lucid

I'm driving a younger version of my nephew Mason to go swimming. I am not sure were this place is but we are driving on 32nd street near Main. I notice this old truck (what is it with old trucks???)... probably a 80's model, driving really fast and ran one red light. We stopped. There was a second red light a few blocks down and the truck stops on a dime. I look at Mason all like WTF? It totally looks like time just froze. I tell Mason there is no way he stopped that fast.Then it dawns on me what's going on here.

I say, "This is a dream." I realize I'm driving him in our new Dodge as I look around a bit. Mason says hey, "We have a car to keep up with people."
Confused, I say, "Huh?"
"You know. Bigger engine. That truck is fast but we could catch them."
"Well this IS a dream. I could just take you swimming like we planned or we can turn this into a car chase."
Mason looks confused, "What did you say?"
I realize my tongue got thick and I was having trouble speaking clearly. I slow down and repeat myself. "We can chase him or we can go swimming. It's up to you."
"BOTH!"
I realize I was working on a 30min limit. "No. I'll be waking up soon. We won't have time. I think I'll just take you swimming. That was the plan."
Then I start thinking about how to keep the dream interesting during the rest of the ride.
I remember something and look at Mason, "DUUUUUUDE. TASK OF THE MONTH!"
Mason seems disinterested. I look around wildly and feel the dream destabilize a bit. I calm down and look at the steering wheel thinking. Was it grant a DC a wish? No that was last month. Make a diamond! Well I'm driving. OOH. Draw what happens next!

I reach up to the glass (basic summon) pretending I have something in my left hand to draw with. I feel the dream starting to darken so hurry. I make a white stick figure with a simple wavy line through it like water. There. We're going swimming.

I wake to FA and get on DV to talk to CL then as I am DJing I wake up.

Not adding this one to count since I woke immediately after lucid

4:29AM - DILD

Some kid was talking about how he ran into the street and attacked a man and killed him in his sleep. I questioned him further and eventually found out that he did it while in a lucid dream. He thought he was dreaming but it really happened in real life. I tell him that is one of my fears. Then I realize the subject and become lucid. I wake immediatly

I look at the clock. 30 min to have another LD.

WBTB 2:30-3:00 Mugwort

#160 - 3:38AM - DILD

I buy some stuff at Wal-Mart check out and am walking in the parking lot. I am following behind my father in law. I remember I was trying to WILD and this seems like a dream. I say, "This is a dream." and get immediately thrown into the void. I cycle motions but eventually wake up. I should just stick to hand rubbing. Less thinking.

I took 100 Mg b6 and 1000 Mg taurine prebed and fell asleep around 10pm

At 12:13am I woke from a lucid but was so sleepy I only entered this in DJ

"Lycid. At least.sotbingto those am ppl"

Unfortunately I have no idea what that means. I do remember an indescribable blurred image the lucid feel. I was pleased with myself but failed to commit the dream to memory. Those early REM LDs get me all the time.

At 3:19 AM I finally forced my self to do a quick WBTB.

I recall a fragment of carrying my son on my shoulders through some over grown grassy field. We reach the top of a hill and I see a run down Family video. We go inside and make some purchases.

I didn't have time to make mugwort tea since I had to get up a 5 today. I figured the effect wouldn't have time to kick in with enough dream time left over. Maybe I was overly worried. So, on a whim, I took 300mg DMAE + 200 mg B6. I recalled no other dreams though I did make several DEILD attempts all to no avail.

#159 - 5:58AM - WILD

I am labeling this one as WILD though it could have been DILD. I debated on this but it's my thought process of wondering if its just heavy HI or a full dream that did it for me. Either way a LD is a LD who cares what the first two letters are.

I had high insomnia this time and my son kept waking me out of several nearly successful WILDs. So from about 4 to well after 5:30 it was just me going back and forth. I did have heavy SP about 4:15 but I heard my wife come back in the room and I knew that as soon as she hit the bed I would be jarred out of it. Sure enough. I sort of DEILDed back in SP by focusing on the back of my neck. The vibrations slowly started up like a car having engine trouble. Then I noticed my left arm was in an awkward position so I moved it and the vibrations died way down. It still didn't feel right so I risked losing it completely by rolling over. That did it. Done. Hhhmmm. Maybe it was REM atonia that second time since I as able to move. Anyway, the actual LD was really fun but I got really dumb and derped the hell out of it. Oh well, no TOTY this night.

I am walking across a familiar street. It looks like 20th and I'm heading toward the Price Cutter in my neighborhood. I see a classic Ford truck heading towards me and I stop in the middle of the lane as if to challenge the driver.



First I think, Is this HI or a full dream? I don't think I care. As the truck gets closer I think it will probably pass through me. Then, I have doubts and briefly worry that this might be real. I try to jump over the truck at the last minute but instead of clearing it my feet plant on the grill and I can clearly see a modern day Ford symbol on the front of the hood.

The driver never slows down and my feet are stuck to the grill. I am standing on it at an impossible 45 degree angle. I let out a "WHOOOOHOOOOO!" and decided to carjack this fool so I turn around and start beating on the windshield. I notice the reflection of an overcast sky on the smooth glass and notice the dim sun behind all the clouds. I peer inside past the reflection and see the driver looks a lot like Hershel from The Walking Dead.



He's yelling something and waving me away. Probably telling me to get the hell off his truck. I punch the glass to break it but it feels solid and only cracks a little. I punch again and again. I fell like my hand should hurt but it doesn't. I examine it and all seems fine. I decide to try it from a different angle and leap over the cab into the bed. I punch the back glass only to get the same effect. Then I realize I am doing all wrong. It's like phasing. The glass isn't there. I punch again and am surprised that the glass really is gone now. The only problem is that the opening is too small to fit through. I use my right hand and grab Hershel by his shirt and pull him back hard. I use my left hand and fumble around for the button to open the driver side door. Once I get it open I let go with my right hand and reach in with my left to yank him out of the truck. We're still moving pretty fast and Hershel eats asphalt. I don't bother looking back as I jump in and get behind the wheel.

Feeling triumphant, I shout and scream as loud as I can. "WOOOOOHOOOOO! HELL YEAH! HEEEEEEHEEEEEEE!" I punch the petal to the floor and go as fast as I can. I notice that I am now on a country road with lush green pasture land and no other cars. The green is so vivid and bright that its completely surreal. I enjoy the hell out of it.

Soon I notice some MODOT signs. But instead of the usual "Buckle up. MODOT cares" bullshit, I see numbers. One sign says 160 then another says 180. Is that my speed or the speed limit? I look down at the speedometer and the needle is well over 200mph. Funny. It doesn't look like I am going that fast.



Now I feel kind of bored and start thinking about tasks. I remember that I wanted to do the China TOTY but can't figure out how to get there. I feel trapped in this truck and start thinking way too hard how to change the dream. This where I feel so stupid. In the Angles Falls dream I drove there in a truck. In the Rome dream I created a wormhole. I thought of none of this.

My deep contemplation dissolves the dream and I have a false awakening. I look over to grab my Galaxy Player and DJ but I see Stella my cat is in the room next to the bed. The cats aren't supposed to be in the room so I reach over and slap her on the back. I immediately feel bad because I think I hit her really hard. I hear her take off running on the hardwood. I can hear her thumping around from one end of the house to the other and back in the room. Ok this is kind of ridiculous. I get suspicious and reach over to slap again. I don't hit anything but I pay close attention to my movement and the feel of it.

I'm still dreaming. I look over and see Rocky from work. He has a device in his hands and wants me to tell him how to enter a dream in his DJ. I look at it but the app is unfamiliar. Then I lose my vision. I try to walk him through it from memory but I realize I don't even know what I am saying. I give up and say, "I don't know, man. I am still dreaming." He goes away.

I roll over to my back. I feel weak and my body seems really heavy like gravity is too strong. I say out loud, "I am still dreaming. I can't do it." Remember the classic Ford. Don't forget the dream. Classic Ford. I worry that I will fall non-lucid and forget all of this. I wonder if I am talking in my sleep but realize I always wonder that. Still, I wait for my wife to move or wake up but nothing. I reach up in front of me and clap really hard. It feel numb. Then, for some reason, I wonder if I can summon my cat again. I think I can feel one of her front paws in my hand but it feels imagined more than summoned. I let go. I feel stuck in this dream and I really just want to make an entry in my DJ. It's all I can think about now.OK I want to wake up now and DJ

I roll over and with great effort I get up on one elbow. I have my GP in my hand but I can't see. I just need open my eyes but they wont open. I push the unlock button and put the GP up to my face to see if I can see at least some light. Nothing. I start to freak out a little now. I try to pry my eyes open with my fingers but its like I have eye lids but no opening. Its all one piece of loose flesh. I feel frantic now and I poke around noticing there is no eyeball at all.

"I am still dreaming." My voice sounds hoarse and sickly now. "I am still dreaming." I want to wake up. Jesus. Help me. A second later my physical eyes open.

I know I was confused and it was turning nightmarish but, Damn what a fool. I should have use the lucid time for something better than trying to DJ. I just always have a fear that I will forget the dream and it gets really distracting. I've go to learn to relax and not worry so much about that.

#158 - 8:00AM - DILD

I am in my house with both of my dead grandparents. I walk into the kitchen and Papaw is having a hard time cooking something on the stove. He grunts and sloshes liquid. I hear it sizzle on the fire. He notices me and tells me to take over. I gladly obey.

There is what looks like homemade chicken noodle soup in the pot. Papaw stars messing with something at the counter behind me and too my left. I begin string the pot, looking through the door way into the living room. I see Nanny on a couch and I freeze. I think, "Wait a minute. I have dreamed this before." It feels like Deja Vu or precog. I try to think of a the dream. "No, nanny came back. She's back now. What about Papaw then?" Now I get it but I feel a little unsure and worry that they will think I am nuts, though I am 90% sure I am right.

I step halfway out of the kitchen so they both can see me clearly. I tentatively ask, "I am dreaming, aren't I?" There is no objection or scorn so I fully accept it now. I run... no I float to Nanny. For some reason, I immediately take her right foot, sit next to her on the couch, and begin massaging through her bright white sock. I note the felling of the pressure on my hands and the shape of her foot. It feels real but a little numb. It seems like Nanny is talking to me now but I am too distracted by the dream scene and begin looking around. I seem to be really nearsighted and can't see much detail. I do however, notice that Papaw is gone and the kitchen is dark but I sense that he is sitting across the room. I begin to think about the competition and wonder how I can start racking up some points in this dream. All I could think of was advanced flying. I stand up and kiss Nanny on the forehead before walking away.

I go back to the kitchen and decide to use the long stretch from there to the front door as my flight path. I stare at the door and focus on going there. In a second or two I get the weird zooming effect then WHOOOOSH! I zoom at incredible speed to the door. I hear the whirlwind sprint sound from Skyrim and I fly not only too the door but bust through it. I zoom around outside for a couple of seconds but the darkness gets me. I didn't mean to bust outside and I forget what to visualize out there.

I start DEILD by rubbing my hands vigorously and I can feel the bed shaking like last night.

Then I worry about forgetting the dream and lose all sense of touch. I quickly wake up.

#157 - 5:24AM - Alarm clock DEILD

I hold still as my wife hits the snooze button. I feel a huge grin on my face as I get instant vibrations. I have you now!

I try to transition out of bed but I find it difficult. I relax for a second only to startle myself with a loud gasping sound. It reminds me of "breathing in the chemicals" from a Imagine Dragons song. I surge forward and press into the bedroom wall. I see static like on a TV with 3 colorful blobs dancing in the center. Red blue yellow. Was that real? Am I having apnea? I can't worry about it now.

I am standing in my bedroom in darkness now. I have my eyes open and can see just fine but it's just really dark. I wonder if it is my physical eyes or dream eyes. It feels like dream eyes. This is not SP. I clumsily fumble out of my bedroom. It's odd because I am walking out but I can hear the box fan and the sound doesn't "move". I try not to focus on it and forget it almost instantly. I feel the door, open it, and step out. For some reason I aimlessly wonder into the kitchen. I hit a light switch and see a fading glow of light behind me. I turn to follow it but its gone. I wish for light and my vision is over come with it. It was like a bright light filtered through closed eye lids. Then, more darkness. I wait.

I look at my hands. They are clear and bright. I want to taste them for TOTM. I lick. Bland. I start to bite and there is only a slight pressure. I bite harder trying to break a finger off. This ended up severing well as a stabilization trick.

Suddenly, I am standing in my brightly lit dining/living room. (Our house more of an open floor plan and it's really just one room here.) I guess the light switch just took a little bit to warm up? I look around. And see a turned on TV on top of the bookcases. The image is blurry and I don't focus on it. The room is fully furnished with lots of oddities. I see some footed PJs that look like they should belong to my son. There is some sort of green and blue design on them. I stuff a "foot" into my mouth and chew. I feel like I have cotton mouth with a morning breath taste. Yuk. I feel I smack my lips in real life at this point and forget it. The PJs are gone. All of this almost wakes me up and the scene seems to jump at bit.

I am sitting in the living room floor. I think about the advanced TOTM and want to summon some coal. I reach behind my back but come up empty handed. I try again and see a small ball of dark coal about the size of a marble. Good enough. I put my hands together and feel the coal crumble like dry mud. I wait a moment and sing, "Shine bright like a diamond. Shine bright like a diamond." I open my hands expecting to see a diamond but there's nothing there.

I think about how CL sometimes asks for help from DCs but I never seem to have any. I look around and see my son lying sideways in the recliner. Hes smiling and cooing at me. I smile back and say, "Hey buddy." I mentally ask him if he has any coal and hold my hand out. Me puts his hand in mine but there is no coal. He seems confused. We try again but nothing happens. I give up and turn around.

My parents old cabinet TV is setting were my entertainment center should be. I see that it is turned on and I hear Wade from sliders talking. She is standing on a dark street corner with Quinn and Rembrandt. I jump back, "Ohhh Sliders!" Without thinking I put both feet in the TV and the screen turns into a "Sliders wormhole". I pause and step out. Do want to enter that scene or make my own wormhole? I hear Wades voice again and I decide that I'd like to properly meet the Sliders crew. I kneel before the TV and slowly put my hands into the screen. I feel a little resistance but all goes fine. The screen is still displaying a wormhole and I can hear the electric noise of it. I am up to my elbows now. I pause, put my head in, and roll forward. There is darkness but I can still hear wade talking. I use my OBE technique and plant my feet solid. I feel like I grow from the ground up; from nothingness into my full self. I can faintly see the 3 of them. The professor is not there. Wade turns to me. I can see her face clearly now. She is surprised and says, "Hey! Who's that guy? The other two look at me in with mild curiosity. The dream fades to black.

I DELID by rubbing my hands.

I feel myself lying in bed with vibrations. I am not sure if I am really rubbing my hands because I am rubbing so vigorously that the bed is shaking. I have to assume it's fake. If it's not, then oh well it's about time to get up anyway. I listen and wonder how soon the alarm will go off again. I don't feel very grounded so I decide roll around in the bed. I smile and laugh at the dizzying sensation. Soon I can see something.

I am lying in a bag of Fritos and I can hear a voice that sounds very much like a commercial. I think, "I'm in a Fritos commercial?" I laugh and start munching on the giant me-sized Fritos. Each one is about as long as I am. I note the crunch and the taste. My mouth seems a little numb like I've recently received Novocain and the taste seems very salty. I roll around in the bottom of the bag munching away until its empty. When I am done, I look up and notice the bag is sealed. I envision a giant plastic clip on top and wonder how I'm to get out. I am actually a little amazed at how tiny I must be and I begin to feel very claustrophobic. I have to force the thought away and I close my eyes.

I begin to think about the time. I feel like the alarm is really close and don't want to be jolted awake. I fear that I will forget the dream. I start thinking back with difficulty but remember most of it after a few seconds. Doing this wakes me up and I open my eyes just before the alarm goes off again.

#156 - DEILD Chain - 5:31AM

I am living with my wife in one of the houses I lived in as a child in Smithville, TX. My Aunt Paula shows up at the door with my nephew Samuel. I am totally drunk and working on the furnace. I try to hide the fact that I feel dizzy and hope that I am not slurring my speech to much. I try to avoid eye contact with her and try to stay busy with the screwdriver in my hand.

She walks out of the room I am in and for some reason I follow. I notice my parents old cabinet TV right were it always was in that house and a potted Christmas tree on top. The tree catches my eye and I pause finding it odd and out of place.

I wake briefly and go for DEILD.


I never really exit the void so I start rubbing my hands vigorously. For some reason I can feel my hand are really numb. I wonder if it is my sleeping position that is doing it or if it is a dream sensation. I remember that I felt this before. I decide to ignore it because moving might ruin the dream. The more I rub my hands the less numb they feel. After a few seconds the dream plops me in my dinning room. I am shocked that I didn't have to exit my body and I can see clearly. I stare at the hardwood floor not remember what to do. I float up to the ceiling. I feel that I could control it if I wanted to and I go down a little. I think no lets see where it takes me. I purposely phase through the ceiling backwards and I create an opening more than phase. I see the floor get smaller and smaller and soon I feel the bed on my back and darkness surrounds me again.

I DEILD the same way. There is still some numbness and I shake my hands a little and that seems to help. I go back to hand rubbing.

This time I am plopped at the back door. Again I am pleased that I don't have to OBE exit and open the back door. I pause when I feel some weirdness on my right side of my face. It's like something is pressing on my face and I am only able to see out of my left eye. For some reason I feel scared. I say out loud, "Oh no you don't goddammit". And the feeling goes away.

I bound over the deck without a thought and am in my backyard. I look up and see a beautiful night sky. There are many stars, a few small clouds, I can even see a contrail. I look around some more and see a tiny full moon.

I want to do the Rome task now but the only way I can think to teleport is to feel the sand like I talked about with CL. I realize that I didn't really think this part through before hand. I get down on my knees and feel the ground. It's just grass and leaves. I think no its sand. Still grass and leaves. I try to brush the grass and leaves aside but the grass is rooted. I feel stubborn on this though, I really should give up and try something else. So, I punch down into the earth several times pulling up fists full of sand. But now I become distracted how easy it was the conjure sand and how real it all feels. Even the ground beneath me is unbelievably realistic. I soon wake up.

Again I DEILD. I roll to my back and it takes a little more time and effort this time.

I find myself laying in bed again. This time I feel more in control. Imagine a sliders wormhole above me and it appears. I allow it to suck me up but don't get to see the colorful transition. I am just plopped back in bed. I feel confused but tell myself this has to be an alternate reality.

I sit up and see my wife and some other person standing at the foot of my bed in togas. I am so totally surprised at this that I say, "Toga party!" and laugh. I get up and realize that my bed was in a large cubbyhole of sorts in a huge stone structure. I see a red velvet curtain with gold yellow trimming acting as a partition. It's tied back with a rope made of the same golden yellow material. I walk into the rest of the building and notice its dimly lit. I am excited and think how this has to be it. I realize the L-Dopa is making all of this so easy and I feel confident. I step to the right into the arena. I see the floor is white sand and the sun is so bright that the glare off the sand blinds me a little. I literally have to wait for my eyes to adjust.

As I am standing there I remember the picture I was looking at during my WBTB.
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I pretend I have a gladius and shield and stand ready. I hear the crowd cheering and laugh a little because it sounds like the cheering crowd from Pro Wrestling on the NES.

NES Pro Wrestling - YouTube

I try to see the crowd but its like they are shadowed and in darkness. I can't see anything beyond the brightly lit arena. Now I just think of the tiger and sure enough it appears. I ready myself but as I do it does from being a normal tiger to a tiger with an impossible number of teeth to the point that its face is all teeth. While, I am shocked an distracted the tiger lunges and bites my head. All I can see is its tongue and uvula as it munches on my head. It doesn't hurt or seem to do any damage. I almost give up thinking I lost but no I've come this far. I force push him way. The tiger goes soaring straight in front of me and stirs up a dust cloud. I use my Darth Vader grip and pick him up about 30 feet. I think about just ripping him in half while he is in the air and sort of see it in my minds eye. Instead, I slam him down hard creating another dust cloud. I can't see him for the dust but I don't waist anytime.

I hulk jump into the air with my gladius drawn and come down on him like Link does in the Legend of Zelda.



I stab his midsection and quickly jump off and cleanly slice his head off. I raise it up it in air for the crown. I hear another Pro-Wrestling-cheer as I stand there. At this point I lose focus and wake up.

I go ahead and try to DEILD one more time.

I find myself standing in the arena again but there are no people this time. I notice my hands are on fire and I spend some time playing with it. Again I think it must be the L-Dopa. I create a jet of wizard fire like Rand from The Wheel of Time. I do various hand motions turning the fire off and on again. I focus on remembering the feeling and technique for next time when I am not so full of L-Dopa. I soon wake up.
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There was a lot of detail in these dreams but all of them moved quickly and seemed super short. Although I enjoyed the control, I think I prefer extended play. I had high insomnia and dreamed little until later in the morning. I felt there was a huge REM rebound but was too tired to recall much or get lucid again.

#155 - 4:32AM - DILD/DEILD

I am at work with the M3 bunch. This dream version of work is a repeat thus familiar to me. We all go to break and I hang out with John, Brandon, Hobie, and Frank. After chatting it up with them I start to go back to work but Hobie tells me we are supposed to have a meeting. I sit back down next to Hobie.

As I am sitting there I realize that I am just wearing underwear. I really want at least a shirt on. I look down and I am wearing one of my blue shirts. I feel better and hope that the fact that my boxer briefs at least look a little like shorts. I try to think back were and when I took my pants off. It feels hot here but I can't believe I would just work in my underwear. I tell myself that I want to change my behavior and never do this again. I look over at Hobie and see that he is wearing jean shorts. I want to copy him and I look down again and see that my underwear have changed to jean shorts as well. I feel so relieved that I don't even think much about it.

I notice everyone is watching at TV mounted on a wall so I pay attention. It is some guy going on about cancer and soon I am there next to him. He brings out an emaciated woman who looks mostly skin and bones and talks about her having cancer. She looks familiar to me but I don't bother (Now that I think about it she looks like an ex girlfriend who was having medical issues. I wonder how shes doing now?) Soon she turns into a discolored corpse and the wheelchair takes her way. The speaker emphazies how she died and how horrible death is.

I wonder off while he is still going on about this. As I am examining a video game/ride system with a two person spacecraft. I say to myself, "Death is not the end." I get in the space ship and it closes around me. I want to play with it but think I better now just yet. I say "maybe in the next dream." Then the significance of those two statements seems to fit together. I think how reincarnation always makes me think of lucid dreaming. I become lucid.

Unfortunately, I wake in shitty SP. The vibrations are really strong and I can't move. It takes a lot of effort to touch the floor and transition out of bed. But even then I don't feel as if I am in my house. I just feel like I am running in the void. I try to imagine some scene and a dim image of something I can't remember materializes but breaks apart like glass. All the while I can see light through my eyelids and, for a second, I wonder if the bedroom light is actually on.

After some time I feel like my hands are really in the air so do a nose plug. Yep not real. I hold my hand there for a second and notice how odd my nose feels. Then it's like I can feel my physical body and my dream body at the same time. I move my hand and think I better just focus on my dream body.

I decide to try opening my eyes hoping maybe I am fulling in a dream now. I see the bedroom as it should be and I no longer feel like I am running but moving my legs in bed. I see dark shadows above me but think it looks like my hands. I pick up the pace a little and notice how real it feels but how I don't even see my legs moving. It looks like my hands are just pawing the air in the darkness. I laugh a little on the inside and close my eyes.

I try to transition again. This time I have to peel the blanket of me like its glued to my skin. Then I try moving my legs over the side of the bed but this time my actual physical leg moves and SP is over.

I do a nose plug to be sure and DJ the experience.

5:43AM - #154 - Carjacked - DILD

My wife and I are taking my older daughter to school. I see the time is 6:27AM and she needs to be there at 7AM. I am near her grandparents house and I see her great grandparents drive by us in a white SUV. My daughter needs to stop at her grandparents for something and since we are early I say OK.

For some reason we don't pull into their driveway but wait in some parking garage full of police cars. I assume it's a police station. I am talking to my wife while we wait and I realize I left the other car parked in the middle of the intersection. I decide I better go move it. When I get to it I see someone is in the driver seat making a U-turn. I run up to the car and jump in the passenger side before he can get away. I yell at him and tell him to get out of my car. He mostly ignores me. I see a cop walking near the station and I roll down the window, wave my arm to get his attention, and tell him to help me. He seems like he can't really understand me and just smiles and waves back.

I pull out my phone to call 911. I tell the carjacker that if he just leaves I won't bother calling the cops. He grumbles something and tells me I better not. I go to dial and he slaps the phone and nearly makes me drop it. I turn sideways in the car and kick him in the face. Then, I dial 911. I look up and the car is parked and the man is running away.

Dispatcher: 911. What's your emergency?
Me: Help me. He tried to steal my car. We are in CJ near the police station. I am in a White Mercury.
Dispatcher: How did it happen?
Me: Well I left it running in the street. Hurry! He's getting away!

I see the man vault over a barbed-wire fence and run into a pasture with about 10 cows. He dashes through the herd only to be clotheslined by a burly cop. There is a short fight and several other cops come to subdue him. Then, one of the cows gets riled up by all the action and begins to paw hooves at the burly cop, but he is not to be bothered. He picks the cow up with one arm and body slams it hard to the ground.

Relived, I thank the dispatcher tell her that they got him. I wait for more instruction or at least some sort of reply but the phone is silent. "Hello?" No answer. I put the phone away, step out of the car, stretch and say, "AH! Now that was a good dream."

The dream goes black and I am in the void. I say, "Oh wait! I am dreaming!" I try to bring the dream back by rubbing my hands but I feel like I am just lying in bed with my hands up in front of me. I do this for about a full minute. I begin to feel my left hand go numb like it does when I try to read or something laying down. I wonder if I am really doing this or if it is a dream. I decide it's not working and relax. I immediately feel a slight vibration but It was so brief that I think it's only just beginning. I try to wait for more but fall victim to FA.

I wake up on the dinning room table with a blanket over me. Immediately begin to recall the dream with accurate detail and begin writing with pencil and paper. I decide to only write a brief summary like I usually do on my GP.

I look at the other end of the table and see my two cats and one of my dogs all snuggled up together with their own blanket. The dog wakes up and jumps off. I look to the bedroom and see some man coming out with my wife. He looks like one of the quality engineers from work. They are chatting while he is taking photos and measurements of house. I get self conscious and annoyed that he is doing all this when I just woke up. I must look a mess here on this table. I wake up.

4:38AM - #153 - Inside The Claw Machine - DILD

I was going for WILD here but ended up with DILD.

Edit: I remeber something else. I did in fact have a WILD I just forgot it. I remember having strong HI and then something clicked and I was able to initiate the vibrations by focusing on the back of my neck. I got well into but I either fell non lucid at that point or I just forgot the dream. Damn!

I can't for the life of me remember the non lucid part as of right now and it's driving me nuts. Was it something about a cheesy bar? Some thing about my mini dachshund? Wait I think it was something about S from work going car shopping with me. Are all these right? Hmm. Anyway...

Something triggers lucidity and I know I am dreaming. The dream starts to go dark so I stare at my hands. They look zombie like and the right hand turns into something like The Penguin from Batman.

I start walking forward. I see bars of florescent lights but nothing really lights up the dream. I start licking my hands and soon find that both of then are impossibly far in my mouth. I quickly pull them out.

I don't know what happened here but the dream sort of took its own course and I just rolled with it. Literally.

Somehow I am a coin in waiting on one of those washing machine coin slots. I am totally blind but I can feel it all.



I notice the feel of body and how round and flat I am. I find it odd but amusing. I use my imagination and sort of become briefly dual in existence. I push the coin slot into the machine. I feel myself roll down and hear the coin-dropping-sound. I see some strange track with funny looking marbles on a U-shaped track that is lit up. Then, for whatever reason I decide that I am probably in a claw machine. I revert back to human form. I am crowded around with stuffed animals. All I can think of is that episode from The IT Crowd where Moss gets inside a claw machine.



I become amused at this. I mutter something like, "What the flip, Ross?" I don't think about any iPhone but I start emptying out the machine. I still can't see very well in this poor lighting but I can feel the various stuffed animals as I push them out the flap. When the machine is empty I jump forward and morph through the hole. I feel liquid at that moment and I marvel at my own shape-shifting abilities.

I am down on the floor on one knee now. I see a florescent bar going around the bottom of the claw machine. I think, "I really hope I get some light soon." Then I realized that I forgot how the dream started. I try thinking back. I know I should know it but I can't recall it.

Suddenly, I am staring into a white void. I try to focus and see DV on my computer screen. I can't see text very well, mostly just a blurry rough layout of blue and white. I briefly wonder how I was lucid dreaming while staring at the computer. Was I day dreaming? I do a nose plug and blow through. I can hardly believe it so I do it again. I know I am dreaming so I get up and leave the computer. As I do, I see a full bar of gold stars in my signature.

Now, I feel like I am laying down. I roll over and see some very fat, pockmarked faced man that looks Filipino. There seems to be red cushion walls behind him and a kitchen door that makes me think "restaurant". Something about him makes me feel like I am back in the first part of the dream. He put his hands under his chin and makes a "cutie pie" face at me. I don't know what to think at first so I move away from him. Then, I hear a laugh track like from some cheesy sitcom show. I relax a little when I know he is probably just joking.

Then, for whatever reason, I suddenly I become afraid that my lucidity is starting to slip. I think I must have startled myself all because I abruptly wake up without warning.

After the crazy WILD "The Longest SP", it takes a while to get back to sleep. But I manage. I wake from some NLD. I don't worry about recall too much and focus on DEILD. I focus on my neck and force the vibrations to start but they fade almost instantly. I should have nose plugged! I assumed I woke up. I don't remember anything until...

6:59AM - #152 - Whispers In The Dark - DILD/DEILD?

The beginning is crazy and mixed up. Basically I have several FAs and finally start doing nose plug RCs

I do a nose plug RC and try to get out of bed. I find I am on the other side of it. I try to roll out and fall clumsily to the floor. I land hard with a loud thud. I am not totally sure if I am awake or asleep but I decide to just lay still and DEILD back. Duh I never woke.

I have a FA. I am on my belly and I pick up my head. I am back in bed so I am not sure what's going on yet. I wait. Then someone touches my back. It feels like 5 finger tips digging in hard. I am not sure if I'm dreaming but I say, "Don't touch me." I still feel vibrations so I don't want to move. I just assume that I am able to talk in SP. (dream logic ) I hear a strange whispering voice in reply. I don't understand it but I just reply, "I am trying to have a lucid dream. Leave me alone, please." More strange whisperings. At some point it sounds a little like my mother but only briefly. OK something is up.

I nose plug and blow through. Huh? I can't believe it for some reason. I nose plug two or tree more times to be sure. I stand up and turn around. The room is dark but I see some strange mass on the bed. I get in the fighting mood now. I growl the words, "OK YOU BITCH! FIGHT ME!" The shape becomes more defined and I clearly see that it is Shelob!



Shelob lurches forward as do I. We clash and I come in swinging. I punch, kick, bite, gouge, and scratch. We both roll over the bed and end up on the other side. The giant spider begins to deflate and shrink in size. I lift if up and it feels about the size of a large house cat. I rip it in half and it tears like a stuffed animal. I decide that is enough. I drop it and run out of the bedroom. I slam the door behind me. I realize that I am panting and laughing like a child who has been rough housing too much. Without much thought I run outside. I laugh when the door doesn't open and I have to unlock the deadbolt.

Outside there is more light but not much. Everything is lit with moon light. The neighborhood looks normal. I check my body and feel and see that I am properly dressed for cool weather. I feel my steel toe boots are on and I feel really warm.

I look at my hands and clearly see they look normal. I find that looking at them helps me to feel stable in this poor lighting. I notice cars passing and headlight briefly lighting the scene up. But I only get to enjoy it for a second or two and it gets dark again. Actually, it gets darker than before and I have to really look hard to get the moon light back. I see some guy come out of his house. The light from inside his house has the same effect as the head lights. Ignore him and continue walking with my hands out. I think I must look like some sort of cartoonish sleepwalker. I laugh a little.

I look up and see a few stars and a slim crescent moon. I see something brighter and lower behind some trees. I crane my neck and move over a little and see that it is a second and full moon. Satisfied, I continue down the street. I really have no plan this time except for keep moving and hope the dream gets brighter. I feel pretty stable but feel like a balancing act at this point. I'm almost to the end of the block when I hear a loud cry.


I realize it is my son in waking life and I am now wide awake.

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4:41AM -#151 - Longest SP - WILD

I am counting 1 I am dreaming, 2 I am dreaming, ect. while focusing on my body. Suddenly I am gripped by intense sleep paralysis (NOT REM atonia this time)I hear a demonic cat sound and feel a presence hovering above me. The vibrations are really intense and I cannot move. I feel the entity grab my balls and the vibrations intensify there to the point of mild pain. I try to cry out but the sound is caught in my throat and it sounds like a feeble wheezing. I open my eyes and see swirling black entities like Dementors above me. I am terrified but having been here many times; I force myself to relax and stay calm. I will the entity away. Immediate calm and quite comes over me.

I do my usually getting out of bed. It's dark and I feel really dizzy. I fall backwards into the wall. I feel like I am falling into a bottomless abyss. I see the hole I entered getting farther away.

I find myself back in bed. I can't see at all now. I use my dream hands to pry my dream eyes open. My eyes do open but I can see the bedroom and the red glow of the alarm clock. I close them. I do this several times but feel like its my physical eyes. At one point I feel the ceiling fan drying my eyes out and have to blink. I try getting up again but pretty much the same thing happens again. Then again I get up. I try to phase through a wall but it's solid. I am too frazzled to think clearly. I end up back in bed.

The vibrations are so strong. I decide to wait and focus on the vibrations. I feel like I am lying in an awkward position but I am not hurting so I don't move. I realize too that my head is at the foot of the bed and I can feel the box fan on my face. I don't care. I'm in the zone. I hear my wife ask I am ok. I become annoyed and tell her, "Yes Shhhhhhh!" I wonder how I am talking in SP but just go with it. I consider the probable fact that none of this is really happening. Still, I feel the vibrations and can't really move. I get the feeling that we are in my childhood bedroom in Luling from my teenage years. The lay out just seems to match.

I think I hear my son cry and I hear and feel my wife leave the room. I just lay there in waiting. What seems like a few minutes later she comes back and gets in bed. I realize that now I am back in the right position in bed. My hands are free to move now so I reach over to feel if my wife is there. I grab the ankle of a small child. I hear someone *gasp* so I let go. Was it my son? I was surprised she brought him to bed with us. I shrug it off. I feel like I can really move my hands now. I rub them and feel my face. Super real. BUT I can still feel vibrations. I decide to just wait this one out and let the dream form.

This waiting was a really long time. I think I'm forgetting a few details but it's mostly all there. I start doing things like the Gladius swing, Walking motions, anything repetitive to maybe get something started. Nothing worked. I get really bored so I meditate for a few minutes. Then I visualize being on the beach. I see some really vivid images but its more like flickering photographs. I try to imagine my feet in the sand but its a dull sensation that quickly fades. At some point I start talking to myself. I say something like "Well Shit. Hurry up dream. I am dreaming." I say all this out loud and I wonder if my wife can hear me because it sound ultra real. I begin to think at some point that I am going to be stuck like this forever and never wake up. I think this is my idea of Hell. Then I laugh and say out loud, "Of course it won't. It will change. I just need to stay patient."
After some more waiting and fiddling about in bed I start to hear music. It's Sugar Ray's Fly but instead of "I just want to fly" it is "I just want to dance." The beat and music and vocals are very high quality. I am thankful for some entertainment right now and I feel relieved to have a distraction. I begin to sing along loudly and dance as best I can in bed. I move my arms, head and upper body in rhythm to the music. It begins to feel invigorating and soulful. I enjoy the hell out of it. Soon the words fade and the music begins to wind down like a slow record player.

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Then there is nothing. No physical sensation. No sound. No movement. I just wait a second and the BAM!

I find myself standing in a big open room with no furniture. The room is well lit and there is gray carpet. I look around and say, "OHHHHH WOOOOOW! THAT IS SO COOL!" The layout of the house is off but reminds me of the house we lived in Luling. I can see out the windows as there are no blinds or curtains. I see the front yard but in the distance there is a thick mist. I have a feeling that my brain hasn't finished rendering the dream yet but I feel super stable and confident. I make my way to the front door. At that point I remember how this house was "haunted" in waking life. I imagine a horrible demon coming after me as I close the door but nothing happens.

Now I am outside the lighting is a little worse. The world looks cold and gray. I walk along the front of the house on the sidewalk. I realized that I forgot what my task was. I think for a second that I really should stay inside until the dream gets more stable but I am afraid and really impatient.

I can hear something like cheering and jeering at the nearby football stadium. I feel curious but I have something in mind first. I really want to burn this house down and never visit it again. There are too many bad memories. I see my shadow projected on the side of the house. I see brown wood siding. (Brick in real life) I think that if I can start a fire there is will catch and be gone. I do the clapping motion that I used for the fireworks TOTM. I hear a loud sound of fire like a flame thrower but only see a small flame on my shadow like a cigarette lighter. I try several times but only see and hear the same. Then I hold my hand up still looking at my shadow. I see handcuffs and a chain coming off it. I note this but ignore it for. The crowd at the stadium is jeering loudly now. (Damn I could have turned that into the Colosseum if I thought about it) I tell myself I will investigate in a minute. I really want to get the fire trick down. I focus on the palm of my hand. I see a glowing ball form. I stare at it and focus longer and harder.

Then, I am suddenly awake. NOOOOOOO!

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4:30AM - Church Politics - NLD

There was something about church politics. An angry mob. I closed the doors to project those inside. They peopled didn't care about me so I did all I could to keep them out. I tried to lock a set of double wooden doors but someone got through. It was my old supervisor. The one I despise to this day.

I wake briefly but go right back in the dream sort of lucid but not really. I just thought of it as a day dream even though it was a full on dream.

I see D running along side one wall. There are rows of pew between us. I run super fast along the tops of the pews and and hulk jump on top of her. I grab her by the hair and slam her into a wall. I wake up.

7:00AM - #149 Vastness and Sensations - WILD

I woke briefly to take care of little man. I felt pretty good so I went for WILD. I focus on my cheek bones and chest with "I am dreaming" as my mantra.

I see a dream form. It's this strange abstract space fight. There are no stars and I am just cruising in the darkness. It's almost video game like. I see a read view of my "ship" It's just this gray saucer section with a cylinder jutting up in the middle. There is little to no detail. Really, it just looks like a hunk of metal. I am controlling it somehow and I shoot reddish yellow phasers at another ship. I come really close to a ship that looks like the starboard bow of some titanic like ship. I wonder if I am really underwater and I think of the actual vastness of the dream scene. The feeling is overwhelming and I go into REM atonia of sorts. At the exact same time as that though process was going on, I realize this is more than hypnagogia and become lucid.

I am in my bed and I all floating and strange. I can hear the alarm clock going off but I know that it is not real as my wife already left for work and I am off today. I tell myself it's not real but wonder if some how its really going off. I tell myself to ignore it since it really doesn't matter right now. I think I want to transition out of my body but I can't this time. For some reason I feel like something has a hold of my feet. My legs are being twisted and pulled upward. I feel myself stretch like taffy. I try to control the sensation and imagine my feet going to the floor but I just can't control it this time. After about a minute of fighting I wake up.

I try to DEILD but don't get anywhere so I record in my DJ and continue WILD

7:29 - #150 - Rastafarian Baby - DILD

I am next to a dry wheat field. I go into it and think we just need rain. Immediately it begins to rain. The tops of the wheat turn bright green and form a roof over me. I see through and opening where I stepped in that it is raining very hard. There are little wheat sprouts coming out of the ground at my feet. I reach out to feel them and as soon as I touch them they begin to grow larger. I leave now because I feel my space is getting crowded.

I enter some old white farm house. (The memory is a little blurry here). I wonder around the house and find my son in two different places. Both times I check on him to make sure he's OK. The third time I find him he is in some crib. I pick him up and he turns into a "Rastafarian Baby". His skin is dark with very long dreadlocks. I become lucid and say, "I am dreaming." I put him down and turn to leave.

Before I can do anything the dream goes dark. I find myself in the void and feel the dream fading. I rub my hands together. It seems to help but not enough so I rub them impossibly fast until I feel heat from friction. My physical presence become ultra real. I touch my face and I wonder if I am really awake.

Then I feel my wife in my arms. I think that since I can't get this thing going I may as well enjoy some lucid sex. I'll leave that part out.

At one point I wonder how much of this I am going to post. Then I suddenly feel that my wife is gone. I feel my crotch and I think that I am just humping the bed in my sleep. I become confused.

I have a false awakening. I find myself on a couch in someone's living room. I see my brother and nephew on a couch across the room. My mother in a recliner to my right. There is a TV to the left. I quickly enter my dream in my DJ. I remember thinking all the way back to the wheat field and running through the whole dream in my mind. Not once do I think this could be false awakening.

I realize there is some loud music coming from behind my left ear. I think there must be a speaker mounted on the wall. My brother tells his son that they need to get going. I feel sad they are leaving so soon and I slept the morning away. Then I think the music will probably wake my wife up soon. I don't worry about it because I want her to come sit with me. At that point she walks in and says something. I get up and go into another room with her. I wake up.

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#147 Blindness and Sensations - 4:42AM - WILD\DEILD Chain

I am passively watching hypnagogia while counting mantra "1. I am dreaming. 2. I am dreaming." ect. Suddenly I notice something that seemed super real. I am holding some small plastic bag. I vividly feel it in my hand. So I pay attention to my body and the vibrations start.

I transition out of bed. The room is dark and I am half blind. I hope that eventually my vision will come to me if I just keep going. I feel drunk and have trouble walking. I stumble into the bedroom door and it feels like a cloth on my face. Instead of trying to struggle with it I decide to phase through. The door resists at first but I relax and focus on the other side verses pushing through. The door seems to pop like a bubble and I am free. The cloth lingers on my face for a few seconds. I can sort of see through the weave in the fabric and see light coming through. I slowly do a 360 and the cloth slides off me.

But now the room is dark and I am totally blind. I stumble to the front door. I have to actually unlock the dead bolt to get out this time. Once on the porch I begin to feel my physical sensations disappear and the dream fading. I really don't want to lick the cement again so I just get on my hands and knees and feel the porch. My knees hit the porch so hard it actually hurts for a second. I let my stomach touch the cement. I keep repeating "I am dreaming" Now, I think I am getting stable. I push up to look around but I still can't see. Really, I just feel like my eyes are closed but I am afraid I will open my real eyes. *Sigh* I should have tried.

I hear a car passing on the street and the road sounds wet. BTW it was raining in the waking world and I didn't know that it at the time. I though the sound was so unbelievably real that I must be sleep walking right now. I begin to worry that this is true and think how ridiculous I must look. I worry what the neighbors will think. The dream fades.

I stay still and wait for DEILD. It doesn't happen right away so I focus on the back of my neck to start the vibrations. Seconds later I am transitioning out of bed again. This time go straight to stabilizing. I press against the bedroom wall and start licking. The orange peel texture feels vivid on my tongue. Then, for some reason I get really excited (Menthol) and start kissing. Suddenly, I feel like I am kissing on a womans neck. I think, "NO!" and push away. The dream suddenly vanishes.

One more time I DEILD. I have to focus on my body again to get the vibrations. This I time I decide to wait it out and see what happens. I never transitioned out, but the physical sensations were much better than making love to a wall.

I seemed to have cycled between sensations repeating each one over and over. First, I felt a surging sensation so intense that it caught my breath. I could see a bright white light as this happened and then feel myself tilt upright to a standing position. All the while the vibrations felt like a strong wind on my body. As this was happening I got the most beautiful feeling of peace and love directed toward me. All I could think was, "I am going to dream about Heaven now."

Then that would fade and felt like I was slowly spinning on my back and levitating up and down.

At one point the cycles broke and I felt like I was sinking down into my bed and through the floor. My first thought was, "Oh God, I'm going to Hell now." Then, "Whatever, It's a dream. If I can just get this thing going I'll be fine with it." I even made a swimming motion downward until I fell like I had traveled a long way. I am still blind so I open my eyes but I see the bedroom. I look around for a long time and realize my eyes are getting dry and I need to blink. I finally close them and the previous cycles continue for a bit.

I don't know the length of time but it didn't seem super long. Maybe 10 min. Maybe less. My son is what woke me up coupled with my wife's snoring. I get back to sleep soon enough.

In the next two lucids the hypnagogia turns into a full dream but not very vivid. The colors are dingy and the physical sensations are dim. I decide to ride these out, flowing with the dreams as they are interesting from the start.


#148 - The Martian War Zone - WILD - 5:10AM

I am on my stomach and I lift my head up to look around. Two soldiers are standing on each side of me. They grab me up by my arms. The one on my left says, "Welcome back." I laugh internally at this and smile at the irony. I follow them to what looks like a mine cart on tracks. For some reason, I hear a super loud motor. As we ride, I try to ask them where we are going but the can't hear me. It looks like we are riding through a narrow rocky path. Soon, the ride stops and we get out. I hear a Star Trooper like voice say, "Maintain radio silence." So I say nothing. As I creep around, I notice how red and Mars like the terrain looks. I see a path leading downward and a small bridge that spans across a dry creek bed. I feel excited and curious now. I realize I am holding some kind of rile in my hands. I feel it more than see it. We walk around a canyon wall. The enemy is set up behind some boulders. I fire my rife and it sounds like phaser fire. But unfortunately, at that instant I wake up.

I wait to DEILD and again the hypnagogia turns into a dream scene. I am standing on some ancient stone staircase with 3 men in long flowing odd looking robes. Their robes are gray with black trim.

I almost wake up again here but I focus. Sort of a mini DEILD.

We are now standing at the top of the stairs. It's a platform that overlooks an enormous amphitheater. There are millions of people below. The man on my left is standing at a large microphone with with a large golden or brass ring around it. The diameter is probably about 18in. He begins to speak and the words sound very alien and a little like Russian. I laugh to myself as I have no idea what is going on. I wake up.

I try to continue WILD/DEILD but I lose focus now and fall into non lucid sleep for a little while. Did my REM cycle end?

#149 - I Meet My Doppelganer - 5:45AM - DILD

I am with my wife in some adult play land. There is this big thing we are on and its seems really abstract. I push this seat thing along a bar and it breaks off and falls below. There is some strange inflatable thing below with arms that reach to were we are. I jump on one and slide down to the bottom. I see the broke seat thing and the casters that feel off it. I randomly pick up a football. I notice how real it feels in my hands and that triggers lucidity. I look at my wife and say, "So, this is a lucid but it's not." I feel confused why I would say "it's not" but before I can reason this out, I see that my wife is now my double. I say, "Oh you're me!" My double just raises his eyebrows and makes a face like I am just joking around. He waves me on. I'm not buying whatever he's trying to say. I am really intrigued. It is almost like looking to a mirror but not. The feeling was so odd. I probe him some more and ask, "What are you thinking?" But before I can get any response I wake up.


6:58AM NLD

I have a FA but feel as if I was lucid before. I can't remember it, however. I get up an get in the shower. The odd thing is that instead of there being a shower in the bathroom, the bathroom is one big shower with gray stone for wall and floor tiles. I begin washing my hair in the water and notice that I have a full on arousal and I am abnormally huge. I try to ignore it but can't help to want to relive myself. I look around and see that I left the bathroom door open and worry that someone will see so I refrain. Then I wake up.

I remember another dream where I am an animal. I cheat on my dachshund wife and have babies with some other species of animal. One of the babies looks like a raccoon.

8:08AM NLD

Me, Wade, and Quinn, (The characters from Sliders) are half buried by some people. Our heads are exposed but they planted sweet peas on us. We were to be the fertilizer. Someone (I suspect it was the Professor and the Crying Man) get us out. We run away in the the cold winter night.

There are some cardboard boxes that are made to fit each one of us. One is on a picnic table and Wade jumps in it and barrel rolls off, landing smoothly on a road. The road is covered in a thick layer of snow and ice. Wade and Quinn both sled away in cardboard boxes. The road is hilly and it turns into a fast roller coaster like ride.

I check out of the story here and wander off into the woods alone armed with a crossbow. The other two vanish from memory. I hear a deep and mysterious voice say something like "The lonely hunter wanders off alone because that's what the lonely hunter does."

The scene switches back to Wade and Quinn. They come to a huge barbed wire fence with signs posted all over a gate. One part looks hand written with cardboard and marker. It says something like:

NO Ghostly Apparitions.
NO Werewolves
NO Mosters

But I took it to mean that these things are inside there.

The more official sign read:

ROAD CLOSED
This state is comprised of
80 people
DO NOT ENTER

I hear cars passing and Quinn points to another road. There is a normal "road closed" barrier but cars seems to me passing right through it like ghosts. Quinn says, "There is another road right there!" I feel like a part of the story again and I really feel like we need to enter the barbed wire area but I am also afraid of the bad guys catching up to us and think the other way will be quicker. I feel really indecisive. I wake up.

I try to reenter the same dream via DEILD. I see the sign with blue lettering clearly. This time is says there are 85 people. I focus on that but my son wakes me up again.