StephL

Date: 07.11.13
Total sleep: 9 h
Daytime Techniques: wonderings about self and reality + ADA
Lucid Techniques: Mantras between dreams and before sleep, haphazard short WILD attempt
Recall Techniques: weeell - got to learn to write so I can decipher it - first dream, I put down is not retrievable
Fell Asleep: 0:30 am (jippee! and stone sober)
Dream Title: High Romance!

Dream:
This was the last three dreams - and so I have very good recall without having written much.
It started at a festivity where the people having finished school with me met - but there were other people too - like a friend of mine from university.
Somehow, I hadn´t managed to dress up for the occasion and wasn´t "styled" in any way - but the others were looking fantastic.
So - wasn´t that bad, but when that friend of mine wanted to go to some sort of vip party afterwards - a friend of hers, whom I didn´t know, wanted to keep me away from that.

So then something happened which is unusual for my dreams - usually I would have tried and not managed to go with them, or went, looking horrible or whatever.

What would not have happened would have been me getting what I wanted - namely making my friend drop that bitch, she brought with her, and take me home with her to give me a really nice evening dress and her make-up and perfume and whatnot and chastised the doorwoman for not instantly letting me in there too. Lovely friend in real life - but ex-model and always soo beautiful..

Anyway - in we were and it was like in a high-society movie.
Great party - later it had somehow changed scenery to a garden in the morning.
...edited ..
Awake: 9:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 12/13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) 9 non lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream in 3 parts - twice reentry because it was soo nice - all in all maybe story over 2/3 days
Emotions: Weeell.. right - for the sake of analysis: started with feeling inferior, ugly, awkward - went to self-satisfied, radiant, attractive and confident, then totally smitten, in love, satisfied, hopeful and even sort of calmly confident for what would come, liberated

Dream Signs: People from school, university - the garden party was for some reason in our old garden of the house I lived in my youth (that´s a strong recurring sign, the house+garden)


Conclusions - Overview:

First of all - it is so great, that the journalling and general aim of lucidity and gaining dream-control spills over into my normal dreams and makes them so much more satisfying - amazing!!

Secondly - got to work on readable notes in between dreams.
First dream, after which I woke up got lost because of indecipherable nonsensical scribblings - except the dart-board snippet, which I posted next door - that I can remember vividly.

Then - realization, that I actually always was and am able to re-enter a dream after waking up.

Lucidity:
I did my mantras and expectation-rising for DILD, but looking back - the real inner plan was more to do a WILD attempt after the first inter-dream awakening.
I had talked to my hubby - finding out to my surprise that he had sometimes what seems to be called EHS - extremely loud noises from inside his head while falling asleep - and he hates it with a passion.
Told him excitedly to ride it out next time and try to WILD himself.

But - just like before several times - I felt tired and lazy and unwilling to try the WILD when the time for it was there - thinking - ah I will wake up once or twice more anyway.
Which I did - with even less motivation - see dream-content..

This is so silly - I know, it would have been easy to at least get that far as last time once more - that only took like 2 min. lying still and vibrations and optics came.