened. I remember him getting out of the truck and he started yelling at me and I told him that's what he got for being a stupid jackass and that the next time it happened it hoped he didn't walk away from it. At this point he went into his apartment and I realized that I wasn't alone, there were people everywhere inside my own apartment. It was like our two apartments weren't separated anymore and every annoying jackass he hung out with was now sitting at my dining table, watching my tv, and standing on my balcony! My balcony was also smaller all of a sudden and I had to magically work my way around the other fools there to get inside. I even remember wanting to tell some dude to get out of my chair, but I didn't. When I made it to the kitchen, I saw my neighbor sitting there, crying. I went to go talk to him and I put my hand on his back and asked him why he was so upset, just to be nice, and he ended up asking me if I wanted to go outside and play racquetball with him to make him feel better. I said yes but that I would have to go put my IPad away and get my racquet. I stepped into the room that I thought was mine to discover a couple in there, under the covers, doing things.... I immediately told them to get out because I was certain I was in the right place and this was just too much. Then I took a look around and realized that it wasn't my room after all! I apologized profusely to them and grabbed my IPad before heading out. I was incredibly confused by this, I had no idea what was going on anymore, so i left the apartment completely to see if I was even in the right one. Turns out I really was next door, but the outside of the doors were decorated for Christmas... I knocked on our apartment and my girls mom answered in her robe. I asked her what month it was, and she told me it was November. She told me this as I walked into the apartment, and my neck was scratched by the wreath we had on the door. All at once I began to have trouble breathing, couldn't fathom that I had lost six months time, and dropped to my knees in disbelief at everything that had happened. This is when I finally awoke and realized that everything that had just happened, all four or five Dreams, had been just that. In less than 90 minutes.

I should mention that absolutely none of the reality checks that I tried worked, I did ask myself several times during the course of these Dreams if I was Dreaming. I was fooled every time. I think that since perhaps the Galantamine makes me more aware, my Dreams respond in kind. They are made more believable, to a point. If I was a master at ADA, then I would've had no problem becoming lucid, but for the level I'm currently at it was enough to trick me.

Last night yielded several dreams, one of which became a short Lucid. Yay. I think the dream inducing app I bought off the iPad app store is finally working for me. I just need some more comfortable earbuds to sleep in cuz those gummy ones hurt.

My first Dream was intensely real, which seems kinda odd to me because my intensely vivid dreams don't usually come till later in my sleep cycle. This one revolved around me and this girl I used to be friends with in high school. Don't remember every detail, but I do remember that we were house hunting. I remember constantly thinking to myself that I wanted to be with her, that I wanted her to myself now. The last part of that Dream I remember was going into a poolhouse to check it out and we started to get a little naughty. Oh yeah. Before it got too heated though, my real girlfriends mother showed up. She caught us doing our thing and was only upset by this because we were supposed to be browsing the location, not testing it. In the Dream, I thought that they were related. I felt that this girl that I once knew was really my girlfriend now, and that my currents girls mother was actually the old friends mother.

I had a couple other small dreams that I don't remember much so I won't waste your time with them, but the one I became lucid in is a little more interesting.

I was walking around outside with a person whom i don't remember, when we see a streak of light cross the sky. The light turns in our direction and takes a steep dive into the ground somewhere just beyond our line of sight. We rush over to where it seems to have landed and we find what is obviously an alien craft. We could only see the top of it however because the rest seems to be stuck underground. I placed my hand atop the craft and it began to open. It didn't just lift the top for us to climb in, it separated into thin pink strips and began to arch upward one by one but very quickly.

I peered inside to see a descending tunnel that was lit up with shades of purple and pink. Me and my mystery companion didn't even hesitate, we jumped in and slid down the tunnel. While we were sliding down I noticed that every part of me which made contact with It glowed an electric blue, as if my movement caused a reaction with whatever material the ship was made from. We reached what seemed to be the bottom and I stood up to look around. The inside was set up with rooms very similar to what we have here on earth, bedrooms. It seemed I was now in the living quarters of this ship. Before I could really take a moment to think about what I was seeing, someone comes from around the corner...

I knew instantly that "she" wasn't human, despite how remarkably human she appeared. She had to be the most mesmerizing Asian woman I've ever seen. Her eyes were different somehow. They were an icy blue color and sparkled as if they were made of diamond and she had sunlight coming from behind them at all times. Not an intense sunlight, but just enough to catch your attention the way a beautiful diamond does when it hits the light. She also had a dog with her, or at least he appeared to be a dog like the way she appeared to be human. There was something different about it as well, but I can quite put my finger on it. I was a little hesitant about the dog, but not her.

She began to approach me, so I responded in kind. As I reached her I opened my arms and wrapped them around her, embracing her the way you would an old friend that you believed had died. I was never afraid of this experience. I held her for a little bit before stepping back and taking a look at my surroundings. This is when I noticed that the floor was made of tile. Not even nice tile, but the kind you would see in older houses that haven't been maintained very well. This is when I realized I was in a dream. (lol I laugh that it wasn't the alien craft, or the perfect being that signaled a Dream for me, it was the tile). I thought to myself " there's no way an alien spacecraft would have earthly tile comprising the floor, I must be Dreaming".

It was at this point that I noticed she had bowls filled with snacks nearby. Must've been a welcoming gesture to have party snacks for any humans brave enough to show up. I used my trusty telekinesis to lift a Dorito out of the bowl and into my hand. I thought "cool" as I bit into the chip, knowing for a fact that I was Dreaming. I usually can't remember to do what i had planned to do when I become lucid, this time I did. For all you True Blood fans out there, you will understand who I am talking about. Once I became Lucid, I tried to bring Jessica into my Dream in order to have my way with her. (Im only human) I thought to myself "Jessica", and the Asian girl's outer shell fell off like magic fairy dust to reveal a red head that had her back to me. Unfortunately she didn't get to turn around before the Dream faded to black and I awoke, burning up in my covers! Damn covers! I tried to renter the Dream with no success. This marks the first time I've become Lucid in a few months now. Yessssss.

Thank you for reading. I will continue to keep my journal updated with all my crazy Dreams for your entertainment. For those of you who don't know, Jessica is a red headed, blue eyed vampire. And in my opinion, perfect.

Dont remember any other Dreams last night except this one....

The first thing I remember from this Dream was controlling elements. I was practicing my concentration in the Dreamscape, trying to control spheres of fire, water, and earth. I was combining them with each other, without extinguishing one another. Earth didn't absorb water, fire didn't scorch earth, and water didn't put out the fire. I was making these spheres float and then fall into each other, then separate into three spheres again. I also remember my girl being there and she was telling me how gifted I was.

The next part of my Dream took place in my Grandmothers house and involved family I haven't seen in a while. They were all watching tv while I was practicing my telekinesis, calling a ping pong ball to me. I would throw it to one of them, and pull it back before they caught it. They all seemed marginally impressed by this but it didn't matter, I haven't performed telekinesis in one of my Dreams since before I started hitting the pipe regularly, so I was stoked even if they weren't. This is part of my reality checks but tonight I think I became lost in the Dream and didn't reach Lucidity because it's been a while since anything like this has happened.

The last part of the Dream I remember was when I was using a computer. It was more like an iPad or laptop, but I remember being able to read a character bio from some story I have never seen before. Most Dream books say that one way to check if you are Dreaming is to check print. It either appears distorted, or when you look away and then look back the text has changed. Well this doesn't work for me. I was able to read this bio without trouble, and the more interesting thing is that it seemed to be a bio of a character I'm creating for my book. I also saw a picture of this character next to the bio.

One big reason I want to regain my Lucidity is for my book, Dreams boost the creative process undoubtedly. I believe tonight's Dream signals progress in my endevour. Not only did I manipulate the Dream in a fashion that is common for myself, but I have started to bring my story into the Dream as well, just as I wanted to. The next step of course is to gain full Lucidity and delve deeper into the world of the Dreamscape, my story.

Last night provided no LD. I did however remember a few parts to the dreams I did have. These won't make much sense, but that's how I remember them. Just pieces...

I remember being with a single other person in my first recollection. I don't recall where we were, other than outside a building I didn't recognize. I must have been semi lucid at this point because I can remember thinking to myself "you gotta believe it's possible" in order to jump onto this building I was next to. Not sure why I was trying to jump onto it, I think the person I was with was teaching me something.

I remember trying to jump straight onto it, just leap 20 feet into the air and land on top. I just couldn't. I tried several times unsuccessfully, until I just decided to pull myself up onto it. This building was larger than a house so even to grab a hold of the roof was a feat. This is how I got up though. I leaped up and in a single motion, grabbed the ledge and launched myself over the top landing on the roof. When I got up there, it was no longer just the two of us. There was a group of about five including myself.

The next, and last, thing I remember about this dream was trying to change something, but I don't remember what or why. However, I felt I needed to close my eyes for this to occur. I knew it was a mistake before I did it, but I did it anyway. Closing my eyes, more often than not, only succeeds in waking me up. No matter much I try to stay in the dream I get woken up. This time was no different. What I found interesting this time though was that once I closed my eyes I tried to reopen them unsuccessfully. I felt myself slip out of the dream and there was nothing I could do. I tried again and again to open my eyes, but still nothing. After a few more seconds I opened my eyes to the darkened view of my bedroom.

I think that I experienced a bit of sleep paralysis there at the end.



Dream 2

This Dream is just short bits of me with random people, being chased by random things. I never do see my pursuer though, I always seem to get away...

Sorry I don't have anything more entertaining today. Once my Lucids come back I'll have story after to story, believe that.