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    The Italian

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    Xanous
    , 08-01-2013 at 12:29 AM (775 Views)
    #203 - 4:24AM - WILD/DEILD

    I wake from some dream. It feels like nothing but hypnagogia. I roll to my left and take a peek at the clock and see it's 4:02AM. I decide to do breathing meditation. After some time I see a lot of hypnagogia and my body feels different. I focus on relaxing my body more and it starts to feel like jell-o. Suddenly I get strong vibes.

    I try rolling but nothing really happens. It feels a little like I am spinning but not very vivid. I can't "get out of bed" so I just visualize walking in the living room and am very pleased when I see the dream slowly turn "on" like a dimmer switch on a light. I take a few steps in the living room and become annoyed by the feel of something like a hood on my head. It starts to obstruct my vision and instead of fighting it, I just ignore it by rubbing my hands and then feeling the floor.

    My vision clears up and I see my cats near me. I reach out to pet them but they dart away from me. There is a third cat that I don't have in waking life and I reach out to pet it as well but it shies away like the others. Finally I reach out a littler faster and more determined and grab Stella. She tries to get away at first and then yields like she finally recognizes me. As I pet her I try to remember my goals but as hard as I might try nothing comes to mind. I decide to just enjoy the moment and let it go. I soon wake up.

    I lay still recalling the dream. Suddenly I remember that I wanted to find my guru in the dream. I have been reading a lot of Dream Yoga material and like the idea of getting wisdom from my higher self. I decide at that point to go ahead and try to DEILD. I totally relax my body now and get vibrations straight away.

    I wait a moment and let the vibes intensify and then fade a little. Instead trying to move I just tell myself there is someone at the front door. I think about opening it and the dream materializes once again. For some reason I feel like I am losing lucidity and I remind myself to be aware. As I try to open the door I think I have to unlock it first. The dead bolt isn't working right and I remind myself how silly this is. I stop messing with the lock and just open the door.

    The air outside feels cold on my bare skin. I feel embarrassed by the idea that I am just in my underwear. I decide to let that go and step into the yard. I look up to call out to the dream. The sky has a partial moon obscured by clouds. I call out, "Where is my guru? Guru, come here!"

    A helicopter roars by and then hovers above me some at a normal distance in the sky. As I watch it, it morphs and distorts. I am not amused. This is pretty normal for my dreams. Then, I hear a car drive behind me in the street. I turn to look but only catch the tail lights as it blurs past.

    I call out the dream again, "Rinpoche! Can you please come to me?" Something makes me want to look down the street to my right. At the end of the block, there is a shadowed figure of a man standing motionless under the yellow glow of a street lamp. He is just looking at me. This not that creepy as first so I smile and motion him to come to me. The begins slowly walking and I think faster. Suddenly, his movement blurs a little then blinks out and reappears much closer all in an instant. The look of it is a little creepy and like a horror film. As I fight the instinct to be afraid and run, he zoom walks like this several times until he is standing before me. (Thinking about his after the fact, isn't this how we all move in the dreamscape without realizing it?)

    Now I see his face. I am surprised that he is a clean cut dark completed Italian man who looks a lot (but not exactly) like Shia Labeouf. The very non-Tibetan-Buddhist looking man promptly sticks out a hand and says his name is "Dolce" (dōl'chā'). I shake his hand and before I can speak he says, "You are Straight.
    I am confused by this and dumbly say, "My name is Straight. OK. And you said you are Dol...?"
    "Dolce."
    "Dolc?" I repeat this over and over in my mind to remember. I also note his strange manner of speaking. He sounds a little like he is from the Bronx but also very foreign. (I had never heard of Dolce that I can recall until now and I didn't know it was an Italian word at the time.) I also note he is wearing blue jeans and a gray hoodie, hood up.
    He nods at me and says, "I like how you were all like..." and makes a mocking gesture with his hands that I don't really understand. With out a moments pause he continues to ramble about being concerned for his family. He wants to know how they are doing. He asks about his sister and mother and...
    I interrupt him, "Can you just tell me something wise? I really don't have much t..."
    Now he cuts me off "In a moment." Now, he begins pacing back and forth seeming preoccupied with something.
    I let out a quiet. "Oh my God." as I realize that this is not going to happen. He continues talking so fast that it begins to sound like gibberish to me. I begin to have to fight to stay focused on the dream and in a few moments I wake up saying to myself REMEMBER
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    1. Iokheira's Avatar
      Heh heh sorry your guru wasn't so interested in teaching! Amusing dream.
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    2. Wurlman's Avatar
      Wow very nice!
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    3. Xanous's Avatar
      You know, I like him anyway. I think I'll met with ol' Dolce again. He was just worried about all the tornado that hit Italy.
    4. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Ha, Dolce's pretty amusing! I was amused at the end when you were like "Oh my God, dude, get to it..."

      You are Straight.
      Yeah, we get it, Xanous likes the ladies. Very funny, even if you didn't squeeze any "wisdom" out of him this time. Maybe he'll be less preoccupied next time.
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    5. Xanous's Avatar
      lol I did wonder later if that was what he was saying. Seeing how that was the last thing from my mind at the time I wonder if he meant something like straight to the point. It's a strange bit of randomness I guess. I do like the ladies though. At any rate I'll have to try this again. I really like the randomness from DC's. It just fascinates me.
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    6. NyxCC's Avatar
      Hey that is a cool dream! Good job not messing with the door lock and also ignoring the fact that you were only with underwear. Hmmm, I wonder if that's what prompted Dolce's comments. Man, why is it so hard to find a wise DC while lucid? I've had some amazing conversations in non-lds, but when I become lucid it's like both my and DCs' IQs drop.
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    7. Xanous's Avatar
      Yeah I have that problem a lot and when I do get something intelligent it breaks down very quickly. For me its seems that the DC is controlled by me at some low level yet on a level slightly higher than subconscious. I guess it IS all just me, but when I put all of my focus and concentration on the DC it seems like it becomes just as brain stuck as I am. Maybe it's just another form of dream control where if you try too hard it will fall apart?
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    8. NyxCC's Avatar
      I agree with that, my impressions with DCs and trying to control them are quite similar. Interestingly, had a short moment tonight that just proved this (entry tomorrow but thx for helping me enforce good reaction to blindness habits). Anyways, there was this female DC and I stared at her and thought about maybe asking her something, but as soon as I did, she froze on the spot and even looked distressed. I kind of felt pity for her, so decided to leave her alone by somehow mentally letting go of controlling and she resumed being, I guess, her normal self.

      So, yes, there is something quite mysterious about dream control. It seems it needs to be more subtle and less forceful? Maybe like playing a musical instrument...
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      Updated 08-06-2013 at 06:41 PM by NyxCC
    9. Xanous's Avatar
      Yeah that reminds me. I asked a DC version of a supervisor from work a question. The moment I focused on him and asked what the dream meant be became very nervous and tried to get away from me. I didn't know the answer so how could he? He actually acted the way I probably would have if some crazy person started asking me nonsense in waking life. But what about the whole higher self aspect? Is it a bunch of crap or have I never really found my "higher self"? That's something to really think about!
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    10. NyxCC's Avatar
      But what about the whole higher self aspect? Is it a bunch of crap or have I never really found my "higher self"? That's something to really think about!
      Man, I wish I knew how to access it! Maybe we are looking in the wrong place?
    11. Xanous's Avatar
      Perhaps going about it all wrong?
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    12. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Yeah I have that problem a lot and when I do get something intelligent it breaks down very quickly. For me its seems that the DC is controlled by me at some low level yet on a level slightly higher than subconscious. I guess it IS all just me, but when I put all of my focus and concentration on the DC it seems like it becomes just as brain stuck as I am. Maybe it's just another form of dream control where if you try too hard it will fall apart?
      You know how when you try to command DCs to do things they sometimes become somewhat puppet-like? Get that thousand-yard stare and lose a lot of their natural flow?

      I wonder if sometimes this can happen to lesser degrees when we put too much expectation on what a particular DC will or won't do. The conscious mind is great in that we control it so completely but it can't create on the fly like the subC can. Can you imagine the conscious mind building a scene or composing a piece of music on the fly like the subC?

      I wonder if sometimes we unintentionally allow the conscious mind to take over and start willing DCs to be different than what they'd otherwise be. Just a thought. This is something I've never been too sure about. Some DCs are just so sharp. And some so dumb.
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    13. NyxCC's Avatar
      I wonder if sometimes this can happen to lesser degrees when we put too much expectation on what a particular DC will or won't do. The conscious mind is great in that we control it so completely but it can't create on the fly like the subC can. Can you imagine the conscious mind building a scene or composing a piece of music on the fly like the subC?

      I wonder if sometimes we unintentionally allow the conscious mind to take over and start willing DCs to be different than what they'd otherwise be. Just a thought. This is something I've never been too sure about. Some DCs are just so sharp. And some so dumb.
      Yeah, idk. The subconscious is so good with creating things effortlessly, and the conscious is good at self-control and ... wanting? I think one of the major skills that one would eventually develop is somehow to consciously direct your subcon to work for you by abstractly intending. I have no idea what I'm talking about but feel this is the right approach. More practice needed. The good thing is we are slowly learning how to deal with more and more things. One day it will make sense!
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    14. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      I think one of the major skills that one would eventually develop is somehow to consciously direct your subcon to work for you by abstractly intending. I have no idea what I'm talking about but feel this is the right approach.
      No, that is actually very well said! I think you're right onto it!

      I believe that we're doing a version of this when we more gently hint to DCs how we'd like them to act. A good technique I know Xanous is big on using is to act like you have some kind of arrangement going with the DC. "Ah yes, you were going to show me X..." Telling them what the play's about, but still letting them be the actors, you know?

      Ah well, those are just my ideas. It should be pretty obvious that I don't have this totally figured out. DCs are a pretty amazing feature of the dream landscape. Some of them are smart to the point of being almost intimidating. BTW, Nyx, I've been impressed by how well you are able to calm down antsy DCs lately.
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    15. Xanous's Avatar
      All very good thoughts. I think it's just a really balancing act like some much of lucid dreaming. It's hard to say exactly what it is that triggers these reactions but I plan to try to find out!
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    16. NyxCC's Avatar
      I believe that we're doing a version of this when we more gently hint to DCs how we'd like them to act. A good technique I know Xanous is big on using is to act like you have some kind of arrangement going with the DC. "Ah yes, you were going to show me X..." Telling them what the play's about, but still letting them be the actors, you know?
      I like that approach, treat your DCs like your friends, not like your subordinates.

      All very good thoughts. I think it's just a really balancing act like some much of lucid dreaming. It's hard to say exactly what it is that triggers these reactions but I plan to try to find out!
      Yup, that's the way to go! And sooner or later we will figure out how to apply just the right amount of whatever it is we are applying and have psychologically stable DCs.
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