Suena

This isn't really a dream but...

I've posted in the rant thread twice already. I feel whiny today.

I had a dream the other night about a friend of mine from a few years ago. We became good friends the first day we met and slowly but surely went our own ways and I guess I'm really sad about it. Like, really sad.

She ended up getting into coke with some other girl we worked with and she knew I wasn't a fan of her habit. I was worried, you know. I feel like since then she cut me off, especially when she became pregnant.

Anyway, on occasion we run into eachother. Probably twice a year it feels like. Usually I say something like hey, how are you, but she usually acts like she just ran into somebody she didn't want to see.

I don't understand why. I loved her (in a very good friend way). It breaks my heart to know that I will never get to hang out with her again.

Today, I walked right past her on my way out of the store. I don't know if she saw me, but I kept my head down because I just sensed that she didn't want to make small talk or get back in touch. Just a feeling I got.

I feel really sad about it.

I don't have any friends like that anymore. I guess it just made me think of how lonely I am....