RelaxAndDream

Tonight i slept not too good because of some worries i have. i tried to suppress as good as possible and deal with it today but nevertheless negative thoughts came up now and then... my recall is totally fragmented and the lucid i induced was tensed. i felt like having not my potential dreamcontrol/powers and felt rushed somehow....

7 fragments + 1 lucid

i lay on my back, tense my bodyparts and then relax them i shortly go thru my goals but i cant concentrate and my head feels restless. i doing some deep breaths and start with SSILD cycles. i notice how slowly my head calms down and i get in the right mood. i sometimes do a little imaginary tactile movements to see if it feels like a WILD but nope. my body is deeply relaxed but i feel to aware for a wild so i turn on my side and do look at my closed eyelids.
laying around on my back, the TV is on i suddenly think "wait what if i already am dreaming?" i do a nosepinch and am lucid [i have no TV in my room, i nearly dont watch TV at all]. i stand up and i am naked. i try to will the TV out because the babble of the TV bothers me but i cant just will it off. i try to imagine having a remote in my hand but it wont work. i try a short behind my back summon but i am too restless for this. i decide to ignore the TV (there is no picture just the voice). i remember my tasks and try to summon FryingMan but again not calm enough... i go to my desk and see a candle. i hold it upside down and do a hand gesture with my right hand like it is as lighter and my thumb is the flame. i see no flame but i ignore that and hold it under the candle. at the beginning nothing happens but i turn it around and look. the candle is brighter in the middle and some moments later a flame appears, at the beginning very transparent and week but then materializes to a normal flame. at least something i think. i think about leaving my room because outside summoning of people might be easier. i look down and still naked i feel the cold skin. thinking about to change something about it but it would be a waste of time. i phase thru my window and slowly fly/float down. Some meters away there is a couple looking strangely at me. i am a little confused because of the fact that i might not be dreaming? or the fact i have no cloths on? probably the last one because its obviously a dream and i floating down... i land on the ground (in my actual street that is in front of my house) i look at the main-floor of the building and see a shop with a window front with a shelf behind it where one can see folder. i do a hand gesture and some of the folder fall down to the ground. i fly up again and decide to phase thru the window/wall to the child/sleeping-room of my direct neighbors underneath. i stand in the room and look around. i pick up a phone and push the button for redial. i hear the sound of dialing and then a female voice telling me "this phone is not connected" or something. i go to the floor and the woman who lives here [i picked up my book about Dream Yoga by andrew holecek there yesterday ] stands now there. first moment she seems to get scared and wants to scream but i promptly calm her down with some words and kneel down because for whatever reason i want to see her feet. her husband (looking different than IWL) accompanies us and i greet him too. i ask her what shoe size she has and she repeatedly answers something like each other in relation? because they seem to be different size. i stand up and also pick up the "phone" that now is a shoe [schema: feet --> shoe?!]. i decide to leave again and go into the kitchen and jump thru a table with some plants, with a flytrap among them and out thru the window and wall again. i float outside and notice i still have the shoe in my hand. i see the woman walks into the kitchen too and says something about that shoe. i phase my hand inside and reach her the shoe. she thanks and i let myself fall down, accelerating to the ground. i smash with all four on the ground but feel no harm. i stand up and find myself in a different street. way smaller and no people around... thats bad because i think again to summon FM. i go behind a corner and look there i hold my hand behind my back and call for him but again no success... i jump on a wall and look down to maybe find a more busy street. i feel unsettled and wake up before i can do something against it.