It's a challenge to keep a pearl of awareness constantly focused on noticing and evaluating the RC (in my case, location). I frequently notice that I have dropped the ADA "feeling" and re-established it, along with a physical RC whenever this happened, all through the day. Because in dreams location changes a lot (for me), so I'm also focusing in particular on staying highly aware through transitions (going through doors, whenever anything changes like what street I'm walking down, crossing the street, etc.). I assume the more I do it the more second nature it will become.
Like just now, several times upon waking this morning I "automatically" restored the ADA/RC location sense, which I think is a good sign .
On other news, nice sleep & dream night last night! All NDs, a variety of fairly short scenes, but the best thing is: wakings at 3:50, 6:19, 8, 9:43.
Note all the successful return to sleeps after 5 hours, 3 of them! I think my mental adjustment to not become frustrated at distractions really helped.
It took me a while to return to sleep at the 6:19 I think (or the 3:50 don't recall which), but I kept at it, kept focusing on relaxing. Eventually I got into a groove where I was quite sleepy at the 8 and 9:43, and I could have kept on sleeping but need to start my day.
Woohoo, that's the kind of sleep/dream night I want, wakings-schedule-wise. Also, *tons* of HI, just a huge bunch of it. I tried grabbing it once in a while but it still didn't work . Also felt some rocking sensations around 8h I think but I will not allow myself to "impromptu WILD", I'm focused on DILD now. I did quick mantras before falling asleep again, "the next thing I see is a dream," and "I'm dreaming," but not working hard on visualizations and not doing it for very long.
Actually quite a successful to-sleep night as I battled waking life thoughts, there are very traumatic things going on in my extended family (cousins), and I probably will be making a slightly-risky change of job soon, but I was able to let these thoughts drain out of me and focus just on relaxation and breathing "dream gas" which will "put me to sleep in seconds."
Confidence in getting back to sleep will lead to less stress and break the vicious insomnia cycle.
It's interesting: the longer I sleep, the sleeper I become upon wakings it seems, making it easier to just keep going right BTB.
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