non-lucid

1) I was in surgery. Another doctor walked into my room he wasn't in a good mood, didn't say anything and was throwing sppons at the wall. One stuck to the wall and I looked at the walla nd say that it was covered in very cheap poorly fitted wallpaper with wrinkles in. A patient then cam in and was talking about rubbish and I was annoyed because she had been with me half an hour. I wne out and met another doctor and made a cup of tea, we were complaining about patients to each other. Then I was outside someone's house, I think I had to tell a young man that he had cancer, I met him outside but he said he had to go in before I could say anyhting, his girlfriend was in a small car stuck in the mud I offered to help but she said no. Then I followed the man into the house. It was massive inside with a metal staircase going up for hundred of feet along one wall, leading up towards another massive load of flats. I got vertigo as I climbed the stairs and got stuck very high up clinging onto the stairs which were really exposed.

Competition night #6

Annoyingly I awoke in the early hours, remembered a full dream and was convinced I would remember it in the morning.... all gone now. Only remembered 1 full dream.

1) I was sitting in a canteen (again, why do I always dream about canteens??) with lots of teams of people one at each table. Some were identified by particular colours on their backs. Then I was serving with my wife. At one table we were serving a man and his young daughter, for some reason I asked if I should treat them as a 'couple'. Then I was at a table with lots of other people, I think it was breakfast. Everyone else had been served a rather odd looking starter. The person at the head of the table announced that if I wanted a shave I had an appointment at 8.45am and I had to rush off to it as it was almost time so left the table. Then I was at the entrance to an airport. I was pushing a shopping trolley full of food, and I had to go in to get a new passport, and I thought that I would be able to leave the trolley to one side whilst I got the passport. I pushed it up to the first barrier and was asked for my current passport which I didn't have. I knew that I wouldn't be able to get a new passport now and had to turn around. As I left the airport the trolley tripped over the curb and fell over, lots of electronic good fell out and I started to pick them up.

I woke early and was unable to get back to sleep, so had a WBTB.

2) I can only remember the end of the dream I was meeting a man in a long street in a seaside village. Suddenly I became lucid and immediately, without thinking of anything else like stabilsation shot off upwards trying to fly, I got to the top of the buildings and immediately woke up. Not a very satisfying experience, lasting all of about 1 second.

Competition night #5
Lots of little fragments today, frustrating that I can't remember much more of the dreams:

1) Chosing a drink, I decided on Baileys

2) I was with a young man. He was going to leave, I asked if he wanted a drink first, he said yes and I reached around to s drinks dispening machine and poured a cup of what I thought was water but it was actually a fizzy drink so I said I'm not going to waste it, put it to one soide and went to get him a glass of water.

3) I was with my wife and children. I had done some shopping on my motorbike and parked it by the car to unload shopping into the car. My wife reminded me that my mother in law was going home with them so I had to leave room for her so starting putting all the shopping around the seats. there were piles of cardboard boxes. I turned around to see a very young car park attendant wheeling my motorbike away and he parked it - I asked him why he had done that and he lectured me about leaving my motorbike in the way and what would happen if an old granny had tripped over it. I was annoyed but just ignored him.

4) Something was happening in my field (next to our house) I remember a very old friend form university being there but can't remember much else.

1) At university. We were in an auditorium with a glass front looking out onto fields. Someone was explaining that aspargus grew on trees and was then transplanted into the fields were it gre. I couldn't see any asparagus so was confused, then looked at a map which showed where everything was planted. We were then all in another large classroom, it was very nice with carpet floor and soft chairs. It was almost exam time. Someone was explaining how important a particular form was and was making sure we all had a copy of it, I thought I probably didn't but could look it up online and thought it a bit silly that there was so much emphasis on just one form. Then it was the end of the lesson everyone got up and started to leave. I pushed in front of some girls leaving the room, The corridors were rather complicated and I followed someone else out. Then we were in a canteen and I was looking at a large metal vending type machine with lots of cartons of drinks.

Night 3 of the competition and nothing. I'm struggling with some personal issues which have stopped my lucid dreaming in its tracks and recall has fallen to almost nothing. I can't concentrate to do a WILD.

1) Fragment: Someone was angry - I watched him. He was on a quad bike with a large gas cylinder and rode off a track, across some grass, stopped took the cylinder off the back and set light to it. There was an explosion I saw it in slow motion. The man was badly burnt and now there was someone else with him who was also seriously burnt. The scene shifted to a rescue after the explosion. A caravan had been blown up and there were two people inside. I heard the firemen saying that they were taking it slowly as the people were safe inside as they dismantled the caravan.

I've got ongoing relationship problems, whichj really isn't helping me concentrate on dreams. And I can't read my writing from when I woke lst night.

Lots of fragments, 1 full dream:

1) Clearing out a fridge. I was searching for the thermostat and couldn't find it, I was convinced that my wife had hidden it and was getting annoyed with her. I was pulling out old food and putting it in a bag to throw away.

2) In London cycling up a street. Then I was walking along the pavement in the dark trying to avoid people. I threw something in a bin.

3) I was at the site of a new shopping centre. The central pillar had just been put up and metalwork was being bolted to it. I made a comment about 'not another shopping centre being built' and got some dirty looks from people who were very excited about it. The we were on a tour of the bulding site. I was amazed at how quickly it was being put together I could see the full air conditioning system in place with hundreds of pipes. We were shown the main air conditioning and heating unit in a massive room. It looked complicated and I looked at all the dials and pipework and saw lots of detail, then wandered through the control rooms.

4) A freind stood on the back of a boat. He needed help but no-one had heard him shout. He was stuck. I went over to him and he offered me a drink I looked in his fridge and chose a tomato juice.

Yes!!!! 1.30am and just had my first EVER proper lucid dream, it was amazing

Too excited to go back to bed, so this is a sort of WBTB.

Did a good WILD before sleep. Lots of movement but couldn't fall asleep.

1) I was behind a schoolboy waiting to use a cash machine. It was my turn I was messing about and the woman behind was being impatient. Then I was in a garden it was dark, I put my right foot into a ditch but it was a pond, I was wearing slippers they were then very wet. I went up a set of steps (more sort of floated) and was looking at a computer screen, the pointer had a really bright dot of light on it I looked away it was so bright and looked behind myself to see if it was a laser beam causing the bright light. Then I walked backwards I think I felt like I was flying so I immediately thought that I must be dreaming. I looked at my hands but they looked normal, I checked again, still normal, I thought what the hell I know I'm dreaming!! I flew into an open room and pushed a window open to go outside then thought why didn't I just fly through it? I was slightly worried remembering that sometimes people can't fly when they first get lucid and wondered if I might fall to the ground but felt confident. I felt like I was flying in a vertical position so went horizontal. I flew out of the window and out into a dark night. I could hear an old friend calling me in some woodland a way off so flew that way. I could feel cold air blowing past my face it was so realistic! I started to wonder how long it would last for and could feel myself breathign so I rubbed my hands together, then tried to spin. It was working but by now I was thinking that I was bound to wake up. I spun around again then I was stood by a BBQ in a garden. The lucidity was very poor and I knew I was starting to wake up and gave into it, in fact I was so amazed by this point that I wanted to wake up to write about it.

Added in morning:

2) In a vegetable garden of some sort. I was looking at a dense hedge of some sort of fruit plants. Some parts were covered in black plastic. I noticed that there was a blueberry bush growing at the back, as I pulled the black cover off some of it I could see the flowers opening as the sun hit it. I walked off down a path.

3) I took my car keys into a shop and hid them behind something on a shelf, can't remember why, I told the shop keeper what I was doing he seemed ok with it. Then I was on my motorbike, I was in Japan, the road was a about 20 lanes wide and I had to get into another lane, I think I was travelling into the city. I was with someone else on a motorbike, it was a woman. We got in the wrong lane. It all went slow for a moment she was explaining to me where each lane went to. Two of the lanes led to big metla structures I think they were cablecars, the one we went into I knew was arong. We got to the end of it and there was a boat. We stopped and looked the boat and there were lots of naked people stood on it. The woman drove away very fast and I said something like 'it might be fun!' then got on my bike and followed her.

Worst recall ever - lack of sleep and too much work, and personal problems.

All I remember is standing in a wooden shed looking at a plastic pot of weedkiller. I think my father might have been there and I was talking to him about it.

I was cooking a meal for only about 6 people. They were sitting in a room waiting for their food. Some people that I didn't like, who I went to medical school with, were taking the orders. I had started cooking and erturned to look at the orders. They were a total mess and I was really angry with the people taking the orders because they had got it wrong and I was cooking the wrong things. I desperately tried to get it in order and work out what people wanted and went back to the kitchen. Cooking went on forever. I realised that I had only cooked a few roast potatoes and had to start again. I threw some finely chopped potatoes in to try to cook something quickly. Then I cut some steaks and put them on to cook. Everything was getting really complicate and felt out of control. I looked at the clock and another hour went by. I realised that the potatoes still weren't cooked and I hadn't done enough again, and the steak was now overcooked. It was turning into a disaster.

Starting to get exhausted from work again, so recall dropping.

1) I was a student again and went to visit a friend at halls of residence. My wife was with me. We arrived at the halls and went to the shop another friend gave us bags of dirty clothes and asked us to give them to the other friend to wash. We walked to a phone box and phoned. He wasn't in, so we went up to visit someone else. There were a group of people there. I was looking through the wiring of the phone system and thinking how complicated it was. Then we phoned through to the original friend and got his girlfriend on the phone, she kept me hanging on for ages and wouldn't give me her flat number, eventually she gave me her floor number and said to phone when we got to the floor, I promised to be really quick and just hand over the clothers to be washed. I noticed the time and said to my wife that we had half an hour to do that, drive home, eat lunch then get to lectures.

WILDed before sleep - lots of sinking sensations and sensations of moving around.

1) I was stood at the back of my house with a work colleague. I was pointing with a stick at some overhead power lines showing him where there was a fault, he asked about a church in the distance I knew he was looking for a house locally and was thinking about converting it. We went into the lounge and I introduced him to our neighbour who has converted an old building and now lived in it. Then I was walking back down a corridor past my guitar and turned the corner, I loked back and the guitar had started playing itself, I knew that something supernatural was happening. I woke in my bed and saw the guitar standing by the wall in my bedroom, I knew immediately that I was still dreaming. I wanted to look at my hand to check that but couldn't move, although I just caught sight of my hand and it wasn't right. I thought that if I couldn't move I would try to OBE so concentrated on trying to move upwards, that didn't work. I tried to sit up - that was hard work! but I managed it, then I tried to move my legs, that was really difficult, I moved them and swung around, my body felt very difficult to control and feather light. My legs sort of floated down on top of my wife and I was worried I might wake her up. I was stuck by my pelvis, so I sort of flopped my legs and head down over the side of the bed thinking that I might just drop down onto the floor. I could see the carpet. Nothing happened I was still stuck by my pelvis. At this point it was such hard work and I was feeling very strange so I returned properly to my body and woke myself up.

2) I was on the phone to a DV friend. She insisted on talking in her own language and I couldn't understand a word, I think she thought it was funny, eventually she started talking in English. We had something to discuss, and I said it was nice to hear her voice and we said goodbye.

3) I was with a work colleague from many years ago when I was 20. We got in the lift together at a hotel, someone else got in and we went to the ground floor. I went to a bog desk to pick up a jumper, I was going with a big group of people out on a trip and had to be with them by 9am. I asked for my jumper and was told to wait. I looked at my watch and it was already 9.45. I saw the queu of people behind me being served. the lady was giving out suitcases and polishing them up for the other customers. I gave up waiting, but had missed the trip. The I was in a sort of nightclub type room there was a dog there, I cuddled it and noticed that it had a serious head injury and a maggot was crawling out of the injury. I asked and was told that the vet had already seen it and given antibiotics. I wake through to another room in the hotle. There were people around the room selling services, I remembered that there was a list given out before listing all the things that would be there. I read the notice in front of a stall - I couldn't understand what it was all about and asked the man there as it looked like he was selling drugs, he insisted that he wasn't but I still couldn't understand exactly what he was selling.

Forgot to write my journal this morning so my memories are very muddled:

1) Wandering around a large greenhouse with corridors, getting ready for visitors, standing by a large wooden table doing something. Lots of very famous people were expected. I remember that Saddam Hussein was there. Then there were more famous people arriving it was a hot sunny day and they were all extremely rich. I watched a couple get out of a very expensive sports car, they were both dressed in designer clothes with very expensive gold watches, the wife was having a go at her husband about something I thought they looked extremely rich and spoilt and didn't like them. Everyone was arriving and walking to the building opposite which was a hotel. Then I was sat in a corner and I had a small radio, I think it was a walkie talkie but I was playing with the aerial and trying to tune it in.

2) Sitting in a chair reading a newspaper, I dropped something into it (?food) and folded it in half. I remember thinking that it was good to feel my emotions, I can't remember why though.

1) In a road looking at a building which appeared a bit unusual. I realise it is an old hospital with an imprint of the new planned hospital on a big frame on material hung around it. I went into the building but can't remember what I did in there, I think I might have thought about dreaming. then I was in a car and I had to get home, I drove north through the city and started heading out on a very long road, I looked at a map and realised it was the wrong direction and turned around, I think I was with other people and said goodbye.

2) I was at the start line of a half marathon. I was with my wife and worried that I was wearing too many clothes, it was my best coat and I knew I would have to drop it off later on during the race. We were called forward to another start line and I was right at the front. It was a false start, I dawdled getting back to the start and got back just as the race was starting again. Now it was a tight funnel and I had to climb in over the top of metal railings, a friend was marshalliing the start and he help people up so I could climb down. I remember looking at my watch and pressing the start button as I crossed the start again.

1) I was in a class and was asked to read. I looked at the page and couldn't understand the writing, looked back and it had changed. I knew immediately that I was dreaming, but looked at a hand to check and it looked very odd. For some reason I remember then thinking "I'm dreaming" but it shouldn't be like this, and lost lucidity immediately. I was then in a playground and I can't remember anything else from that dream.

2) Looking back over a skyline and seeing a tennis court with 2 high chairs at each end. Then I was playing football with a boy with a tennis ball.

3) Looking at a clockface, it was raised and golden. The clock was really old and in a wooden case. I was fiddling with the mechanism and adjusting how fast the clock was going. Then I was with someone else and it was like being in school we had to collect our drawings from the week, I collected a few they were some that I remember my children drawing when they were younger. Then I was in a university canteen chosing lunch. I looked at all the food and remember it in detail. There was a vegetarian moussaka, a girl sitting to the side had her elbow in the salad of the one I wanted and I was abit annoyed that she was touching it but decided to have it anyway. The serving lady said I had to eat the salad first then she would heat up the moussake. I ate the salad then she took it away to put it in a microwave. I looked at the time and notice dthat I had an appointment and couldn't be late so rushed off and didn't have time to eat. Other things happened that I can't remember. Then I was outside an old people's home and someone had been put into an ambulance thatset off on blue lights, it didn't go very fast and I was discussing with someone about why they bothered using blue lights.

4) I was stood by the front door of my childhood home. There were two black panthers outside, and I was struggling to lock the door so they couldn't come in. Then my family arrived home in the car, I could see my wife looking at the panthers. A young man was then fighting with one of them, he was losing and he was bleeding heavily from his neck. My family came over to the door with the young man, they were talking at the front door rather than getting in and I started kicking one of the panthers. I think I woke up then.

1) I was in the dining room of my childhood house (again!) talking to a colleague(?) who handed me a wallet belonging to another doctor. I felt that there was something seriously wrong and felt something evil about the wallet. It fell to the floor and seemed to move by itself, I started to feel very uneasy. I phoned the doctor who owned it, no answer so I left a message. Then things started to get very strange. Things were moving around on the floor. The wallet jumped at me. I was stood in the corner and started to feel freezing cold, I could see my breath. I turned around and asked the person with me what was going on. We both knew that a very evil presence was with us, it turned into a nightmare. I was breathing very fast and woke up.

2) Driving down a road came to a big dip in the ground that was full of thick fog. Drove into it very slowly, with bright headlights on I could only just see enough to crawl through very slowly. Came up the other side and went for a walk in some woodland. Had to drive back through. The fog was clearer now and I could see more and got through more easily.

- set off for work this morning and immediately hit a thick fog bank - strange