You seem on the right path in your art of lucid dreaming!
I understand why you would feel guilty, and that it's unfair. (although you are not guilty of the injustice). But that's the mystery of life.
Can you imagine that... "despite high infant mortality and rampant disease in past millennia, not one of your countless ancestors died childless"?
It's a chess game, many pieces will fall and others will remain to appreciate the sacrifice of others.
You are justified in your feeling of guilt (emotionally, not logically) but you might be happy the day that this emotion seed grows into a plant and blooms emotions of gratefulness for the chance you had and love/empathy for those who didn't make it. And I'm sure you've already smelt the aroma of it. Your situation is unique and more substantial because of that experience, but at the same time, we're all part of this survival game. So many people have died before us, and we are still here, not because we are more worthy, but simply because it is what was given to us.
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[Edit]. I have never had this happen to me. But my brother was a few hours near death, once. It brings tears to my eyes to just think that if we had waited to go to the clinic a few more hours (it was only a behavior change), he would be gone. In my position, I obviously feel no guilt that he is still here, only gratefulness, that we live in a place and time that could save him. And I do right now, will take 5 minutes (literally) or more to transfer this emotion to you, I am very happy, that you made it.
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