These days I only become lucid by false awakenings. They plague me, and for whatever reason, I can barely even move in them. It's always dark in my room, but I know it's a dream. My heart beats a little faster and I get kind of scared. I know it's a dream and I get up. But my body feels unbelievably heavy and I struggle to move. I can't even locate my dream body in my dream. I somehow manage to move, but barely. I usually try to float out of my room because my feet are too heavy and nonexistent to carry me out of my room. I can't react as if I was in real life, and my dream techniques just BARELY work. In any case, if I'm lucky enough to make it out of the room before I'm thrown into a second false awakening, I just find myself in my hallway in the dark and I can't move or control anything. I try my best to turn on a light, to walk into a light room, to think of a nice place to be, but instead I'm stuck, and usually fading by this point. I wish I could control anything, or even spin, but my dreambody is too damn heavy. I wish I could look at my hands to increase my lucidity, but it's too dark. And if anyone here has had sleep paralysis, in my lucid dreams, that's kind of how my body feels. Pressure and heavy and floating. I can't do anything and my lucid dreams are kind of well... scary.

Now, this is illogical, isn't it? I create my dreams. But I can't control them even a little. At least not false awakenings. If you think I'm a new lucid dreamer, I'm not. I taught myself to lucid dream when I was 12, and I'm now 21. The problem is that I've digressed. When I was younger I had great and interesting and amazing lucid dreams, and they weren't all false awakenings either. What is happening to me? Is there any hope for me to regain the amazing experience of having lucid dreams that aren't creepy as hell?

I'm so passionate about dreaming! But I'm getting so discouraged that I've been letting go of LDs so I can at least enjoy the richness of my regular dreams. They aren't as scary. Please, please, please help me!