side notes

I just find it weird that I've been doing a mix of MILD (before sleep), WILD (wake up at around 5:30 am and try to get back to sleep), and EILD (alarm intentionally, and sun unintentionally), but I seem I'm getting DILD results instead. (@_@)

July 25, August 4 and August 9. Ten and then five days.

Those are the dates I had LDs. The distance between the days that I LD is getting short I will continue to practice, and I guess I'll just expect an LD every night. This seems to increase the chances of me having an LD. Also, I think my LDs happen when the sun is up, and not when it is still dark.

Granted, my LDs aren't very clear yet, and are very short. Will work on getting consistency, while working on clarity and length.

I tried to remember my dream, but only got fragments. Worse is that I woke up with trouble breathing, so I wasn't able to write down the fragments. Now they're all gone.

It took me three nine-counts of deep breathing last night, hoping for a MILD, but I just felt out-of-breath. So I decided to visualize the beach scene, but it keeps jumping into aliens and stuff, and I fell asleep.

I did not the alarm that's supposed to wake me up for a MILD. I better change the sound of the alarm, or turn up the volume.

Still working on lucid dreaming. Seems I can't focus enough to do WILD each night.

Lost more than 24 hours of sleep yesterday. I decided not to try LD last night to make way for enough sleep.

Unfortunately, my sister had to wake me up. I'm grateful that I have a stress-free job and boss, but it was easily replaced by family. Sheesh.

I did not hear the first alarm, which was set to 4 am. I heard the second one at 5:30, but did not bother turning it off, since it was set to ring mildly anyway, and the snooze was turned off. That's when I had my first dream, Cool School.

The second one was after I woke up at 7:00 am. It was cold and raining, so I went back to sleep. That's when I had my second dream, Enemy Allies.

I woke up around 8:30 am, with the alarm. It was still cold, so although it was the last alarm to completely wake me up to work for the day, I went back to sleep, and dreamed my last dream for today, Summon Battles.

I woke up around 10:30 am.

I played MILD induction and autosuggestion last night when I slept around 12:00 am. I recall relaxing my body, but I fell asleep, like I usually do, before anything else. Which didn't really help, since I was supposed to visualize a scene. Or maybe I did, but that's when I fell asleep.

The scene includes a guy I know, JA, on the beach, which is supposed to be a dream sign. Interestingly, based on some recent dreams, it's not JA who appears, but LM. It seems they interchange in my dreams for some reason. And instead of a beach, I only some some rivers, or situation near the sea.

Tonight, instead of visualizing JA, I change it to LM. It will feel weird though, but at least I think I can visualize him better. And instead of a beach, I think I'll visualize a river populated with buildings and houses and factories. With some people.

I'll record what happens tomorrow.

I did not hear the first alarm, which was set to 4 am. I heard the second one at 5:30, but did not bother turning it off, since it was set to ring mildly anyway, and the snooze was turned off. That's when I had my first dream, Cool School.

The second one was after I woke up at 7:00 am. It was cold and raining, so I went back to sleep. That's when I had my second dream, Enemy Allies.

I woke up around 8:30 am, with the alarm. It was still cold, so although it was the last alarm to completely wake me up to work for the day, I went back to sleep, and dreamed my last dream for today, Summon Battles.

I woke up around 10:30 am.

I played MILD induction and autosuggestion last night when I slept around 12:00 am. I recall relaxing my body, but I fell asleep, like I usually do, before anything else. Which didn't really help, since I was supposed to visualize a scene. Or maybe I did, but that's when I fell asleep.

The scene includes a guy I know, JA, on the beach, which is supposed to be a dream sign. Interestingly, based on some recent dreams, it's not JA who appears, but LM. It seems they interchange in my dreams for some reason. And instead of a beach, I only some some rivers, or situation near the sea.

Tonight, instead of visualizing JA, I change it to LM. It will feel weird though, but at least I think I can visualize him better. And instead of a beach, I think I'll visualize a river populated with buildings and houses and factories. With some people.

I'll record what happens tomorrow.

It might be just stress, or lack of sleep, but I have been having trouble remembering dreams lately. They all have been hazy ones that I can barely remember. Hmmm

It seems my dreams have been getting shorter since I tried waking up after 4.5 hours to record dream, which I've been failing to do so lately because of stress. I just go back directly to sleep when the alarm goes off. Then I wake up 1.5 hours later, and supposedly to do awareness exercises, and then go back to sleep for WILD. So far, the results are less lucid, short dreams.

But then, I read that WILD is supposed to be challenging. I feel demoralized by it though.

It seems my dreams have been getting shorter since I tried waking up after 4.5 hours to record dream, which I've been failing to do so lately because of stress. I just go back directly to sleep when the alarm goes off. Then I wake up 1.5 hours later, and supposedly to do awareness exercises, and then go back to sleep for WILD. So far, the results are less lucid, short dreams.

But then, I read that WILD is supposed to be challenging. I feel demoralized by it though.

Inner Awareness
melancholy
time speed
Feeling of rejection
Feeling of Separation
Depression
quest/mission


Action
flying
hostage
physical attack
Fight (I rarely do)
Magic - 2
Quest (my life is far less exciting than that right now)
Train (rarely see those here)
Parachute and paraglide (never see those here, LOL)
Hazy - 2
S is sarcastic
Speed of time - 2
quarrel


Form
transparency
person disappeared
place transformed into a forest
dragon
miner's hat
potato guy
tiny people
demi-human 2
wooden boat
huge tiles
parallel worlds
imps
dark
change face

Context
absence of people
college
Integrated School
potentially sexual encounter with a highly unusual person
executive
on stage
Monique - 2
chase - 3
strange place with mom
Reggie (haven't seen him for more than a year, and he lives elsewhere)
Rob (haven't seen him for over a year, and he swore never to go to Bcd anymore)
Mike P and Rob together
Clown store
SA8 in public
Clowns (a rare sight)
Old dormitory (haven't been there for years)
War - 2
Tanks
Restaurant
Cruise
robots
Mom's suggestion of carrying the sack of rice with the help of an artist (yeah, he'll paint all the way home)
On a roof (I don't climb on roofs. Or at least not lately)
Don Bosco (it's been years since I've been there)
Sir Ted and class (we're not in the same school)
School in College (I'm not in school right now)
Needed to pay rent (I'm not renting anything)
Strange place - 3
Helicopter
Wall climbing
Beds outside the house -2
Wide "doorway"
Location is different from the actual boarding house location
S is sarcastic
Repetition (this is based on what happened last week, where I went to S's boarding house)
Wide "doorway"
Location is different from the actual boarding house location
Repetition (this is based on what happened last week, where I went to S's boarding house)
strange perspective
ryan f
dark
sword
strange bed