Suena

So, been a little distracted lately and haven't been focused on my dreams. I've been wanting to type up a very memorable dream I had about a year ago, so here it is.

I was in the ocean swimming towards land with a bunch of killer whales and dolphins. I was sort of riding with one of the whales but on his belly-side. I don't remember hanging on to him but it was kind of like he had his own gravity (not a fat joke, mr. whale guide.) Anyway, he and all the rest of the animals were splashing in and out of the water working towards land. He kept getting higher and higher out of the water and coming down even harder each time, sinking. I can recall being in the water looking to my right to see a line of dolphins doing the same thing. And when we were in the air I could see a city getting closer and closer. So I lost the whale once, he landed in the water and I sunk away from him and got scared thinking there were going to be sharks. Sure enough, a massive hammerhead appeared but he wasn't attacking me, he was leading me back to the whale. And the whale had waited for me. Then we continued on. What I felt in the dream, trying to figure out why they were doing this, I noticed the waves that they were making were going to wipe out the city, and that THAT was their intention.

When I woke up I started thinking about the song Aenima by Tool. Anyways, this was a non-lucid, but amazing.

Okay, can't remember my dreams. When I was little though, I used to have lots and lots of dreams of witches. Here are three I remember ranging from the ages of 5-10.

Castle Witch

I was laying in a double bed with my older sister. She was fast asleep, but I was staring at this huge poster of a castle that covered the entire wall. The door opened to the castle and out came this witch-like lady. I kept my eyes partially closed, in the dream, so she wouldn't know I was awake. She walked around the bed looking at me and my sister, I guess to make sure we were asleep. Then she touched this cat figurine laying on the bedside tabe. She left the bedroom and went to the kitchen. I got up and snuck after her. When I came out to the kitchen, she was sitting at a boothlike table with my two sisters. They were laughing with her and having fun, but I knew she had cast a spell. So I ran and got my parents and they seemed to think the lady was crazy too. That's it.

Dorito Witch

I was at my grandparents trailer house. I was running around with a bunch of cousins (like we did on the holidays) and we were all lining up to jump on my grandma's bed. The bathroom was at the very end of the hallway next to the bedroom. I was walking to go jump on the bed when I heard voices in the bathroom. I crept inside the bathroom and found a witch (hat and everything) and my dad. The witch was feeding my dad nacho cheese doritos, but not through his mouth. She had a little part of his back cut open and was stuffing them in. >.>

Male Witch

I was at my cousins house and we were running around playing outside. We started to run down to the cellar, the door flew open before we reached it. And inside I could see a lab with lots of green glowing test tubes. There was a man witch and the color of his skin was also green.

Just felt like sharing since I couldn't remember my dreams from last night. < 4hours of sleep =(

Can only remember feelings from my dreams last night.

I had two lucids this morning that made me forget my dreams before them.

I tried rubbing my hands in both of them to make the dream more vivid, in the first one I just started flying around upside down and couldn't control it really. I wasn't flying anywhere in particular though, it was just black nothingness. Woke up...

The second one, I remember rubbing my hands as soon as I became lucid, I was outside and everything started to become more vivid when I started but it faded fast. I think I tried to fly but I sort of just bounced, like you see people doing when they're "on the moon."

Alcohol is no good for recall, and I think I'm going to quit and get serious. Because I bet I would've remembered my lucids a lot better if I hadn't drank last night.

Went back to sleep and dreamt of my friend J. I was standing outside of my house and it was snowing and the snow was very pretty, very powdery and glistening. I said that this Christmas would be a good one. While I'm outside my friend J comes up to me and asks if we could hang out, I say yea, come in and smoke a bowl. He says he's not smoking at the moment, so I tell him to come in anyway and hang out. He says he'll be right back and walks off.

He comes back in a car with some strange guys dropping him off. He comes in and there's a few others there. There was this water bed thing on a different level of my house (doesn't really exist, live in a trailer) and the bed was on top and this tank that pumped water was on bottom and I noticed it was leaking. I thought I had fixed it but then all the water started to flow out, so I turned this knob and it stopped so I filled it back up with water.

C, from work, is there also, and he was saying some really funny stuff, cracking everyone up. J comes up to me and I notice he is sweating really bad, parts of his shirt were yellow, my mom asks if that's sweat or if we spilled water on him, he said he sweats a lot... So I offer to get him a shirt, and he's all for it. I tell him to come with me and he follows me into the bedroom.

I was happy to be alone with him, I don't know why. I start looking through T's shirts while talking to him, telling him I wasn't sure if T would mind or not. I give him one of my shirts that has some halloween pumpkin on it. He takes it gladly.

That's really all I can remember after going to work and coming back.

Of course, can't remember when it started, but I was sitting at home thinking about playing a game and it's late and T isn't back from a concert yet, I think. I'm a little angry for him going because he didn't ask and it was in KC, a 6 hour drive. When he does come back, I yell a bit and he ignores me, then I go to lay down on the couch. My mom tells me I should take my "birth control" pills? I told her there was no point, that we weren't going to do anything.

My mom had to drive somewhere to pick something up, she had diapers with her.

Then there's this girl who is in some kind of virtual reality game but she's there in front of us speaking, she's pregnant, she's someone I know in WL and she's talking about her being Eve. She said a really strange quote. My mom acts surprised about the quote and we see the girl holding a stump of wood which apparently was supposed to be Eve's head. So my dad gets up and goes to take it from her.

Then I'm with my friend A and we're going to some concert with this guys she knows. The guy was really cool, but we didn't know him very well. He had been trying to take my friend out apparently for a year, but this was the second time they were hanging out I guess. I remember walking around his house, once during the day, and once during the night.

We were all going somewhere walking through trailers and I see a set up with speakers all in the end of one trailer hooked up to a really nice stereo. It's bright and sunny outside and I notice they have speakers wired throughout the house, I say, wow, somebody was partying last night... A didn't understand what I meant, so I had to explain the speakers.

At one point, I was in the living room, some family at the table, and I was trying to show them T's green laser, but the laser wouldn't do what I wanted it to do, my grandpa was chillin in the living room.

- pretty vivid dreams last night, uinfortunately, there was so much that I am forgetting lots of parts. Oh well.

Can't remember dreams from last night. Nappp.

T's ex came over to our house and they were talking about something they didn't want me to hear. They were talking about a girl and I thought they were hiding something from me. I asked T to come into the bedroom and talk to me. He followed me into the bedroom and I asked what was going on. He gave me a pathetic smile and told me he needed to show me something. He takes his ring and it's in some sort of jewelry box and he points to it as if to say he chose me and I had nothing to worry about.

And just for fun. This is the earliest dream I can remember from when I was 4 years old.

I was at my grandparents house and I had this dream right around my 4th birthday. I was in a bunk bed, top bunk, and my grandparents were sleeping on the bottom. I'm up there with the skeleton guy on "Tales of the Crypt" I think that's what it's called... He's just up there talking to me.

T made me go to his parents house but I'm naked wearing only a towel. I go over there and am standing in the kitchen with T, his mom, and some other family. T's mom was saying something, then I started thinking that I shouldn't just be chilling in my towel.

Another dream, I was at a bar and grill with a couple people, C and Q. There was this man who was supposed to be our teacher, I guess, but he was being really touchy and was trying to spoon me. I tell him to get his hands off me and that I wouldn't tell anyone but that he won't do it anymore with a "if he knew what was good for him" kind of attitude. He stopped and didn't say anything but that I needed to finish my assignment.

So then I found myself sitting in a booth next to Q, different booths, if it matters. Which it does, cause that's how it goes, ok, and she had just ordered a shot. I told her that I couldn't wait to be 21 and she acted uninterested. So I invited her to come to my 21st birthday in a couple months and she shrugged an okay.

I know, sometimes I used past-tense and sometimes present. Is it really that important?

It was storming outside, pretty intense-like. I was going around the house shutting the windows as rain was spraying in and making the curtains go crazy. That's all I remember from my "nights" sleep if you can call it that.

Then I went back to sleep and I was upset, everything was how it was when I fell asleep. A bunch of girls that I hang out with occasionally showed up in PJ's, they were planning a sleepover at my house, which I didn't expect. T got up and we weren't talking cause I was angry with him and he was angry with me. He was trying to get his car up and going so he could go celebrate, he said later that he was celebrating his birthday a little early, and he was mad at me for making plans, I guess. The girls were all hanging out, my house was a mess and I told them we should go get movies later, thats when I went up to T and asked him to just stay gone tonight.

Then I'm with T at the lake, same dream as above, and everyone's tuning into this stupid talk radio station. They're telling everyone to call and answer questions or shout out their opinions and everyone is calling. The station people were there too, in front of us, and there were guys acting clever for calling and watching their phone call. I remember thinking it was all stupid.

I became lucid in my house and when I had fallen asleep this time, Alice in the Wonderland had been playing on my TV. I became lucid, and was angry, I pulled a gun out and started shooting the characters on the movie. Then I said fuck it and tried to fly through my window, part of me doubted it was going to work, I got through the window and there was nothing on the other side, I woke up with my eyes still shut. Then I had to get up.

T had bought about 3 dvds that had strange looking cats on the cover of them.
I also made him kill a yellow hornet.

Smoked quite a bit of weed before bed, so I have no illusions about why I woke up not remembering much of my dream.

I remember being in a subway I think and this guy was asking me how to he was supposed to do his job. I told him and then I said that he should know his job and that I was just a customer.

I was with a friend when I realized I had to be in class in 30 minutes so I started heading that way....

There was a storm at one point.... my subconscious is really trying to get me.

All fragments of the same dream...

Playing video games with my sister at my moms.
Someone broke into my jeep (I actually have a neon) and they tore the leather seats off and I was very pissed off cause it was only a block away from my house. I regretted leaving it there aloud.
Little kids were playing on the street and I talked to one of them, they were amusing me.
Some lady has this lair where she kept people she wanted to kill and I was in it but just touring, I guess. I hated it so much, it was very gruesome, people were stuck in these bath tubs and being held dow by these machine spider things while a saw hovered over them ready to chop them to pieces....

oh oh oh, there was a storm at one point but I think my mother distracted me from noticing this.
Annnnd, mom's been in my dreams a lot lately...

Yay, I thought I had forgotten the dream by the time I got off work, then it all just rushed back in after an hour and a half being home. =D

I was living with my mother again and we had some family over, aunts and cousins. I realized that I had to work and got ready. I forgot my ipod the first time and went and got it. When I came back out it had started raining, but it was incredibly windy too. I had troubles getting into my car and was trying not to blow away. My mom had been watching me from the door. I remember falling and sliding under the car at one point. I got in the car finally and realized I forgot my wallet. So I got back out to go get it and my mom met me at the door, and she was angry about something. She was yelling at me and I told her that we'd talk later because I was going to be late for work, but then she told me that I had to quit and kept yelling. I stayed home and was thinking about what I was going to say to my boss, thinking at least I could blame it on my mother, then I realized that I was 20 and didn't have to put up with this. I wandered around the house for a moment with my family and then I realized that I could move out. I didn't know where I was going to go but I thought I could find a better place than with my mom. I even thought about moving in with T, but thought about how I'd have to live with him and his parents. I decided I'd figure it out later. I started getting all my stuff and gathering it up, then searching for boxes. I left my stuff in one place for a moment to find a box and when I returned my cousin had put it all back, as if to say I couldn't leave. Last thing I remember was crying hard, laying on my bed.

What I'm talking about isn't a dream I had. It's an entry from my daily journal that, I guess, I really want to share. I didn't want to make it a thread, because it sort of is like a dream. I dream that one day we may understand eachother. I hope it makes sense, because really that is the point. It's actually something I shouldn't have to feel upset about. I feel it's like common sense, but that isn't alway so common either.So, feel free to comment. I'd love to hear some opinions, otherwise, enjoy my rant.

Quite honestly, I don't think I want to marry someone who doesn't understand, not for lack of the ability, but just because this person does not want to understand anything. Obviously, this person doesn't know how to communicate or what it is, maybe. How can you communicate with someone without understanding? You can't. They both need each other to exist. Someone explains something, whether it be knowledge or feelings, and the other person, first, acknowledges what that person has to say, then trys to understand, empathize, sympathize with those ideas and this leads to understanding. Why wouldn't one try to relate to another? Especially someone that is close to that person. I know that there are exceptions. That there are things that aren't worth understanding, and things that are impossible to understand, and things that aren't meant to be understood. But isn't it human nature to try, at least. Maybe it's not important to some people. Okay, I get that. But maybe they just don't know how important it is to be able to communicate and relate to others. Without communication, where would we be? Probably some place much darker and just worse than it already is. Everything starts with communication.

Okay, took a nap and dreamed quite vividly about the zombie apocalypse. And the whole time I felt like it was a movie.

It started out where I was going to a friend's barbecue, indoors. I get there and my friend isn't there yet. I waited a long time, and the dream was so long, I don't remember what I was doing. He did leave me a letter and I remember stuffing them in this book. I start getting anxious about my friend getting there because in the dream I realized that I really liked him. His letter will be C. It happens to be a guy I work with, anyway. C never shows up, but some kind of show is playing, that he finished just for me. I realize that he only finished it because I told him I wanted to see the rest. I felt realy happy when I heard this. So, he still hadn't showed up and I really couldn't wait to see him. In the back of my mind, I know I'm married the whole time.

So, I look outside to find a bunch of people with weapons and they're yelling and shooting. I go out to find out that there are zombies everywhere. I run around and ask for a gun or something so I can help and defend myself. They hand me a green laser. Which has absolutely no effect on the zombies. One guy had just been bitten and they were telling me to kill him, so I aim the laser at his head and it was red at first then turned green, the guy walked up to me and held my hand that had the laser in it, helping me shoot him. Then he turns around and starts walking towards the zombies. They kept telling me to point it at his head. It was really hard, but I realized most of the zombies coming through the windows were paraplegic... they were crawling on their top halfs (like Nazi Zombies.) So I realize I have time, I accidently shoot someone who is not a zombie with my laser. They start to shoot at me and I duck. I start running with all these people. I'm still thinking about my friend and wondering if he's a zombie.

Then we all find this building and go inside to take the children inside. I realize my son is in there, and the people were leaving all the babies in a room. I stayed, because I wanted to protect them if something happened. Some girl comes and finds me and I go outside to find my husband, he's talking to these people and I feel like it's really important, so I stand off to the side. He's saying something about a video released by the government and I sit down next to him to watch. I'm holding the book with the letters in it from C, and my husband notices this and playfully starts to pull them out to read. I hold on to it tight and laugh and say Ill tell him about it later and that I still had some writing to do. He keeps trying anyway so I hand him tickets and what not. Finally I give him it, letting him in on what's going on. That's when C walks up and trys to hold my hand and take me away. Then he realizes that I hadn't told my husband yet. He's upset, and I tell him that I was just going to hand my husband this ID to show him when C takes it and puts it in his back pocket. He tells me that he sees how it is and I get angry and pull the id out of his back pocket, shove it at T, and just walk away from them both.

Then I'm with a bunch of people in cars, some guy is saying that when they had the evacuation they shouldn't have used the roads with all the trees. Someone agreed with him and as we're driving out of town we noticed a lot of incoming cars. I ask why they're coming here and that we should all stick together. The cars are tiny though, they were like, bumper cars, or those cars you ride through wacky shacks, they were all on some line. I run ahead to see what's coming, and I can hear zombies. I run back and tell them we gotta split, so everyone starts jumping on these stick like things that hover and they started flying off on some circut. I hurry and grab one and start flying through these tunnels with all these people. The thing I'm hovering on looks like, can't think of the name at the moment, the thing the grim reaper has. It was a lot of fun.

Then I start walking through this building that we found safe, it has strange hallways that curve inward like a spiral. Me and this girl are walking through and she's angry with me for some reason, so I ask her what's wrong as we're walking, but she wont' say. We're looking for zombies around every corner. When we get to the center, I see this little railing that goes up to the ceiling, like a ramp. I go up it to see if I'd find something interesting. I found a strange contraption on the wall, and there was something that fit into place. I told her that this was it, this was the answer. Then in my mind I was thinking that the government came up with this movie and that it was supposed to have a happy ending, unlike all other zombie movies. I dug in this dirt, not finding what it was that fit in place. Then these doors opened up from the room we were in and there were zombies out in this hallway, but they weren't trying to kill us. They all looked green and kind of reminded me of the guy from Tales of the Crypt, the skeleton dude. Anyway, the all had suitcases and they were yelling and point inside, telling us to give them all of our stuff. They were just material oriented zombies I guess. I made myself wake up... Felt semi lucid.

Can't remember at what point I did this, but I remember asking someone if this was really happening, and they said yes, yes it was. I still didn't believe him, so I tried forcing my eyes open and I got them open, they felt glued shut, but I got them open, but I was still in the dream. I wasn't lucid though.

Anyway, I missed a bunch I'm sure, this dream felt like it lasted the whole two hours I was asleep.

Dream from last night:

I was with my friend M and she and I were going to some movie. She took the wrong turn tho on the highway. I remember telling her to take 235 north, not Topeka highway, which I don't think exists lol. But she took Topeka, then we found ourselves in this little villiage of hobos and we're living in a hut, but we're 14 again (which was around the time we used to hang out) and we had run away from home. Eventually I went home in the dream.

Yeaaaa.... crazy dreams.

4/15/11

I went to work and realized I wasn't scheduled that day because I had asked off, so I was going to leave but my manager said he needed a few things from walmart, flour and some kind of cooking oil and something else. I volunteer to go and I start walking to walmart from my job. On the way there, as I'm walking through some baseball diamond, a car starts to follow me. It is an old man and he's checking me out. I get disgusted and he calls out to me. I approached the car, call him a perv and tell him to fuck off.

Then I'm at walmart and walking around, I run into Q, a girl I used to go to school with and work with, and at first we just walk by eachother, but I turn around and jokingly hand her a huge purse that has a bunch of little purses in it, and I ask her if she needs one. She seemed a bit serious, but not rude, and then a couple people came up beside her and somehow I got the impression that they were only in my town for some college event.

Anyway, I go back to my work and realize I completely forgot the items my boss wanted. I try to sneak out without him seeing me and go back to walmart, but he finds me. He just laughs it off and I get ready to go back heading to my car this time. My car is parked in a driveway that sort of sat up on a hill. There's a jeep parked behind me, a car in front of me and another car behind the jeep. As I'm trying to wriggle out, I bump the jeep behind me and it starts to fall off the side, somehow I get out of my car quickly and grab the jeep before it falls. Some people saw me do this from below.

Then another fragment, I think was still the same dream. These two guys are talking to me and one of them is some sort of professional swimmer. The other one is telling me that the swimmer needs help practicing and someone to swim with him. The idea of swimming seems really fun so I tell him I'd totally do it. Then he tells me that they want to go to the ocean, and I change my mind, telling them I don't swim in the ocean.

Next thing I remember is being at my house, in my kitchen, with T and my son in the living room. I'm feeling indecisive about going to the Led Zeppelin Experience with my friend. (Which is what I was planning on doing the next day in WL, it was an alright concert...) I let too much time pass and am late to heading to the concert, my friend calls me and I tell her that I'm not coming, she's upset.

Then this guy I used to work with is making my son some baby food. He hands me a bowl with mini potatoes and sour cream. The potatoes were like cereal size, like those little cookie cereals, only potatoes. I remember thinking it was cute.

I did become lucid at one point in this dream, but quickly lost it. I think it was when I was sitting in the kitchen, at the end of my counter. I could see T in one eye and saw something like a cup hovering in my vision in the other eye. I told T that I was stuck in between reality and a dream.

4/16/11

T's mom drunk dials me and starts talking gibberish. Then T calls me from his work cause he's bored and talks to me for like 15 minutes, and I remember thinking that he should probably get back to work.

Then me and T are on a bed and there's this computer scene to our right that has an image of a sky and then it turns into a window and we're upon a hill looking out over a beautiful scene of a lake and sky and I just remember looking at it and feeling so good. T also enjoyed it in the dream. Felt happy...