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#243 - SSILD

3:00am (alarm for WBTB)

I am at Patrick and Jessie’s house with my wife. We are all talking about the 50th anniversary episode of Doctor Who. Then a bunch of people start making a Dalek formation on the floor I join in and become the head. I put a arm out for the "eye". I look at my wife standing there and ask if she is going to take a picture.


3:56am

I am working on some cables at work on the overhead boards. I check lengths on some woods boards and pass them off to someone. I pick up a stack of pink paperwork but they look like some type of black ink has been spilled on them with areas that have been bleached out. I realize that I am dreaming but for some reason I think that I can't do that now since I am at work and I lose all lucidity.

The scene turns into a party at some fancy mansion and I see a younger and slimmer version of Jana in some kind of cop costume. In fact everyone is in costume. Jana looks at me a poses with a grand gesture at her body. Yeah I get it. Your slim. She then walks over to some women and begins flirting with them. I wonder if they know she is a lesbian.

Then Justin walks in the front door in some type of Phantom of the Opera costume but the mask looks like a Cyberman. He sings something to some nearby people and wonders off into the main room. I get the idea that I must be dreaming but I wake up.

4:49AM

I am at work and decide that I am dreaming. I don't really have that dawning realization but I actually decide that I want to be dreaming. I only remember thinking that all these work dreams must be because I've been working so much overtime. I lose lucidity.

I am in my house doing something... I don't know what. Again I decide I want to be dreaming. At first I think it might just be HI because after my last waking at 3:56am I wanted to WILD. But no, this seems a little more than that and I accept it as a dream.

I look around and notice my house. My vision is blurry but notice how my house looks like a blend between my normal house and something that I think of as an apartment. After a moment, I decide to go outside. I reach the front door and notice the door knob is at the top. There are dark yellow opaque panes of glass on either side of the door. I concentrate and expect a door knob in the proper place. When I look again its there but it wont turn. I blindly reach for a dead bolt and turn it. The door opens.

Again the area looks like waking life with a blend of something unfamiliar. Gravity becomes light and I begin taking long slow jumps into the air. I begin to giggle like a kid enjoying the feeling. After several jumps I begin making a swimming motion in the air and start to actually fly. I move above the tree line and lose my reference point. I get a feeling of vertigo and all I see is light blue sky and dots of green. I will myself back down. Once I feel myself touch the ground my vision returns to normal. I decide to settle for bouncing around more than flying.

I am in a wooded area with open-walled sheds that have old corrugated tin roofs. I jump to the roof tops and bounce from building to building. That's when I begin to think about several goals I have. I pick the first one I think of: China. I look forward and notice that I seem to be in a mountainous area heading up a steep rocky hill where the building are built into. There is a long structure jutting out of one the buildings on the hill; It looks like a conveyor belt with an enormous valve at the end. My first thought is that must be some type of grain mill. It all looks familiar and I think of something from Fallout. I don't pay too much attention to it because I want to get over this hill and use expectation to make it to the great wall. A huge tree is in front of me and the branches cover me. At the top of the hill I see a train passing by. I find this curious and begin to float toward it. Unfortunately, I get hung up on one of the branches and can't seem to escape. I feel like a helium balloon with no way to control my flight. I look back at the train and notice a thick wall of trees that stand impossibly high. I realize that I must not only reach the train but fly over the giant wall of trees. The task feels impossible and I give up.

I have some wakefulness at this point and stay up for about 45 min before returning to bed.

#6:35AM

I am in some house with a door that wont close properly. I think it must need vents. My dog daisy is whining from some place in the room but I can't find her. I go outside and my wife has put several animals in a large rabbit cage. I expect to see ferrets but they look odd and hairless. There are also a few sugar gliders curled up in hammocks with several white birds perched on wooden dowels. I shrug at the sight and laugh to myself as I walk back in the house. I think we probably need to find a place inside before it gets cold. I pause at the back steps. Something isn't right it should be cold. I become aware of the temperature but notice its not hot or cold. Well, it's still fall but we should probably do something soon. I look down and realize I grabbed something from the trash can that is next to the cage. I have a bag of old rotten potatoes. I smell it and it's pretty foul. Instead walk all the way back to the trash, I hurl the bag toward it, missing. Close enough. I walk inside.

There is a pretty open floor plan and the kitchen and living room are pretty much the same room. I feel like my hands are dirty so I wash them in the sink. There is blood and I notice cuts on my hands. Two of my fingers are missing halfway. I franticly pray, "OH DEAR JESUS NO. PLEASE NO!" I take my hand out of the water and take a closer look. My hands are fine. I relax and think I must be losing my mind.

I hear my dad laughing and turn around to see him watching some comedian on TV. He keeps telling me that it's not funny. I ask him, "Then why are you laughing?" I walk around a partition to relax in a recliner while I listen for his reply.

I hear him say, "Well it was, but they lost me at..."

I wake up.

#242 - DILD - 03:04 AM

I am working in some strange factory I think with dirt floors and large metal cylinders. I see several people I know from my past but one guy stands out. Aaron. He is walking behind me and I keep looking back trying to place him. I feel something is off.

I suddenly have a Fa in some bed in the middle of the factory. I wish that I had talked to Aaron now that I realize it was a dream. I'm glad I had one so vivid but wish I had got lucid. I also realize that I passed out too fast before I could do an induction. I feel a little bummed my coffee didn't do much for me. I wonder what went wrong. I remember that I am trying to make a habit of doing a nose plug every time I wake up. I partly blow through. I find this odd but I am so sure I am awake. I try to rationalize why I would blow through at all. I breath out my nose normal and notice that the feeling is the same. I think maybe since I've been sick my nose is a little clogged. But that doesn't quite add up either so I try again. This time my breath stops.

I have another FA and this time I am at home in my own bed. I can't believe my nose plug RC failed but I decide I better do it again out of good practice. I partly blow through again. OK now I know something is up. This time I focus more intently on it. With more deliberation, I feel my hand squeeze hard on my nose but the feel is also a little numb. There's my first clue. Now, this time I blow through cleanly. Ha! I am dreaming still!

I have a hard time getting out of bed and it feels like the start of an OBE. I am actually in the void but I don't realize it yet. I open eyes but it feels like my physical eyes. Though all I see is total blackness I worry that I will wake myself up. I close my eyes and focus on seeing through my eyelids. Some shadows and patterns begin to take shape. I rub hands for stability and see them clearly in light against black void. I get up and start running into the void hoping a scene will form. I begin surging forward at an incredible rate and have an intense feeling of G-forces. It takes my breath away and I gasp loudly. The feeling surges through my whole body and I have to ground myself and focus before it gets too uncomfortable. Everything slows down and I continue forward. Now, I unintentionally level out horizontally and begin flying. I start surging forward like before and repeat the whole breathless gasping episode again. After I calm down again, I feel myself fall to my back. I don't want to end up in bed again so I try harder to focus on a scene.

Suddenly I am standing in my darkened house. I am in the living-room and move to a light switch. There are creepy shadows of some humanoid entities in my way. I feel fear so I curse at them and push through anyway. I am actually standing in the living-room/kitchen threshold where there are two light switches on both sides of the wall.

I flip light switches but only the light in my son's room on the other side of the living room comes on. I say out loud, "I want some fucking light in here right now." I Flip the switches on and off but it only effects my son's room. I flip them off again as I say, "Now!" Flip them on, "In hear right now". Something like fingers tickles my arm from the darkness in the kitchen. I turn and address the the shadows masking my fear with anger, "You mother fucking bitches better go away! I swear to God I'll fuck you up!" It stops.

I turn my attention back to the lights. I try flipping the switch switch one more time and again only my sons room lights up. Suddenly, I realize its not all that bad. There is at least some light coming on and it is actually realistically flooding into the living room enough to see some detail. I decide the dream must want me there so I go. I begin to feel exhilarated and my heart rate picks up. The excitement of what I might find has me bursting at the seems. I feel like I can do anything my heart desires though I know my time is short. I hurry across the living remembering not to be too excited.

There is a kind faced, smiling woman in the room. I recognize that she looks like a woman from work but also very different too. She is much taller and I feel like a child next to her. The top of my head probably comes only waist high. She is wearing a pink frilly dress like something from the Victorian era. I move close and take her hand, "Hi. Who are you?"

She doesn't look at me or respond to my question though I'm holding her large hand in both mine. She seems to only off handedly but surely acknowledge my presence. I hear my own voice respond to my question in my head, "KRISTY."

The thought doesn't feel like my own and I assume she's telepathic. I verbally ask her, "Will you take me with you?" I feel like I could use some help in this dream and feel excited about the idea of giving a DC control. They always surprise me and that's what I like in my lucids the most. Surprises.

I don't hear a voice in my head this time but receive a "knowing" that she will take me along. We start out the front door and It looks like more void out there. I look up at her again to hold on to some visual stability. This time my eyes do a strange rolling movement and my physical eye lids flit open.

I do a nose plug to confirm that I really am awake this time.

#241 - DEILD/OBE

I am sitting at work on a Saturday. We have finished all of our work but it's only 8:30am. (My alarm clock from home is at my desk.) Someone hands out information about health insurance changes. I don't like it and say something flippant. Something makes me turn around and I see Obama. He says something about how this a good thing. I say something really rude about how I don't like it and don't believe him. He looks mad but keeps his cool. I begin to feel excited about telling the president off. He tells me that the form on the back has a place to address my concerns. I say oh like that's going to do any good. He says well its hard to tell lies from truths. I reply shit I've been thinking that since the day I was born brotha. I look at my alarm clock again and is it's now almost time to go home. I get ready to leave and wake up

I decide to MILD from this dream and get vibrations starting into more of a DEILD. Suddenly a strong urge to pee brings me out of transition so I get up to take care of that and then go back to MILD. While going to the bathroom I see hallucinations in the dark though I know I am surely awake. There are images of grey aliens obscuring my vision like an after image from a bright light. I see through it as much as I can and ignore it unafraid. What happens next is confusing and my memory is bad.

At some point I get back in transitional stage and have an OBE. There was lots of confusion and sensations but I manage to eventually get the dream started but its unstable as hell. I slowly crawl from my bedroom to the front door, felling the floor along the way for stability. Unfortunately, the moment to touch the door knob my dream ends and I DEILD back to the transitional stage.

I feel really exhausted from my crawl and feel like it took so long. I really don't want to do that again so I just wait in my dream bed. I hear and feel my wife get up to go to the bathroom but think its probably the dream. The stereo is now in the bedroom and music begins to play. It sounds something like a mix of dubstep and southern rock. I enjoy the sound of it and summon a remote in my right hand. It feels more like a touch screen but I pretend like I am pushing a volume button. The music gets progressively louder and reaches a maximum. I try to go beyond that but can't. Then, the song ends and a more heavy metal song begins to play. I have no idea what the lyrics were because when I tried to focus on the words it sounded like gibberish. I continue to enjoy the music all they to a third song thought I don't think they were full songs. At some point, in the last song I begin to move to the beat but feel like I am physically shaking the bed and worry that my wife will wake. That thought makes me think I can hear her coming back from the bathroom and the volume of the music reduces drastically.

I remember some fragment were I become aware while peeing. The sensation of it feels real and I worry about peeing the bed. This thought brings me back to bed.

The there is a huge memory gap here but I have a vague indescribable memory of lucidity and get the feeling like there was more lucid parts. There was another odd transitional stage but the rest could be a false memory because the next dream I recall is about just that though the dream feels different.

I vaguely remember having a FA from a "lucid" at my parents old house. Some really creepy stuff ghostly stuff happening that I took video of on my phone. After the FA I was able to view it and think that I must have been sleep walking the whole time. The video was really odd and confusing and hard to describe as anything other than visual gibberish.

#240 - DIELD - 3:40PM

I had two beers just before a big lunch and ended up feeling really tired. I only meant to lay down for just a few minutes but ended up taking a long nap. The kids in the next room were really noisy and I woke several times staying in what felt like light sleep. After about one hour and forty-five minutes I began noticing dreams.

I have an FA were the kids have came into the room and woke me. I tell to them stop coming in so much and wait at least 5 min. Then I hear an external sound.

I wake briefly and lay still. I feel really light and floaty and feel like I am twisting at the waist. There are no vibes this time but that doesn't really mean much. From past experience I know that I am not quite there yet so I wait a little more and then try moving my legs. I think I must have moved my real legs so I stop and focus more visually.

I find myself stepping off the porch in the front yard. There is a white diner plate on the ground. I pick it up and toss it up and watch it fall. I can still hear the kids in the next room and wonder if I am really awake but the scene is so vivid that just go with it.

I get the idea to blind-summon a pistol and shoot the plate like skeet. I toss the plate up and draw a gun but its just my hand. I make childish gun sound with my mouth hope the plate will burst apart in the air. It just falls back to the ground undamaged. I try several more times but all to the same effect.

Now, I hear the bedroom door open and the sound of an adult walking in. I assume it's my wife coming to wake me up, but I stay focused on the dream. I look at the plate on the ground and try shooting it again but nothing happens. Then, I focus on what it should look like when broken and the plate shatters apart on its own. Mildly surprised, I take a closer look. When I do, the plate mends itself almost instantly. I feel the bed shake. My wife touches my shoulder and the dream ends.

DILD - 7:23AM

I am following some young woman along something like an obstacle course in a wide open parking lot. There are office partitions, road cones, and kettlebells lined up. I watch to see what the woman is going to do but at that moment I notice a bright light in the sky come out from behind a cloud. When I zero in on what it could be it looks like a plain, ordinary heliocopter. I almost dismiss it but something looks a little off. I remember this type of thing is a dream sign and I hesitantly decide this is probably a dream.

At that very instant the dream collapses and I am back in my bed. I don't have any vibes but I feel like I am in a good transitional stage. Suddenly I hear the sound of the TV in the other room. I can't make out what it is but the volume must be turned way up. I assume my wife did it and I try to get up to tell her to stop but I realize I can't move. I opt to try shouting, "WILL YOU TURN OFF THE TV?!?", but my voice sounds off.

I attempt opening my eyes the sound morphs into the sound of the box fan and I see my wife's face next to me. I am on my back but my head is turned and she in on her side. I remember falling back to sleep in this position and realize I must be seeing physical reality. I still can't move and I realize is this full SP. I quickly close my eyes and try not to panic against the urge to fight the paralysis.Relaxing, I let it all go.

My body begins feel light and it seems like I am rolling over on my wife. I don't worry about it and decide now is a good time to try to move. I stand up and go outside but for some reason I lose all lucidity on my way out.

Now, I am sitting some on parch next to an older woman. I feel horny so I ask her to have sex with me in a crude way. At first, she says no but I get the feeling she really wants to. I gently force myself on her and we begin to have sex.

Suddenly, the woman in gone and I am sitting on the porch again holding my son. Feeling awkward and confused I quickly put him down.

Now I am looking out the window my living room. I see people walking off the porch. The older woman, some man, and my wife holding my sons hand. I think, "Now they are gone, I can be lucid again." I remember that, yes, I am still dreaming but the dream collapses again and I wake up.

#240 - DEILD - approx. 5am

I had my usual Friday night drink which resulted in a nice REM rebound early this morning. There were a lot of FAs this time but I was eventually able to hit a nice visual DEILD. Unfortunately, I didn't hold it long before I was blind-sided by another FA. Though this lucid was on the short side, I included it to my count because my awareness was high and the vividness was amazing.BTW I know my typos will be horrible but I am short on time. Apologies.

All I can recall in the first one is that I am trying to get to sleep but can't

I have an FA then I watch a scene unfold. I am in a western and hold someone at gun point wanting a refund for something a friend purchased. He has to leave to get it and we wait around becoming chummy with the other people around. I become worried that he will bring the police back so I tell someone to hide the gun. A friend tries to load a track on the trailer and leave with the gun but he can't drive and embarrasses himself horribly. Another guy says he has a cabin in the woods not far away and takes the gun. The guy I held at gun point comes back with the cash and we act like we are friends. As the dream fades away I realize I was dreaming and become annoyed that I missed that one.

I lay still and keep awareness as I DEILD.

I watch a scene form and find myself travelling in the back seat of some car. I begin to have emotions with the dream but know it is all fake. I feel that I am a child on a road trip with my parents. I "know" my mom is driving but I don't look. I feel confided and think this has been such a long drive. All I want to do is get outside and stretch out.

I look out the window and see some desert like terrain blur past. I accidentally phase out the window hold on to the car. With my body stretched out horizontally, I hover along side the car and feel like I am flying at an incredible speed. It seems the car is going impossibly fast and pulling me a long with it. There is a deafening roar of wind in my ears and the feel air resistance my body along with the feeling of acceleration. I am overcome with a glorious feeling of euphoria as I enjoy the feeling of effortless low flight.

Suddenly everything collapses into darkness and void. I mistakenly assume that I am waking up.

I have another FA where I slept too late. I step out of a room and find myself in a school. Some girl looks a me with disdain. I feel embarrassed about my "morning appearance" and I start to think about getting a shower and doing a my morning thing. I have a small container on the wall with a tooth brush and I reach for it. I hear my wife remark how small it my container is. I see her next to me getting something out of a locker. She says something about leaving with "Darren". I jealously ask who the hell he is and she explains. I falsely remember something about him and decide its nothing to worry about. He was a teacher or something and it was all business.

Then, some friends, a young man and woman, walk up both in some odd looking dark green scrubs. The guy says something about wearing a lab coat later and the woman talks about how she just hears "this" when they go out to eat at "..." restaurant. I notice the woman more than I should. She is short with blonde hair and her scrubs is more like a short dress. She wears tights underneath. I find her attractive. I wake up.

I have another FA where my daughters wake me up. We are saying at someone's house and I get up to go to the bathroom. I assume my wife woke up with my son already. I use the toliet and have issues wiping. Then then the toilet turns into a training potty and the lights flicker on and off. I wake up.

I have another dream about a red solo cup flying low just about my head on the beach. I am taking part in some ritual and standing in a circle with other people. There is an odd looking person in the middle officiating. We assume the cup is a spy drone. I see a blimp flying close in the distance but ignore it. The cup seems to be full of hair and I can her some sort of motor coming from it. I wonder how it is flying. Then, I think we should set it on fire and it suddenly burst into flames. Everyone becomes excited about that. The hair burns out and the cup turns black before crashing into the sand. My son picks up the cup and plays with it. I wake up.

#239 - SSILD/DEILD

I am walking outside with someone. This is something about my shoes and some concern or worry. I realise I was doing SSILD cycles and decide this is a dream but at that moment the scene collapses and I have a false awakening.

I am uncovered and cold and I try to make myself move but I feel really weak and tired. I grab for my DJ but I can't summon the energy to type. My wife wakes up and tells me not to worry and she will do it for me. She takes my device and gets ready. She waits for me to tell her but I can't seem to understand why she doesn't just know. It's all me after all. I become lucid again but fell like I am waking up for real this time.

I lay still and wait for some visuals to come but realize my body feels really odd. My DEILDs and WILDs usually go one of two ways. Visual or physical. This time is seems all physical. Small vibrations start and I focus in on it. This time the vibrations went to a whole new level. Instead of buzzing and tingling it really felt like a powerful wind blowing at me from my right side. I tried moving but really couldn't yet. I noted the sensation was only on my face and upper body and I felt like I could move my feet but I wasn't sure if it was real or dream. The sound and feel of the wind was completely realistic and a little frightening. I wondered if some entity was beside doing something crazy. I forced myself to stay calm and relaxed as possible but my body felt like it was going to roll over on my wife. After a moment I let it happen. I felt my face rest on her bosom and as much as I enjoyed that I decided that's not what this dream was going to be about. I push up with my arms and feel myself standing up.

I am standing in my living room and bright daylight. I am pleased there is no darkness this time but I feel a little unstable. I rub my hands and stoop to feel the hardwood every few steps on my way outside. Once I reach the front porch the dream is stable and mostly vivid. I remember my goal to somehow board the USS Enterprise and take command as Captain.

I look around and see that my house is nestled in the middle of a cluster of beautiful pines trees. I enjoy the view of it for a second but it's ruined when I realize there's other houses and buildings nearby. Time to move on. I tap my communicator badge on my shirt and it lets out the correct corresponding chime. I say, "Kirk here..." I pause because my voice is not my own. It sounds really artificial and funny; close to Shatner but in a goofy sort of way. I speak again tapping my badge, "My voice if funny... Kirk here." I try several times but never get any response. I think, "OK secondary goal" and begin walking down a street.

I reach at my waist to pull out a light saber. The feel and sound of oblige my intention by there is nothing in my hand. I try again really expecting to see a long blade of light but the effect is the same. I look around thinking maybe I could find one. I see a metal trash can next to a tree with a toy lightsaber in it. I start to reach for it but on closer inspection it looks fat and clunky. I suppose in hindsight it would have worked but at the moment I think its all wrong. I think maybe if I could find a rock that is close to the shape of the hilt I could transform it. I quickly pick something up. The shape and wieght of it feels about right. I begin to think about transforming this but something makes want to me turn around.

I realize I am standing in the street and a large bus is speeding toward me. Feeling invincible, I center myself in the street and stand facing it defiantly with both hands on my hips. After a moment I realize the bus isn't going to stop or even slow down. I laugh a little to myself wondering if I will phase through or if I will get stuck on the front like a bug. I feel a hard but painless impact. When I noticed my face stuck the grill I decided I was the bug. I roll over to see the traffic in front of me but the dream is starting to collapse. I focus to visualize and dimly see a traffic like and a few vehicles in front of me but it doesn't want to hold together. I decide to bail. When my feet hit the ground I realize that I the buss was moving pretty fast and my inertia causes me to fall. I roll over on my back and feel the gross but painless feeling of road rash. I let myself flip over a few times and as I am rolling I see a dark blue sky with white steaks almost like some sort of warp speed.

After a moment I gather my senses and stand up. I see that I am on some side street with several cars parallel parked next to me. There are tall buildings and parking meters. The scene reminds me of downtown Kansas City. Then I see the bus at the end the street slowly passing by. I feel pissed at when had happened and want to stop that bus somehow. I see brown truck parked next to me. It's small like a S10 or Ranger. I grab it at the tail gate, lift it over my head and hurl it toward the bus. The distance must have be 50 yards and I thought it was going to miss. Luckily it smacks the rear end of the bus and the driver freaks out. Somehow he swerves back my direction but manages to roll the buss before he reaches me. I see a break in the metal and actually see people inside. There is a man suspended upside down in his seat by a seatbelt. It must have been the driver but I wasn't sure. He looked panicky and in a lot of pain but I could only see minor scraps and bruises. I walk up to him and say, "Don't be such a pussy." I reach forward and push the button to release his seat belt. The dream goes black at that point and I wake up.

I have several other dreams where I became lucid but I woke up right away. One of those dreams I was able to DEILD again. I atempted another physical transtion and began spinning with my arms out. The feeling was exhilarating but lasted only a few seconds.I became distracted by a distorted sound and focus in on it until the sound became clear and less distorted. It took several seconds before I realise its my box fan. I am wide awke.

We partied last night and I did some late night drinking which led to another short DILD around 5am this morning. Nothing worth counting but still it was cool. I've got to start increasing and prolonging my lucids again. Perhaps the excitement level isn't where it used to be.

I recall something about fighting some zombies. Then my cat attacks me.

Next I lay down in bed and realize I am at the old house in Luling. I wonder why I am living here now and think about how this house was actually haunted. I think maybe now that I am older it wont be so scared. Then I realize this is a common dream so I do a nose plug and blow through cleanly.

I get up and make my way out of the house but I am hindered by something attached to me. I realize that is feels like my wife is actually stuck to my left side. I try shaking her off but the feeling wont go away. I decide this is just something like when the sheets stick to me. I stop for a second, relax and decide to ignore the feeling. I briefly look around the living room and notice the old cabinet TV. I appreciate the vivid memory of the couches and decor of the time.

Now I run outside trying to think of a goal. I wasn't prepared for this one so I decide to just fly. I float up past the old birch tree and land on the roof. This is where I promptly lose lucidity.

There is a second house much bigger than the one I came out of just behind it. They are so close they are almost connected. I jump to the second story and see some damage in the roof. I enter the opening and discover some teenagers living a dirty house in need of repair. In fact the house is so bad that the entire building sways back and forth as I walk around.

This dream was from last week sometime. It was short and weak but also interesting. I'm not adding this one to my count.

I have a FA from another dream and I am walking in my darkened living room. I realize that I feel asleep to fast after my WBTB and I never did my SSILD cycles. There is an ottoman infront of me so I kneel down and put my face on it like I am in some sort of prayer. I remember wanting to try shamanic drum beating so I begin hitting the ottoman with both hands. The sound that issue forth sounds like its coming from as legitimate drum.

I quickly begin to feel odd and feel my body separate. It starts in the back of my neck and then to my head. After a little effort I wiggle out. I begin walking down a long hallway thinking of a goal.

I lose lucidity and have some dream with a false memory about some cowboys in the early 1800s.

#240 - OBE - 3:21AM

I notice either strong HI or a dreamlet of getting an email from an ex girlfriend who is now a friend of mine. I read something about her and her boyfriend (some name) trying to call me but I had changed my number. I get the idea that she wanted to tell me something important.

Suddenly I gain awareness and come to vibrations in bed. Several times, I try floating up like the last OBE but only rise partially out of my body. I after a few tries I give up and try just getting out of bed. I stand up with ease and rush outside. The house is dark and it looks like it dark outside. When I open the front door I fully expect it to be cold but I am greeted with warm air. Just before I step off the porch I see a silhouette of a man running full speed straight at me. I crouch in a protective stance and brace myself. I am not afraid of the man but I feel like if he bowls me over I will end up in the void and possibly wake up. I stand my ground and as he gets closer I let out a worried moan. He stops with inhuman agility and stands before me with his head lowered and arms out in a menacing posture. I don't let that phase me and I relax. I ask him, "What is your name?"
He lets out a nervous laugh and says, "I don't know yet."
I shrug this off and change the subject, "Ok. Well... Do you want to go have some adventure time?"
He nods, "Sure."
Thought the man was creepy at first I feel comfortable with having him around like he is supposed to be there.

We run to the end of the block and I see some people accross the street. I can't really make out what they are doing in the darkness but I am not too concerned with them at the moment. I try to think of what I wanted to do in this dream but I am having trouble remembering. Suddenly, I remember the email from just before this OBE. I feel like I need to talk to her and find out what's going on. I decide she is one of the people across the street. I shout out, "Hey Megan!" A woman comes over but it is not what Megan looks like. I ignore this and don't seem to realize this isn't right. I say, "Hey, I had some HI... I mean, hypnagogic imagery about talking to you by email. How are you?"
The woman just gives me a blank stare. frustrated, I ask, "Well? Are you good? Bad? What?" She seems to understand something now and replies, "I'm good." I am so caught up in the worry that I am relieved to hear this, "OK good! Now give me a hug." We share a quick half hug and she runs off back to the over side of the street.

I suddenly wake up.

I have several other dreams this morning but one was a semi-lucid where I have an FA and recall a dream about meeting my father unexpectedly seeing my father in a public restroom and got lucid. I am in some old motel telling my family about this LD but suddenly I have to pee. I go to the same restroom and realize again I am dreaming while I am peeing. I become afraid that I will actually pee the bed but can't seem to stop peeing. I realize that I am not getting any relief and decide the best thing to do is to wake up and actually pee.

#239 - DILD - October 20, 2012 - 3:38AM

I am in the shower wondering why I never got lucid last night. I feel really odd and sick like I am very hungover. There is a mirror in the shower and I see myself making odd faces like I am going half mad. I begin to soap up while I go into deep thought. I notice that bathroom is a mirror image of what it should be. I don't understand any of this but I begin to feel sexually aroused and think of taking care of it but I hear a noise and I assume my wife is joining me. A strange woman appears and doesnt seem to notice me. She takes something off the rack in the shower and quickly leaves. I peer out and see a strange man just sort of hanging out in the bathroom. I say something to him about the bathroom being backwards. Then I ask, "You see that, bitch?" All of this is too wield so I do a nose plug and blow through.

Now that I am lucid, all anxiety leaves me. Everything makes sense now. I mutter things like, "Ok fine. Now hold on. OK." I forget about showering and believe the soap is gone (it never existed) and I am fully clothed as I step out. To make sure I look down and see that I am wearing my dark blue basketball shorts and some white t-shirt. Ok, good enough. I want to shout out that this is a dream but decide to be more on the mellow side and stay cool; I don't want to wake myself up. The man follows me like he knows me. I feel like he is an old friend so I allow him to tag along. As we walk outside my house looks a bit more normal now and it notice that the color is a little cartoony but vivid. The lighting is good. No darkness this time. I am happy with that much at least. I try to remember my goal this time and for some reason I think of finding two of my nephews but that doesn't seem right.

We reach the front porch and I follow the man into the yard. As I step off I feel like I fall a little too far and and the man seems to grow to at least 10 feet tall. I look him over for the first time and he looks like a modern day cowboy. He actually resembles my nieces husband but I didnt think of him as such then. I concentrate and focus and the man returns to normal hight. I feel like asking the man what he represents but think that might be a little too much for him. I don't know why I think this. Instead I ask, "What is your name?" At first my voice is weak and I feel like something is putting pressure on my throat. I breifly wonder if something is on my neck in waking life but I feel like I can breath ok so I try to ignore it. I clear my throat and try again. This time my voice is clear and my throat feels much better.
He pauses, "Well uh. Well hold on how um."
I interrupt, "No no no no. It's fine don't worry about it. I doesn't matter." I don't want this dream character to start breaking down so I try to take back the question.
He seems to visibility relax, "Well ok. I might be able to tell you in about 4 hours."
I don't know what he means by that but I grin, laughing to myself.

We are walking down the sidewalk and I suddenly recall one of my goals, to find a Yurei, but I can only think of it as Ju-On (The Grudge). I begin looking around and do a full 360. I notice that the cowboy has suddenly vanished. In fact I feel very alone and vulnerable but, knowing that I am only dreaming I hold my courage.
"Hey bitch!" I can't think of what to call the ghost. I turn back to the direction I was originally headed. There is a great white wolf sitting a few yards away looking at me. At first I over look it but do a double take. The wolf's snout begins to distort and I think maybe this is it. I charge forward but as I get closer the wolf looks normal and much more friendly. It stands and begins to pant with excitement. I stop in front of it and let my guard down. The wolf behaves like a domesticated dog and lets out a friendly little yap. I reach down and absent-mindedly pat her head.
"This is the wrong bitch", I muse.

I turn back to my house with my new friend padding along side me. I shout, "HEY BITCH WHERE YOU AT? HEY JU-ON!" Again I say the wrong name but my dreaming mind knows what I mean... right? Suddenly the neighbourhood beings to look very dark and creepy but the amount of day light stays the same. It's almost as if someone suddenly turned on the horror film effects. I begin hear that high pitch screatching music that you hear a lot in those movie. I am quite pleased with the creepy effect and suddenly I feel that someone or something is about to come out the front door of my house. I turn to meet the ghost without any fear and much excitement. At the very moment, I suddenly and unexpectedly wake up.

Fragment-

I WILD straight into a dream scene but I am only half lucid. There is a dead body on the floor and I kick it. It seems to slide. I tell myself that it is only a dream. I false begin to remember another lucid and a false memory I had. I feel like I am forgetting but try really hard to remember. I see Wulman and hear him saying something but I am too focused on remembering. I begin to write on some paper but stop because I know that it will be gone when I wake up.
Now I am sitting in a recliner with a bottle of Jim Beam. Wurlman is talking like Trevor from GTA 5. I tell him, "Dude, stop talking like Trevor." I really want to concentrate on remembering. I soon wake myself up.

#238 - DILD - 5:00AM

I am wondering in an elementary school looking for my class. Several kids rush to a room to be in a popular teachers class. Once he accepts the 13th student he has to turn everyone else away. several kids walk away looking disappointed. I wonder why the school just didn't schedule people like they usually do. I come to an empty classroom with a young female teacher. I really have to pee and I think I see a really small toilet with a door acting as a partition. I mumble something about finding a toilet but as I get closer, I see it's actually just a white trashcan. I can feel the teacher looking at me and think I better say something. "I thought there was a toilet in here." She says, "No." And mumbles something else as I walk away. I pass the popular teachers room and wonder outside.

As I make my way to the other school building across the street I notice that I am wearing a backpack and I feel like I can barely move. The effort is making my tired and by the time I reach the glass doors I feel that I am moving ridiculously slow. The feeling reminds me of SP and I suddenly realize I am dreaming. I decide the backpack was the problem and I take it off. I freely move inside and see a younger version of my mother standing there. Instead of doing a task, I decide to just go with the theme of the dream and see where I end up. I hand mom the backpack and say, "Hey mom take my backpack."
She asks why and I tell her, "Because, you know where my class is and you can take me there. I hook my hands around her elbow and I feel her drag me down the hall. I the the ceiling and my vision gets jumbled. I feel my mom suddenly sling me around and I come to a stop.

I am now looking into a classroom with only a handful of kids sitting a desks. For whatever reason I decide to act like a totally asswagon now. I shout out the ever cheezy, "Whats uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup." Then, WHAT UP BITCHES?!" I see a boy who has a bald shaved head and his black hair begging to grow back. "Hey baldy!" I rub his head and then slap him hard in the back of it. I see no seats to take but there is a comfortable looking beanbag chair in the corner. I go sit down.

I can't see the teacher very well but she is talking to me, "I don't want you here. You are a mouthy kid and mouthy kids make me mad."
I let out a loud giggle at that, "Well, too bad. I am number 13 and you have to have 13 in your class. Besides, you'd have to deal with me eventually. You might as well get it over with now."
The teacher seems to accept this but clearly doesn't like it by the way she is mumbling under her breath. I realize I am not sitting idle and I think of my body in bed. I suddenly wake up.

#237 - DILD/DEILD/OBE - 3:48AM

The first thing I can remember is laying in bed next to my wife. I look over to my right and see my mom lying on a smaller bed. She tells me, "I was laying here and I thought my body had not moved but it felt different. A cop came and said this was a dream and that I was having a lucid dream within a lucid dream."
I feel excited that my mom finally experienced a lucid dream. I say, "Oh wow that so cool!" I hope my wife heard about this and will have a lucid dream too. Then it all dawns on me. I think I am the one dreaming. I do a nose plug and blow cleanly through.

At that instant, I am on my back in the dark. I feel the vibes and transition out of my body. It is dark but I can barely see where I am going. I strain and there is a breif flash lighting up the room then dark again. I head to the front door while rubbing my hands and concentrating on seeing. Just before I reach the door. I feel a force sucking me back to my body. I try to grab onto something and fight against it but it is of no use. I slam hard back in bed. I realize that I was never on my back but am on my left side.

I feel vibes again and am encouraged to try DEILD. Suddenly, I am gripped with fear and feel that there is a presence behind me. I can feel something like large cat claws lightly digging into my back. I roll over and blindly point at whatever it was and say, "Go away in the name of Jesus." Then, "Jesus help me." Immediately the fear lifts and the presences goes away. I am lying on my back and I begin to float upward. There is a slight sensation as I feel myself moving through the ceiling and rafters in the attic. Then I see a bright light as if through closed eyes. A feeling of total joy and peace envelopes me. I begin to hear music. A sitar plays something beautiful while a choir of angels sing a wordless tune. I relax and let the feeling wash over me as I enjoy the music.

After a few moments I ask, "Show me a past life." At that, I float back down to the bed. I get up and head outside still in the dark but this time unhindered. The front door looks different this time. It has a window in the middle of it with blinds. There is a small window above the door and I realize I must be floating along the ceiling since I am eye level with it. I try to phase through the glass but get caught up in the blinds. Rather than make a big deal about it I just open the door and step out. My body is light and I can't help but fly. I float up the roof and push off making swimming motions. Once above about the trees, I look at the ground in front of me. Its still really dark but I can see that there are no other houses next to me but I see some colorful lights along the horizon. Against it I see the silhouette of a city on a shoreline. I still feel that the dream can show me a past life and begin chanting, "Show me a past life." I make more swimming motions toward the city. For I moment I it looks like I am looking at a nebula and stars around it. I look down and see more stars. I think this is not right, and focus harder on getting to the city. I am quickly sucked towards it.

I hear a swooshing sound and find myself coming in hot to a parking lot. When I plant my feet down I realize I am barefoot and though there is no pain I feel my feet skidding on asphalt and gravel. I think that I may had gotten road rash but try to ignore it. The feeling of this gets me thinking about the surgery task and I totally forget about seeing a past life. I look around in a parking lot and see several people walking next to some parked car that look like something from the 40's or 50's. There is a man getting out of something like a Studebaker. I stop and for some reason show him my left forearm and ask, "Have you ever had surgery.... On yourself?"
He looks at me and roboticaly says, "No I have not had any type of surgical procedures." I suddenly wake up.

I was going for some past life stuff but I couldn't quite get the lucidity going until much later. The LD I had I lost lucidity a couple of times and the dream felt unstable so I went for the basic TOTM.


Fragments

#1 The clock says 5:90. I find this very suspicious.

#2 I am in a small Medieval or maybe a Colonial village setting but it feels like some sort of game or a simulation of sorts. I know I don't belong here; just viewing something.

#3 The home button feels broke on my phone. I think this might be a dream but wake up immediately

NLDs

#1 I am in a restaurant that looks like the old Dairy Queen from TX. There is this guy with a bullet hole and blood printed on a shirt with a large peace sign. The guy looks a lot like Mike Ehrmantraut from Breaking Bad. I don't really know his name but I know him as a BB character. I say hi to him and he reply but his voice sounds odd. I end up having a short conversation with him and ask him if his shirt has anything to do with the season finally. I tell him to don't tell me because we are only in season 3 right now and have a lot of watching to do. He asks how we like it and I said it was a very addicting show from the start.
Then we started acting out an impromptu skit with some random people from The Walking Dead. I was finding it amusing that we had a pretty good skit going. Then someone says something about a "shining city" and another guy starting singing those words. It sounds so ridiculous and out of place that we all start laughing until I wake up.

#2 For some reason I am moving in with my parents in some version of their old house. I am trying to find a fenced in area that my dog wont get out of. We try to use the garage from another old house but there are holes in the wall. We try another area of the back yard but it's no good. I look at the clock in my car and it's 7:40. I realize I am late for work.

#3 I am in a hospital with some old man. Everyone leaves me with him and I have to watch him. He wakes up and motions for me to come close. When I do he jams his palm into my nose and runs around. He is now wearing a spider-man costume and is swinging from the lights. I grab him and pull him down. Then I smack the emergency button and pin him down so he can't move. I hear the nurse answer and I say, "Sorry I didn't know what to do but he was running around thinking he was Spider-man so I pinned him down. I need some help."
Then I am with a nurse and feeling sad. She is saying something comforting but also putting a wetted diaper in my face wanting me to smell it. I turn away.
Now I am in a hotel room with my parents and younger sister. The time is 6:40 and I feel a strong urge to leave. I say I feel bored. I look at my phone and there is some picture app that makes the pictures look 3D and morph as I thumb through. I find this odd but don't think too much about it. Then I say, "Hey, I have my own car and own money. I'm just going to leave now." My sister protest but doesn't say anything I can comprehend. I get up and go to the bathroom. I feel exhausted like I didn't sleep all night. I worry that I will get too sleepy on the long drive so I decide my first stop is to get some McDonalds coffee. I turn to look in the mirror but wake up.

#236 - DILD - 7:30AM

I see several people building docks on a narrow part of a lake along a grassy bank. I have a large stack of boards and want to make my own but I am too close to the others. My father in law suggests that I build further down that way I can make mine longer to reach the deeper parts for diving in. The lake opens up into a really large body of water farther to my left so I try to meet some place just on the edge of the narrow part but not too far into the open water. I somehow throw out the boards connected with thick rope and run out along the narrow floating dock. It's a little difficult to keep balance and I have to put my arms out to hold steady as I run out to the end. I jump in the water but its only waist deep. I realize that the dock is too long and almost reaches the other side so I take off a few boards and adjust the ropes. I begin having difficulty with the knots. While I struggle with that some men on horses come out into the water. They seem like Calvary men from the 1800's. We have a brief conversation but I don't recall what was said. I check the water depth and it is now above my head. I am bare foot and can feel that bottom is silky smooth mud. A large fish brushes my leg. I notice I am breathing under water and freak out a little that this is not right. I get back on the dock to test things out and jump in. Again I notice that I can breath underwater. This time it triggers lucidity but I am blind. I feel like the water is really too muddy to see.

I wake a little here and fall back into the same dream.

I pull myself out of the water along the bank. My younger sister is there with my dog on a leash talking to some old lady. The old lady says something to me as I walk by but I ignore her. I have to climb through a small tree with thorns but it hurts me too bad. I remember this is a dream and if I just push through believing it won't hurt then it won't. I prove myself right but after I get through I forget about lucidity.

The dock looks way different now. It's almost like a water park now with gates like its some sort of ride. I assume the other gates and docks belong to the other people. I see my gate and there is some handwritten sign on it but I don't stop to read it. I do notice the lettering is fluorescent pink and green. I pause at the end of my dock and the lake looks more like a pool now. I feel a bit of confusion at this but dont get it. I feel like what I really need is a diving board. Somehow I know that if I pretend it will be the same. I jump hard and feel myself bounce high and hit the water hard feet first. For a second it feels like heavy gravity drags me to the bottom. I notice how odd this and is along with the fact that I am again breathing water, this triggers lucidity. This time I stop breathing in the water. I notice how I don't feel water but air. I feel the muddy bottom on my feet but I can't see anything at all. I think maybe I just reflexively close my eye when I jumped. I try to open my eye but realize they feel wide open.I decide to forget about being in water and just focus on seeing something... anything.

I am suddenly in what looks like a bathroom/changing room in a public pool house. I fee like lucidity is slipping again and thought I might have woke up. I turn to look into the mirror and clearly see my face with it's normal dream distortions. My eyes look really water and red and my face is slightly morphing. I decide to skip my previous goal and try to scare a kid. I will my face to morph into monstrous forms. I eventually look like Bilbo's monster face with really sharp two front teeth.



I begin to make sound just like the gremlins from Simpson's Tapped Out and run into a long corridor. I dont' see anyone but there's a glass door leading outside. Suddenly I am at the door and run out into the yard making creepy giggle sounds. I look expecting people but only see a cop car. At that moment I remember GTA 5 frustrations with the cops and attack. The car is rolling slowly by and I have no problem reaching the passenger side. Without thinking, I bite the officer in the neck. His skin is warm on my lips and I feel his pulse from his carotid artery. As my teeth sink in I feel warm blood flow down my chin. This feeling is unpleasant but I think the blood would make a good effect for scarring someone.

I turn from the cop car and run down the street. I spot a gas station with cars parked there. As I come to the gas pumps I see a man on a motorcycle with a young boy on the back. I let out a deep monstrous growl as I leap toward them. The boy begins to scream and cry as I collide with the two on the bike. My vision goes black at the point I strain to see something but I suddenly wake up.

Fragment
I am holding a fat stack of cash. The $100 bills are not normal colors. Some are blue and some are red. I think it must be the new style of bills. I walk around trying to count my cash but passers-by eye it and I am afraid of being robbed.

Brief Lucid - DILD
I am in a situation that looks like a lot like GTA 5. My wife and I are shooting at some guys. I take one down and my wife runs across my line of fire so I have to stop shooting. The other guy takes that opportunity to jump in a light green car and drive off. I try shooting the tires but a privacy fence obstructs my view so I have to run to get around it.

When I do I see my wife next to an old woman in a wheelchair. She says, "I told you the next time we are in a dream I will do this." She then proceeds to lick the woman on the mouth. I tell her that is disgusting.

Suddenly I am next to the woman and my wife has walked away. I take the woman's head off and it shrinks to about the size of an apple. I put it in my mouth and it feels metallic. I lick it like a candy and tell my wife to look at me. She seems to have gone into a veg state.

I am standing next to the privacy fence and notice how odd my arms feel. Then I remember that my wife said this was a dream and I slowly become lucid. I have a false memory of her saying this in a previous dream and feel proud for remembering that much. However, I am surprised to get lucid since I wasn’t even trying. I knew there was a TOTM that I wanted to do but I can't seem to remember it. I feel frustrated and get really hung up on trying to remember. I walk around some and when I turn I find myself in the void. I try to visualize grass and walking but I am also trying to remember the TOTM. Its all too much so I stop and let it all go.

I decide to relax my "body" and clear my mind but I make the mistake of letting my lucidity slip away. A scene forms and I am in my back yard. Someone from work says something about a plastic probe. I look down and see I am holding one. I make some remark about it.

Then I look around and see my wife working in the back yard. I think about how we are going to do some landscaping but I need to get rid of all this junk. There is a large gravel area and I think it must have been from an above-ground-pool.