Hello, I know that this may be for the newbie forum, but I'm pretty well educated in this matter and wanted more views than the other forum might present.

When I was very young, I learned about a tribe in Central/South America that put much focus on dreaming.

Shortly after, I always started to remember all of my dreams.

As time progressed, I was able to notice things like the fact I dreamed in color, felt physical pain or other sensations in dreams, etc. etc.

Then I started having lucid dreams. About 60 or 70% of the time, I was aware I was dreaming.

Within a year or so, it came close to 90%.

Now, I'm always aware I'm dreaming, I have full color, full emotional, full sensory dreams. I control them, I'm aware of them, which often makes me choose to wake up. I can wake up whenever I decide to and often do.

In many ways, I wish it wasn't like this. Because now, I'm always aware I'm dreaming, I know everything is in my mind, I know that when I start to think something, it becomes so in my dreams and it, quite frankly, makes dreaming far less fun.

I wake up all the time now because I realize what's going on every time and I eventually get bored with the dream knowing that it's fake and I choose to wake myself up.

I'm not sure what I'm asking or looking for but I know that this is beyond the typical person. I have lucid dreaming close to 100% of the time now. I have many tactics that work all the time that I created in my brain such as if I'm even wondering if I'm dreaming, than I surely am. I read a technique of trying to push your finger into a wall to see if you're dreaming and that worked. Then there is of course, the ever present feeling that things aren't right. I miss good old fashion dreaming. I hate the fact that I always, always know I'm dreaming. Nothings fun about having total control over your dreams contrary to what most would think. Pain, smells, tastes, all of it is so real except that fact that I'm always aware it's not.

Any opinions or whatever? Thanks for your input.