non-lucid

Only one dream recalled last night.

Standing in a field with my family. it's a clear day with blue sky.

There's something flying around in the sky. It's like a form on a computer with boxes for entering information. I think it's very strange and comment on it but everyone else seems to think it's normal. I ask if it could be aliens. We watch it flying around and I get more worried but no-one else is concerned. Then it changes and becomes black clouds of what looks like insects coming down towards the ground, it sweeps over us. People are panicking and running away. I realise that these are not insects but little rectangular things that are attaching themselves to our skin and forming channels and realise that it was aliens and they are going to take us over.

Trying CAN-WILD last night but the alarm was too loud and long so woke me up too much. I was actually in a dream each time it went off so it has promise.
I think I had a false awakening before this but can't remember enough to be sure.

1) It's night time. I'm outside next to some sort of communal building of a tribe of people. I pick up half a carcass and move it around, it's going to be used to trap something. I'm stood outside the building again at the back, there's a slope up the hill and we seem to be looking for something, I get the feeling that someone else tried before and failed. Then we are inside the building and it's light, I see a man riding a horse with a child on his shoulders and the child bumps into the rafters. I think there mightbe an elephant around as well. Now it's bright daylight and I look outside, we are by the side of a large dock, there's a hotel on the other side of it, suddenly a large crane swings across, I notice a woman is hung from it doing acrobatics. My canwild alarm went off.

2) I was in another dream when the next canwild went off, tried to remember it but went straight back to sleep.

3) In a sports hall type space with a round roof. There's a man cycling around it upside down. I explain to my daughter that he is generating his own gravity by cycling around the roof as if we are on a space station, then I think that we should be floating but realise that a system is generating gravity for us. The man starts climbing down a pole (or up from his point of view) to the point of zero gravity as if we were on a space station but it still actually looks like a sports hall. I explain this to my daughter. Everyone claps as he floats in the air then lands on the ground.

4) Another dream in a house with friends, I don't have time to try to remember the details, got to get to work!

5) In an office chair. Something to do with being on holoiday with scouts. I have to get back to my house. The chairs sets off taking me there, it's exciting as it's travelling really fast through crowds of people and up onto a pavement. I'm outsdie a house and I wonder if it can fly, then I'm up above the trees in the chair. An exciting dream.

Weird dreams....

1) I can't remember the storyline. I was on a bus. I was talking to 2 people sitting on chairs hanging out of the bus as it went down the street. There was a big garage with 2 doors, I was trying to zip a cover across one of them. Then I ran back to the us, it drove around again and for some reason I lost my socks outside. The dream moved to me standing in the middle of a shopping area - this was just liek a scene from Second Life - I was desperately trying to put my clothes on (I think I was naked) and 2 Japanes tourists came up to me to ask where the toilets were so I told them. Then I walked into a bookshop. There were posters up about a book with pictures of astronauts inside holes made by meteors on the moon, with different sized holes right down to ones that were only a few cm across. Then i was an astronaut on the moon and I was measuring the depth of the holes using a gadget that lowered a rope into the hole, I was examining the gadget in detail - it went all the way in and I was asking my colleague how I made it pull the rope back up. My alarm went off for my WBTB at that moment.

2) This dream took place on the road leading back from the hospital I trained at to my flat in London. I was at the tube station and walked down the road I was looking for a toilet then I realised that there wasn't one there and started walking home. I was crawling along the pavement walking on my arms and legs with a friend who mentionned something about someone being stabbed and I thought 'another one'. My friend then asked me if I knew what a werewolf sounded like and made a stupid noise that I ignored. Then I was leaving a big dark side room and walking in the street agian, it was wet and I saw that I only had white socks on, I thought ok it's nice walking just in socks but my feet got wet and I returned to the room but the door was locked, I opened up a shutter on the door it was dark inside and shouted for my shoes and somehow turned the light on. People were doing something inside and they looked very angry at me for disturbing them and threw my shoes to me, I could feel the anger in the room. I walked further up the road. I saw a delivery van with a fridge I had ordered sitting high up, in fact it was hundreds of feet up in the air on the edge with a long rope dangling down from it, I had a memory of putting it there myself and tried adjusting the rope but it fell and I saw it falling and saw it go down a few streets away and started thinking how likely it was to have killed someone and how it would be my fault. I spoke to the delivery men pretending that my fridge was still on the lorry and told them where I lived and they said they would see me soon. I got back to my flat but was panicking and went into the wrong address it was a chinese takeaway, then I went next door to my own block of flats. I tried to unlock the door and fumbled with my keys. I saw a poster on the wall about a gig and heard people discussing how good it was, and thought about the pub in the basement (that never existed) and was upset thinking that they had stated doing gigs and I was never going to get any sleep with the noise.

1) I'm in a different part of the country and I want to go home, but I can't. Then I'm in a house. There's a staircase with an iron bannister leading up to a bedroom with a nice view. I know it's a holiday house but think it's a bit bare, I remember walking up the stairs thinking the bedroom must be nice. Then someone knocks at the door. It's my dad with a friend, a much younger version of my dad, he has a Tshirt on but nothing below the waist, I'm quite shocked and don't look but sort of push past him. Then I'm outside and it's very sunny. I poor a vodka into a glass but pour far too much and think about putting it back in the bottle but decide to leave it in the glass for later. I don't drink any of it.

2) On a boat standing at the bow watching as we push through the water. Then I go back into the boat and it's some sort of sex lesson. I'm with a woman lying on the bed, fully clothed, talking about what we have to do and she isn't keen and I tell her that I will be gentle although I'm feeling very awkward myself. Nothing actually happens.

Again not much...

1) I became one of the characters from the film 'Chronicle'. I had superpowers and could fly as well as move objects by willpower. I walked past a car and tried to move it. I picked up a man and threw him around in the air. I was stood on a flat roof and with a friend willed all the dogs to come out of a block of flats, can't remember exactly why, hundreds came out and walked past us. I was sitting high up and thinking about where I wanted to fly to, thinking about flying to a planet.

This was obviously as a result of me thinking yesterday about all the things I wanted to do when I become lucid.

Frustrated!! My first moment of almost lucidity 2 nights ago and since then my recall has been next to nothing.

Last night this is it:

1) I was at school and for some reason didn't have my school uniform to wear that morning so I was allowed to go home to get it.

2) Chasing someone down a train - I think they were suicidal and we have to find them before it was too late.

1) On a wooden ledge high up, feels like it's the outside of someone's house. The wind starts up and I'm not normally too afraid of heights but I became absolutely petrified and couldn't move.

2) I found an old friend sitting on a bench. Somehow I managed to get him to tell me why he looked uncomfortable, he had sciatica. I blirted it out to another friend and he looked really angry with me.

3) With my daughter in a room. The door opened and a dentist called me through, we walked into her room. She bent down next to me and I made a funy joke about her putting her hand in my pocket.

4) A flying cat - it landed on the ground and found it's mother lying on the ground dead. Very emotional at the time.

FAILED REALITY CHECK

1) My wife is driving a car, we have to get across a wide gap.

2) I in the garden of my old house. I'm running around doing laps and timing myself. It's midnight so I decide it's time to go in and start picking up my things. I see my father looking down from his bedroom window. I unplug everything (there are mains sockets at the end of the lawn) and have difficulty holding everything. Then I'm in the house, for some reason I'm in the front bedroom and I'm trying to clean some marks off an old cupboard. Then I'm at the back and I'm cleaning a toilet using a high pressure hose. A man walks in behind me and he is angry that I woke him and his family up, so I explain that I didn't realise there was anyone else in the house. He seems quite happy with my explanation and we end up chatting like friends. The scene shifts and I'm outside a pub in Hampstead and I have just bought a pint of beer. The landlady comes over to me and says I have to have my pint inspected by a pub inspector, there's a sticker on the window telling me that this could happen so I accept it and walk inside. The inspector looks at my beer and puts it on the table whislt I sit and wait. He starts eating some cake but doesn't offer me any, then some of his colleagues behind him talk about getting some lunch and order sandwiches, the inspector asks me if I know where the ladies toilets are as his colleague needs to go. I notice that he has drunk most of my beer so I give up and walk outside feelign a bit disappointed. I think how late it is and I need to get home but home is miles away so I need to get to my old house in Hampstead to get some sleep, but then start worrying that there won't be any sheets for the bed. I walk up a hill and it's very grassy with a lovely path through the trees. Then I get into an old house and I find myself in a back room - it's slightly odd becasue it's dug straight into the soil with a door higher up and the door is locked. I THINK THIS IS EXACTLY THE SORT OF THING THAT WOULD HAPPEN IN A DREAM AND DECIDE TO LOOK AT MY HANDS, I SEE I HAVE 2 THUMBS BUT CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I COULD REALLY BE DREAMING AS IT ALL SEEMS TOO REAL, I DO A MEMORY CHECK BUT REMEMBER THAT I WAS IN A PUB A WHILE AGO, LOOK BACK AT MY HANDS AND I HAVE 2 OF ALL MY FINGERS. I THINK THAT I AM REALLY TIRED AND CONCLUDE THAT I MUST BE SEEING DOUBLE AND CARRY ON, I'M CONVINCED THAT IT CAN'T BE A DREAM AND IS REAL. As I walk outside through another door I look at a sign and my vision is back to normal so I'm happy. I walk into a shop looking for a comic, and now I'm carrying my dog with me, I have to push past a security guard dressed in red to get out of the shop.

Poor recall today.

1) In some sort of large airy conference area. Lots of straw bails around, and people walking about. I think my wife was selling drinks.

2) I'm a doctor in some unusual town. I'm asked to do an urgent home visit - it's someone famous but he doesn't actually need me once I arrive. Being driven home we spot a vet stood on a corner as we turn around.

1) I'm sitting in a canteen I can see through a wall in front of me and I think that must be because I threw invisibility dust on it. I'm talking to someone next to me. To my right it becomes a fairground and I walk into it. I'm on duty with St John Ambulance (something I did regularly in my youth). I'm walking around through fairground stalls, it's dark. I'm at a briefing there's an advert showing on a TV screen about lorries joking with each other I laugh and realise I'm the only one laughing. Then I'm in a queue for doughnuts there aren't many left and the queue is long so I give up. I walk around and talk to some people on an ambulance then walk around more. I'm wearing uniform and I hear the radio going off in my pocket. Next I'm in a car with my wife and we are driving somewhere with an important officer in the back. Suddenly we realise he has gone and we discuss that we haven't stopped so he must have got out to go to the loo whilst we were driving and we should go back for him. We drive a bit further and turn around, I recognise a house and think that's the person who looked after our rats whilst we went on holiday (seemed reasonable at the time), we then walked a while I discuss with my wife how I really want a backpack that makes me fly and promise I'm going to buy one. We start driving back to look for the officer. Then we are back with a crowd of people and get onto a bus to go back home after the St John Duty. We suddenly remember that we never got the officer back and ask the bus to turn around. The driver says she can't because she will run out of petrol and drops us off so we can walk back. We go to the nearest village. My wife goes off whilst I search on my phone for where we are going to I specifically remember typing in 'Wanting' as the name of the place. The I'm surrounded by 3 men who steal my phone - I beg them to give it back to me becasue without it I will be totally lost. they throw it on the ground and leave. I pick it up and realise it's not my phone and it's smashed anyway. My wife comes back, we are totally lost.

2) Driving into London following my wife's car that is radio controlled by me. I lose control as we get into the London Streets and I'm trying to concnetrate on drivng my own car and controlling my wife's car. I run over a roundabout that is immaculately planted with flowers and then I'm drunk, a bottle of beer is held in front of me in the car by wire and foam is spilling out. I panic and get out of the car. I'm on a moped I turn right then left and I go through a doorway and into a student's flat, through more doors, turn around and back out onto the street. I look back at the car abandoned on the roundabout, someone has already come to fix the roundabout. Next I go back through the door and it's a pub. The landlady is there and it's her birthday. I recall taking stitches out of her big toe and thinking that it's going to be painful after, she is under anaesthetic. I talk to her husband I have bought her a new car for her birthday and parked it at the back I ask him if he's going to give her the keys. I'm walking up some steps holding onto the railing, her husband tells me that he thought I was going to be really boring but he likes me now becasue we went out and I got drunk. His wife is awake from the anaesthetic and walking to the back to see her new car. There is a puppy in the kitchen and it's wet the floor. The new car becomes a hoover, I have a conversation with the husband and offer to clean up the mess he tells me that I can't. Next I'm hovering up the main bar around the fire, it's a cobbled floor but as I hoover I notice it's just cobbles printed on a sheet that gets sucked up as I clean. There's sawdust everywhere.

3) There's a box with 2 rats in it. They are very unwell. I take them out and think about how I can resuscitate them and notice there are alos 4 baby rats there.

1) In a tent. An old work colleague was in charge and insisted that the layout had to be a particular way to comply with CCG guidelines. I was holding a baby.

2) I parked my car. Then in a hotel looking out of the window. It felt as if I was much younger. I could see a factory miles away and there was an explosion and smoke filling the sky. Then the whole building was shaking and something like lava was flowing it filled up the area around the hotel. I went downstairs to the kitchen and there was panic, then went back upstairs and into another room. I could hear someone hacing sex on the other side of the wall.

3) In a forest I had to go and find some short spikey twigs for some reason. In the distance I heard a large tree crack and saw a large branch fall to the ground. The scene shifted and I was at a table with some women. I was given an instruction manual on feeding babies and told to fill it in every day, I commented that my children were 9 and 11 and that I didn't need it and screwed it up.

- All these dreams represented something in real life from about 4 days ago (watched a program about Pompeii, and had been reading about baby feeds at work)

Worst recall ever this morning.

Few memories of doing something at school. Being stood outside the main hall as everyone came out of assembly.

Walking into a shopping arcade, but everything was closed.

That's about it!

Had to rush to work this morning so didn't write my journal. Can't remember too much now.

1) Cycling in the town I used to live in. Turned around then stopped. I was with some people. Opened up a drink and it sprayed all over a friend, he wasn't too bothered.

2) In a class of some sort. I was watching a weird magic show. Two people were dressed up in silly suits sitting in a large aquarium which got filled with water. I think they were going to try to escape from it.

1) At a London Tube station. I need a travel card. Someone tells me the exact price £2.30. The ticket machine is located at the far side of the station on the other side of a gap so I have to lean across the gap to ge to the machine. I drop some of my change down the gap. I have to scramble down the gap to get the change but it's a narrow gap so it takes some effort. When I get down to the level below there is another ticket machine but for some reason I can't use it. I find my change buit it's only 5p and realise that I had enough anyway. I climb back up. Now a car has parked in front of the ticket machine, then a lorry pulls up and double parks. I have to climb over them. I'm not sure if I ever actually got the ticket.

2) I'm in my local town in a shop, not sure why I'm there. I notice some of the receptionists from work working in it and think of course this is my local town, why shouldn't they be working here as well? I walk over the road and into a Chinese Restaurant. I notice a very large table with a lot of people at it and recognise a few of them then realise it's all my work colleagues and it's our night out. A group photo is being taken so I find my place at the table. I'm a bit disappointed about who I am sat next too they are a bit boring. I notice that all the other tables in the restaurant have been cleared away and we are the only people there. Everything shifts and suddenly I'm at a table with only about 6 other people and the rest of the restaurant is full of people at tables I watch them all eating. I ask what just happened and everyone seems unaware as if nothing has happened. A waiter comes over and tells us that we need to go downstairs to get pudding as it's self service. I set off downstairs through a maze of corridors and doors. All the good food has already gone I spend a long time looking around at what is left and eventually decide the only option is sponge and custard, the custard is in large jugs covered with a layer of warm water, I laddle some out it's very lumpy.
I'm at Hampstead Heath it's daytime and I talk to someone then I walking barefot back towards the road avoiding the sharp thistles in the ground. I reach the top of the hill in Hampstead and it's night and I'm on my way home from the work party I realise that I'm lost and my phone isn't working I decide to put a wire from where I am to the Royal Free Hospital the I will know where I am. I start nailing the wire to a wall. Then other people appear and it's a police investigation, the wall becomes the outside of someone's house, the officer knocks on his door, TV cameras are everywhere. Someone opens the door and is wearing a suit, there are mumbles from the press behind me about why he is wearing a suit and he must be guilty. The officer asks him to explain what he is wearing as it is most unusual. He makes a very clever comment about pop groups wearing suits and everyone laughs and I think how clever he is. Next we are all writing down hundreds of names of pop groups, I ask the person next to me why we are doing this in the middle of an important police investigation, he tells me it's fun and I feel like a complete killjoy.

Late night after very long day at work. Very bizarre disorganised dreams last night.

1) Driving down a busy dual carriageway and I realise I'm going the wrong way. I have to turn off as quickly as possible, and I get into a petrol station. There are little furry cartoon like foxes serving customers. I pull back out onto the dual carriageway then off again. Then I'm walking down a spiral staircase in a dark very old brick building. I reach the bottom, then my memory fails.

2) This is a whole collection of semi-related scenes:
- walking outside my house with my mother we see someone picking the paint off a window as if looking to buy the house, but we had only invited them around to vist, then we see someone else in the house without permission looking around again obviously interested in buying the house
- eating supper with my wife and children, we remember that there are lots of guests still outside and it's dark, there are a few visible outside the window,and talk about whether we should go outside again. My wife suggests I have a quick drink with hte guests and then I can set off to where I was going (?where).

3) Sitting in a cinema, I shine a very bright torch onto an usher walking along the front row and think it's funny. A film starts it's pictures of a very nurdy person explaining about the 'Ben 10 fraud collection' and pictures of him grinning showing off things that people have pretended to be genuine Ben10 items. Then he is demonstrating a remote control helicopter that is the size of a hand, it looks quite impressive. Then I'm out in a garden being shown the helicopter, and then we are in a garage. Somehow we are playing with paint and it flips all over the person I'm with, I think it was my old room mate from medical school. He says it doesn't matter he is wearing old clothes anyway.

4) Sitting up in the balcony at an odd concert where someone is reading out a speech. Next door Blink182 are also doing a concert so I keep running across to watch a bit of that. Then the concert I am at is on TV and it becomes very moving. A man with a very badly fitting toupee is playing the organ and the crowd goes mad, he smiles to the camera. I look behind me and another female friend from medical school is in tears.

5) I have put several very large live maggots in a brown roll and I start eating them. They taste amazing. Then I realise that I'm vegetarian and start to feel very sick, although I'm still amazed how good they tasted.