lucid

NOTES:

- photo above was my computer's desktop background since I thought of trying TOTM
- was reading Sivanson's and Sageous' thread
- slept around 9:20 pm
- did Triple Gem, breath focus, loving-kindness, 9 purif. breath, and let myself go to sleep without willing to lucid, only to remember
- woke up in the middle of the night, willed myself back to sleep after telling myself it's a WBTB (I didn't stand up and do normal stuff though).
- woke up around 4 am.

LUCID:

I woke up finding myself right outside of our house in my hometown right at noon. I realized with excitement that I am lucid, and started to wonder what to do. Then I remember the TOTM! I stood and looked at the sky.

I looked up at the sky and willed it to snow. It was high, freakin' noon, with only a few clouds and a warm sun. Also, I never experienced snow in my life (it never snows in our country). I raised my arms and looked at the clouds, and the sky started to darken as the clouds move to my command. Then it becomes night, but still no snow. However, as it became night, I saw the aurora borealis! It was lovely (we never see auroras here in our country)! But then it wasn't my goal. Not yet, and I let it dissipate.

I continued willing it too snow, and I then felt the first cold snow drop on my arms! I was ecstatic! It was a slow snow, and it didn't pour down as strongly as I wanted to, but it snows! Then I started singing, "We wish you a Merry Christmas" while walking back and forth in our yard. I can barely remember it now, but I chose it because it's such a short song. I remember singing the part "Good tidings we bring" and then "We wish you a Merry Christmas" again.

Finally, I thought it is time to go up and the sky and talk to the person or being or anything that creates the aurora. I flew up and fell on our roof. I jumped again to fly but fell down again. I lost lucidity.

NON-LUCID:

I was inside my room in our hometown. It was dark; the light was off. I was worried because my computer might be connected the entire night.

I was waiting for a jeep outside the street. The ground was wet. It looked gloomy, like rain just poured in our is about to.

I am inside the mall, talking to friends. We were waiting for something. RF and Gg are there, along with a couple of guys. They look like two guys I know from college. Unimportant.

3:17 am

NOTES:

- new sandalwood incense from Divisoria
- calm-abiding meditation
- read 4 pages of Tibetan Yoga
- watched Dante's Cove before sleep
- read comics before sleep
- MILD
- also daydreamed, and daydreamed I realized I was dreaming
- slept on my right side

I am in my room in our hometown. A lot of things are happening. There are also a lot of people. All of a sudden, I have a feeling that everything is weird. I said, Of course everything is weird! I am in a dream!

I laughed. There's a small, noisy white dog or puppy jumping around my room, and it was dark. I commanded to light up the room and told the dog to shut up. They did.

I went to our home's kitchen area. I remembered the Buddha after looking at the living room area from the kitchen area. I imagined a Golden Buddha statue. I went into a vajra position and recited the Manjushri mantra. I felt like I was being guided to say it properly, because it was a little difficult to remember the words. Also, there are a lot of distracting activities going on.

I was able to hold on for a while before I lost lucidity. This was the longest lucid dream I ever had, and the most aware.

NOTE: Audio 2

Outsmart. Terminal.

Clay. Magick. birds. escape. Stegosaurus. Bengal tiger. Escape to forest. Trees. Chased by an elephant/bear. He's coming. I became aware. I dropped my clay weapon and challenged. I said now what? This creature ran past me. He smiled. He looked like a native from some Caribbean/African island. Or Somalia. He started to walk back then he looked back at me and said, now I teach you how to dance Latin. I said it's so cool.

Office. Thumbtack. A text or other. Boss. Airplane. Miss. The next one to? CLosed. The airplane of individuals. Army.

Forest. Choice. Javin. Leader. Zombies.
Giant rats. Running. Enclossed in a building. Travel.
Walking. School.
I felt like I knew I was dreaming. I tried to focus to make sure I don't get lost in the dream. The faces of people kept changing. I saw some words on the shirt of a person but I didn't check if it changed. School. Arrived there. Apol. Earthquake. A crack on the room. Go back. An office. Get the USB.

1:42 p.m.

I thought I was awake. I was on the bed. I can feel the bed. I can feel my body. I can see my room. The light was in. But I move my arm in front of me and I can't see it. I can't move it or can't see it. Am I getting blind? I can see my right arm move via my right eye. Realized it's a sleep paralysis. I willed myself to wake up. No go.

I am starting to panic. I locked my door, so no one can come in and help me. I moved but my eyes are still faulty. Afraid. How can I live with a bad eyesight? I thought up dozens of ways to live. I am hearing the audio playing in the background. I want to wake up. But I can't. I'm still in the in between. I tried moving my body and feet. I can still hear the audio. I moved my right arm and took the phone so I can change the audio; didn't work. I'm still asleep. Relaxed somehow. I just have to wait it out. Went into a semi-aware dream. Moved in the "room" and did capoeria moves. I jumped-crunched. McDo. Meeting all N2. Donnie. BP nearby. Change of venue. Closer. Checked my body on bed. Still can't move. I was on the bed trying to move. I can but not awake.

Finally woke up completely. Moved my arms, checked my room.

around 7 to 8 a.m.:

I felt like I was pulled through my toes while I'm lying down. I see a lot of glitters. Sparkling. Not bright but distracting. I thought "Finally, I'm aware as I am about to fall asleep!" The feeling of dragging stopped. I smiled. I knew i'm in a dream now. I "woke up" in a strange place. My feet is hanging from the knees down on a cabinet. The rest of my body is "lying" on thin air. I said this is a dream, so I should be able to go through the wall. I pushed "up" with my face, but got stuck. I can't go through the wall. Starting to lose awareness. Told myself I'm aware while I'm dreaming. Not very helpful.

"Blacked out" due to lights, i.e. moving sun. Still got glimpses of light and images. Tried to morph my hands. The most it did was glow white and more fingers. Tentacly. Losing awareness. Decided to just observe. Still no good. Glow. I asked Master Zombie to appear and teach me. I saw the Isetann grocery where I did that test yesterday. Fell asleep.

Dream: Dorm. Travel. Orange. Glow.

I was in a mall, but somebody mentioned that the ground, or underground, floor is full of zombies, or at least people pretending to be zombies. It seems we can access it only via elevator.

For some reason, I ended up there, and I was outside of the elevator. It's a room of sorts. I can't move. I can see the elevator. I started to hear zombie moans and shuffles. I saw the elevator still open, and one "zombie" walking close to it. Then I saw one behind me. I was kneeling or sitting on the ground, stuck. My vision showed a crosshair as I panicked. I think I "know" that they're just pretending, but it's still scary.

I was in the elevator again. The inside looks like a wall, with rough texture. There are three buttons, arranged in a column. The top floor, the middle (regular) floor, and the underground floor. I tried pressing the middle button, but I saw that the bottom button has already been pressed.

I was with other people in the elevator. The door to the underground floor opened, and the zombies were there. As they enter the elevator, they become "normal" humans.

I was wondering what the top floor contains, but never got the chance to press it.

I was in one of the "outside" areas of the underground. It looks something like a mine. There was a lady, asking for directions. Somehow, she went to the elevator area. I heard her scream, and then laugh at the zombie prank.

Lucid:

I was on my bed. I heard the lucid dreaming induction, and I realized I was in a dream. I "woke up" and saw the surroundings in a spiral. I can barely make sense of the view. I also forgot to take off my contacts, so I might have subconsciously included that fact in my lucid dream.

I tried to "follow" to spiral, as I felt my legs move or float towards the wall, and beyond the wall. Then I was standing in my room, but everything is still out of focus. I got dizzy, and then I was back on bed. I thought I woke up, but I immediately went into another dream.

Non-Lucid:

I was in a room with a LOT of people I "know," or at least in the dream. I don't know any of them in real life, yet I felt some sort of kinship with them. We were gathering for something. We're a music or band. I'm not sure if we were setting up the place or bringing it down.

After a while, a new set of people arrived. Another "band," but they're still part of the "group." One I distinctly remember has long, curly/wavy hair reaching past his shoulders. I think he wore red shirt. We rearranged the place, putting up some chairs. I checked the nearby room, but the chairs there are mostly broken down, or at least not good to support people.

Then everyone's gone. Probably elsewhere. But "I" was "under" or viewing the underside of houses. I think it's the same house, but I'm looking at the "underground" of each rooms. I, along with a companion (not sure who, or whether it was a guy or girl), looked at how some of them have dripping "water," and how the spot immediately below it is wet. Some are clean. It seems they "throw" those wet stuff into a "hole" on the floor, and it drips down to the ground.

Then some police arrived. They were looking for us. We had to hide. I saw a closet, and went into it with my companion. I hoped to remain invisible amidst the variety of stuff in that room/closet.

I was in an office, with lawyers. We talked about something. A case? Then something about a 10-year-old girl?

State: Almost 5 pm, humid, and I can hear a CEP audio, and the TV from afar.

I was completely awake. I had just been dreaming a few minutes ago, and then now I can "see through the eyelids." I can see the mirror, the walls, the windows (which was open, and there are tall grasses visible beyond it, but in reality, it's closed, and there are no grasses behind it).

I can also see my right hand. I tried moving it, and I felt it rise, but I can see my right hand and arm stay put. I thought I was probably almost astral traveling. I moved my head, twisting it, to get out of the body, together with my arms and torso. I then vaguely saw my face, so close to mine, but shaven. I felt like an outgrowth trying to cut itself off from the body. It was very hard.

I finally got out, but I no longer see my body on the bed. And I'm in a different room. My view was very hazy, and I can see a cabinet/divider in the room. I am across the bed in the room. There's a door to the outside behind me (there's no door to the outside in my room). I rubbed my hands together to stay more lucid, and I commanded "clarity." Nothing happened. I saw my bed (different color, size, etc.), and a glimpse of my "body," and I'm back in my body.

I almost woke up, but somehow, something clicked in my mind, and I'm in the middle state between waking up and asleep once more. I thought I was really awake this time. I still can't move my body, but I can still feel moving my "astral arms."

After a short while, though, I just decided to close my eyes, and I "opened" them up again. Still same problem. I started to get anxious. I worried "What if I can't wake up from this?"

I closed my eyes again, for a longer time, and I sensed another click or pop in my mind, and I knew I was "awake." I opened my eyes. It looks the same, but a little different. I didn't dare try moving my hands, afraid that I'm still stuck. After a while, I moved, and it moved. I'm awake.

I was travelling. I was on what looked like a cruise boat with Rob and Sarah. We're heading somewhere. Manila?

Then I was with Lizette, at night, in the airport. A driver. We tried to catch up to the train.

Afternoon at home, with a wonderful garden, and then a couple of pools. One is wide and deep, with various sea creatures and plants. The other is a small one, with a few creatures and plants.

Morning. Woke up in the limo with Lizette, in an unfamiliar place. Lizette then said we have to hurry because she has to buy the ingredients to cook our meal in the Bacolod marketplace. I then thought that there's a marketplace called Bacolod in Iloilo. We got down and took a ride on a trisikad (pedicab). It was too heavy because there are too many people. The others went down, so we can ride. Bhebs was there.

We arrived. I tried to pay, and found only one P20 bill. Then it multiplies each time. I took one and gave it to the driver.

We arrived in the home and the colors and the sheer unfamiliarity of the place made me lucid.

LUCID:

I realized I was in a dream. Told the two women there I was dreaming, and they were simply indifferent. I looked around. It was bright yellow; not the usual dull yellow I experience in non-lucid dreams. I observed, and rubbed my hands together to stay lucid longer. I saw a small mirror, and found blue, gooey stuff between my eyes. I took them out. Then my eyebrows are sharp and connected. I saw my right nipple, on the bigger mirror of my room inside our home, and it was wide, with what looked like outgrowth of the same color. I looked down at it.

I tried flying, by jumping up, but I only ended up a few feet up in the air, and through the 2nd floor. I saw the 2nd floor. I went down. I also tried opening the eyes of a sleeping woman.

I went out of the house, saying it's too stuffy. I rubbed my hands as I went out to make sure that I stay lucid. I keep telling myself to focus. There were three words in my mind about focus, but I forgot what they were. They keep interchanging, like how things are when I start to fall asleep.

Afternoon. I ended up in what looked like the Eras Station, but it was wider, and looked more like a plaza. I jumped, but still stuck a few feet up in the air. Then I sensed my feet as if it's still flat on the floor. I thought that it might be because my real body is stepping on something. Then I raised my right hand in a Superman position, and curved my feet, and then I flew.

Night. I flew up the tin roofs of squatters, almost hitting the roof. Still need to take more control. There were other people flying, and they were talking to me.

Lost lucidity.

I landed in a squatter area. there are tin roofs that were turned into walls/gates. One was opened, and there are people playing computer games.

I was at home. I was in the other room. I accidentally disconnected the internet connection. Sister was in my room, using the computer, and asked when the internet will return. I told her in a minute. I reconnected it. There are people outside the window.

NOTES:

- I slept from around 2 or 3 pm to around 9:30 pm. I was extremely well rested.
- I slept around 12 or 1 am.
- I completed all sets and subsets of the Tattwas right before sleeping.
- I woke up once in a while.
- I decided I will LD.
- I had almost no RC the whole day, except just remembering it before sleep to LD.

Morning or noon. I was with friends. We were traveling. Walking from a gymnasium of sorts into a small area. We have a guide. An Indian guide? We were going to walk over a "sand dune," but I decided to walk around it. Then from afar, an old, bearded tricycle driver said something in a language I did not understand. I started to think we were "caught," or something.

Then our guide started walking to that direction. Then driver moved his tricycle near us. In his tricycle was a pregnant woman in white dress. I asked our guide what happened. He motioned for us to ride the tricycle. I took the "backseat," the seat behind the driver. The rest of the gang took their place inside. I realized we were supposed to ride a jeep, but maybe this is faster.

Riding the jeep, it suddenly turned to night. We were going through the countryside, or so it seems. I can see the surroundings quite well, and not just a black area. Trees, etc. The red "roof" of the tricycle that I'm holding on to slid out, and I almost fell out, with upper body leaning all the way back. But I didn't fall. The Korean driver profusely apologized. I told him it's okay.

Morning, around after dawn. We passed by an area with some small bodies of water. We found small animals, and specially penguins. For some reason, I loved penguins, and I looked forward to playing with them once we got down the vehicle, which has now turned into a low-flying plane.

We started landing. When we landed, it turned into a helicopter for the vertical landing. We landed on a sandy area.

Chase. Running. A thief. I was with two girls, one is younger than the other, inside what looked to me like a Counterstrike game location. I chased after the thief, using the opposite direction, but found no way. I followed the thief's trail instead, and found it led outside. I looked for him, but he already got away.

I was able to reach an area where there was a cleaning guy, setting up stuff. I asked him if he saw the thief. He said he didn't.

Then I suddenly "see" a dark area, with bonfire. There was a leader, who looked like he's a tribal leader from Africa's shamanic past. He has bones dangling on his body, and white streaks on his dark body and face. There was a guy who arrived and offered to sell him a tiara. He said it's worth 24 karats, or something. The chief looked at it and was happy. Then I told him it doesn't look expensive, and might just be a toy. The chief started having second thoughts, but the thief already left.

I was back with the two girls. I verified with them that the tiara is a cheap toy.

I was in a prison. There were only individual prison cells, separated by walls on either side, and one "gate." I was with friends. I was guarding the prison. There were two guys in the prison who I know. I discreetly set them free using the keys. More people were put inside. The guard after me was stricter.

I was at home, at night. I was waiting for a friend to contact me. He lives somewhere across the street. We were contacting each other through text. I recalled we were talking in the coliseum before.

I went to the mall. I was going to meet them. I changed my sim card for some reason. I was waiting for them at the food court. There were three of them. It was Cool and his two best friends. They took the seat a bit farther than where I was, so I walked to them and took a seat. They were talking, and eating the nachos. I tried to ride along with the conversation, and ate some nachos. But then I started to wonder why I seem to be ignored.

Then Cool said something to his guy best friend about getting some nachos, to which he replied, "I would, if this guy (he said a term or nickname but I forget) would just leave the food alone." I was surprised, and so I told them my name. They just looked, still not recognizing me.

I become hysterical, and then realized I was in a dream. I cried on the seat, and they just left. I was just acting to see how they would react. I then thought, "So that's how they would treat me." I then looked around. I told myself "I'm in a dream," and I tried to stand still and not do anything to lose lucidity. The environment changed to the streets, no longer in the mall. I was looking at people walk by. There was a small, one-story building in front of me, and to the left is a plaza of sorts. The sun was shining from that area, which seems to suggest that's the east side. Or maybe it was setting down and that's west.

I started to start losing consciousness, so I rubbed my hands. Then I noticed my sister arrive from behind. She looked unhappy (as usual), and she was going to give me something in a plastic bag. I tried spinning around since I've read it changes the place. Now it's night, in a garden/plaza type of place. And my sister was still there, still looking as unhappy as usual. I just took the plastic bag and she left. There are still people around, but it's already night, with the usual yellowish posts.

For no reason at all, I started running around and jumping. I lost lucidity, and I forget this part of the dream.

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NOTE: I left the music playing randomly until I fell asleep around 11:30 pm. It stopped after 30 minutes or an hour after. I woke up sometime in the middle of the night, with the music still playing, and did a midnight adoration. Went back to sleep and had this dream. This was before the alarm went off.

I did around 3-5 reality checking throughout the day, mainly hands and words/time, and reminding myself to stay still and rub hands or spin around once I have a lucid dream. I also did nine conscious breathing counts before sleeping, and then visualizing a previous dream.

I was playing Mario World. I was in Yoshi's Island, in the number 2 spot, I think, the one on the right of Yoshi's place. When I moved to the 3rd spot on the island, I found out that, aside from fire flower and cape, if Mario takes two mushrooms, he can float like a balloon.

I then reached the 1st spot of the Donut plains. In first person mode, I got a feather and tried to fly. I was on the upper portion of the Vanilla cave, where there's a puffin whale chasing you all the time. I turned into a balloon to fly away from it.

I was in Libertad market, where the Bata, Mandalagan and San Agustin jeeps pass by. I was facing east; it is early morning, around 7 am. I realized I was dreaming. I tried to fly, and I flew a few feet of the ground, and landed on the roof of a store. I told myself I'm dreaming, and was so happy, and I said "fly." I can see great details of the area, but the colors are like very detailed. I told myself to be aware. It started to get hazy. I commanded "clarity." I felt my headache, and chest pains due to my asthma (in real waking life), and I woke up.

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NOTE: I slept around 12:30 am, hard-of-breath, and I thought I wouldn't be able to sleep. Played some music and motivational CDs in the background. Focused on counting, but fell asleep almost immediately. I watched LP: Shadow of the Colossus on YouTube before sleeping and completed the entire series. I woke up from the alarm around 5:30 am. I didn't turn it off, and went back to sleep, trying to focus on a scene, for a MILD.

Night. A covert mission. I was in an airport/army base. We're trying to destroy or stop something. We hid in the tall grasses. Then I shot one person/guard/tower. I thought we were good, but when we got closer, one of the tower spotted us.

We ran into it, the landing area, trying to finish the job. There were blue laser shots. We ran, and then we found an aircraft on the skies. It shot something huge down on us. Although it missed us, we felt the shockwave when it hit the ground, and it blew us away into a wall. Good thing I was able to land on my limbs, and I turned back and caught a comrade.

We ran as fast as we can, but then we sensed someone land on the top of the wall/building. It was some samurai in red clothing, with two blades. We kept running, but it seems the enemy has arrived.

Raining. It was a hazy afternoon. I was fighting blade-to-blade with a samurai in a long, white and black "dress." Reminds me of Kuchiki Byakuya from Bleach (I haven't watched that thing in a looong time).

In a small motel room. I was with three alien-looking people (Dragonball's Namek), and one was a child. They were trying to hide. But then we were discovered. Someone threw a sword right down through the roof of the room. I told the them to run for it.

(Semi-lucid from here)

Then Byakuya showed up again. He was going to chase the three of them, but I attacked, and we fought. He made a dash for the aliens, but I used my Zanpakutou's ability to block his path and distract him (it throws a shadow image of the sword, which can then block a path, and attack the enemy. I think it looks like one of Cloud's swords).

We fought til dawn, facing an orange sunset. I was defeated, and I was about to use my final attack to finish him off, but he did a flash step to evade it and appeared behind me. But somehow, I was able to use the attack, a bomb of sorts, which divided Byakuya into two beings, that looked like white paper bags with wings . With that, I was contented that it will give enough time for the Nameks to escape.

The end.

I was staying in a dormitory. It is unfamiliar. I saw a local actor in our country (L.M.) downstairs, across the... uh, side-lawn?? He's on the way to the showers. He was with another person, who is unfamiliar to me.

I went to the showers to take a bath. All are taken, or some are not working. LM is still there, so I instead went to take a bath with him. I noticed the walls and realized I was in a dream. LM became J.A. But then everything became hazy and white. I then commanded "Clarity." Didn't work. I tried again. No go.

Then I tried moving around, but then I heard someone say that whatever I do in the dream, I will also do with my body. I "woke up," and noticed I was in a different room, with some friends, some of them are girls. I recall some trees outside the window.

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Notes:

I did around 5 or more reality checking, but they were not that phenomenal. I guess I just got used to it. I also listened to reality checking and MILD mp3 on my way to sleep, but it's in shuffle mode with other mp3, music and motivational sounds.