StephL

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Date: 06.11.13
Total sleep: 8 h (3 am - 11 am)
Daytime Techniques: oddities - 10 min. back, only 3 times for some minutes - trying to sense everything around and inside me - like in Joshi´s ADA tut
Lucid Techniques: repeating mantras before sleeping and in between dream-parts; after final waking up I tried a bit hapazardly to WILD but lost patience real quick - heard the traffic outside - got itches here and there - gave up very quickly - maybe too awake - or maybe happy to be done with all the stress while dreaming.
Recall Techniques: criggling notes for the first part - the other two awakenings not - the second I had sweated through my pyjamas and tried writing, but was shivering and had to change clothes and lost it - third time I jumped out of bead, happy to be out of the nightmare
Fell Asleep: 3 am (bad girl - and had drunk alcohol too - like Friday - there was also impaired recall then)
Dream Fragment number one - Title: Hunting Dog-Loving Nazi-Killers
Dream:
Really bad recall - but anyway:
I was coming to investigate a murder of a girl and a boy with an other investigator.
It was a nasty affair - kids pretty much chopped up (shouldn´t have peeked into the Sally Hook thread..).
But their dog was missing - and we got shown pictures of a beautiful pedigree dog.
Then it was obvious, it must have been the Nazis, camping somewhere in the woods - because they like such dogs, and sure had taken it with them - otherwise it would be howling around the corpses.
So - we made out into the woods - it was winter and we walked and looked and walked - and suddenly I got lucid.
I forgot about the planned hand-rubbing - just remembered to really put my full attention towards a detail somewhere - still a bit concerned about the dream - wanting overlook - I choose a branch fork a bit in the distance and quite high up.
Sure enough - this fork "sucked" me in and I was up there (no flying like I usually did when lucid = air-swimming - I was just "zooming" there).
The last lucid thought I had was - damn - now I don´t have a body - what now?
Next thing - I saw that camp and lost lucidity and was somehow on the ground again - to go on Nazi-hunting.

We came to that camp and it was not as expected - no Nazis but the dog alright and many skinny scared people, who had some sort of problem with a fire-magic they had tinkered with and which burned them out now.
Now it starts getting all jumbled up - the above I wrote down, but I don´t have anything coherent from there on any more.
It seemed all one story what followed - with one awakening in between - but all a horrible stress.
I was with a sort of tribe of people who had brought nasty stuff upon themselves and we were constantly fighting, trying to catch someone or something and chain it down or whatever.

Strangely - much later was another moment, we were at a lake - and again - I got lucid - but not a lot - and tried to zoom over to the other shore of the lake for some reason - well - I got off the ground and can´t remember anything else from there.

All else are only pictures or mini-scenes - see snippets later.
There were also some strange sexual rituals somewhere connected - but I was only observer.
Now I write - it is a lot I can write - but the other days, except Friday - I had whole storylines.

Awake: after that first fragment - forgot to look, all overall 11 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 7/8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) mostly maybe 5 but twice shortly lucid first time much clearer
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) That fragment felt like an afternoon - all nightmare together - maybe a week?
Emotions: shocked, angry, only a little afraid, also a bit of morbid fascination, but most of all and by far most intense - stress - I had to prevent bad stuff from happining all the time it felt - I did manage - but it took my all
Dream Signs: There was a mini-scene interspersed, where I was in an audience for a performance - and suddenly an old schoolmate turned up with the maths material I had missed the class for - he gave me his notes to copy