Twoshadows

Old LD from 6-6-07

I just had a mini lucid. I had slept in some and was going to get up, but I felt disappointed that I really didn't remember any dreams, so I decided to try one more time to try to squeeze out a dream or amybe even a lucid.


Dream:

I was looking at a house with my mom and sister to buy. This one was for Sale by Owner. It ened up being a ver big house. But there were many odd things about it. It was very junky--the previous owners had left all their junk and garbage.

There were many floors. The top floor was about four stories off the ground and had a great view. But there was a part near the front where the floor and the wall didn't meet so there was a 10-12 inch crack. The previous owners had put some chicken wire across it so that nothing --or no one would fall through.

On the way down I noticed that one of the staircases was wobbly. I wiggled it a bit and heard it it crack, and it then broke free and fell to the lower floor.

That was the thing that made us decide that we really didn't want the house. I told mom, "This house is really big, but I don't think it was built very well.".


The next thing I remember is that I am going down a school hallway on roller blades. I tripped on something and almost lost my balance and thought, "Whoa, that would be very embarrassing to fall down here in front of everyone. So I was extra careful after that.

I got to the Kindergarten hallway. I noticed a display hanging on the wall. It was how one of the classes used cooked lima beams (mashed) and jello to create this wonderful moldable substance. They had displayed a jack-o-lantern and other things that they had shaped out of the stuff. The color was a light clearish orange. Another teacher came by and she also mentioned how neat she thought that was. I pulled out a paper and was about to write down the recipe. Then two more teachers walked by. They were talking about weightloss.

Then I was back in the original big house. I was standing by the window. I saw a very tall cypress tree by the window. I notied it was moving. I thought it was moving because of the wind (it had been very windy in real life all night). But as I looked closer, I noticed that it was actually moving past the window.

"It's walking!! A walking tree...just like the last Lucid Task." I thought. "I am dreaming! I'm having a lucid dream! I have to find my cat so she can talk to me..." I looked around. I saw the garage door in front of me I knew my cat would be there if I were only lucid long enough.

But of course at that thought I felt the dream start to fade.

And then I woke up.


But this is a great sign. This often happens to me before I get it right. So I am hoping/expecting to get the Task done in the next night or two.

Old LD from 5-30-07

I got to have a good nap today. And I ended up having a nice mini-lucid.

I don't remember how it started but i was at the top of a very tall building and I started thinking something like, "If I were dreaming I would jump". And then it hit me that I was atually dreaming. So I let myself fall. At first I was thinking how I didn't feel any wind on my face as I fell, then as I thought that and became conscious of it, I did start feeling the wind on my face and the wonderful sensation of falling and knowing that it was okay.

I must have lost lucidity at that point because that is all I remember of that dream.

Old LD from 5-23-07

Yes--I had a Lucid Dream!!


It started in my neighbor's backyard. I was talking to my friend N who supposedly lived there. We were discussing the problems we had with our yards. As we stood there in her yard, I could see right through the chain link fence to see my whole yard. Both of our yards were very large. They were all sandy dirt and had junk laying around.

I commented on how messy our yards looked. I said, "Look at how my yard slopes. It's hard to have a yard look neat when it isn't level. You're lucky yours is level."

But as I looked at her yard, it was only level where we were standing, all the rest was uneven with ditches and hills.

Then I looked at the green plants growing. I pointed it out to N. I said, "You see all that green stuff that looks like grass? Well, it's not. Those are baby tumble weeds. They are going to grow up to be huge and ugly, and when you try to pull them up, you'll get all scratched up with their stickers.

She then said she wasn't sure what plants I was talking about.

I said, "You can see them better if you fly over them." And at that point I started to hover in a horizontal position a few few off the ground and started flying over the little tumble weeds. "See..?" I said.

She looked at me and smiled and said, "C----, you just like to show off."

BLAM!

I was dreaming. Of course, because I was flying. Funny that I had a bit of a delayed reaction in figuring that out.

The first thing that comes to my mind is to complete the Advanced Task. I needed to find a tree.

I looked over into my yard and saw two poplar trees. Unfortunately they looked dead. I didn't think I could make a dead tree walk around. So I kept looking. In the far end of the yard I saw another poplar.

I stared at it really intensely and willed it to pull up its roots. I could see it start to come up. I could see its roots emerge from the dirt. I then willed it to walk. It started forward.

As I watched it move, I realized that something wasn't quite right. I looked closer at the tree's roots. Under the roots I could see little wheels. The tree wasn't really using its roots to walk, but intead used little wheels that it hid under it's roots.

I thought to myself, "Will I get credit for this? Maybe I should try again."

So I looked over at another poplar tree. I stared at it until it too came up out of the ground. But this tree, instead of trying to fool me with its roots, just had wheels....and it wheeled itself away.

I started feeling like I had to hurry. I started pulling up tree after tree at this point only to find that all my trees had wheels and no roots at all.

To make matters worse, all the background in the dream suddenly went out on me. Everything but myself and about 8 wheeled trees was a flat light blue. I felt like we were in a computer--like the Matrix-- and someone had messed with the background color.

Then it messed up again. I was now trapped in a dark blue room. I had to get out. I ran at the wall with the intent of slipping right through. But I hit the wall.

After several times of being unsuccessful, I decided to try something different. I thought if I closed my eyes, then I wouldn't be fooled by a wall that wasn't even physical to begin with.

So with my eyes closed I ran at the wall. I ran further than I thought I needed to go and started to feel like I had made it, then blam. I hit it with the top of my head.

I tried two more times with my eyes closed.

But after no success. I decided to just do flips--like I often do in LDs.

As I did the flips I felt so good. I remember thinking, "This feels so good, why am I bothering to do anything else at all in my LDs. I should just do flips the whole time."

So I stayed in the room completely content for the next few minutes just enjoying the sensation of dream flips.

Until I finally woke up.

(False) WILD within a Dream:

I wish I remembered details better on this one. I do remember that I was involved with doing something within the dream. Then suddenly I started seeing the ocean. It didn't go with what was happening in the rest of the dream. My dream self suddenly "realized" that I just had a successful WILD. I felt so proud of myself. I decided I wanted to get closer to the ocean. Instead of flying like I usually do, I just pulled the ocean scene closer to where I was standing. I could see the setting sun gleam off the water and boats in the harbor. I remember just thinking about how beautiful it was and how real it looked.

I also remember that I was conscious of my "physical body". I was very sure that my physical body was standing in the real world. I could feel my arms hanging at my sides. I thought it was really cool that my mind could be seeing something completely different from my real body. I continued to stare at the ocean scene in front of me. I then carefully lifted what I thought were my real arms. I placed my hands over my eyes. I could see a faint shadow of my hands which darkened the ocean scene. I thought it was fascinating how I could be conscious in two places at once, and how I could be moving my real body yet not really seeing it because my mind was in a dream.

Then I "woke up" and went back to my original dream.


This kind of dream has happened to be several times before where I feel like I have entered a dream, yet I still am very aware of what I think is my real body. Yet the whole thing is all in my head.

Vampire Dream:

[This is a sexual dream and I will be omitting some of the details...sorry.]

I was captured by a vampire. He was holding several other people captive also. I knew the vampire planned to kill all of us. I wondered what it would feel like to die. Would it hurt? How painful was a vampire's bite? Didn't vampires seduce you before they bit you? Maybe I would be so entraced that I wouldn't noticed that I was dying. All these thoughts were going through my mind.

Then suddenly the vampire appeared before me. He walked toward me. He had long flowing blond hair and wore black leather pants and a while blousy shirt. He reminded me a little of an 80's rock star. He was very good looking.

He smiled at me as he slowly came closer. He seemed to know what I had been thinking. I started feeling dizzy just looking into his eyes. The guy was gorgeous. He then put his lips to mine and my mind started to swirl. I only remember briefly thinking that he was seducing me and that this could be the end. But it felt so good that I didn't care. I lost track of time. I was completely caught up in the passion that swirled around me. I seemed to come in and out of consciousness. I remember at one point realizing that he had pulled my shirt up. I didn't care. Everything felt so good. At another point I remember my pants being down. I was vaguely conscious that there were other people in the room, but again, I didn't care. I was overwhelmed with pleasure and passion.

And then suddenly...finally....it was over. He was standing about four feet away from me. I was still alive. I remember wanting to ask him if he could do that to me again...and again....before his finally killed me. I could see a little smile forming in the corner of his mouth as if he had again read my thoughts.


And the dream ended.

I woke up feeling pretty disturbed about this dream. Why wasn't I trying to escape? Why did I not try to slay him? Isn't that what I am in my dreams....a vampire slayer? Yet I was completely content to let this vampire take advantage of me until he finally got bored and killed me. How nice.

Lucid Dream:

I don't remember how it started. I just remembered that I was doing something and it came to me that I was dreaming, yet it took me a moment to let go of what I was doing and get on with the LD. I took off flying. I was flying fairly low through the streets of an old town. The wind was blowing fairly hard. It was the first time I remember ever flying in wind. I could feel the wind whipping through my hair a lot more than with normal flying, and it was pushing me around a bit. I remember wanting to fly faster and thinking about rockets on my feet (like I often do to fly faster) and felt myself speed up some.

I saw a girl standing in the street below, so I decided to stop and talk to her. I wanted to ask her something interesting, but nothing came to mind. She was holdng a piece of yellow paper. I looked at it and saw that it was a flyer. I read it (I had no problem reading the words. Ocassionally I will have trouble reading in dreams). I was determined that I would remember exactly what was on the flyer when I woke up. But it has now left me. It was something about a school event the girl was involved with.

And unfortunately that's all I remember of the dream.

Old LD from 5-16-07



I was driving with my family somewhere on a long drive. We started going through a town that had an amusement park. At first as I looked at it I believed that it was old and abandoned. But as I looked closer I saw that some of the rides were going.

Then I realized that the road was suddenly part of the roller coaster. I thought that was pretty cool. But then I questioned it and wondered how big trucks could go on this road if it was also a roller coaster. It started seeming strange to me. I even thought that this was the kind of thing that happened in my dreams. But for some reason –even after thinking that I didn’t become instantly lucid.

My notes say: “Stood backwards”. I actually have no idea what I meant.

I don’t remember all that happened here. But I think this part of the dream went on for a while here on the road/roller coaster.

I do know that somewhere in here I became partially lucid. I remember thinking that this was a dream and was trying to float. But there seemed to be no picture at that point. I was just existing in this grey void. So nothing really happened and I must have lost lucidity ......

Old LD from 5-9-07

I had a lucid dream last night!

I actually woke up this morning about an hour and a half before I had to get up. I thought back and was frustrated when I couldn’t remember a single dream. I wasn’t feeling very tired, but I made myself go back to sleep so I could squeeze out just one dream. I usually can do that, even if it is just a short dream—and that’s all I wanted—just something that I could write down in my dream journal. It didn’t even matter to me at that time if it were lucid or not.

I did go back to sleep. And I did dream. I even had a lucid dream. The problem was that it was a very long complex dream. When I woke up, I thought, “Oh my gosh…how am I going to be able to figure that all out.

So I started by writing down all the things I remembered doing in the dream, lucid or not. Then I tried to sort them into the “before I became lucid”, “while I was lucid” and “after I was lucid” parts.

Then—I sorted through each section and put it together the way I best remembered and the way it seemed to make the most sense. And I actually think I did a pretty accurate job considering how mixed up I felt when I first awakened.

So after all that, here is the dream:


Dream:


It started non-lucid. I was following Jeff. He was walking toward the back of a building and was about to go in a side door. I remember passing a large sand castle that was by the door. I had no idea where Jeff was going, but I felt I needed to go too.

We went into the building. I believe we were separated at this point. I remember sitting in what looked like a waiting area. I remember this boy (about 12 years old) showing me some of his drawings. I then was watching something on a TV screen.

I’m not sure of the transition here. It may be that I was watching something on TV and then I was suddenly there. But next thing I remember was standing next to a large ferris wheel. People were climbing on it. There were ladder-like things to get to the seats.

Suddenly the ferris wheel starts spinning. I start seeing people falling off of it to the concrete below. I felt horrified. I thought that surely it was killing them. I didn’t want to be seeing this.

So—I decided in my mind that the people wouldn’t die. One by one, they picked themselves up off the ground and brushed themselves off and walked away. I felt much better.

Then I remember I was climbing the ladders on the ferris wheel. I was thinking, "If I were dreaming I could climb this with just my hands." --(that is something I have always liked to do in dreams—use my upper body strength and pull myself up things without using my legs). So I start climbing the ladder with just my arms. I remember it actually felt good. I could feel my muscles working but it had the satisfation of a good stretch.

Then it hits me—finally—that I actually am dreaming. Then I thought, “Of course I am—duh—it takes me long enough to figure this out.”

So I did the first thing that came to mind. I started to fly. For some reason I didn’t think about doing the Tasks at all. Instead I thought about how I really wanted to make this dream into a complex story line. I wanted to make it my story. But I decided it might be easier to start with something like Star Wars. I have always wanted to have a Star Wars LD anyway.

So as I flew I decided that I needed to be in space. And without any effort I was suddenly soaring though the stars. It was so beautiful and incredible.

I thought about how I had always wanted to do that, and I had never been able to do it before. I had read about others doing it and wondered how they managed to do it because it seemed to be a difficult thing to do. And I was so amazed how this just happened naturally for me in this dream.

I also thought about how everything was just too quiet. I wanted to hear a soundtrack. But I wasn’t able to get music going.

I noticed as I flew though the stars, that the stars seemed to be more concentrated above me. It started looking more to me like a flat ceiling. But I decided not to let that bother me too much. This was my first time creating a flight through space, and it was pretty darn good.

I realized that my next goal was to find a space ship. I really wanted to find Darth Vader and confront him. I looked below me and I now saw a white medium sized space craft. It was a dirty white with yellow and black trim. I knew Darth Vader was on that ship.

I flew to it. I knew that it I flew into it fast enough that I would fly right through the sides and end up inside. And it did.

Unfortunately (and this kills me), this is the part of the dream I remember the least. Something happened on that ship, but I have no memory what it was. But I do remember the dream suddenly fading.

I was suddenly back in a house. There was a hallway with a mirror at the end in front of me. I knew I was still in the dream. I also knew that if I ran straight at the mirror, that it would transport me back to space.

So I ran toward the mirror and was again back in space. I saw the same ship in front of me. I flew right at it. But instead of slipping back inside, I hit the outside. This time it was too solid for me to get it. I was very disappointed. Again the dream faded.

I was back in the hallway with the mirror. I ran at the mirror again. But this time, instead of going through it I bumped right into it. The mirror was very real feeling. I touched it, and the glass felt smooth and cool.

I decided that I would just run in to the wall. So I tried again. But I hit the wall. I thought, “No…no….now I am doubting and it’s not working. I have to believe. I have to believe…..”

So I took a dive and tried to go through the floor. But again my head just hit the carpet. Everything felt so real and so solid. Disappointed, I stood up. I made myself float and started doing back flips and the air. It felt really good to do those.

Suddenly I heard Jeff’s voice talking to me. I closed my eyes and then thought, “oh no, closing eyes in a lucid dream makes you wake up!”

I open them. Jeff was standing next to me. We were back in that original building. I had fallen asleep in the chair in the waiting room.

I said, “Jeff, you just woke me up from a lucid dream.” When I saw that he looked sorry, I added, “But I guess you had no way of knowing. It’s okay.”

He said, “If it helps, I brought you some ice cream.” He handed me a square container that had some cookies and cream flavored ice cream in it. It was fairly melted.

I took a few bites and was amazed at how good that tasted to me. Then I thought, “Isn’t there a reason that I’m not supposed to be eating this?” I didn’t want there to be any reasons, so I kept eating it.

Then I thought, “It’s the sugar. I’m not supposed to be eating sugar. And that’s right—I’m Raw Vegan now! I’m really not supposed to be eating this. How could I have forgotten?”

It then comes to me—I’m still in the dream! I never did wake up. I looked back in the bowl. All that is left is the melted ice cream at the bottom that is completely runny. I put a corner of the bowl to my mouth and drink the rest of the ice cream. I thought, “This is great. I ate all this ice cream and I didn’t mess anything up!”

At that point I woke up for real.

Old LD from 4-29-07

Mini Lucid:

I was walking at night with a group of people (no one I know from real life). We came to a place where I looked to our left, and I was the full moon shining down on this snow covered mountain range. It was so absolutely fantastically beautiful. I just stopped and looked at it for a few moments.

I then realized that I had my camera with me. I didn't know if my camera would be able to capture the beauty of this. But I wanted to try. I took a picture and saw that it seemed to take okay. I then wanted to take more pictures, but the people from my group were now all in the way. They were spread out all over in front of me and there was no way I could get a picture without them in it. I knew I had to wait. I noticed another lady with a much nicer camera was taking pictures of it too. I wished I had a nicer camera.

Finally, they had all moved out of the way. I lifted my camera to take a picture, but I was surprised to find that there was now a big hill in the way covering up most of the snow covered mountains. Where had that hill come from? I knew it wasn't there before when I took my first picture.

I stood there for a moment trying to understand this, when it suddenly hit me--I'm Dreaming!

I remember feeling proud of myself for figuring that out. And not just accepting that the hill was suddenly there.

I decided to fly over the hill so I could get a better view of the mountain. In fact, I wanted to fly to the mountains. The moonlight was still shining so magically on them. I just had to be there.

So I took off flying toward the full moon over the mountains.

But not long into the flight toward the moonlit mountains, I could feel my dream fading.

Old Dream from 4-27-07

Dream 4 (very mini lucid):

I was in the gym with Barb. She got a black notebook out and started to show me something.

BLAM...I was suddenly lucid. I knew the gym hadn't looked right. But before I could actually do anything I woke up.

Last night's dream:

I was standing with a friend that reminded me a little of Marsha. We were at what was supposed to be her house. We were looking out at the hills and canyon behind her house. One of the hills was tall and rolling and had stone walls dividing it into squares. In each square someone had planted a diffferent crop making the hill full of different colors. I commented how it looked like a patchwork quilt. And I reminded my friend how different that looked from hills back home which were all made of smooth rock.

Then we looked across the canyon and saw a guy who was jumping on what looked like a very large pogo stick. The friend commented on how this guy annoyed her and how he was always showing off. Then before our eyes his pogo stick (with him on it) went over the edge of the cliff. We saw him fall 70 feet or so to the bottom. I was horrified. I knew there was no way someone could take a fall like that and live. But then to my surprise he got up and came our way. He started talking to us. He seemed giddy and disoriented. I knew we should take him to the hospital. But my friend didn't seem to want to. Finally she gave in saying that we had to be at the hospital later for a meeting (or party?).

Old LD from 4-27-07

I had a bunch of short dreams last night. I went to bed with that feeling that I was going to lucid dream. i don't know why, but I can almost sense them coming.


Dream 1 (mini lucid):

I don't remember becoming lucid. I just remember being lucid. I was standing in the kitchen with my dad. My dad was looking down at something on the counter. He had a kind and knowing little smile on his face, and he was humming this tune.

I remember thinking that there was something very significant to the tune. I told myself that it was very important to remember this tune.

All I remember at this point is it was G A B (quarter note, quarter note, half note) repeated three times. After that it went on to something more complex that I no longer remember.

I believe this dream was inspired by Oneironaught's dream yesterday and my comments to him.

Old Dream from 4-22-07

Dream 8:

I was standing by a car on a street in LA where my best childhood best friend lived. I could see kids all playing outin the street. I wondered in anyone would recognize me.

Then they started running and one shouted at me "The bandits are coming! Hide in you car."

I looked down the street which was no empty of children and saw these guys on motorcycles coming down. They had guns and were shooting into the houses. I knew my car wasn't the safest, but I knew if I ran toward I house at this point would justmake me an easy target.

So I got in the car and ducked down low.

I suddenly realized that my car was moving down the street. They guys on motorcycles were following me.

We got a a big intersection and were about to turn. I distintly remember thinking, "I can just watch this as a movie. I don't have to participate."

That thought made me LUCID.

I realized that I didn't have to stay in the car and be chased by the guys with guns. I could make them all go away.

I wanted out of the car. I remembered a recent thread on DV about how LDs could be dangeous if you do things that could kill you in real life. So I decided I didn't want to just open the door and jump out--I might be starting a bad habit.

But before I could figure out a solution, the car door opened on its own, so I flew out. I flew up to the top of a building. I landed and thought for a second about what I wanted to do as my Task for this dream. I thought about the coming Task for May. I debated for a moment on whether I should try it or not. I knew it was too early to get credit for it. I looked around. I saw a planter in the median that was planted with palm trees. I took a good look at that first palm tree. Should I...should I....?

But before I could do anything more, I woke up.



Dream 9:

I was sad to have awakened so quickly from the LD I had just barely started so I willed myself back to the dream. The next thing I knew I was back at that intersection and very lucid. It was now dusk. I looked back down at the palm tree and decided not to do that Task. I decided instead that I wanted to make a Star Wars Character appear. I decided I would be happy with either Luke or Anakin. I hoped that they would have their light sabers with them.

But I woke up again before anyone showed up.

Another casualty of the forum change. The first half of this dream is gone. Now I know what Jess was complaining about when he said that half of his journal enties were gone. Some just didn't make it through. And I'm only just now noticing. Anyway, here is the end of this LD.


Old LD from 4-20-07

I thought, "I really need to believe that I can do this". That helped me get to the top of the 4 X 4 place.

When I was at the top, I looked the several stories back down to where the girls were standing. I thought, "What would happen if I just let go, I can't get hurt. I want to see what will happen."

So I let go and let myself fall. As I got down to the floor, I stopped at a float about 6 inches off the floor.

"Cool" I thought.

Then I decided to do flips in the air. I did a back flip. Then a front flip. I was going kind of slow, like I would if I were doing it underwater. But it was fun. And the girls were still looking at me in awe.

Then my alarm woke me up....

Old LD from 4-11-07

Dream (Lucid):

I was walking with several people. I remember my sister and Jeff being there. We were walking toward the beach. It was late evening and the sun was setting. It was the most beautiful thing I ever remembering seeing. I suddenly became lucid.

I started floating. I wanted to fly down to the water. But Jeff grabbed my foot and wouldn't let me go. I got mad and started kicking at his hand. I said, "Dang it--I'm lucid! Let me fly!"

Finally he either let go , or I kicked myself loose and started trying to fly off. But then my sister started grabbing my leg. I said, "What's wrong with you people? I'm lucid. I need to go."

She let go finally. But I was still having some trouble flying very high.

I thought of all the things I could do in a lucid dream. But in this dream I decided I didn't want to be in a hurry. I would fly over the ocean (shore) and then I would decide what I wanted to do.

Since I was having problems flying I kept trying to find things to kick off of (kind of like when you are swimming) to kind of propel me forward.

I finally got out over the water, but I kept sinking lower, so I had to aim myself for this guy's boat. I was going to kick off of it to help me fly.

But then I felt the dream fade.