Suena

I was walking somewhere with T and realized there was a tornado just maybe 20 feet or so away. I remember the light dirty brown color and it swirling, and I saw a twister coming out from the side and breaking off, but it was a darker smoky color. I told T we needed to get out of there, but he said we'd be okay. Then it hovered closer and passed. I saw two more in the distance and thought how amazing it was to be that close to a tornado and not get hurt.

I was fighting, as usual, with T and my oldest sister for some reason. I can hardly remember anything except me telling my sis, D, to punch me in the arm as hard as she could and she did and I made some joke afterwards, trying to mend the tension. It didn't seem to work.

I do remember saying something to T, like I was tired of it, and if I leave and he doesn't stop me, then I will be gone for good.

Okay, I did pretty good today. The first time I woke up I remember I was in my in-laws basement. I was talking to my brother-in-law about ping pong balls or something. (we had been playing beer pong last night over there, so... yea.)

Then I went back to sleep and had a few dreams that I cannot seem to put in order at the moment. I remember I had traveled somewhere, Florida, I think. I was thinking of picking someone up that was there, well, that I thought was there. Then I told someone I was heading to Canada to hang out with someone. I think I was talking about the member and a very good friend, Seroquel. =)

Anyway, I had also been with a bunch of people in this house that seemed to be in a woodsy-type area. I remember my husband standing across from me and I was wearing my swimsuit and dancing. One of his friends had come up beside me and had his hands on my hips and I kept dancing. It pissed T off pretty bad and he called me a name and told me to leave. I got upset and tried to hold him. I didn't mean anything by it, I was just dancing, those were my thoughts. He didn't want me, and I threw a few punches at him for some reason. Then I went to leave.

Well, my brain doesn't seem to remember more, it might flash at me later, because I know I probably do know more. OH well, I'm happy to have remembered something.

P.S.
Just edititing because I remembered another part. Yay.

I was driving in my car with my son in the backseat. We were heading to Island Park. I got there and was excited to go play with him. I was getting ready to get him out of the car when I realized the weather had went from nice and sunny to a bit cloudy and chilly, like it was going to storm. I was disappointed and got back into the car to leave.

I remembered a dream today, finally, but then I lost it. =/

Now I hardly remember anything, something about a penny. I know it was a vivid dream and I wish I could remember so bad...

I don't know what the deal is, I cannot for the life of me remember any dreams from the past few days. I get at least 5-6 hours a night, which has always been the norm for me. I take notes when I wake up so that I don't forget it, but lately I cannot even do that. I always say to myself each night, remember your dreams, let them be vivid.

It's really making me sad because I used to always remember them. Now that I can't, I feel like something is missing, it's weird. I enjoy recalling and I used to be soooo good at it.

It's just as of late, I seem to forget a lot of stuff, it's like my mind just blanks anything I want to remember out, even simple things. My memory has never been this bad. Yes, I smoke pot, but I've been smoking for years. I plan on trying not to at least right before bed anymore.

Anyway, I have been a little stressed lately, how do I fix this problem??? I get up at 7:30 almost every morning, even when I don't have to work because of my son. I've tried relaxing, it's like there's nothing I can do about the stress in my life. I feel like that's part of the problem, a major part.

Any suggestions would be awesome, please and thank you.
Maybe I should've made this a thread.

Hate to waste a good dream entry...

I was in a gym with a bunch of others with basketballs. I told them we should play knock-out.

I probably wouldn't have even remembered this if a coworker hadn't mentioned playing a little bball. I hate not remembering my dreams. Stupid jobs.

I mean, does America really need double stack burgers and "sea-salt natural cut" fries ?
I could be dreaming.

I was moving planets according to their location onto this big model hanging from the ceilings. I put some on there and realized I needed to start with the outer planets moving inward.

woke up
back to sleep

I was with my sister at my job, Wendys (fast food place.) They were handing out these new long-sleeved shirts to the employees. They handed me a package and before I opened it I had the option to choose small or medium. I wasn't sure what their small would be like so I asked a lady who was wearing one. She said it was actually bigger than a normal small, so I got the small. I was getting ready to leave when I realized D, my sister, ordered some food. I went into the back to speed up the process and made the drink she ordered, Grape Rootbeer? One of the guys got a little irritated with me because he had already made it. I apologized and told him I thought they were busy so I didn't think they had it yet. I laughed a little and shrugged another apology and walked back to my sis.

I think this was the same dream, but me and T had two kids now. One of them, named W, like our son, but he was our youngest. We had another one apparently he was a little older though, like 2 years. The strange thing I noticed about him was he was getting facial hair already! I laughed because as soon as I realized this he was like a 10 year old with a little goatee going on. This amused me a great amount. Anyway, we were at some kind of reunion with the family and we had traveled there. This place was strange, and part I remember the most was there was a library and the kids were running around. I went off to do something that I can't remember and realized I had just left my kids in there running around. My other sister, also a D, was tired of watching them and had sat down while the kids were practically destroying this library lol. My nieces were there also.

There was another part somewhere in that mess where me and my husband were working I guess and we were sitting at a table that seated four. We were sort of laughing and having a good time discussing work. I think this might of been where I went to before I realized the kids were tearing up the library.

I remember a ride too, kind of like that ride in Zombieland where the girls were riding before the zombies showed up, or when they started to show up. Anyway, it was like that but instead of swinging back and forth it would go all the way around and upside down. It was a lot of fun.

Then we were all about to travel home and we were at a gas station. I had my kid in my arms and asked my mom to pull some cash out of my wallet for me. She handed me a twenty and I went inside to get a pepsi and some smokes. I asked the lady at the counter, there were two of them actually, for some cigarettes, camel lights. She handed me 100's and I asked her for shorts. She gave me a strange look and went to get them when I realized that on the counter in front of me was a pack of shorts and the pack of 100s she handed me. I told her nevermind and she gave me another strange look. She asked me to wait a minute for something, they were looking at the computer. I started to grow impatient then finally I walked out with the cigarettes. Yes, I forgot the pepsi.

Then we're riding along again and we stop at another gas station. Suddenly I'm working there and these teenagers come in, a girl and two guys. I forgot what they were buying but the girl shorted me two dollars and said she'd be right back with the rest. I told her to leave whatever she had and to go get it and come back, she acted like I was crazy. I told her it was policy, if she didn't have the money she couldn't have the product. She started to walk out anyway and I followed her out to the parking lot and before she could leave the lot I grabbed her arm and told her to give me the money or I'd get in trouble. I ended up walking back in and picked up a broom to sweep....

and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to save it.

My reality resides in my dreams...
and this is the nightmare I wake up to.

Lucid.

I guess you would call this WBTB. I was trying to call asleep consciously and it kind of worked, my husband almost interuppted me because he came out into the living room to get something, but he said something and I'm pretty sure it was real. I was in the middle of transitioning into a dream. He walked off and as he was walking down the hallway all I could see was darkness but I felt different, felt like I was hovering.

I knew it was the beginning but I couldn't get anything to really form, I did for a minute and I instantly started rubbing my hands together and I shouted clarity for the first time in a dream. It faded though, I don't understand this. I almost lost it and woke up but at the last second I decided to sit there and wait in the dark and that's when I was suddenly in my house. I can't remember much, but I got up from the couch and I think I said something to the dream, like be vivid, lol, since clarity hadn't worked. It seemed to work. I went to the door and turned the knob, it came open, much to my surprise and I shut it behind me as I stepped onto the porch. Then I jumped back like Spiderman to give myself a boost off the door and started to float, but I ended up grabbing onto my house and climbing on top. I knew the roof would only be hot if I let it, and for a second I was trying to feel it's warmth. I got up on the house and woke up. The whole time outside was very vivid and the sky was a dark yellow, but very vivid. The sky as I approached the roof was different somehow, I just don't remember why it was.

Ok, so after this lucid, I had a dream. Kind of a nightmare for me.

I can't remember every detail... but I was called into work at McDonalds, where I used to work while I was prego. I quit though and now I work at Wendys, anyways, I was working both jobs I guess, and this was my first day back at McDonalds. The manager was talking to me like she wanted me to come back for good, but I told her I could only work Thursdays and Fridays (The two days I don't work at Wendy's.) I had driven a moped to work, and I do remember doing this and leaving T at home, but when I got to work I wondered why I didn't just take the car. This is when some weirdness happened. I kept flashing back from being home to being online to being at work, all the while, having a huge fight with T because he wanted to sleep with other girls. I was very emotional in this dream.

There was a moment when I was at home and sitting on the couch scraping up a bowl of coke, cocaine. (I've never done this in RL.) T was talking while I was doing it, telling me he was going to this town and fuck some girl named Tex. He wasn't breaking up with me, he just wanted to fuck someone else. I was so pissed I picked up the bowl of coke and I had been putting baking soda in it, for some reason, anyways, I picked it up and slammed it right into his face. He couldn't believe it and I felt so bad, started apologizing, then I told him he needed to flush his eyes out with water, this worried him, he got up immediately to do this. We both went to the sink and were flushing our eyes with water.

After this, the girl showed up and was walking around and talking to T about all the things they were going to do together, while I was there. At many points, I told T I was leaving and he went into the bathroom and started throwing out my make-up. I followed him into the bathroom and not even a second after he'd walked in the entire bathroom sink was clean and glistening. I told him I WAS going to clean that eventually and he just scoffed.

There were these video tapes that this girl had brought with her, and she had rented them, hoping T and her would watch them together. I decided to hide them after debating on whether I should destroy them. I started hiding them around the house right before they walked in the door. They were talking about this place they were going to go. This is all I remember about this part.

Way on earlier in the dream, I was at my house, which was also a store called Third Planet (actually exists.) My friend J shows up to sell some clothes, he seemed hesitant when I answered, I was like come on in, and I finishing a cig. He comes in and sits down on the couch. Just then I see a mouse run from the closet door. I freak out and tell them and two of the guys that were hanging out, K was one of them, was going to kill it. I told him if he killed it I would beat his ass, told him to let him outside. He went over to the mouse and almost smashed it, but I stopped him and then he opened the closet door and there were three more mice, I started to scream. (Mice in real life don't scare me, Idk.)

Well, wish I could've remembered all my dreams from last night, but I just took this nap and this is all I could remember.
From last night, I keep getting deja vu though about the dream, just these feelings from it keep popping up like flashbacks and fading real quick before I get a glimpse of anything tangible I can actually write down. I just keep thinking about this Tall man.

I feel like a failure. Haven't been writing anything down and lose the dream by afternoon. I did go lay down for an hour earlier to practice getting my body into SP. I didn't get far, I think I had just fallen asleep and then I had a small dream.

I thought I was awake, because I was laying in my bed and my husband had just come in and put Mia, my sister's dog, in the bedroom and shut the door. I got up, because I wanted to know why Mia was here (I had just seen my sister and Mia yesterday.) I got up and let Mia out of the bedroom and went into the living room with her. I didn't see my husband, but everything was gone in the living room, like picked up. My first thought was wow, he's cleaning. I started thinking about Mia again and wondering if my sister had forgotten her here. Then I woke up in my bed about 5 minutes before my alarm would've went off.

Might have had the potential of becoming lucid if I hadn't woken up. I think I knew it was a dream but just woke up to make sure instead of doing an RC. >.<

Had several dreams last night but way too much going on to remember more than this.

There were a few people over at my house that I had never met before. One of the guys offered me a vial of LSD. It had weird floating blobs in it. He said I could trip for free and I told him I couldn't cause my kid was home. He said I didn't have to take much to trip and it wouldn't last as long. So I drank a bit of it and had some of the blobs in my mouth, I went ahead and chewed them up. Then he went and offered my husband some and he was going to take it. I told him he probably shouldn't just in case something happens with our son. He said he'd be fine and he took some too. I started tripping within half an hour apparently, at least that's what I exclaimed to a girl who wanted to take some. It kicked in fast, and I remember sitting on the couch, talking to two guys. It really felt as though I had taken acid, because the conversation was so simple and so funny. I just started giggling like crazy and I told them I had no idea what was going on right now, with the conversation. I started to see colors vibrate my vision and then they would disappear. My son was in his crib sleeping and I was staring at him when I realized I wasn't tripping anymore.

Just a fragment. There was a whole story to it. Slacking on my dream journal. =/

I have no idea what's up with the blobs...

I had incredibly vivid dreams last night, but I had to work so I only took a few notes and I know I'm missing part of it. =(

I was looking through an old composition notebook of mine and found sketches that were really amazing. One of them had a park bench sitting overlooking a river. The water was in such good detail that could almost see it flowing (should've done a RC.) It was in a sort of 3D style. I was amazed that I had drawn something so good. I was about to show someone when I realized that my friend, A, had used my notebook at one time. She's an artist, so I assumed she did them, which made more sense. I was a little disappointed.

The same dream, just later on. I was at a house I used to live in a long time ago, a doublewide, but it was where my home is now. I was talking to this girl when I realized that she was my new sister. We were standing in front of the bathroom mirror discussing make-up. She was pointing to the eyeshadows that were hers, then she said I could use them but just to ask. That's when I told her that I really liked the eyeshadow she got for me. She asked me which colors they were, and I started describing the same exact eyeshadow that I wear in waking life. I named off the colors, slowly as I tried to remember what they were. Purple, orange, yellow, and a maroon color. When I woke up I was surprised to have remembered something like this from my waking life. Was I semi-lucid, maybe? (BTW this is the part I was forgetting.) After the eyeshadow thing, it made me want to start getting ready for school. I looked at the clock and it was 12:55am. I was debating on whether I should sleep or stay up and do my make-up early.

Then I noticed that some people from my work were at the house. M is fighting with her boyfriend, K, and is being pretty aggressive. I tell them I need a bag of weed and he's going to help me. We go outside and he's still acting violent. He tells me that he has to go to R to get the pot and that I have to go with him. Before I could say ok, we're zooming off in his car towards this field that is next to my house. I'm not in the car, I'm like hanging on to the window or maybe in some kind of side seat, but totally not in the car. He's going way too fast to make the turn, I realized, and we drive straight into the field going at an incredibly high speed. I could feel the woosh and see everything in a blur. Then as he gets dangerously close to this house he starts to do a 180 in an insane wide turn. I'm so scared by this point and wake up before we make it. I remember thinking the car was going to flip.

I was preparing for a zombie apocalypse. I was going through my mind of everything we would need to have in the car. Then when I went to pick out the car, it was kind of like a video game because I clicked on the vehicle I wanted and it appeared, lol. Then I was at the bottom of these stairs, and I had been keeping the doors locked but the front door was open and I knew they were coming. I was yelling at my friend upstairs that time was up and we needed to split. She came down the stairs just as a couple zombies wandered in and started chasing us but the girl ended up knowing the one that was behind us and they started talking a minute... lol.

Can't remember much more detail than that. I do remember thinking that the zombies were health nuts.

Ok, so hopefully as I'm typing I remember more. I woke up at like 5:30ish and just thought about lucid dreaming as I fell asleep. I became lucid in a dream later, it was strange how I did because I was in a bedroom and was about to go see someone and I was thinking in my mind, well this is a dream so it shouldn't be hard to find them, and that's when I realized what I had just thought and was like hey... I don't have to do anything, I'm dreaming!

I'm surprised I remembered reading the Task of the Month for May, but I could only remember the basic task and I could remember the catch a ghost task from last month? I think. Anyway, there was a light in the bedroom, two of them actually. They were hanging on the walls and I decided to try to move it with my mind but it wasn't working. I was squinting and focusing as hard as I could but it wouldn't move. Finally I told it to move in a very commanding voice, and I tried to believe it would move. Then it started hovering towards me.

I got bored with it after that though and I can't remember how I got out of the house, but I was walking down the street and I saw this graveyard and a house in the middle of it. I remembered the catch a ghost task and realized that one was over so I didn't even try. A lot of the dream is vague to me now. Ohhhh, and I made sure to feel everything like constantly so the dream wouldn't fade. The walls, the carpet that was in the house, and my favorite was the grass.

I decided to find a man. I got in my car for some reason, didn't even think of flying. I drove out to this house and there was a man, who looked a lot like this actor that I can't think of his name. The guy who played Ferris Bueler in Ferris Bueler's Day Off, but he also looked different, and a lot less scrawny very attractive. The thing was, I didn't wanna just force myself upon my DC because in the past, that has led me to very disturbing sex stories... I decided to sort of court him like get him to like me first.

I had first seen him in a truck with, I assumed, his little sister and he was pulling into his family's driveway. It was strange because the house was back a ways from the street and there was this sign with weird electrical wiring, like some paranoid freaks lived there. Thats when I realized it was his parents house and his dad might be in the military. I walked up to him as he got out of the truck and asked if we could talk. He told me he had to go to work, but I insisted and so he invited me inside to meet his folks. I go inside and I realize the house is freaking adorable. There was the living room and a small opening/hallway to the kitchen and in that opening on each side a small hallway that leads to a bedroom. At first I tried to get the guy to show me to his bedroom, lol. But he's still in a hurry and so his dad, who sounded really hoarse like he smoked to much, was barely a whisper, decided to show me the house.

He showed me one hallway and I pretended to be interested but I didn't wanna lose the guy. I listened to his dad, but I can't remember what he was saying, when I heard another car pull up outside. I got outside to find a woman sitting in the car, waiting on the guy. Apparently it was his girlfriend. Somehow I convinced the guy to let me drive him to work and he finally said ok. The girl seemed pretty pissed off at me. The guy eventualy turned into my husband at one point on the way there and I looked over and told him I really liked him. He seemed flattered. When I got him to his work, he let me hug him but that was it.

I realized that I had wasted too much time trying to get laid. So I got in my car and was about to drive, when I decided to fly instead. I got out of the car and woke up.

I was with a friend and we were doing a lot of stuff, don't remember much, just know that she was in my dream. This was the beginning of a long and crazy dream.

T's mom calls us and tells us that T's father had just passed away. It took a little while for it to hit me. We went over to their house and were looking at stuff that reminded us of him. Finally it dawned on me, the reality of it and how much it hurt to lose such an amazing person. I just started bawling and curled up on the bed in my husband's arms.

Then I was parked outside of my house, but I was across the street and I had my son in the backseat. I was getting ready to get out and go inside when I noticed a strange looking object in the sky. It looked like the common symbol of a UFO only it had these little wings at the back that were straight, not pointed outwards. This part was very vivid. I watched if fly over our neighbors house and over us and it was hovering very close between mine and our neighbors house. I was expecting an abduction when I noticed a little door had opened up, all fancy looking, and it was glowing blue. Then it started to leave. I decided to do the same and was getting ready to start my car when I was grabbed by a robotic-crab-like-arm. I reacted immediately by breaking the arm off, never getting a good look at what exactly it was. I drove off to find someone I could tell.

I end up at a video store with T and am scared out of my mind. I tell him what happened as we walked through the game section. He told me there might be an explanation and just to look around and take my mind off of it. I start looking at these games on this table, assuming it was a clearance table. A kid, kind of chubby with a metal t-shirt on, approaches the table across from me. He's keeping his head down and trying to get a good look at me without my notice. But I did notice and I asked his name, he looked down at one of the games and quickly said "Black Ops." I called him a liar and started running towards T. The kid was following and he gave me a inhuman feeling. Then an older man joined him and they started chasing us through this library of games and what not. As we were running I noticed a bunch of men in black suits, they seemed to be helping us, but at the same time I was wondering if they were with them.

We go back to the house. As we're entering, we notice there's someone or something lying on the couch, they sounded injured and weak. T lays down on his back and starts to creep in backwards, I guess he was trying to sneak up on the thing. He starts to get really close and it was like all of a sudden he entered a high pressure area and water started coming out of his eyes. He moved back out of reach and had a very shocked expression. I told him that I had felt that when I saw the UFO earlier. Then the thing on the couch started moving again and it got up and I think it had changed it's form a little bit. It looked human-like except it had strange curvy ears stick out like an elf. I noticed that it looked really young, like a toddler. That's when T started saying something to it and it kept saying "Bay-bay." It started to walk towards me and I had my son in my arms. It acted like a toddler seeing a baby and it was reaching out its arms towards W. I almost let him touch him when I realized I didn't want it to hurt my son.

T acted like I was being rude and I told him I was just being safe. Then it was suddenly and older female, a short one. It got really close to my face and I noticed as it was speaking to me that it had one blue eye and one green eye. Huge round eyes. It was saying that she had heard I needed a peace and hope leader. Someone to guide me in those areas. It acted like it had been sent here to help me. I felt the love and caring nature of this being. Then I woke up.

Crazyyy dreams. Scared me a lot.