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#221 - MILD - 4:27AM

I have some dream about being at the library with my wife and kids. I wake up and MILD. Soon I am laying on a floating platform and using a joy stick to control it. I am flying around in some large office building and want to get outside. I think to phase through the ceiling but find some glass doors instead. I see Ronnie from work smiling at me as I leave.

Now I am outside and become fully lucid. I decide that I want the platform to become a skybike. I concentrate and feel it morph under me. It feels soft like a pillow and I cant seem to form the handle bars right. I decide it doesn't matter and I don't really need them. I stop now thinking there was something I was going to do but I just can't remember. I look at the twilight sky and see 3 bright lights floating and morphing. recognize this as typical for me and look away. Still, I sit idle and my attention is drawn back to the lights. They move and morph like before and I stare at them in a daze.

The dream goes black for a second and I decide I should just investigate the lights. I visualize going there and the dream comes back. I find myself hanging on the wing of a passenger plane. I see people looking out at me through the windows and I punch the glass intending to let the cabin pressure blow the people out. Then I stop, thinking that it won't work that way in a dream. I "spiderman" my way to the cockpit and find it has a door like a helicopter. I open it and rip the pilot out. The copilot seems to be an "extra" and I politely ask him, "Will you be my co-pilot?" He makes no reply.

I look forward and notice that now I an driving on a country road at night. I think about trying the Hell task. I try to imagine a hole opening in the road but it doesn't feel right. I decide to try another way. I pull up on the controls and the plane goes up then I bring it nose down into the ground. We phase through it for a long way as the plane and all the people disappear behind me. I am now falling down a series of tunnels. At that point the dream gets dark and changes.

I lose lucidity and find myself looking at tunnels like in an ant farm but on a much larger scale. I am cleaning them with a large Q-tip and I see many roots growing in all directions. For some reason I think of this as my ear canal. I see some section that I think must be my ear drum. My dad passes by and I follow him.

Then I realize what just happened and become lucid again. My dad asks me what happened and I say, "I tried going to Hell, but you know that aquarium thing in the next room? I started cleaning it like it was ear wax." I wake up.

The 3 LDs I had this morning were bizarrely interesting. I changed my G dosing a bit with some unexpected results. Nothing went the way I expected and I think my lucidity levels probably wavered a bit here and there. This first dream was not quite as vivid as I had hoped to start with but as the dream went on it became more and more clear.

#220 - DEILD - 2:56AM

I wake up from some non lucid dream that I cannot remember and go into DEILD mode. I find myself in a type of void very quickly. I am glad for that because this time I want to form the TARDIS from the inside out. I reach out and feel railing with one hand. It's pretty solid right away. I follow the hexagon shape around the center console several times. The speed gets faster and fast and I start to feel a little like I am just spinning. I slow down and decide to try and feel the console. It's there but its fuzzy. I continue feeling with both hands until something big happens.

There is a klaxon alarm and a screen comes into view like some radar. I see one yellow dot leaving and two red dots coming my way. There is a computer voice saying, "WARNING. PROXIMITY ALARM." The first thing that comes into mind is that the Daleks have found me already. I am startled but also amused that I am in the TARDIS. I take a quick look around and see it looks very much like it should though a little like a video game (Playstation Home). I look up and notice the rings on the ceiling. I still have a strong instinct to run and that moment I hear the TARDIS engines make that unique sound. I know I must be moving on someplace else and become very curious where I'll end up.

I look back at the doors and just get a gimps of The Doctor leaving and I quickly follow him out. There is a brief confusion of light and color and then I realize I am in my house facing the door to the bedroom. I walk in and see there is no bed but two weeping angles coming at me from the bathroom and frozen on sight. I stop and stare at them being careful not to blink. I notice they look like they should in the face but they don't have the wings and are wearing actual clothes. For a moment I wonder if they are just vampires but decide they are not because they are following the rules.



Then I sense another person who is not The Doctor. Without looking I tell him to keep an eye on one of the angles. I glance over to see if he is listening and freak out that I stopped looking. When I look back one of the angles are gone! I assume it went around the other side and will come up behind us. I tell the other person to turn around and he catches the angel just before it gets us. I decide we have to dispose of these before something bad happens. (I wonder why I was so scared. It would have been cool to let it get me!)

Then, for whatever reason, my lucidity drops a bit and we both grow bird beaks and attack the angles. The feeling of it is odd and realistic but I don't let that deter me. I get mine in the throat and take it down then tear into it's stomach like a zombie. I am surprised that it is full of shelled sunflower seeds then the entire body becomes a mound of it. We both begin to eat until there is nothing left. My throat becomes very dry and I feel like I will choke if I don't get a drink of water. This thought brings my lucid level up a bit and I stop what I am doing. I force myself to ignore the feeling in my throat.

I say, "I was supposed to find NyxxC" I look over at the other DC for the first time and see that he is a Skyrim looking Orc. He smiles at me and starts to giggle. I get the feeling that he has become horny and realize that we are all too now alone. I also come to the realization that I am a woman. I realize that I must be the female companion of The Doctor. This dream has gone all wrong. I was supposed to be The Doctor and NyxxC the companion. I rudely say to the big dumb Orc, "Not going to happen. Forget it." The way I say that reminds me of Amy Pond. I ignore that thought and I walk out for the room looking for NyxxC.

I go out onto the front porch and see my ex wife sitting there. I think lucidity dropped completely here. We talk a bit and I cannot remember the conversation. She says something like "Her Baby." I know that she calls a name... Gloria. I feel like that not only am I a female but I am a female O At some point and for whatever reason, I call the Orc outside. His name is Balrog.

Then I remember my lucidity. I walk away from my ex a bit and look up at the night sky. The stars look about like the do every morning in waking life when I go to work. I turn to my ex and ask her, "Where is The Doctor?"
She seems confused, "Who?"
I repeat annoyed now, "The Doctor!"
She replies, "Doctor Who?"
At that moment I hear the TARDIS engines. When I look, the TARDIS is vanishing from the other side of my front porch. That SOB left me I decide now is a good time to wake up.

I was really surprised by this dream so early in the night. I had only been a sleep 3 hours and had quite a bit to drink before.

#219 - DILD - 12:29AM

This is a little foggy in places but the first thing I remember is some image of a normal woman sort of melting into a pool on the floor and transforming into something hideous. My friend Jana shows up and I somehow understand that this is her nightmare. I tell her that the next time she sees this she just know that she is dreaming and take control of it. I say, "Look of this is just in your mind. It's probably stress or unresolved childhood issues." I look out side through a glass and there are larger than life bills stacked up. I point, "See?"


I realize something at this point and feeling surprised and a little unsure by this I stop and stare at her. Her appearance comes into sharp view. I say something like, "This is a dream isn't it?" She nods then I for some reason feel like we are sharing a dream. I say, "Are you lucid?" Again she nods. I become extremely excited and jump up and down grinning. She looks at me like I am an idiot and tells me something like, "Calm down." I realize that I could wake myself up so I do just that.
She then, takes my hand and pulls me out of the area that we are in. I realize this is a mall and we must have been in some store.

There is a little gap in memory here but we basically wonder around as she leads me on. There was something about CanisLucidus. We make our way into a small hallway. The floor is tiled and there is a potted tree in the corner.

I see the creepy lady at the end of the hallway coming our way. She looks a bit like Martha Steward and I know that she will turn into the monster at any moment. I tell Jana to just run past while I take care of her. I know that I can control the situation and I run toward her. I jump and somehow land on her back. I press my hands on both sides of her head and concentrate. I tell her that she will not change. Jana runs past and I jump of the woman. I tell Jana that she has to believe that she will go away. I look and the woman continues walking on like nothing happened. I say, "See? It's no problem."

This series of dreams were a little disappointing. I am embarrassed at how sloppy I've become. I made a number of mistakes and really didn't get anywhere with my goal. At least I got multiple lucids!

I took a longer WBTB than usual (longer than 5 min) with this one and got on Playstation Home Doctor Who pack and explored the TARDIS a bit trying to take in all the visuals of the inside. I think it would have been helpful if I had actually summoned one up or just materialized myself straight inside versus making the blue box first. I was worried about insomnia when I went to bed as I was super wakeful. I had to use my technique for falling asleep and abandon any lucid induction. I was surprised to DILD but with Galantamine it's almost effortless the first few hours. I really need to concentrate on my techniques after my mini awakenings instead of just falling back to mantra. It works... sort of, but I think the experience would be much better with a little more focus. A lot of times I just want to get back to sleep as fast as possible but still try for lucid. Mantras seems to be my fall back method during these times.

Coffee:

#216 - 3:25AM - DILD

I have an FA and find my self getting some coffee. The set up looks like work but its a checkout line at Wal-Mart. I try to grab a Styrofoam cup but they are dirty with holes in them. I move the to other side and see some clean new cups. I get coffee from the dispenser. Mary, the janitor is standing next to the coffee machine. I nod at her and walk away sipping my coffee. (No physical sensation or taste)

My cousin starts texting me while I am walking and though I cant read the words I seem to think that I know what we are saying to each other.

Suddenly, I am in my living room on the floor next to the couch. I still have my coffee in my hand but I am not really drinking it. I am in contemplation and I feel something is off. I am drinking more caffeine? This isn't a good idea if I am going to go back to bed and try to get lucid. SHIT! I should always RC after any awakening I do a nose plug but don't really put thought into it. I don't even know if I blew threw or not. Then, I hear someone going out the front door. It's my wife. She tells me that she is going outside to get something and I can hear the keys jingle in her hand. No. She should be asleep. That's not like her at this hour. I AM dreaming! I walk to the front door and remember to pause and take in the detail. I look at the door and notice it is very different than waking reality. There is a large window in the middle of it. It's wooden and the paint is weathered and peeling off. Then I forget this and rush outside because all I want to do is get in the TARDIS.

Outside the air is cold. Always the air is cold in lucids. Why is this? I enjoy the feeling of it, but I begin to notice that I feel really odd like I have a head cold and there is cloth wrapped around my head, chin to top. It feels heavy and I try to ignore it. I wonder if something is happening to my body in bed. I suddenly feel myself lying on my back and there is nothing on my head now. No don't want to do that. I focus and continue to walking with no other distraction. There is a street lamp to the right and void to the left. I let control slip a bit and just allow myself to wander in a random direction believing I will go straight to the TARDIS. I realize that I am walking barefoot but this time I feel like I am wearing shorts with a hoodie instead of the usual underwear only. Suddenly, I feel a sharp and realistic pain in my left foot and assume I stepped on a peddle on the sidewalk. I let out a whispered, "Ouch!" And grab my foot for a moment. I am shocked at the vividness of the pain but quickly put it out of my mind. I come around to the driveway side of the house and stop. I think it should be appearing now and can faintly hear that unique sound of it's engines. I get several brief and dim images of the TARDIS spinning in flight and appearing in various positions in my driveway. Suddenly, I hear the explosion of a gunshot from somewhere behind me. My physical body jerks in reaction to the sound and the dream breaks apart waking me up.

Mirror:

#217 - DILD - 4:29AM

I hear my son crying and my wife gets up. The light is on but I have a blanket over my face and lying on my left side. I try not to move because I think I am trying to WILD and I am still in the same position that I laid down. Something feels odd. I can feel the air of the ceiling fan on my face and my breath is not obstructed in the least bit. Then, I hear an electronic robotic buzzing sound from behind me and the blankets vibrate like a strong wind is blowing. I immediately know that I am dreaming and do not feel frightened. The sound stops.

I get up and am in the kitchen. I see my wife standing there in the doorway looking very sexy. I grab her and we passionately kiss like its the first time. After a moment, I remember my task and let her go. We can do this later. There is a coffee pot full of coffee on the edge of the sink. I laugh. What is it with coffee in my dreams? I spend several minutes aimlessly searching the house for the TARDIS but don't have any real focus.

Then, I see the front door, but it's not a door at all. It's a large mirror. I run to it intending to dive head first. I pass a DC. Was it my daughter? She says something but I am focused on the mirror. I can see my reflection as I get closer. There are two of me but for some reason I think it's normal. Then, as I dive there is no reflection and I focus on reaching beyond. I get stuck at the waist for a second and wiggle through. I stand up and realize that I went from a very clean and tidy version of my house to a very dirty and messy version of my house. I look around still trying to find a TARDIS but suddenly, the dream collapses.

I try to DEILD but find myself stuck in bed. I realize my head is floating and not touching the pillow. I roll into the floor and stop. I am in another bed with my head floating. I roll again, fall once more and stop on the floor. I suddenly wake up.

Fridge:

#218 - DEILD? - 4:47AM

I either wake up or have a FA. I berate myself for letting awareness slip again. I mantra, "I am dreaming." but suddenly realize that I either I never really woke up or I went straight into a DEILD. I say, "I am still dreaming." (from the times maybe there was not so much a gap after all.)

I am in the kitchen again. No... a different kitchen. I see a very large fridge and decide to turn it into a TARDIS . There only seems to be one light source in the middle of the room and the area the around fridge is cast in deep shadow. Feeling the fridge, I circle around it into the void phasing past cabinets and walls. I am blind now but my physical sensation is vivid. I imaging how the outside of the TARDIS should feel and it quickly takes shape. When I think I have it, I open my eyes. The sensation of my eyelids feels startlingly real. I pause a moment but realize I am hugging a huge blue box.

I excitedly step back but it just looks like some wardrobe with solid wood doors painted TARDIS blue. I become annoyed and obsessed with getting it at least somewhat right. I spin the front around and try again. I just want to see "Police Call Box" on the front before I go in. When I spin it back around there is some cheap ass black label with white random letters on it. Something catches my eyes and I look left. There is the damned Police Call Box sign handing from the ceiling above the kitchen sink.

I decide to let that go and turn my attention back to this half formed TARDIS. To my dismay, the blue box has turned to a type of plastic cardboard. I try to straighten it out and shape it back into a box but not matter what I do, the entire process is clumsy and the material becomes increasingly floppy and weak. I stop and realize the humor it in all. I take a moment and just laugh at it. Then I let out a mocking "WHOOOOHOOO!" I enjoy the sound of my dream voice and shout out again. Laughing I say something Doctor Who-ish, "Dumbily-Wumbily." I just laugh at myself and suddenly wake up.


The next time I wake is around 7:50AM with no other recall. For some reason I thought I had 4 lucids. The feeling of forgetting something is maddening!

I'm typing this with zero proof reading. Sorry.

#215 - 3:59 - DILD/DEILD

I have two episodes of the vibes but I have no memory of what happened after it.

I am at work but my workstation is outside. I feel tired and think I should ask for vacation. My wife is someplace around but I can't find her so I wonder inside to see if she is there. I feel like she works there with me.

I end up in the bathroom and pee at the urinal. I suddenly hear her my wifes voice from someplace in the restroom. She says, "Hey, wait."
I say, "Okay." I turn to her and follow her out of the men's room. "Hey, would you care if I take a vacation day today?"
She says, "No."
I feel bad leaving her at work and going home. "Are you sure."
Her reply, "No. No. No." It's like she is stuck on repeat. I feel this is very dream like but I don't catch on just yet.

I look for my boss and see she is talking to someone so I wait a moment. My wife comes up to me and we make out a long time. I finally push her away and tell her there are people looking. I look for a vacation form but everything becomes distorted and I and see what I am doing. I become lucid and find myself in the void. A part of me hopes that I got my vacation day but I quickly realize that doesn't make sense.

I have a long and tedious episode of SP. I try many things to get the dream going but I am hopelessly paralyzed in my bed. At one point I hold my hands out to see them and accidentally open my real eyes. (I think) I see the moon like casting a shadow of the mini-blinds on the wall of the room but become surprised that I can see an unfocused silhouette of my hands. I assume its the hallucination of SP and close my eyes.

After trying every trick in the book I begin focusing on my goal of finding the TARDIS. I begin feeling and visualizing the outside of the blue wooden box. Before too long I can see the blue of it but it becomes a part of my house that leads to the back bathroom. I realize that I have been pounding out a beat with my hands. It is the same 4 beat pattern of The Master Beat. (Whovians with know this) I stop myself amused.

Suddenly the kitchen comes into full light and color on my left. My wife has been cooking and I smell something delicious. I wander over just in time to see her pull a baking sheet of nachos out of the oven. I take a bite and the taste is like Mexican style pizza. I find it very delicious and eat some more then stop myself. I am curious whats outside and step out the back door but not all the way. I still want to try to turn this room into an actual TARDIS. I note the back yard looks a little odd like the color is off. The air is cool and the ground is wet. The sky looks overcast.

I go back to the blue area of my house and open the door to the bathroom really trying to imagine the inside of the TARDIS. All that is in there is dark void. I jump back out rubbing my hands trying to think of a second task but my mind is blank. The view of the kitchen is now fading. I wake up.

I have another non lucid dream later with Wurlman in it. We are sitting on some bleachers. I am with my wife and he is with is girlfriend in-front of us. It looks like some zoo exhibit with lions. Wurlman gets nervous but I tell her its ok because I saw a picture on Reddit where a lion was licking a wiener dog. I felt sure these lions were just as friendly.

Then I see a huge pile of fried chicken and the lions attack it like their last meal. I laugh a little. When I look back in front of us I see huge elephants bounds in chains in a cage. The announcer says some words and the elephant's cage begin to descend into the ground. As I watch I wonder what the elephants perspective is and suddenly I an in a dark elevator with Wurlman both lying on our backs. When the elevator stops we are forced to crawl through tunnels. I hear the announcer and I know that we were chosen to fight the lions. Wurlman suddenly stops and backs out. He says something about not not fitting. I try it and become very claustrophobic. We both complain about it and bail out.

We make our way back to the grounds and my wife is so ashamed of me that she will not speak to me. I see Wurlman talking to his girlfriend and she doesn't seem happy either. Then the circus man floats out on a cloud, waves his hands and clouds form on the ground. I take a chunk of it and toss it up in the air. It slowly floats down like a balloon and we all take turns batting at it to keep it up. I wake up.

DILD - Semi-lucid/lucid

I am driving a public transit bus. I feel unsure of my route and wonder why I am doing this. I look around and see that I have several identical maps of the area with my route marked in red. The top of the map says: RED ROUTE I have a hard time making sense of the map since my route is a straight line with a few intermittent side roads. I keep thinking that I should be following a loop. I feel uncertain about the whole thing but keep on driving. I look to see if I have any passengers and see my older daughter in the back. She says something to me.

I realize as I am driving that the first the bus was a manual transmission but now I am on some sort of stationary bike at the driver seat. Instead of pushing the gas peddle I have to move bike peddles. I mentally switch to gas power but the bus stops moving until I cycle my legs again. I realize this shouldn't be happening but I know this is not real and it doesn't matter.

I keep missing stops and have to quickly pull over to let people on. Some seem aggravated at me and other don't mind having to run behind the bus a little. I feel uncertain where I am taking people and weather I will stop at the correct stops. Again I realize this is not real and as long as I believe I am going right, I will be.

Now I come to an off-road area and feel hopelessly lost. Efrain tells me where I should go but we get on some crazy muddy dirt roads. We hit a huge puddle and water splashes my face. I know this shouldn't have happened but I realize it's all fake anyway. At one point we come through a narrow zigzag pass in-between bluffs. I "feel" the bus stretch and morph to fit though. We continue on and begin driving on docks. I feel this has gone horribly wrong so I use a type of TK to move be bus back on a normal road.

Now I am sitting on a hardwood floor. Ron is stalking to someone about the mice getting away again. There is a small cubby with mouse pads speckled with dirt and hair. Someone says something about the mice taking towels with them. I see a spider web with a normal looking spider on it. As the spider moves I see points of light at the end of its legs. I become fully lucid now and think, dream sign! I do a nose plug and blow through but my sinuses feel clogged.

The dream goes dark and I feel that I am awake lying in bed. I blow out my mouth and then my nose. I realize at that point that I am still holding my nose. I try to move but my physical body jerks hard. I wait trying hold on to the dream state

I am fooled by a FA and my daughter brings my son onto the bed and leaves. This wakes my wife up and she gets annoyed. I realize she has gone to work but when I try to move I wake up.

#214 - 4:41AM - DILD

I am working at my old plant before we moved. I realize this and become lucid. I look around and notice that there are no people and it is only partially lit. I guess that I must have got here before anyone else. I remember the place was haunted in waking life and decide that maybe I was the ghost all along. I decide to make a mess of the place but I have become ethereal. I manage to turn over a table but only with great concentration. I then proceed to make a mess of the things on my old supervisors desk.

Then people arrive and they comment on the mess I made but they don't seem to notice me. I enjoy this idea and scream and shout at them trying to scare them with ghostly sounds. It seems they can't hear me either. I turn to see the mess I made on the desk but there is now a large hardcover book about lucid dreaming. The title has the words, "Lucid Dreaming" in it then something else. I try to read it but the text become long and confusing. I get the gist about it saying something about how science and church can come together to bring the joy of lucidity to everyone putting away all misconceptions about it. It all seems confusing and kind of boring and I go back to being a bad spook. I run at my old lead shouting and roaring. As I crash into her I get the random idea to grab her right boob. The scene goes briefly dark.

I focus and the scene comes back. I see, Bradley, a kid I knew a long time ago. I try talking to him but when he ignores me I bite his ear. There was no response so I start sucking on it. He just keeps walking with me latched to him like a leech. I follow him into the break room when I then realize that he seems incredible sad. I say, "Bradley! Why are you so sad? I was just messing with you. I didn't mean anything." He looks like he is about to cry and I put my arms out to him. We hug and I comfort him. The dream goes dark again.

I think I am wake but can feel myself standing and sitting on the counter-top. I try to DJ buy my device looks like a stupid calculator. I realize it a dream and put it away. Before I can do anything else, I wake up for real.

#213 - 3:50AM - DEILD

I remember a DEILD with vibrations just before this one but I either fell non-lucid or I didn't wake up all the way after. Either way I forgot it. I had a lot of issues all night trying to DJ while I was still dreaming.

I DEILD from a NLD about getting naked in a robe with my wife but someone that looked like Robin from HIMYM kept bothering us.

The vibrations hit and I mantra this time to remind myself to hold on to lucidity. I am suddenly running out a back door and onto a shipping dock for trucks. I run into an alley and past a big dumpster. For some reason I had started counting but let it go at 13. I begin looking for the TARDIS again but don't see it anywhere. I enjoy the feeling of fast effortless running I look up and see bright stars in early dawn. The are feels cold but I enjoy it because I felt hot in the last dream. I make my way around the building I came out of and see large skyscrapers lit up in the dim early morning light. For some reason I think its a hospital and that I had built them. I suddenly become winded and tired. I stop and pant while admiring my work. The scene goes dark and I try to DJ but realize I am not wake yet. I begin to start remembering the other lucid I forgot but I suddenly wake up.

#212 - 2:31AM - DEILD

I wake from some dream and DEILD. Almost immediately, I have a false awakening and find myself lying on some raised bed in what looks like a mobile trailer with other test subjects around me. The scene is similar to a mobile blood drive with donors but I already "know" that we are going a Galantamine study. Then, I see a hand come in front of me from my right and I instinctively shake it. I turn to see who it is and am shocked to see Wurlman smiling at me, "Hi. I am David."
I tell him that I know who he is and I immediately think that I have to be dreaming. I say, "This has to be a dream... We are dreaming." Wurlman just laughs with delight and says, "Yep!"
I say, "Shit dude! You did it!" I am so glad that he is lucid too.
He smile again, "Yep!"

I look around at the other people and want to do tell them all that this is a dream but I become nervous that maybe we are not really dreaming yet and I will just make a fool of myself. So, I do the ol' nose plug and blow through. I stand up, "OK. Everyone. This is a dream. None of you exist." I catch eyes with one younger large build man. He rolls is eyes at me shakes his head. I find that mildly interesting but have no desire to talk to him. I turn to Wurlman, "Well, let's go." As we step outside say, "Shit niggy. We got lucid." We both laugh and I pat Wurlman on the back.

It is night time and I look up. We seem to be in the country with very little light pollution and the stars shine bright and numerous. I say something like, "Wow look at the stars." Then remember I had a task to do (Go to Hell in the TARDIS). Since it's dark I feel the need for a light source before we continue. I pull out my phone and fiddle with it to try and get the LED on. For some reason it wont work. Wurlman, nudges me and says, "Dude look." He reaches down beside him and blind summons a flashlight. He seems to be holding nothing but there is a light beam wherever he points his cupped hand. I realize what he is doing and do the same thing. There are now two light beams lighting our way. Feeling satisfied I say, "Well do you wanna go to Hell with me?"
Wurlman seems totally shocked at this statement, "What?!?!"
I try to cover it up, "I mean, I have a TARDIS. It's just right around the other side of the trailer.

I lead the way with out further comment and we walk around. There is a flat bed trailer with a blue box strapped to it. A street lamp casts it into silhouette but I can see that the box looks more like a port-o-potty than a TARDIS. I try to ignore this fact and continue on anyway. We step in and I am disappointed that the inside looks just like a plastic port-o-potty. I say, "AAHHH! It not bigger on the inside." I push on the walls hoping something would happen but it just feels plastic. I turn to the door and back again trying to picture the inside of the TARDIS. Nothing changes. Then I open the doors to leave and see a TARDIS console siting in the open under the street lamp. It looks a lot like the junk TARDIS from "The Doctors Wife" episode.



I excitedly run toward it but the dream goes dark and I wake up.

set the alarm for 3:00AM (5 hours sleep) but I was way too tired for a WBTB or to even to do any induction this morning. So all I did was go pee and then straight to bed and repeated a mantra. "I will remember my dreams and know that I am dreaming." I probably got only 3 or 4 repeats before passing out.

#211 - 4:08AM - DILD

I have a false awakening in a recliner and look around. I see that I am in the first house I bought with my ex but there is only one DC in the room. My brother is taking apart a old bookcase or entertainment center with a hammer. The piece of furniture looks like is it made of old and weathered 1x4. I am confused that my brother came to visit me. I have no memory of is planned visit from Texas and become even more confused whats going on. I stand up and speak to my brother, "Hey, Tim. What are you doing?"
He replies, "Nothing. It's just a dream."
At first I feel embarrassed and think that he is just making fun of me for my lucid dreaming. He called me a hippie once in waking life and I feel like he's just messing with me again. I say, "Oh funny. I mean why are you here?" If he answered I can't remember because I suddenly have to know what time it is. I look behind me and see a oven with a clock. The time is 23:01. We never use military time and I let out a confused, "Whaaat?"
Tim looks at me, "I told you this was a dream." This is getting really silly so I do a nose plug but my breathing feels obstructed.

I look around and see that house looks different in a lot of ways. Tim is now doing something with a sheet of Sheetrock. As I stare blankly at him I realize the whole process is really distorted and odd. I decide I better make a more through RC and really try to blow through the nose plug this time. The RC proves I am dreaming but I do one more nose plug to be sure. I realize that my sinus feel slightly clogged and figure that's why I didn't quite pass the RC the first time. I say to my brother, "Oh wow this is a dream! I'm such a dipstick."
"Suck shit, dick-shit-dipstick." was his only reply. From some reason I find this to be completely hilarious and laugh my ass off at him for a moment. After I collect myself, I repeat the phrase back to him to be sure I can remember it when I wake up. While I do so I look over at a woman who is staring at me. I think it must be my wife but I ignore her and turn back to my brother but he has now vanished. I look throughout the house, "Dude where'd you go?" I call his name several times but quickly decide to let it go. "By the way, I totally believed you the first time." (lie) "Thanks though. Thanks Tim." I feel grateful to him for getting me lucid. But wait, that probably wasn't Tim. That was actually a part of me. I call out one more time, "Thanks subC!"

I see the front door and decide its adventure time. I try to think of a goal I had but I draw a blank. I become afraid that I am waking up and try to maintain. I calm myself and reach for the doorknob wondering what will be out there waiting for me. Suddenly, I hear my son crying out and feel the bed move as my wife gets up.

#210 - 7:05AM - DEILD

My wife wake me up around 6:30am when she leaving for work. I decide it's time to really take advantage of sleeping in and set my intentions. I try to WILD but I am still too tired. Later I awaken from a NLD that I can't remember and just try to DEILD.

The first thing I notice is the sound of the fan cutting out completely and then the shift from my physical body to my dream body. I feel completely ethereal and light. After that, I get the vibrations. I try my usual way of "physically" exiting bed but lately I just can't get that to work so I try visualization. I try running and it feels good but nothing will form. I try seeing the back of my eyelids but I notice the morning light too much. Then I try seeing my hands and it helps but not quite enough. Then, I realize that I am putting too much attention to the blindness. I let go of it and I see the top of a door way. I do a few chin ups on it concentrating only on the task at hand.

The dream clears up and I walk out the front door. I immediately feel the cold of the concrete on my bare feet. The air feels very cold and my upper-body becomes cold. I realize I am only wearing pants. I tell myself that it is summer and should be warm. The cold vanishes and I continue on. What will the dream bring me this time? I scan the neighborhood for anything unusual. Nothing really get my attention so I start jogging but at that moment I see out next-door neighbor's car and decide to drive. As I approach it, it morphs from sedan to van. I hop in and don't even bother trying to start it. I just grab the old steering wheel gear shift and slam it in reverse and hit the gas. When I get out of the driveway and slam it to drive, the car stalls for a second and dies. I refuse to believe it and I push the gas all the way down. After a moment I am speeding off through the neighbor hood.

I begin to think of a destination and wonder if I could drive to Hell. Along the way I see metal buildings with one marked "Hell" on it. I decide this isn't going to be good enough so I pass it by and think about the Great Wall of China again. The surroundings turn from busy traffic and commercial buildings to wide open countryside. I fell like I need to get off the road to find the Great Wall. I pull up on the steering wheel and shout, "FLYYYYY!" For a moment all I can see is blue sky and clouds. Nope, too high. Think hovercraft. The front of the car comes back down and dissolves. Now I am zoom flying over grassy fields and dense forests searching for the Great Wall. I am enjoying the speed and the low altitude flight when the dream comes to a halt. I then awaken in reserve order of the DEILD. Darkness, back to physical body, the fan returns, and I open my eyes.

#209 - 4:57AM - DILD

I am chasing Erica with a van. Though I don't realize it, the dream looks a lot like inFamous. I am controlling the vehicle with my wedding ring. When I spin the ring up the van goes forward, down backward. When I tilt my ring toward my finger tip the van turns right, toward the knuckle it turns left. I maneuver through thick traffic and realize I am driving backward. I get the feeling that my wife and kids are actually in the van. I also see a radar on the bottom right corner of the screen with a red dot representing the location of Erica. When I turn the van the right way I see the she went through a pedestrian only sidewalk that leads under a bridge then the red dot vanishes. I run under the bridge and everything looks like the San Antonio River Walk with no people around.

I am now sitting in some house crying. I think that she took my son and I will never see him again. After some time I see my son crawl past me. I pick him up and hug him and feel a huge relief. I assume it wasn't my son she took but someone elses. I tell my daughters and wife that I don't know why I was crying and made some excuse about being tired. I felt too embarrassed to say what I was really thinking.

Then I have an FA at the Luling house. As I walk into the bathroom, the change of scenery gets me thinking. I look around and notice how different everything looks from my memory of the place. I suddenly realize this is a dream but I do several nose plugs to be sure.

Then, I am fooled by another FA still in the Luling house. I look at the clock and see it is after 6am. I say, "Oh well, I guess I'll just be late for work." I try to DJ my dream real fast with several devices but none of them will turn on. I realize this is a dream sign and become lucid again.

I fall back into SP and feel stuck in bed. I start spinning and find myself standing up. I feel trapped to the room but see my dad and brother talking. My brother is sitting in a recliner while my dad is standing in front of him giving a lecture. I don't really care what they are saying and I start thinking of a way to get the dream stable though it already is. For some reason I think that I am still in SP. I worry about what time it is and hope that I can wake up soon to see the clock.

As I wait, I begin pacing back and forth singing a song but I can't seem to get any lyrics right. Then I resort to beatboxing. My dad becomes annoyed and shouts something about my interrupting his conversation. I just ignore him and continue. As first, my beatboxing sounds just as crappy as walking life but after a moment I sound pretty legit. I spend a few minutes enjoying this before I suddenly wake up.

#208 - 3:43AM - DEILD

I have a dream that feels really long and I forgot the first part. I also wake with a feeling that I forgot a huge lucid segment. There are some strange kids that I don't know in my house and my younger daughter is Skyping on my Galaxy Player with some woman who I assume does a children's TV show. I help her record as she is talking to the woman about something I can't remember. When she is done, I find an option to save all the video. I think I will edit the parts where my face and voice got in it later.

I see my mom on the couch and I start to tell her about the lucid dream I had earlier. She interrupts me with some silly word or noise indicating that she doesn't want to hear it and thinking about the ending I decide maybe I should keep it to myself.

I walk into the kitchen and see some strange cooking device like a oversized toaster oven with something yummy inside. I can smell it and I begin to feel hungry. I turn around and walk back into the living room thinking about how I only had one lucid dream and feel really shocked that I didn't have another. Suddenly it dawns on me that I never woke up a second time. For a way to RC, I jump and take a swipe at the ceiling near the fan. The gravity is all wrong and I know I am dreaming. I wake up immediately.

I lay still and DEILD watching intense hypnagogia. I imagine being Spiderman and I get butterflies in my stomach as I swing.

I find myself sitting in my old Saturn parked at a jacked up angle in my ex-in-laws driveway. When I see thier van try to pull in and then have to park on the road, I say, "Shit." and quickly straighten the car up. The girls hope in and I glare at thier grandparents as I drive away. I remember my goal to turn into Spiderman and I ask the girls if they want to go downtown. I here then simultaneously yell, "Yeah!" and continue driving with the intent of arriving where the taller building are.

Suddenly, I am pulling into the driveway of my house and for some reason I just follow the motions of going inside while holding my son. We wonder around and I notice there is now an upstairs. We all go up there and there are duplicates of the bedrooms down stairs. As I walk around I really think this is all more hypnagogia and I hope the real dream starts soon. ( I was wrong here) Then, I think of the last Dr Who episode I watched and think this all must be a perception field. I decide we better get doing and head back down. As I do, I remember my Spiderman task once again. I say, "Hey, do ya'll want to be... um... Spiderpeople?" I hear another resounding, "Yeah!" and we make our way outside.

Instead of looking for tall buildings, I just start climbing up the walls of my porch. I remember the felling of that one LD I had and think of gravity shifting to where I want it. I crawl up the side and to the ceiling but halfway across I feel odd that I am upside down and I fall. Then, I jump up to the roof of the porch but struggle a bit to pull myself up. The only thing I have to shoot a web at is the gabble to the attic in front of me. I turn my palm up, pull my two middle fingers back and give a flick at my wrist. I literally feel something shoot out and see the web stick to the side of the house. Then, I hold on to it like a rope and swing a little but come back around to the side of the house landing way too hard.

Suddenly, I hear the alarm clock and think it's real. I sit up and see some construction worker or maintenance man doing something to my dresser. Instead of hitting snooze he turns the alarm off completely. I hear him mutter something to another man about how he gets tired of people yelling at him to hit the snooze button. I wake up.

WBTB at 1:30.

#207 - 2:25AM - DILD

I am trying to get to sleep but can't seem to. I look at the clock and see it is unplugged. I worry about the time and if I will be able to wake up in time for work. I pick up my galaxy player and try to set an alarm with that but I can't seem to focus my eyes to see. I feel so sleepy and drugged and I get up for a moment not knowing why. I see my son asleep in his exersaucer slumped over. I feel bad for him and put him in bed with me holding close enjoying the moment. For some reason my wife is not there and I am in the Luling house. I don't think it's odd.

I wake up to SP and try to transition multiple times but I can't see and feel wobbly and unbalanced. At some point I roll onto the floor and put my head down into the ground. I worry that I will have an OpheliaBlue experience there (Q&A2 podcast) so I quickly back out. I feel my way into the living room and start rubbing the floor and walls with my hands but nothing helps.

I try the old trick of swinging a sword hoping the visuals with catch up. After awhile of nothing happening I get bored and think since everything is just physical only I may as well have sex. Now I am standing in the bedroom and I see a woman come out of the bed room in the dark. At first I think it's someone from work but then I realize it's my wife. As we have raunchy wall sex my vision become clearer and the lights come on. Her face morphs several times into different women but each time I still think of her as the same person. (Past lives?) I almost end it when I realize the dream has become stable but we are both enjoying the moment so much that I fully indulge for a while.

Afterward, I go to the bathroom. I keep hearing a voice in my mind saying, "I can deal with it." I worry about the mess I may have caused but let it go. I pause at the mirror and see my reflection making faces and flexing muscles. I really look at my face and it seems to be very distorted with a huge Jay Leno chin (or maybe it was Quagmire... giggity) . I notice something in the mirror positioned behind me and to the right. It looks like a small TV with a picture on it. It looks like a scene from Skyrim and I become interested in teleporting into it. I worry that if I turn around the TV will be gone so I dive into the mirror reaching for the image on the TV. I find myself in a familiar kitchen in a house from a dream that I had a very long time ago. I am sprawled out on the counter top amongst dirty dishes. Just before I touch the TV it morphs into a black canister. For some reason I call it a coffee pot. I stare blankly at it confused and shocked this happened. I wake up.

#206 - 4:00AM - SSILD

I am having some NLD talking to a female DC and changing clothes in front of her. I realize this doesn't make sense because the last thing I remember is rolling over to my right side doing SSILD cycles. I decide I have to be dreaming and start to wonder off but quickly remember the task. I go back into the bedroom of some version of a house I lived in once. The woman does not really look like anyone I know but I think she must be my wife. I say, "Hey, DC."
She is sitting on the edge of the bed in an all white night gown. She looks up at me and responds, "Yes?"
I quickly ask, "What is the meaning of life?"
Her answer, "Something good."
Knowing that this dream feels like it's about to collapse already, I turn away and say, "Thanks DC." I suddenly wake up.